boring~

k.. just want to blog something be4 the school reopens tmr.. what the hell.. i dint even felt that there was holiday.. sucks.. and the worse shit? i just heard from my hockey teacher that there will be a meet the parents session AGAIN on 10 july.. great.. dooms day for me.. now i'm supossed to do my work and here i'm blogging.. no wonder my results like shit.. hehe.. yeah and another shitty thing.. my phone is officially spoilt and i dont think i will be getting any new phone for the time being cuz i cant bear to part with all the nice nice messages HE sent me and the rest.. so i'll just go repair it and for the time being i'll be using the cool ex-hp of mine--- 3310! hahaha yah la at least got phone still can sms ppl.. k la enough for today liao.. ciao.. HOCKEY ROCKS!

DAMN.

sucks. this morning i woke up at 6.45 wating to go to school.. luckily mum fetched me to school if not i'll be late and guess what? FUCK. the bloody teacher forgot that he had to see us and talked to us for only a bare 10 mins be4 he left for his meeting.. woa lao.. damn it arh.. who he thinks he is.. make me wake up so early to go to school to find him talking to us for 10 mins only.. FUCK. and another bloody shit is my phone is spoilt! cant charge.. dont know what bloody hell.. then the bastard still dont allow me to change phone.. ask me go repair.. my that phone how much only.. by the time repair liao i think will cost even more for a new PHONE!. FUCK.i'm so so pissed now.

L0ve-sIck

i'm so sick of falling in love with you.. damn. saw HIM yesterday at jurong east MRT u call this fate of what? but he was wif JX ( my ex ogl) yeah.. i dint really felt like seeing him at that point of time but yah we just met and waved and i was whisked off by e stupid train.. why couldnt we just have taken the same train if we are even allowed to meeT? :( i really felt like crying when i thought of the scene.. i tried consoling myself saying that maybe cuz they both stay aroung BB area so they also coincidentally met each other? haiz.. hope i'm not lying to myself.. yesterday had tuition until 10.45 and i reached home at 11.15 gosh.. ultimate` first time tuition until so late.. YAWN... so tired and sick of living.. hw,hw,hw,crush,crush,crush,sick,sick,sick,die,die,die...

THe truth is tearing up my heart.. i cant recognise this place the endless road without a stop sign.. cant even find a stranger this time`
Why am i still holding back my tears? in this loniless there is nothing to fear, every chord still seems a wonder how we could be together? everytime i ask i wish this would be the last`
Why am i still talking to myself? hoping you will have the keys to my cell.. every song might calm the weather but it just draws me deeper how do i get out this i think... i never will~

bee-careful of what u wish for..~

heya.. think i'm quite hooked on this blog thingy.. every two days must come up to blog... sai man.. so bored now supposed to study for the stupid chem retest but here i am blogging.. think i'll flunk it again.. actually wanted to blog yest but mum was hogging the com whole night.. yah so.. now here i am.. lolz.. yest i went to have my haircut at westmall and GUESS WHAT? i met HIM.. how qiao can this be man? haha i was like so shocked to see HIM and HE was shocked to see me and my new haircut.. just for that split moment i think he was staring at my hair?! haha thinking that i just had a thunderstorm created in it? lolz.. and the thing is that be4 i went for the haircut i was wondering if i would meet him there.. a bit out of the world la.. but IT DID CAME TRUE!!!!!! haha :P yah so happy to see HIM la.. happy happy... lolz but i think i'm paranoid leh.. everytime something i consider good happen to me i'll think that something worst will happen to me later.. how? kaoz.. sai man i'm still down with flu... shit. got headache also.. going to rest soon.. tmr still got chem lesson at 8? FUCK. go there also waste time.. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzz in class de.. :( ciaoz!

sTill Da SamE..

