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gosh.. just now he just asked me out next week to go shopping for new year clothes.. hope it won't be a let down.. sigh.. guess i'm still not ready to let go? but i'll try okie? maybe this shall be my new year resolution ciaoz

the point of no return

i should snap out of it soon.. the day before was fuck.. i blogged but my high class lappy cocked up and great !nothing was saved..!"£$%^^%$££@£!^

are we fated to be?

my gosh.. just now when i couldn't come online i was like praying hard that i could log on.. and if i could it would mean that we were meant to be.. and i couldn't believe it when i actually logged on and saw HIM online.. at first i said hi but he logged off so i thought never mind la at least i saw him online but he came back and we're talking now.. gosh.. i think is i zi zuo duo qing la.. must be i watch too much love dramas liao.. but it really feels good to share your daily events with someone know.. though the person may not be very interested..but i think he alright la.. he like only listen to what i say lor.. but nvm! i happy to see that also.. hope something good turns out.. sigh* nighties

i really dont have the keys to your heart..

haiz.. so sian.. now after As liao everyday also work ,work, work.. sometimes i wonder why i am working so hard lor.. seriously.. how much money can i earn? i think my body is in a very bad condition now .. everyday very late then sleep next day have to rush to work again.. haiz evil cycle leh.. like the web of love lidat.. EVIL.. and can never get out of it.. damn i read my previous entry and felt that i was really really heartbroken at that time but dunnoe leh.. i feel that now maybe we're just friends lor.. seriously.. that day when i asked him if he missed his ex he said no but i felt chills lor.. woa lao what kind of damn feeling is that la.. sucky.. haiz i come online everyday hoping that he would and thank god.. he would but so what? i think he somewhat knows and is aware of my feelings la but SO WHAT?! no one makes the move we'll remain friends forever.. but that's not what i want.. I WANT TO BE MORE THAN FRIENDS! GET IT?! argh.. he'll never know it.. fuck. why? if u dont like me why did u do all those things in the first place? u want me to fall in love with u izit? if that's what u want.. your wish came true ok!? damn. i'm getting emotional.. haha but the stuff he did are really the first time a guy ever did to me la.. sending me small notes to tell me to jia you during As.. christmas wishes together with melted choco.. haha and guess what?! we almost cohabited for a day.. but my mother dint allow me to do so.. haha of course i dint tell her that i'm staying with him la..if not all reading this please attend my funeral.. haha dunnoe la.. i'm feeling so damn confused by all this shit man.. seriously.. how i wish everything could be back like in the past.. me not liking u.. treating u just like my buddy.. i wish i may.. my wish will never come true till the day i give up on u.. chinese have a saying.. good cow never eat grass that it has passed.. but me leh.. too bad la i'm not a cow?! hahaha whatever talking nonsense now.. guess what? my occupation now is part-time tutor cum tuition centre assistant cum child care assistant.. how cool can it be? hahaha i'm only currently tutoring this china boy.. he's 14 oh my! he's quite cute leh.. haha maybe i should take a pic with him.. lolz :P i think his mum is out to cheat my money la i told her i want $150 for 8 lessons and that's super cheap liao lor and she gave me $120 for 8 lessons.. !"£$%^&*&^%%$!££"$!%"&! damn it lor.. but aiyah i see that they are not very well off so yah la.. kind ppl like me are hard to find.. hahaha must ji de if not the A level results come out will zao nie.. hahahaha ok la i gtg liao.. blogged long enough ler this time.. ciaozzzzzzzzz

heartbroken

ok..fine.. i get your idea.. we HAVE to remain as friends.. thanks for breaking my heart..

so long nv blog liao

woa lao i think it's been years since i last blogged.. fwends who have constantly logged on to see my blogg. sorry to have disappoint u.. haha been very very very busy ever since the exams over plus my high class com is down.. now taking a risk to use my sis's lap top to blog.. haha yeps anyway i've got a new crushie.. and u peeps should know who HE is la.. but too bad.. he doesn't get any of my hints and seems to be out to make me more heartbroken.. haha i dont know la.. keep your fingers crossed for me and hopefully i can write some nice stuff WE did together.. haha ciaoz.. tmr still gotta work at TT great..