school's starting tmr..

hey peeps.. school is starting tmr.. i'm really not looking forward to it la.. but haiz yah la.. today i went to church and i'm enlightened by the pastor's saying.. " PAIN IS INEVITABLE BUT MISERY IS OPTIONAL" true isnt it? many of us chose to dwell in the pain and endure the misery but if we view it in another way it may not be such a bad thing afterall? but once again it's easy to say but difficult to put into action.. isn't it? a bit contradicting also.. haha aiyah dont know la.. got a blog with my JC peeps.. view if u have time.. www.v-0f-us.blogspot.com okie.. that's all liao i want to sleep early tonight.. tmr's gg to be a hectic day.. bye all miss ya!

my eyes are popping out..

burp.. so full ate some rice for dinner cum supper just now and feeling so bloated now.. wonder how am i gg to sleep.. haha just now went to catch with aloysius.. the movie is wonderful so is the company.. dint expect myself to enjoy the show coz i wasnt really interested in such scientific shows lor.. about cloning and stuff.. that's like so super GP.. lolz.. yep yep but i enjoyed the show although it was a long 2.5 hours.. haha super cold in the theatre but someone just insisted that it wasn't haiz.. ok la.. when he called me to tell me that he was in town already i was so dont want to go and meet him.. (sorry aloy if you're reading this) but i wanted to spend more time with my gfs.. seriously not les or what.. actually i wanted to tell u this just now but i didn't know how to start but i feel that now me and sm in different unis already.. i'm starting to lose this friend.. i dont want our relationship to change in any way u understand? i know u would say that we're lesbians but i DONT CARE.. she's been my best friend since sec school and i dont want to lose her.. damns what the heck.. i'm repeating myself.. yep yep yesterday was my last day at work.. after work went out with daphy and eunice for dinner and we just had to embarrass ourselves.. haiz our dear daphy went to book the wrong location of the restaurant and we went to the cuppage branch.. btw the restaurant is the rice table.. yep so she booked the wrong one and went we reached there the person said that we dint reserve any seats.. so we created a din there and i even had the cheek to demand for discount.. what the heck. haha and halfway through our order the branch that she called up to book called her and asked if she's still coming.. what the heck lor.. paisey ourselves only.. lolz after that actually we went to go out for dessert de but the queen at home will sing the phatom of opera so she had to send me home.. so sickening.. haiz.. we had a lot of fun.. i think this is the last time i'll work there anymore.. i'm like a maid.. moving stuff, packing bookselves.. WTF i can be professional librarian already la.. somemore so dusty.. not say i'm complaining or what but the pay is spastic also.. somemore must sweat and i'm allergic to dust will keep sneezing one lor.. so when i was packing the books i had to hold my breath.. SUCKS.. but anyways all the shit are over i'm now shaking my legs at home and waiting for $$$ to roll in.. lolz got a very bad headache now.. dunnoe what's wrong with the contacts lens.. today wear already feel very giddy.. even when watching the show i kept having migraine.. damns yah la.. sian man next week gg to start school already.. not so ready yet.. having mixed feelings about everything now.. including HIM. haiz i just dont know what i want... but i've learnt something.. and that's to NOT GIVE TOO MUCH OF MYSELF! ciaoz.. head is splitting apart :/

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it's been almost 10 days since i last blogged.. sorry peeps if u have been coming online hoping to see a new entry but it's the same old thing! muhaha yep yep anyways.. i'm secretly using this blogger thingy in the office while waiting to photocopy some shitty things for a bitch..damns.. it has many pages and must photocopy 18 sets somemore.. i'm not gg to stand there and wait lor.. haiz.. yes la.. again i'm very vexed.. i cant read the signs.. seriously.. why are u blowing hot and cold? maybe i should not waste my time on you anymore.. huh.. am i right? sometimes u make me feel as if we're really in a relationship but sometimes u totally ignore me.. though i know u are not my type of guy i feel that i'm willing to give it a try.. can't u see? dont tell me u cant read the signs either.. i wont believe u lor.. yah la but as if u would tell me that.. haiz.. i dunnoe! school is starting soon but i'm so not looking forward to it.. damns.. i feel that i'm crapping nonsense.. fcuk.. blog again later.. actually i've got a lot of things to say but when i'm here i feel so lost.. ciaoz brb~

long long time ago..