heya.. today's a boring day.. yawn.. morning met up with sm and the rest of her class ppl to visit elizabeth in NUH.. she had an operation to remove her appendix.. i see that she's quite weak but should be able to recover soon.. anyway i was super duper late when i met them.. we were supposed to meet at 1.30 but i only received sm's msg at 12.30? so how in the world am i supposed to reach buona vista at 1? kaoz.. whatever lor.. i just cant be bothered anymore.. when we went there we bought lizzie a get well soon balloon.. very nice.. heez.. but the super sucky bitchy fucky MEI LENG also bought a balloon for her.. make us look so unoriginal.. sucks.. oh yah and i met Julian there? weird isn't it? lolz... he was there to visit his ah gong.. hope all those ppl who are sick will get well soon.. and this plus HIM.. think he's got a bad cough.. i also.. got flu.. sucks think i use half a box of tissue in 3hrs.. sucks.. love-sick as well.. lolz.. well, today there are some things that i just couldn't stand bout her but i guess i just have to tolerate it cuz she's my friend.. had tuition at night..6.30-8.30 but the tutor was late.. i really enjoy tuition now.. quite fun and i get to learn quite a lot of new stuff i tot i already knew.. yeah.. that's about all i had my dinner at 9 just finishing bathing and yawnz.. going to bed soon but be4 that i'm eating ice cream now.. yummy.. cadbury top deck ice cream... bought a pair of ear rings today too.. $1.90 only.. hehe so happie.. okie.. gotta work hard liao.. ciao!

whAt arE friendS f0r?

i dunnoe man.. seriously.. i cant understand the ppl around me.. even those whom have been my friends for like so many years.. all the time we've spent can be forgotten in small incidents.. yeah whatever... feel very very very X 100000000000 disappointed and depressed to know that the person whom i've treated as my best friend turned out to be like this the worse, have thought of me lidat.. couldnt she have put herself in my shoes and think from my position? haiz.. what's the meaning in life man? not just this incident but also quite a few lor.. it's like i feel that at times she only want me to listen to her rattle off with her crush and complains of ppl in her class but me, i never do that.. though i got lots of things bout HIM to share with her.. i feel that she never give me that chance.. so as time goes by i wont discuss with her about HIM already.. i see no point in it as she wont bother to listen to what i say.. HOW? to whoever is reading this.. this is really what i'm feeling now in my heart.. i feel that i've given too much in this friendship and perhaps both of us are too hot headed to give in.. but i really dunnoe how am i going to resolve this? i feel that i'm not in the wrong and so does she.. dunnoe how..:~( what are friends for if they're not there when u need them most? :~( argh.. damn it my knee's hurting again... shit. ok for the time being i'll forget bout what happened and talk bout some happier stuff.today i went out with fishy and we had delifrance for lunch.. -slurpz- super nice.. so full.. i bought lots of stuff and of course.. burnt a hole in my pocket.. be4 going home we went to ARt FrienD and i bought some D.I.Y stuff to make for aloy's bdae.. hope he likes it.. cuz i spent a lot of time making it.. hehe.. k lar i dont want to blog liao.. hands getting tired.. ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

the cold wAr starts...

FUCK. it's bad to start an entry with a vulgarity but i'm feel fucked up AGAIN. damn i really want to know what the FUCKING HELL sm is thinking (go read her blog) i guess the person she say that's not talking to her is me.. FUCK. what's her bloody problem? though the gathering has been cancelled and there's no point getting all worked up about i really feel that she should at least think about what she said to me is correct.. bout "i cant go for e BBQ cuz i'm going for my SUCKY class BBQ" and the bloody problem is that we're just not speaking on the phone but i bloody smsed her lor... if the person she mentioned in her blog is not me then forget bout what i said earlier on but i'm 99.9% sure that she's referring to me.. yah la whatever la.. if she thinks that i'm petty so be it.. i give no fucking damn bout it.. we've been friends for like 6 years liao and if that's her conclusion bout me.. FUCK IT. so be it i just cant be bothered. i dont want to be like her living my life for others. just becuz the guys in her class wants they all to go if not they will be regarded as outcasts.. what the fuck? i see no bloody damn bout it.. she should just do what's deem fit for her.. i'm just going to keep my bloody mouth shut.. let see what's going to happen tmr during tuition.. hope i wont blow my top since she say that i'm a petty person.. FUCK.

