我们的约定

一个简单的约定，至今还深刻地落印在我的脑海里... 记得那一次我俩在等巴士，你对我说，如果我们俩在四十岁时还没找到自己的另一半，我们就当对方终老的那一方...你还记得吗？一个幼稚的想法，我竟然会记得如此久，但不知你是否已经把它忘了？这时的我真的很想让时光倒流... ... 那几十个“如果当初”... ... 如果当初我们在一起... ... 如果当初我没有... ...人生里到底能让我有几个"如果当初"呢?

Shucks

Thought I had gotten over you.. But things aren't so simple.. I can't get u out of my head!!! Whatever happened 4years back I thought I had forgotten about it.. BUT all these are all my一厢情愿 you aren't even aware of it!! Hw dumb can I get arrgh.. Wake up your idea la pss

爱的告白还是爱的告别呢？

我怎么能如此下贱呢？电话的另一端的你正和我聊天，但我心里想的却是另一个人... 或许我不是一个专一的人.. 不管是爱情还是事业都是如此.. 不知什么时候开始对你有感觉，心里都会不由得想着你.. ，对你来说我们只是普通朋友，但我知道如果能重来一次， 结局肯定会是不同的.. 我应该放手一搏吗？ 但我又担心自己只是一时冲动.. 明知你不能给我的，但却死心眼要胡思乱想。我该怎么办呢？ 我和他五年来的感情也只不过如此？ 因为我们都试过了，但感情终究淡了，可能谈不上进入令一段感情，但或许我应该回味一下一个人的生活.. 现在的我只能不停的胡思乱想，等待着你拒绝我吗？

New beginning

I didn't expect to abandon my blog for so damn long and finally I'm blogging frm my iPhone!! I guess it's only times like this I rmb that I still have this channel to vent my frustration.. It's been almost five years already but sometimes I still feel damn sucks. If you can't carry outbwhat you've told me then y did u even say it in the first place?? Is it just to make me feel happy for that one second? Coz at the end of the day, with one " I forget" or " I already fall asleep" as your excuse and u expect me to forgive u? Y do u want me to make me feel that u really cared bt after a while throw me down frm heaven again? To I this may be a small issue bt it has been repeating itself and I am damn sick of it.. Can't u grow up? And y can't I be just more Xiao sa and just forget this whole thing? What is exactly holding me back? Sigh.. Maybe I have been watchig too much " bai quan nv wang" and start to live in fantasy again but today's matter is like dejavu.. It has happened so often. Am I really just your weekend partner??