heyz.. been quite a while since i worked at my mum's place.. and i must say i've earned quite a lot.. muhahah $_$ yep yep.. yesterday had tuition at jr's tuition centre and after that we had a meeting.. goodness gracious! that was the worse meeting i've ever had in my entire life.. i was so fucked up by that bitch.. jr dint even tell me that they will be other ppl joining us and greedy me bought durian puffs hoping to eat them during the meeting and greedy TT also bought $10 worth of famous amos cookies hoping to eat.. and what happened in the end?? we dint even get to eat them together la.. damns! why leh coz of that !@#$128975!@#^&* person.. haiz.. talking about her really makes my blood boil lor.. not just me but for the first time of my life i see TT critising someone.. and is a SHE. but that "thing" huh.. really bossy. and what's the most fuck thing? she actually rolled her eyes when i said that i'm gg sim.. maybe i should have lied that i'm gg harvard.. but damns why should i sin because of her.. not worth it lo.. sucks! i think i've sinned so terribly here cursing so much! muhaha yep yep.. i've created a blog for my jc friends i think it will aid in our communication coz like we can write about how we feel and stuff.. for me is minus the vulgarities! haha :P today went out with hui and sm.. so much fun playing and embarrassing ourselves.. haiz.. i think it's going to be even worse on aloy's bday party with 1.53 around! THUNDEROUS!!!!! haha.. but anyways i've always enjoyed piggying and hanging out with my gfs. no hypocrisy lor.. i really cannot stand it. we just burp and fart and behave as though we are a family.. so that's why i'm super duper depressed when i couldnt get into the same uni as them. i dont want our relationship to change in any way.. but i know it will coz we are all in different schools and stuff.. damns typing this can make me tear.. haiz.. i can only blame myself for not studying hard la.. my fate is sealed that very day i sat for the maths paper.. i knew all my efforts will be going down the drain but.. i was still hoping for a miracle but a miracle hasnt come yet.. my whole life i've been very unlucky.. seriously speaking.. i think i'm someone who brings bad luck to myself.. WTF?! i always dont get what i want.. damns.. yah la but i know that life still goes on.. :( that's all folks. stay tuned if u wanna know more.. ciaoz! take care i miss u all!

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i behaved like a fucking bitch on msn today.damns.i hate myself!

lifeless!

for this whole week, today is the only day i went out.. with hui.. yep yep went to bugis wanted to go xodus buy that cheap cheap shoe but the sale is over already so dint buy from there.. hui recommended to go seiyu and i bought a shoe from there.. i guess i knew what i wanted.. the comfort not the looks. similarly for guys.. muhaha it's the feeling when we're together that matters and not how he looks?! muhahaha aiyah think i'm talking nonsense.. today spend too much money liao.. bought shoes and a new wallet! muhahahaha i'm really a bitch. damn. but the wallet i'll think about it everytime i go bugis leh so might as well get it... haha yah la we had dinner at crystal jade.. not bad at bugis but hui's baked rice was a bit too creamy and the milk powder taste was rather strong.. haha went to mum's place to work and made new friends again.. haha they look bimbo-tic but OH MY GOODNESS! they're such nice peeps.. surely gonna miss them when i stop working there.. saw nice earrings at bugis think is 3 for $10 maybe can get for them.. hahaha k la gotta go already.. Mr tan is talking nonsense liao. bye!

dont step into my heart`

back from m'sia for quite a while already.. haiz and so so so much bad things have happened recently.. finally my appeals for nus and ntu have been rejected. that's my fate but i've yet to come to terms with it..i just cant! yest jr called me and was crying on the other line saying that she had been rejected too and had nowhere to go now.. am i better off than her? maybe la.. at least i've got sim to go but is that what i really want? although i've always wanted to set up my own business but do i have to study business? maybe i'm still not sure of what i want in my life.. seriously.. when she called me yest i felt so helpless too.. never in my life have i had this feeling.. really bad.. a feeling of being left behind from all my friends.. this kind of feeling is indescribable and only those who are in the same situation as me will understand.. OTHERS WHO CLAIM THAT THEY DO, DON'T! i thank u all for keeping up with my whines but FOR GOODNESS SAKE u all really dont know what i'm going through now.. haiz i'm drained of my energy already. besides being super vexed with the application to uni the woman at home is also giving me hell.. i hate to elaborate on it, so i shan't. but i just want to make a point. she insists that i go out to shop and waste money but in the first place she was the one who dint allow me to go work at Hui's place coz she said is LOW-CLASS.. HELLO???????? i'm not even a graduate la. what can i complain when i've got a job that pays $6.50 per hour and $9.7o for OT? WTF.. she's been yelling at me for the past few days over stupid things that i've got no power over.. that somebody crashed our car can be linked to me not getting into uni.. damnit. now tell me. WHO UNDERSTANDS WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH NOW? i may be the same me who laughs loudly and playful when with friends, but when the night settles in, my heart aches for myself again. damn. i'm not trying to be poetic here but seriously this is how i feel deep inside. everytime i see my friends all getting ready and excited over their uni camps and i've got nothing to rejoice about my heart just aches. :(