F-U-C-K that BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just got back from school.. just now chem prac and i screwed up the whole shit.. dunnoe wad i was doing man.. just flumbering throughout the whole thing.. haiz.. got study also no use la.. wonder how i'm going to take my exams this yr.. maybe i should get retained?! but think da bitch will throw a knife at me lor.. yeah.. whatever.. i was damn fucked up by her yesterday.. she insulted me in front of the whole family (NOTE: i dint say my family ) FUCK. i was damn pissed.. guess wad she said? " if i were to die now i would donate all my money to charity rather to give them to u" what kind of parents would say this kind of stuff to their children? sometimes i wonder if i'm really her child.. and what wrong did i do? NOTHING. FUCK. i merely asked her for my tuition fees and she there rattle on bout my phone bill. like is i what the phone bill to be so high de... even if i ask her to bring me to change the bloody podlite plan that's supposed to be cheap i bet i'll kena scolding from her also.. damn.. what can i do? i got no money and my bank book is with her? FUCK. think if i can get into uni i'll apply for hostel and stay there for my whole uni life.. if caleb say need lots of cca points, i'll get them. just to get the bitch out of my sight. if she dont want to pay for my tuition then ask her to keep her bloody mouth shut when my results suck. dont want to pay for my expenses then give birth to me for wad? FUCKING FUCK.

integration SUCKS!

i'm damn pissed now. (go read sm's blog be u read mine) damn it lor.. i'm not trying to say that it's her fault that the two bbqs are on the same day.. just that I CANT MAKE ANY SENSE OF HER WANTING TO GO TO A BBQ THAT ALL THE PPL THERE ARE THOSE SHE HATES? Fuck lor.. wtf and now she's like trying to put all the blame on me? DAMN! that day she said she wanted to talk to me and i ignored her? HELL WITH HER.. be4 that should i tell u what happened? i was already pissed with her for not coming for our BBQ and then she made me wait 20 mins for her to come to go tuition together.. WTF? ok la although i'm the one usually late but is she arrive early lor.. how u expect me to smile at her after all this shit had happened? i dont even want to see her.. ok damn now the BBq is cancelled and i dunnoe how think we going to seoul garden for lunch... sucks all this just sucks.. i dunnoe my life's turning upside down..damn... yeah whatever.. i'm just pissed at her THAT'S it.. i give no bloody damn bout it lor.. and today i was so so so so heartbroken.. we took the same bus de and supposedly if no other jjcians going to board the bus who happens to be my friend or HIS we would have walked to school together but.. haiz unexpectedly HIS friend boarded the bus and well.. he just smiled at me and i gave a bloody look.. sucks.. all this just suck..what's wrong with me man? i dunnoe also.. after school saw HIM going home alone.. ( MY BEST CHANCE) but.. i was going studying with caleb so lost another chance... haiz :~( i really want to cry man.. why? why is everything going wrong? parents not willing to pay for my tuition fees FUCK! then cant do any bloody integration, love of my life is becoming SHIT of my life... feel like ending my life.. maybe only death can solve everything but i cant bear to leave those who i love.. FUCK

fArked up!

