Love is like ice. The harder u hold onto it. The faster it will melt.

*sigh* it's halfway thru my As and i really feel like giving up. seriously. my maths paper 1 is 101% gone liao.. haiz dunnoe what's wrong with me also.. fuck i wonder what's going to happen to me. hope i can get at least a bloody E for maths then i can get into NTU NIE.. haiz.. damn it. three more papers and i'll be free liao.. but i dont have that kind of freedom feeling cuz i know i screwed up the maths paper.. i was like day dreaming during the paper wondering what's going to happen to me.. so much things happened recently. haiz yesterday i heard on the radio bout the definition of " Ai Mei" as in love de. And i realised that my relationship with TT may not be that simple afterall.like just friends only? maybe it's ai mei. i think both of us realise it but just dont want to say so like nothing happen lor.. aiyah dunnoe la. i shouldn't be thinking bout all this shit now. this few weeks i hadn't thought about HIM or mentioned anything bout HIM but that day he suddenly msged me. bloody shit. i think that sort of ignited the flame of love.. hahaha whatever u call it. shucks lor.. i feel that we always feel awkward when we see each other in school leh.. hmmm how come huh.. izit a good thing or bad? dunnoe la.. sucks i'm feeling so sick now. got flu and then just now drink pear juice also kena choke. shucks must be something bad going to happen.. : oh wells~ hope the rest of the papers wont be fucky. cuz i've got confident in my chinese and chem papers but it's all fucking chee bye maths paper that's going to drag me down.. Argh! btw if fishy you are reading this.. can i meet u on the 19th then u lend me the xia ri xiang qi vcd? hahahaha ciaoz keep in contact!