finally over~

woa lao after 3 weeks of strguggling and keeping myself awake, finally the god damn prelims are over.. -phew- i'm like so relieved now.. really i think the 3 weeks is the hardest time of my life or should i say yest? woa lao i woke up at 3 to study till six then slept till 6.30 only. what the fuck la i really felt like dying. waking up in the middle of the night to continue studying... it just sucks. really.i better start mugging for the As now or i'll really have to stay up late when the time comes.. just now i went to read TTG's blog and she said she got highest for paper 2 chem! CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u owe us one treat.. hahaha think i'm going to get the lowest la.. what the hell.. whatever la i really tried my best to study liao or should i say i dint really put in a lot of effort? i dunnoe la.. so relieved that all this shit is over and cant wait to see how badly i scored. haiz.. but yah la i think i limit myself to slack till the end of this week then after i must really pia liao.. cant afford to waste anymore time ler.. haiz.. this few days dunnoe is i got attitude prob or what la been ignoring jas,jr and wp they talk to them or more like they ask me question i just shake or nod my head.. i really cant be bothered to talk to them leh.. i dunnoe why also.. kaoz so sick and tired of making myself suit their way of lifestyle and behaviour. i want to be me. crazy mad me. not just funny me in front of them. it's really tiring to put on the mask and try to integrate into their way. i'm sick and tired of trying.. tmr they going k box actually we already agreed? but i dun rmb saying that? yah but anyway. last min i decided not to go liao.. i dont think i'll have fun even if i go so why bother? wait i go there show black face then spoil everybody's mood. no point also la. i just wish that the As would come faster and i dont have to go to school anymore and face them. I CAN'T STAND IT!!!!!!!!! i'm just going to continue slacking at home go swimming tmr hope it would be sunny and go for haircut. cant stand my hair. now looks like.. i dunnoe mushroom?can fight with TTG liao..haha anyway wp just msged me i really think that i'm a very bad friend and i dont deserve them.. yah la anyway just leave this shit aside first.. i'm not in the mood to settle it now.. today i went to watch "The Terminal" with chris and i think it's a really superb movie lor.. woa lao Tom Hanks can act really well and the story's very touching also.. heez quite worth the money la just that stubborn me dint go toilet be4 the movie and my bladder was on the verge of bursting during the movie.. haha but anyway i still enjoyed it.. at least no pressure! haha~ haiz i came online hoping to see many peeps online but only like 3 ppl only? what the hell la.. everybody died already ar? kaoz.. saittie ( * )( * ) haha cant wait for next sat to come the whole bunch of my GSC class friends are going down to our fave teacher's place for a gathering before she leaves for china... haiz i'll be so sad when she goes lor.. cuz she's really my teacher cum friend leh.. i can even bully her.. lolz.. yah it's always lidat we dont cherish the ppl around us and when we're going to lose them we'll regret.. haiz anyways ciao liao today's entry super long. damn got mosquito bite me it's dead.. buaiiiiii...

DEAD

talking to aloy now online.. asking him to watch garfield at suntec so he can help me win the huge garfield.. haha i really want it ler.. it's so big and cute :P anyway today i went school for consultation and yah my CT saw me and he came over to ask "wah so yong gong ar jia you" hehe so nice of him.. shucks bad omen. lolz but i dint felt like seeing him though i knew i would cuz i was having bad hair day.. my hair is hopeless liao.. looks like shit now. cant help it. lazy to maintain it.. hehe meet fishy and sm for lunch we went to swensens and i had teriyaki sphagetti... slurpz so nice.. super full and i heard from smelly fish that sana is leaving singapore for good. she's staying in pakistan ler.. so sad! :...( i get really sad when i know i wont get to see my friends anymore.. gosh think on that day we go send her at the airport i'll cry lor.. cuz my fave teacher going to china for 1 and a 1/2 years and i think if i go send her off i'll cry also.. so i'm still deciding whether i should go to e airport not.. wait i cry then super paisey.. hehe today think i slack the whole day la.. only did some chem.. sucks. better buck up tmr.. 2 more days only.. shit. bye.