heya.. today blogged a bit early huh?.. hehe cuz no one at home.. i'm home alone.. lolz yeah whatever.. this morning just got nagged by da bitch for my stupid hp bill.. damn it lor i also dunnoe y so ex.. think it's the bloody plan $9.90 podlite.. sai la i feel like changing but dont think bitch will allow.. woa lao i had a small quarrel with her just now.. sucks lor she.. kaoz spoil my day again.. this few days i also dunnoe wad's happening.. i dont seem to be able to get along wit ppl well..?! whatever.. sucks.. later i still got maths tuition with the china guy.. gosh! later i puke right into his face ar.. haha dont feel like having tuition but my maths sucks and i dont seem to be able to find one suitable tutor.. haiz dunnoe how also.. sucks man.. oh yea yesterday me and fishy went out.. quite fun la we had sakae sushi for dinner then nydc for dessert! haha when we went to sakae sushi there was this caucasion guy.. WAH HE'S SUPER CUTE.. like very manly lidat and apparently i was like staring at him.. hahaha think he noticed also la but who cares.. lolz! he took 3 RED PLATES leh.. super rich.. hehe (see i was paying so much attention at him :P) then after smelly fishy suggested we go nydc eat cheesecake.. gosh it was heavenly.. -slurrpz- super nice and thanks to all this eating my pocket burn a hole liao.. hehe but i had fun la.. :) yesterday TT msg me to tell me say he's back in sing and suddenly i felt that i missed him.. kaoz what was i thinking man? only 1 week nv msg him and see him i actually missed him? dunnoe also leh.. haiz confused..confused..confused.. ?!?!?!?!?!?! another thing that pissed me off... here it goes.. we're going to have a ex classmate bbq party at my house then i was supposed to ask all the jjcians if they could come and bloody! only 2 ppl bothered to reply me.. ng nei nei and sm.. but guess wad sm told me? she say she cannot come cuz she's going to her SUCKY class bbq? wtf lor? if she finds her class sucky i would like to know why she's still going for the bbq? go there also see black face only? woa lao so she told me say that if she dont go then the guys will find them outcast? again.. WTF?! if she really hate her class ppl then why give a shit bout wad they say about her? kaoz.. i also dont understand her la... so i dont care liao.. the class BBQ is still on and she just have to choose between them.. sucks man.. pissed me off. ok la i shouldn't be so demanding since that her class is the one that asked her to go for their bbq first but.. since she hates her class? then i really see no point in going lor... aiyah i dunnoe also la.. everytime i give her advice she also dont bother to heed then later she's going to come complain to me like last time i told her not to buy the digital cam cuz like waste $$ lidat and not as if she's going to take pics everyday.. instead to go buy a nice camera phone.. she insisted on not listening to me then now regret liao lor.. what can i say man... i'm very sick of it liao.. DAMN so fucked up by everything.. GOD SAVE ME

burpz~

heyzz.. just blog be4 lunch.. so full now.. actually yesterday wanted to blog at night de but my stupid bro was using the com till 1+ damn him ar.. i think he is crazy or wad la.. aiyah whatever cant be bothered by his bloody and stupid behaviour.. yeah.. yesterday i went out with aloysius to watch SHrek2.. -yippee- hehe very sweet movie.. actually we wanted to go ps to watch de but he wanted to go home to bathe first so we went to his house and then after he wear like ah pek lidat so we decided to go tiong bahru to watch instead.. hehe actually wanted to go walk walk with him de around tiong bahru de la but jr wanted me to go to her house to help make the cheese cake for her bf so had to leave early :( if only she dint come so early... we could have spent some time talking.. haiz.. yah anyway.. this so called 'date' was enjoyable and maybe we can still do it after my exams? hehe.. and one thing i need to mention.. stupid aloysius actually passed me 2 of the scouts ticket thingy and ask me to help him sell.. woa lao ever since i know him he has been asking me to do that for him.. kaoz.. bt nvm la since i'm such a nice person i'll do it for him but AHEM! he better treat me lunch+movie+dinner+new wallet.. haha yah hope he reads this.. lolz ;P but i dont think he's com is ok liao.. (told me that his 6 month old com broke down) i think he visited too much porn sites liao then dio virus.. haha. yeah.. so that's all for talking bout aloy.. now to my sis.. dunnoe y this few days i'm like damn pissed with her.. everytime talk to her will end up scolding her and dont talk for the rest of the night.. maybe i'm having PMS? haha yeah whatever lor.. i'm just not happy at times that she keeps spending time with her bf and spending $$ on useless stuff.. haiz :| dunnoe her la she should be old enough to think for herself.. oh yah another thing that pissed me off.. just not i asked sm whether she want to go out anot then she said ok so she was the one who ask me to ask fishy out de so ok settled.. then since we're having dinner together fishy suggested that we meet at around 3 (which is later la) then sm say dont want cuz too late liao she want to go straight from school so ok la me and fishy compromise with her and say we meet at 1 then she msged fishy say she's in a ridiculous mood and dont feel like going liao.. fuck lor what's her problem? we already compromise liao cant she do the same too? :( haiz yah la i dont want to think about such dappening mood stuff ler... sucks man fucked up my whole day.. but i dont care her la later i'm still going to the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE with fishy.. hope i can get some nice stuff.. hehe oh yah e day be4 i made cheese cake hope those we managed to try it love it.. hehe then next time can make more i also bought muffin mix then can make muffins.. lolz.. i just love baking.. hehe too bad HE dint get to try it.. actually i wanted to msg HIM to ask if HE wanted to try de.. but i think now it's best to keep distance from him for the time being i dont want to have anything to do with him... :~( i've already deleted all the smses we talked on but only those forwarded ones i still couldnt find the courage to delete them.. haiz hope i can get over him soon.. but i guess i still love him.. muack*

