sigh

i'm sick.not love sick but really sick as in cough,flu and sorethroat. muhahah ok but that's the main point. the thing is. there's these two guys. i told both that i'm sick. One replied " Dont pass to me leh" and the other one said " Let's get sick together" Fine. so what now? i also dunnoe. yest when i saw his friends(before that they were apparently looking for me cuz jas heard them yelling my name) and i dunnoe him except one is my sis's friends they were like all waiting to see me la.. and my sis's friend actually said "jiu yang da ming" What's that supposed to mean sia? he's been telling his friends bout me? but for what? the day before i lent him my mp3 player and his friends thought that we had some sort of ai mei guan xi. in the past i thought so too know.. i also very confused now.. when he told me that i was like a bit shocked la but aiyah.. dunnoe leh!!!!!!!! ARGH howz? he taught me mahjong and i felt that we were like flirting on the mahjong table la.. that's very bad Daniel wont like it.. muhahaha but anywayz i think i'm just going to accept the fact that guys and girls can be good friends so.... we can too.. ciaozzzzzzzzzzzz

CNY!!!!

what is he trying to prove when he goes to buy 4D and the number is my unit number? ok la whatever maybe is my wishful thinking. damn tmr still got tuition with china boy.. sigh ciaoz.. the shitty headache is killing me!!!!

so happy¬

today is the happiest day of my life(2005) in the morning i went over to TT place to learn guitar and i learned the G chords already.. haha he said that's the easiest but when i learn it.. damn.. my fingers are super painful lor.. he say will grow some dead skin there then next time play liao wont be painful le.. but i doubt so.. haha after that we went to east coast to rollerblade.. though we dint get to sun tan but at least i learnt a little of rollerblading.. haha jasmine was holding on to me then when at the slope both of us were so confident but we end up falling and embarrassing ourselves.. haha so paisey lor.. she almost toppled over me but luckily she siam in time or else.. haha she ended up with a big bruise on her knee hahaha and today's also the first time i held hands with a guy but too bad la he's just teaching me how to rollerblade----> TT haha i guess the feeling is really different la.. although we held hands i felt that it was no big deal lor cuz he's not the one mah.. but i suddenly have this feeling that if one is in a relationship it's like carrying a burden and will be super tiring lor.. haiz.. even holding hands this kind of things will make me think of so many stuff.. really ar.. but i really had lots of fun.. after that me TT and jasmine went to far east to shop for new year clothes.. stupid TT wanted to buy new shoes but i told him say that design not nice but ppl insist on buying i wonder what his mum will say.. haha today so paisey la when i went to his house in the morning his mum was at home lor so i went to his room and dunnoe his mum will suspect that we're up to some mischief.. hahaha but please la i won't :P wahahaha really really enjoyed myself today we ate orange on the bus and i say until very loud on the bus "any fresher u have to peel it yourself" haha then got a ang moh guy look at me la.. but who cares.. after that got a few old woman boarded the bus and they look like the witches by ronald dahl? is this how u spell his name? haha dunnoe la just now news got say NTU offering 300 more vacanies for students hope i can get in successfully.. haha btw after i quit my job at MOLE and kumon i'll learn more stuff.. i feel that it enriches my life.. wahahaha ciaoz

haha

i love to hear him say " i'll call u when i reach home" hahaha make me sound so important.. :P

sian

i'm so super bored.. tmr hafta work at kumon then still got tuition with china boy.. if he's going to fang wo ge zi again they're going to get it.. i'm no pushover k.. haha whatever.. sigh..thinking about him now.. wonder if he's doing the same.. sigh* i'm supposed to acc him to highlight his hair today de but thanks to kumon i'm supposed to work till 6.15 then by the time meet liao too late ler.. haiz..all the obstacles.. lolz.. whatever he said to go cut it after CNY so still got hope la to meet up lor.. hope by the time he will still ask me..:P if not yah lor.. like what i've told sm if i dont see the guy i like.. slowly i'll forget about him but this time i dunnoe leh.. i keep having mixed feelings.. sigh* so bored going to sleep soon tmr must wake up early to go sun tanning... ciaozzzzz

shagged¬

oh my god.. so tired today morning sm came over and we went swimming after that had to go kumon to work.. almost doze off again.. damn even though we were super busy at that time.. i think something is wrong.. haha i need kopiko.. whatever.. today i got my pay at kumon.. only a measly $230 haiz.. i think it's so sad la i work there so long liao only to receive such spastic pay.. after work i had to rush to redhill to meet the JJ peeps cuz we meeting to go JR's mother's place for dinner.. so tired qiong here qiong there.. i tot we wont get to communicate today but i was wrong lor.. ever since we started on the choco enterprise.. and till the end of it i guess we had been in contact daily.. something which i look forward to.. heez :) coming thurs i'm going to acc him to have his hair highlighted and trimmed.. i think he's something wrong la.. i thought he just had his haircut though his hair is still as long as ever..:P i called him on the phone just now when we were at the coffee shop to return his call cuz just now i called him to ask for directions and i thought he had nothing to say to me.. i least expected him to say "i want to talk to u".. wahahaha though i was happy to hear that i think i embarrassed myself also la.. cuz i said bye bye almost immediately i finished what i wanted to say cuz i couldnt hear him and also partly couldnt be bothered?! i dunnoe la maybe i should just treat him like my buddy lo.. who says guys and girls can't be good friends? haha.. sat going rollerblading with the JJ peeps hope i wont paisey myself cuz i've never rollerblade before.. haha maybe will end up with scars.. whatever it is i just hope that it will be enjoyable lo.. i've learnt how to knit and he said that if i know how to knit liao and do something for him.. and now i'm wondering what present to give someone when they turn 21? gosh.. peeps out there any suggestion? maybe something cheap, good and meaningful? haha text me if u have any.. ciaozzzzzz

Perish in the name of love

i must say.. yesterday was the most memorable day of my life idunnoe la but i felt that it was lo.. for the first time in my life the guy that i had a crush on actually asked me out to buy CNY clothes.. when we were out i took a liking on a quiksilver shirtn he actually liked it too.. wahaha but too bad the smallest size theyhad is XL which is apparently too big for him.. heez.. yah lor. so we just walked around and we went to pacific plaza thinking that there are so many surf shops there maybe can find something nice but when we went there all the shops were closed liao lor.. so he suggested sitting down to think where we should go next.. haha for that moment i thought he was going to biao bai.. but please lor.. i think i'm too thick skinned to think of it that way.. ppl like me are not worthy of being in a relationship.. argh i hate myself.. but after that he suggested walking to wisma to check out the surf shop over at that side but when we walk there the shop is closed too.. so he suggested that we go drink coffee but i said drink liao wait tonight cannot sleep.. if i'm not wrong i think he asked about thrice if we should go get a cuppa but i said no la.. on one hand is i dont want to go home too late cuz i never tell mum that i'm going shopping.. she'll kill me on the other hand i dont want to be awake until 3+ even though i still did despite not drinking the coffee.. haha haiz i told xy bout it and she said maybe he wants to cosy up la but i doubt that's the case.. but come to think of it.. he's 21 this year and we've known each other for like 5 coming 6 years liao leh and this is the first time he asked me out to go shopping lor.. but when he confided in me that he's having some relationship problems with his classmate for being too popular.. haha i started thinking if he asked me out cuz his friends didn't want to go out with him.. if that's the case.. i'll be super disappointed in him.. damn.. why should my thoughts run wild lidat? :( dunnoe la so sick.. his going for haircut say that he wants to book it on fri but aiyah i dunnoe la so damn confused.. i want to know what he is thinking about.. i guess it's the same for everyone who has a crush lor.. sigh* sometimes i feel like msging him " how i wish i'm a guy so i wouldn't fall in love with you" but i think that it's super duper obvious that i'm trying to biao bai and he 100000000000% wont take me seriously de.. my goodness.. wo bu zhi dao la.. my mind's in a whirl now.. ciaozz think i'll do some knitting before i go to bed tonight.. tmr sm coming over to sun tan hope lime green wont be downstairs and that the sun would be super strong.. watch out for this corner.. haha