BURRP!

just came back from dinner with my uncle.. so nice he brought us out for dinner and we had sakae sushi.. so full.. we had 38 plates plus 4 red plates and 7 moshi ice cream lychee de somemore!( HUI i finally got to eat it) haha burp! i'm really super full now.. and satisfied.. haha my uncle's very nice to bring us out.. hehe now i'm only home with bastard and maid. both parents went overseas! haha i'm supposed to be freed but i dont feel the freedom? kaoz.. maybe cuz i know bitch will call anytime to spot check? she suck la. yesterday she dunnoe mad or what at first scold bastard then suddenly started scolding me. fuck la. also not my prob dunnoe drag me in for what. sucks. today i went swimming downstairs. i was so pissed. at first i wanted to sun tan cuz the sun was quite strong but after i went down the sun like dun have ler.. so i just swam hoping for the sun to come out again and it dint so i was like ok. forget it den then when i went upstairs the bloody sun came out FUCK. was i pissed man. then there was this guy like so hao lian that he got to sun tan woa lao.. i'm going to try it again tmr.. hope the sun will be out.. haiz.. must exercise already.. going to explode into a pile of fats soon.. all my muscle transformed into fats.. sucks. and i cant stop eating.. :P haha stress and keep eating.. tmr morning i'm going school to ask mao liau liau questions.. sucks la the papers all so difficult i dunnoe how to do. haiz uUu the papers that time hui zapped de like got missing de ler cuz got quite a few only got ans dont have the questions then i zap liao waste $$.. haiz dunnoe what the hell. tried to the tys also find it very difficult. die liao. i better buck up during the one month or so or i'm dead. just now heard form my sis that one of her friend broke up with the bf at this period when he's having his prelims.. sucky la. at this important time. she's such a bitch. so what if she's pretty.. kaoz.. make the guy so miserable. she still ask the guy not to think so much.. how can? use leg hair think also know cannot la.. sucks. but guys dont worry i wont do this to you de.. hahaha whatever.. i'm talking nonsense ate too full liao.. haha k la must go study ler.. byebye

i'm gonna flunk my prelims

seriously, think i cannot make it ler.. i really dunnoe how. my math suck and my chem also like not stable de.. chinese i havent even started studying la.. can go and die already... hope everybody performs badly in the As so the whole standard lower.. hahaha yesterday i went out with TTG and she's mad.. when i reached city hall so was nowhere to be seen so i called her.called and called no response. think i called her continuously for 17 mins.. NI KAN NI ! luckily at the 18th min she picked up.. very funny. she went to HMV and yi kou qi bought 3 cds.. spend over $50 haiz.. super rich.. after that we went to suntec wanting to catch garfield de but the timing very shitty. at 7.30 if i watch already then dont need to go home liao.. hahaha but..but.. if we had watched at Cathay we would have a chance to win the super big garfield there.. i want! but haiz.. in the end we had to walk all the way to marina square to watch and it was raining and renovation was going on.. so shit. luckily the movie is not bad.. i like garfield.. he's cute and he can burp! hahahaha if he was my cat think i'll squeeze him! (everyday) hahaha then after that come home the usual stuff lo.. at night i tried to do the NJC paper 1 and it was super fuck. i cannot do everything.. what the hell. am i not prepared or is the paper fucking difficult. seriously. i only score 12/40.. if A level lidat can go commit suicide liao.. later i am going to attempt the paper 2 not very funny. if i cant do again, i'll get super demoralised.. but before that i better start on my chinese.. haiz.. going to flunk maths.. can u imagine the worse exam conditions? sitting in the freezing hall and got a table with only three legs and cant stop rocking? fuck la.. i was so pissed that i gave up balancing it and it just kept rocking throughout the paper.. cool ba? haha after the paper we had phototaking. quite dumb la cuz the photographer is the school's photography club de. cant the school pay outsiders to do a more professional job? before the shot, sm told me say they take pictures damn lousy de nv even say 1..2..3 sucks la.. so i told my CT and he was like saying if i'm not happy with it i'll ask them to take again and again and again.. haha so funny. then before the shot we were all ready suddenly he shouted. MUST SAY 1..2..3.. huh! hahaha so funny la (Oops am i developing a crush? :P) then after taking the formal pic we had to take a informal pic so he walked behind and i think he wanted to stand somewhere near me.. dunnoe izit i duo xin or what la.. but i should know student and teacher is impossible de lor.. i've experienced it before and know how it's for me to forget him.. haiz he's still so cute.. really miss him leh.. everytime if i take 173 i'm hoping to see him at clementi or at his school but haiz.. u know.. the more u want to see somebody the more u wont get to see him.. it's only at the wrong timing then will he appear.. haiz whatever la. think i've got thing for older guys. they seems more mature.. heez. k la today's entry quite long i must go study liao i only got 5 more days (including today) before my next paper.. ciao liao byeeeeeeee~