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yeah.. juat a short note.. i'm still missing him... I MISS HIM I MISS HIM I MISS HIM I MISS HIM I MISS HIM I MISS HIM I MISS HIM I MISS HIM I MISS HIM I MISS HIM I MISS HIM.....

`HeArtbreAk of HArdbreAk?

yeah.. today's maybe the suckiest day of my life.. in the morning went for maths and the bloody lecturer kept calling me dunnoe for wad woa lao.. made me embarrassed myself in front of the whole lt group.. sucks lor...haiz.. yah then after that i still got the bloody self study thingy.. actually i shouldn't call it bloody since i agreed with HIM that this self study thingy is actually good.. yah so WP and JR left earlier and i decided to stay back myself in the library to do my work cuz i know i at home sure slack de.. yah i did lor.. yah whatever.. so during break time i msged HIM cuz he said HE was sick yesterday and okay he said he was feeling better ler but he told me something that really broke my heart.. maybe it's nothing to u the one reading it but to me... haiz :~( he said from tmr onwards he will off his phone during the day so that he can focus on his studies.. what the hell did he mean that when he told me that lor.. isn't it indirectly telling me to stop smsing him? FUCK lor.. maybe is i too sensitive or wad lar.. but i think when u're in love with somebody.. you'll tend to be over sensitive.. damn it i got no one to talk to lor.. no one will understand cuz they'll just say that i think too much la.. haiz.. dunnoe how.. i think studying in school is really effective man.. wont feel sleepy.. yeah.. so that's bout it that fucked up my whole damn day.. can't stand it.. i dont want myself to fall in love with him but i cant la.. damn it.. somemore now is not like leh.. it's love.. but one sided.. haiz.. tmr going still to see him in school dunnoe what's going to happen.. think i'm going to kill myself later.. bye

i'm so in LOVE with You~

Hey Hey~ today's sunday and i'm feeling lazy.. hehe anyway i think it will be a short entry today.. it's going to be 12 ler and i still got maths lec(damn it) in the morning at 8 yawnz think i'll be falling asleep.. yeah anyway today i'm HAPPIE!!!!!! haha why? think the only person that can put a smile on my face is HIM ! and i'm smiling cuz of HIM! lolz.. yesterday we had like a short conversation then i asked him something but he dint reply me until just now.. yeah so we continued our little conversation like one day after i started it? Wah.. it's like so cool! hahaha i'm on cloud nine man.. really.. only just now i found out that he has to go back for the 2 week bloody self study thingy.. haiz but i think it's a good thing lor.. maybe i can see him? haha but at least better than slacking at home... yeah but he told me that he wont be going to school tmr cuz he was sick! hahaha i think why he must tell me that?! yah anyway after that i really regretted not asking him if he needed someone to accompany him to the doctor cuz i'll gladly do it.. hahaha so i just told him to rest early and drink more water.. how dumb can i be?! kaoz... shitty asshole!

