whAt arE friendS f0r?

i dunnoe man.. seriously.. i cant understand the ppl around me.. even those whom have been my friends for like so many years.. all the time we've spent can be forgotten in small incidents.. yeah whatever... feel very very very X 100000000000 disappointed and depressed to know that the person whom i've treated as my best friend turned out to be like this the worse, have thought of me lidat.. couldnt she have put herself in my shoes and think from my position? haiz.. what's the meaning in life man? not just this incident but also quite a few lor.. it's like i feel that at times she only want me to listen to her rattle off with her crush and complains of ppl in her class but me, i never do that.. though i got lots of things bout HIM to share with her.. i feel that she never give me that chance.. so as time goes by i wont discuss with her about HIM already.. i see no point in it as she wont bother to listen to what i say.. HOW? to whoever is reading this.. this is really what i'm feeling now in my heart.. i feel that i've given too much in this friendship and perhaps both of us are too hot headed to give in.. but i really dunnoe how am i going to resolve this? i feel that i'm not in the wrong and so does she.. dunnoe how..:~( what are friends for if they're not there when u need them most? :~( argh.. damn it my knee's hurting again... shit. ok for the time being i'll forget bout what happened and talk bout some happier stuff.today i went out with fishy and we had delifrance for lunch.. -slurpz- super nice.. so full.. i bought lots of stuff and of course.. burnt a hole in my pocket.. be4 going home we went to ARt FrienD and i bought some D.I.Y stuff to make for aloy's bdae.. hope he likes it.. cuz i spent a lot of time making it.. hehe.. k lar i dont want to blog liao.. hands getting tired.. ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz