没有在一起的第十二天

今天, 我们一起参加了礼拜。虽然我们不应该见面的，但在不属于“情侣”身份的我们一起参加了礼拜，意义上好像和以往不同。在你的眼里，我看到了你对我们这段爱情的渴望。在我上巴士之前，因为你站在马路上很危险，我主动拉了你的手腕。没想到你却牵了我的手... ... 也只有在那时候，我真正感觉到我们的这段感情对你来说是如此的重要。虽然我也很怀念有你在我身边的日子，但我必须在这段日子中离开，让我真正确认这份感情对我来说到底是什么。我心里到底想要什么。看着身边的好朋友和老公闹翻了，还搞到要离婚，我想想清楚，你是否就是我要定终身的那个人。虽然现在说起来还是有点儿早，但毕竟我们在一起也四年多了，我们真的该想一想在未来的日子该怎么办... ... 我还有多两个半星期的时间想清楚... ...愿我能得到一个双赢的答案。

加油！

没有在一起的第八天

Today, i went shopping at JB. I guess for me, exercising and shopping makes everything feel much better. Dint really spend much only gt 2 pairs of earrings, hair conditioner and treated my feet to french pedi.. Though a part of me wanted him to drop me an sms or even a call, another part of me just wanted to enjoy all the quietness my phone is giving me. See, told you i'm so indecisive towards these. arrgh bt anyhow, since this is the break i suggested, it should be a break and not to have any contacts or whatsoever. Let me slowly find out and discover my hearts' desire.. Sat- GU JUN PYO's coming to town! woohoo~

没有在一起的第七天

这几天，虽然没有以往的那些电话和简讯，但星期六在礼拜后，我心里好像是有了一个决定。虽然如此，今天，我的心里的感受又好像不同了... ... 感觉上，我好像是不想失去这个朋友，而不是这个情人。虽然恋爱的感觉淡了，但友情的感觉却加深了。我不想放手是因为我真的还爱你吗？还是因为我不敢去面对一个人的日子？庆幸的是，我还有三个多星期的时间，好好的想清楚我心里到底要的是什么，我不想再有那种“不想有人烦”的感觉。我想找回当初选择在一起的感觉... ...

你说可能吗？

没有在一起的第五天

今天，我和他碰面了。虽然只不过是短短的五分钟，但一切的感觉好像不如以前了。再也没有期待，再也没有那种“恨不得赶快见到对方”的感觉了。感觉上好像是两个朋友碰个面罢了。临走前，我主动给了他一个拥抱，但抱在怀里的感觉也不如从前了。少了那种“不想放手”的感觉，多了“朋友”的feel。哎！我也该是时候醒醒了。我和晶晶谈了很久，她告诉我其实他为人不错，只不过是我一时鬼遮眼，头脑想歪了，她也觉得我们在一起是会很幸福的... ...


为什么自身在幸福中的我不能感受到幸福呢？是不是像他所说的，我对他人的期望太高了呢？脑子和心里想的都是一些不实际的东西？我也希望能赶快从恶梦中醒来，发现自己是幸福的。但愿我也能珍惜一切、一切的幸福。

今天的你，幸福吗？

没有在一起的第三天

我心里想要什么，我自己也不清楚... ... 我想要的真的是这样吗？那时候做的决定，现在回想起来好像没多大意义。 我应该给我们最后的一个机会吗？

没有一起的第二天

友情和爱情之间一定要我选择吗？

没有在一起的第一天

昨天晚上，我做了一个决定。这个决定是对是错，到现在我还分不清楚。今天是第一天，或许我
还没有任何很深刻的想法，但是女人都是犯贱的，拥有的却不懂得珍惜，一旦失去了，心里又好像放不下似的。也因为这样，我给他发了两三个简讯、通了一通电话。但是在通了电话后，心里更加难受。没有发简讯、通话的日子虽只有仅一天，但却令我有点儿坐立不安。但是，通了电话后，听到另一方传来的声音，心里并没有好受一点。他说：“我还是会关心你的”我反问：“你没有发简讯没有打电话给我，怎么关心我？？”他：“当你打给我的时候，我就会关心你呀...这一切不是你要的吗？这一段冷静期不是你提出的吗？”确实如此，但是我心里并不清楚我想要的是什么... 或许现在的我正在等待着另一个能给我关怀、温暖的人吧... 我也想学着放手... ...

At the crossroads

Work

Wow.. it's mean a damn long period of time since i last blogged. Guess i've been too lazy and whatsnot to even start blogging.. we've got facebook wah..heh but anyways.. i'm doing good in what i'm doing except! that today a girl came up and asked me how to do a p5maths question and i did it wrongly! kns until her friend had to come up to me and tell me that what i did was wrong.. :( haha so the moral of the story is: teach chinese :) waha so paisey felt like digging a hole and burying myself inside.

Love

L-O-V-E this 4 letter word is so simple yet so complicated at the same time. I am having the feeling of being at the crossroads.. the choice is to be or not to be. i do not know and i am afraid to choose. I have been having these thoughts for more than a month already. Ever since i finished watching the BBF, i started having wild thoughts. It's every girl's dream to be with a $_$ guy but even if the guy isnt $_$ at least he should be manly or with a strong personality or something? sighs i dont know la. but the Gu Jun Pyo lovestruck thingy seems to have died down but the rollercoaster in my heart hasnt stop! arrgh i do not know what to do now man. sucks.. arrgh i want to tell someone abt hw i feel bt i dont know hw and where to start. one of my colleagues know hw i'm feeling coz she had the same experience before bt still the reason to separate was not the same. I am shocked at the rate of how i have become so materialistic in such a short period of time.. I think i need some time to cool down and think through things.. i dont want to make any decisions now because i am afraid that if i do, i will regret later on.. it is easy to say it but to bring it all back again, it will definitely take a lot more effort. till then even if i do put in that much effort, i dont think things will be the same anymore..

Friends

One happy thing that happened this week----> I found a part of my primary school friends using Facebook!!! Wow friends that i have lost touch with ever since i graduated from school. I am certainly amazed by technology.. heh Maybe i should organise a gathering for all soon. Bt it seems like they are all overseas studying! hmm we'll see how it goes~

Durian puff baking

Thought i would be busy baking this whole holis bt end up baking once only.. heh bt better than nothing hor.. waha whole holiday nua until put on weight.. omg cant imagine man.. bt now let me present to you the best pastry in the world.. Jing suggested selling them.. heh actually i dont mind :P waha we'll see..

LIU LIAN PUFF.. haha it's the nicest slurrrp :P

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Fresh durians

Mixture
Durian peeler licking his gloved fingers.. haha :X

Freshly baked out from the oven
Spoonsful of durian!

Ultimate durian puff. If i sell one of these for 60cents would you buy? haha
Baker and Peeler of the day.

P.S ignore the double chin please. heh

So tired today.. so fast the one month holiday is over.. cant imagine. in a blink of eye i cant nua anymore.. heh need to use the last week to energise myself and charge my battery for the next half of the year.. Hopefully i will get more chances to bake and organise gatherings for my friends.. heh nx outing.. Aloy's bday? haha we'll see hw.. till then.. BYe ByE

* can you smell my puffs from your desk? haha ;)

JB shopping madness

Sour Plum and Soda

Pretty Toes@RM45

Me and CLY

Went down to JB this time round again with my colleagues.. Met at 10m and shopped all the way till 9pm.. waha cant stop.. bt i had a lot of fun, frm cheap pedi to cheap food.. everything is sooo half-ed priced la.. waha i could get so much more stuff than when i'm in Sing.. bt i think it's understandable.. the SOL here is higher and of course with that everything goes up.. heh so once in a while go over can siao siao.. heh i bought plenty of stuff today. one pair of shoes, two tops, one pants, one whole big bag of titbits and whatsnot.. heh total damage done: RM300. omg shant convert that to sing dollar.. $_$

heh bt i'm gg in again tmr.. wah call me crazy if you must.. lol bt i'm gonna trade in my phone there and buy a JB phone.. -_- waha.. shall update all my stash when i get my phone to join the team tmr.. waha cant wait and i cant seem to hide my excitement.. lol :P


~Happy Holidays everyone~

Candy Swirl Cheesecake

Finally after my exams, i had some time to do a bit of baking in the midst of all the busyness.. hehe.. my second attempt at baking cheesecake following the recieps from the hershey's choc.. Brought some to let my colleagues try and they commented that this batch of cakes taste better than the previous ones.. heh notice the redness colour in the cake? my sis ask if its strawberry la.. waha bt actually it's mint.. i just love mint until one of my colleagues commented that i want all of them to like mint too coz the other time the cheesecake i backed was also mint-flavoured.. waha i've just sourched out for more stuff that are baking-friendly to me.. heh June holis coming up so i will have more time to do baking and hopefully God will bless me with more $$ to sponser me for my baking ingredients.. heh

btw, Phoon Huat@jurong has officially closed down. so sad i went there the other day hoping to get the cream cheese there bt what i saw were just metal racks.. so in the end had to go all the way to holland's red man and that shop is like super out of the way..

Just to update, i'm gonna try Shepherd's pie, apple crumble,durian cake for the holis! waha

watch out for this space.. :D

Kate Spade

Arriving in 5 days time. :D

可不可以爱我

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定
努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军
为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你 连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你
你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 快乐还是寂寞
为什麽如此的美丽 深刻的烙在心里
最温柔的酷刑 每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你 你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我 虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
反正看或不看 我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 快乐还是寂寞
想念燃烧个不停 我快置身灰烬
你是我的呼吸
你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我
能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞...




This song will be repeating itself on my laptop for one whole day.. The lyrics of the song are so apt of how i am feeling now.. sighs

New Pricing

In View of the hike in the pricing of the choco, CFrental has decided to increase the pricing of the choco as stated above. W.E.F 19th April 2009

Kate Spade Bag..

Working hard for you. $350 more to go.. Arrgh Sponsership anyone? or any good Sprees to intro? heh

Vietnam in June :)

New look for a start.. waha this is a super expired pic when i just rebonded my hair.. haha looks quite nice right.. but now? sighs haha

Yeah!! booked for the vietnam trip from 13th-16th June.. cant wait for it to come true mans... waha but for now needa work hard! jia you everyone.. :D

Choco-Mint Cheesecake & Rainbow

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Choco-Mint Cheesecake..

I know it doesnt look minty at all but it really does taste minty.. i didnt have a chance to take the inside of the cake coz all of us were too busy gobbling down the cake.. Not too bad for a first timer.. waha so i shall proceed and try other kinds of cake.. :o) but now i have to get another bowl for my mixer coz i think i left it too near the flame the other time and the sides a bit melted and now it cant turn on it's own le.. :( so sad

We spotted a rainbow ytd@ Westmall and when i thought i was the only one who had whipped out my hp to capture it, i was so wrong..
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There were a whole load of other ppl. I didnt manage to capture them all but at least 10 of them.. haha many of them stopped their footsteps and whipped out their camera phones, snapping the fotos away. Imagine the power of technology.. heh in the past we could only admire it and say bye bye, now we have it in our phones.. haha

Before we said goodbye.. :*

Biting on Happiness

Stay Happy everyone! :)

One of the joys in teaching..

Handmade Vday card from one of my p2 boys.. so sweeeeet waha

Finally i ate the almightly big choco.. waha gonna expire soon in march man

Look at how humongous the choco look beside the ring.. heb so heaty but nice.. waha

枫

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我

I was listening to Jay's song and this sentence came out strongly to me.. sighs..

14-02-2009

Dinner @ Asian Kitchen.. soso only the portions shrank even though the prices of the food are still the same.. tsk tsk

Me and my spongebob balloon

Vday presents. So secondary school like.. tsk tsk somebody hor -_-''

My vday ended with me crying myself to sleep. Well it hadnt been a fantastic vday celebration for me. :( Was doing my LP and studying almost the whole day but at least i got myself a handphone pouch for my new hp- samsung i780. Old model and the camera really sucks like put put.. tsk tsk seriously.. but so far alright. still getting used to it.. the fotos above are taken using the phone and obviously the outcome of it is so CMI. waha.

Been rather busy with work and study but i am enjoying the busyness. Surprisingly.. Able to taste studying and working life at the same time.. heh but maybe this is the tip of the iceberg only so didnt feel anything waha.. but everything is in GOD's hands.. Hope everyone else had a great Feb 14th.

Till the next entry,

TAke care.


P.S I am gg to try making Mint cheesecake. slurrp cant wait waha :X

JR's 23rd and WP's 22nd

Celebrating JR's 23rd @ Central's Manhattan.. evofuzzies ( how about this new name? since we have new members already) waha :)

The birthday girl with her 23 mini donuts.. First in the group to turn 23! tsk tsk old already ar..

Giving whitney wong her deserved birthday surprise!
P.S see u look so slim in the foto.. i think jr edited it la.. lol

Her super cutesy birthday muffins..

2 birthday girls :)

BOO! fooling arnd with a blue tongue aft eating the cookie monster cake.. i think too much colouring lol *_*

Me and Mr Tan.. happily ever after :)

Tan, Ching, Ng what's with the seriousness? Chill man :)

Final pic before heading home.. had a great time chilling out and eating with u guys.. shall we arrange for another meeting soon? think some rich kid got back from korea already right??
*hint hint* waha

BURRp.. my eyes are popping out from typing 2 entries at one go! tsk tsk.. o_O heh but i guess with sim starting classes next week, i will have lesser time to blog and stuff but i promise i will still do as and when the mood comes to me alright.. haha await me and beloved readers :)

Till the next entry, take care and God bless :*

Expired: Pot luck party on 010109 :D

And so, i decided to have this impromptu potluck session with my loooooooong loooooooong time no meet up friends.. hehe
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" Huat Ah" salad arranged by hatty Jing :)

Mini Choco Fountain with all the other sinful stuff to go along with.. BURRP :X

Monopoly time! waha this childhood game was quite boring in the past but i guess it has found another new meaning now when we are older.. lol the rest scheming to win my money. why??? check out the rest of the pic.. hehe * evil laugh*

this is how the game went.. check out all the money and property ERA QUEEN PEH had at the left hand corner over there. seriously i dominated the whole game.. hui was first to be bankrupt and ah loy trying to survive.. lol

not forgetting, striking a WINNING pose.. *shy*

me and my darling..
P.S pls forgive me and my super uper nua tasmasnia pj ok.. i promise not to wear it to take fotos next time.. lol

We girls :D minus shumin aka ah piu :(

Note the san pat santa hairclip. only who could have bought it? who else but bitchy tan! SNORESSSSSSSSSSS

We shall do it again! :)

Thanks peeps for coming by.. i know my place aint that accessible but still i hope u guys really had an enjoyable time playing and eating till we were almost bursting.. waha cant wait for the next time we have this again! Bring ya partners along the next time! ;)