BBQ~~~

the day that i've been waiting for finally arrived.. today we had JJ's hockey farewell party BBQ at my house.. wah.. it was really a success man... though not everyone came, we all enjoyed ourselves very much.... all the food, special cocktail we came up with.. haha all the lame jokes and exchanging of pressies.. how i wish time wouldn't pass so quickly.. haiz.. yeah after the BBQ the whole gang came up to my house and we watched the recordings of the match we played against AC.. it was super funny lor.. thanks to the remarks made by Hanan.. haha i think this is the happiest day of my life besides HIM talking to me la.. haha yah so anyway we really had a lot of fun.. shafa was supposed to give a speech that was touching but in the end i couldn't make out what she was saying cuz she was like mumbling through out the whole thing lor.. in e end only she and naddie ending up crying.. so anti-climax lor.. we all.. haha luckily the BBQ was at my house if not i dont think i can stay until very late... today.. tiffy ,daisy,annie,shumin,janice,shafa,nutzi,naddie,carrissa,amal,hidayah,
nisar,harun,hamsha,razali,gary,jiefeng,iskandar came.. we exhanged pressie and i got the one shafa made.. it was super cute lor.. though i can only save it for my baby's future use i still find it very adorable.. hehe thankies shafa.. yeah so we gossiped bout the girl we all hate,haha made fun of harun and her and there la basically the whole day.. laughter was just everywhere (thanks to the lame things i kept cramping about) haha after watching the recordings they left lor.. a bit sad la cuz i was thinking if this would be our last gathering together? hope not lor.. i was very shocked and happy when shafa told me that the TPJC coach wanted me to join their club! hahaha but i got second thoughts if i should join cuz even if i join it would be after the As lor.. i dont want my studies to suffer cuz of hockey.. and i dont think i can handle both of them well if they come at the same time... yah lor... dunnoe how also.. but Harun said that he is going to set up a club and i was thinking if i should join his club cuz at least if i do i'll be training with him... someone i know? haiz dunnoe la think i'll leave it after the As to decide lor... oh yeah.. next week i'll be catching Shrek 2 with either my hockey pals or aloysius.. i haven't make up my mind to watch with who cuz aloy say he wants to watch that together then my hockey pals say that i let them sit aeroplane if i dont go with them so i also dunnoe how.. sometimes if you're too popular like me it's very troublesome de... haiz dunnoe how la but anyway.. i'll just have to make up my mind.. heez~ k la that's a fairly long entry today my eyes popping out liao.. nighties ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz.....

l0vinG y0u is all i wAnnA D0....

heyz.. today's a boring day.. Vesak day.. morning mum instructed me to change the tortoise water and damn it.. my tortoise was nose- bleeding.. haha haiz it's neck i think is about to break liao then now the nose bleeding.. i also dunnoe where got vet can treat my tortoise de.. sucks man :( haiz after that mum brought us to temple to pray yeah then to gp's place to pass them some stuff.. after that we went to some lion city hotel to have lunch.. nothing amazing though my mum said that the claypot rice is fabulous.. alright la.. taste like the kopitiam's one?! she's weird.. k whatever.. after that we went to our gm's place.. and i was dumbfounded to see my gm become so weak since the last time i saw her.. she was sitting on the wheelchair and staring into space.. even when my aunts and uncles talk to her also no response.. my mum said cuz she's suffering from depression that's why she dont feel like talking.. hope she'll recover soon.. heard that she's so weak that she had a tube and a urine bag connected to her bladder cuz she's too weak to go to the toilet herself... :~( my gm!!!!!! and i'm such a bitch i dint go and visit her for i think two weeks ler... cuz i'm always busy.. but the thing is that even if i go ler.. also nothing to do.. not as if i can help out.. haiz dunnoe how also.. now can only pray hard that she'll recover soon.. just now read shumin's blog then i realised that they had training yesterday and they dint tell me.. damn it lor.. ok la i was at Batam yesterday but if they had bothered to tell me i wouldn't have went to Batam lor.. woa lao.. how can they leave me out lidat.. sucks man.. kaoz.. yeah anyway yesterday's Batam trip was quite alright la.. i expected better but my mum was on business trip so dint do much except see her attend meetings.. yawn..ZZZZzzz yeah managed to try the famous seafood there.. had fried SOTONG!!!!! chilli crab, steamed prawn, chilli kang kong, and some boiled snails? SLURRRRP! the lunch was quite nice la except that we ate with my mum's colleagues then must act gentle.. kaoz if i've went wif mt and sm i wouldn't give a damn bout my image lor.. kaoz.. heard from the uncle that the SPA treatment in Batam is damn dirt cheap.. only $50 for a 2 hr session.. still got facial leh.. woa lao in the end we dint get to go cuz not enough time.. i was like so disappointed cuz i thought maybe they could so something to my rotting face? haiz..
:( yeah.. that's bout it la... missed HIM today.. so i forwarded some message to him and he actually bothered to send me another one... hahaha i was practically jumping for joy! hahaha yeah anyway i just miss HIM and cannot have HIM hope i'll see him tmr... i'll be going to Giant to buy groceries for the BBQ on Fri.. yeah.. that's bout all i'm going to blog today... nitez... :*