sucks

just now went to check out hui and sm's blog. seems like no one came online to blog recently except me. haiz when my results are like shit already i should be studying hard and not blogging here. sucks. yest just had maths paper 1 and fuck lor think i'm going to flunk it all the fucking shit i cant prove.. use wrong formula have no idea how to do.. that's so cb and i was having cramps sitting in the i-think-it's-zero-degrees hall freezing and trying to think of how to do.. fuck la.. i really hate maths. yest TT say that he thinks that he may not be able to make it to uni i'm very scared that i'll have the same fate as him.. i dont want.. though i know chances of me being that is quite high.. damn it ar i dunnoe how also.. maths really suck lor. i still got quite a few chapters i'm not familiar with and only got a month away from the As.. how sia. this is so fuck. yest i studied till 3 in the morning and this morning bitch woke me up at 9.30 saying that our maid had ran away. fuck. she was hanging the clothes when i woke up la.. what run away so sucky. and my bastard bro.. woa lao think my family arh.. really suck..oh yah one thing i must mention about.. now i dunnoe if i really still like HIM not.. cuz yest i was looking at HIS pic hehe then i suddenly asked myself if i really still liked him.. i couldnt answer cuz i was so damn scared that i have a crush on my stupid CT. woa lao.. i dunoe.. argh! how do u define if u love someone?
1. do things out of freewill for him
2. sms him and hoping that he'll strike up a conversation
3. paisey to talk to him in school?
4. try to avoid him as much as possible although i may want to see him very much
5. become jealous when he's alone with other girls
6. when he sends u simple msges like even "take care ya" you'll feel warm at heart
7. every single thing of his (money) you'll keep it and wont spend it..$17 hahaha :P
argh.. i'm so in love.. but dunoe with who.. aiyah maybe i can like 2 person at the same time? hahaha no la i not so bad de.. haiz cant wait for all this shit to be over.. i wanted to biao bai together with hui after the As de but now i cant even be sure of my own feelings how to biao bai? my goodness.. maybe i should do a sign test.. (numerical analysis) hahaha i love him. i love him not. i love him .i love him not. i love him .i love him not. i love him. i love him not.i love him.i love him not.i love him.i love him not.i love him.i love him not.i love him.i love him not. i love him. i love him not.i love him.i love him.i love him not. i love him.i love him. i love him.i love him. i dunoe! do i love him? can time tell? this is so fuck.

prelims..prelims..

sai.. prelims coming ler.. actually it's tmr la.. but i'm a bit sick of studying and sitting in a pile of dust.haiz.. yest studied till 2 (first time so late) and couldnt wake up till 9.30. shit haiz after tt got tuition with beef but dint managed to clarify all my doubts.. haiz.. i must really pia now. i did maths but not chem and CA on hold la.. sucks. must squeeze all and finish studying cuz i hate that kind of hopelessness i have when i dunnoe how to do questions during exam... haiz.. now talking to my teacher and sana.. yawnz.. think i'll qiong again after this. must liao. k la short entry this time.. buaiz i love him.

love-sick~

I miss him.. badly that is. argh.. must study hard.. sucks cant wait for exams to be over i'm going to BIAO BAI!!!!!! hahahaha

happie teachers' day!

yest i went back to new town to see da teachers and i was shocked to learn that last tine my chem teacher mrs lim actually became the vice principal! and the saddiest thing that i've learnt is that my ex physics teacher mr james tan got some viral infection in his right ear and had to depend on a hearing aid! gosh man.. so many things happen after we left new town.. woa lao.. so damn sad for him la but glad to see that he had taking things into his stride so ok la.. i was like bullying him throughout our whole visit.. so song! he wore this weird shirt that a brush can be stuck on it de and i took a few pics of him! hahahah snoops say that i'm crazy but who cares man? think i'm too stressed la.. before that i went to visit the drink stall auntie and she's still the same. hope nothing will change next year when i visit them again during chinese new year.. haiz.. this morning just got scolded by bitch cuz i slept until 10+ fuck la also nobody wake me up.. i was quite tired last night lor.. damn it. i'm in for it tonight liao.. jialat. fuck her sia. later going over to jing's place to study hope it will be fruitful.. damn it i got stomachache need to go shit liao.. ciaoz I WILL STUDY HARD! miss him!