b/tw Fa+e and c0inCidencE.. dere's only one thin LinE~

yeah.. got this line after watching THE MUMMY RETURNS.. haha yeah nice show after that got DEEP BLUE SEA but like very scary lidat so i dint bother to watch partly cuz i wanted to blog? haha whatever.. aniwae.. today i dint get to go to the Zoo wif hui's niece all THANKS to her da sao who insisted on bringing LM there.. in e end she brought her there herself.. wad the hell lor.. kaoz.. spoil all our mood... so in the end we went shopping at Bugis then suntec.. dint really buy much stuff today.. just some small gifts for the hockey party on fri yeah.. and a pencil box for my sis but THAT BITCH!!!!!!! she dun want it.. ha! better for me.. she's so darn choosy so i just use it myself lor.. the good news is all my stuff can go in leh... PRUS my calculator... that's so amazing... lolz :P yeah whatever.. heez anyway i'm going to BATAM tmr... can't wait... though it's just across the waters for 45 mins.. hahaha i'm still looking forward cuz i hope i can play and enjoy myself.. hope da bitch dun show her bloody black face again or it will spoil everybody's mood... oh yeah.. i'm wearing the hockey bra i bought yesterday and it's very nice to wear.. nicer than the princess one i bought last time... izit cuz it's new that's why it's nice to wear? haiz whatever la.. eh i think today's the new record.. i dint think of HIM yeah.. HIM the same old HIM that has been running in my mind for months.. just now finally told hui how i've been feeling this few days and months and + she read my blog so the only person who knows what i'm really feeling and thinking is HER!!!!!!!!!! yeah better keep it a secret of else... *hiak*hiak* actually i chose not to tell sm bout it cuz.. haiz i also dunnoe i dunnoe wad she'll think of me saying all those crampy stuff in my blog and plus she is already very vexed thinking bout the guy she like?! don't think she'll be in the mood to listen to what i have to say...i doubt she'll be interested even.. haiz it's always lidat i have to listen to what she says but she wont bother to listen to what i have to say.. yeah.. it's lidat.. just lidat.. :( not that we quarrel but it's true that i get unhappy with her sometimes.. just like once after hockey training, she suddenly not talking to me.. so i tot she's angry with me so i left her alone and time crept by be4 i knew it it's been a week since i last talk to her so she wrote a letter to me saying that she's angry with me.. but over what? she also nv tell me.. that really pissed me off lor.. i cannot stand ppl getting angry with me over nothing? what the hell?! yah la but it's over liao so i dont wish to talk about it also ler... haiz... life's so boring.. this morning i had maths tuition.. i tot he was going to be some cute guy.. But..bUt..buT..BUT he turned out to be some CHINA guy.. woa lao he's very sick lor.. i see already feel like puking.. think i really discriminate china ppl they are like so sick.. kaoz.. i'm so bad.. lolz yeah but i think he teaches quite good lar so i have no choice but to see his EEeeeeeeeeKKKKKK's face every week oh god.....haha hope he can really help me in my maths or i'll sure die.. feel like retaining but bitch will kill me la.. haiz dunnoe how la... *yawn* super tired tmr still have to wake up early to take the ferry... ZZZZZZZZZZZzzz be4 i log off give myself 10 secs to think of HIM then i'll call it a day.. haha 10..9..8..7..6..5..4..3..2..1..0!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah that's enough for today.. ~nighties~