sucks

sigh.. mugging like spongebob everyday.. ok la maybe not that hard but i feel so un-motivated sometimes.. arrgh y huh.. sigh lazy and whatever.. arrgh sucks man.. oh yes apparently there have been many complaints about the SIM econs lect coz many peeps seems to have some things against him coz he is like teaching us stuff to pass the exam only and not really to understand the whole concept behind it which is like so suitable for people like me coz i dont really like econs and the whole fact that i'm taking it is coz it's a foundation unit and i'm still stuck in SIM. i so super feel like quitting school and doing something i like.. maybe baking or whatsoever.. but by doing that i'll be committing suicide coz my mum will surely disallow that and also no one knows if i really will succeed and who the heck is gg to sponser me the capital to start my business.. arrgh why is there no response from NTU? sigh.. i'm like fasting from meat for almost a week like and i'm a VEGETARIAN tiger.. omg can u believe it? one in the world man.. sigh i must have faith and not be double minded.. oh man it's getting harder as each day passes.. sigh.. :( i will try i promise to be strong

blading phobia..

Yest.. Aloy came by to teach me how to Blade.. OMG i was quite shocked that he could blade REAL well.. haha.. i mean at least better than TAY. seriously Tay u look sooooo unbalanced when you are on blades.. :X so Aloy taught me how to blade.. initially i started blading at the mindef carpark then slowly i went to try out at the shelter.. the ground was very smooth and perhaps more slippery.. hah but i managed to do it.. think i just need more practise.. hehe after doing for some time i thought i was good enough and tried to blade arnd the 800m track and i was going all smooth when suddenly i rolled over some thick branches and WHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! i fell. OH GOD. Aloy tried to hold my arm to stop me from falling me,but apparently by doing that, he strained my armpit. damnit. it's so super painful after that and the pain actually was there all the while arrgh.. and it doesnt make sense.. how can u strain that stupid part.. heng my butt got support got cushioning (that's what aloy say) so when i fell on my butt still not so pain.. but still i'm not going to give up anyways if not i can never be COACH PEH.. muhaha.. i just need to know how to stand up again after i fall on my cushioned butt. hahahhaa Tay: just u watch it. :P anyways all my friends have received their NTU interview letters already maybe except for me ba.. i wonder if they have forgotten about my application already or what.. but still i wont give up praying for it to come one of these days. YES. must have faith. To all my peeps who are feeling very very low during this examination period, Yes i do understand what u guys are going through coz i'm not feeling very good either with all the un-read notes when the papers are nearing already.. but instead of complaining that we dont have enough time or to feel sad about other stuff, shouldnt we put the time and even the energy on our studies first? Wah.. sounds so easy to say only but like as if i can do it *slap myself* haha yah la.. but anyway just try your best ba.. To: Lua ka, Hui, Mouse, Black colour.. Jia you for your papers okie.. i'll remember to pray for u. dont worry. :)) if ever u guys are feeling low, u can always look for me, i'll make u HIGH! muhahahha.. okie la later Aloy's coming over to teach me blading again so i better go do some mgt stuff or econs stuff.. arrgh bye peeps! Jia You!!!! -misses-

:(

cant believe my rather new zen player hanged itself! damnit. can't even on the stupid player now.. and has to be sent for repair! BOYCOTT CREATIVE!!! arrgh damns

sick sick sick.. arrgh

this is so sick.. my nose is runny, my eyes is painful and itchy and my throat is also itchy ALL AT THE SAME TIME.. am i gg to be sick or what? but just a minute ago i was fine.. suddenly now lidat.. arrgh what's wrong.. HELP!!!!!!!!!!! just now after dinner, aloy gave me a surprise! muha.. he bought me pure vanilla from coffee bean, fried keropok from pasar malam and fruit tart from delifrance.. on top of that, he lend me his blades! Yes! i can practise and become a pro before i go out and show off my skills.. heh arrgh my eyes are killing me.. shitified now i cant stop sneezing

foodie goodie

Look at the feast. Looks are deceiving. May not look like restaurant food, But it's a meal cooked using LOVE. thanks dear *HUG* :*

almost gone..

Today's a GOODBAD day.. good coz it's our 7th months together and indeed, it hadnt been an easy journey.It hadnt been easy for us to endure till now and even more to come.. Dinner, i went to aloy's place and he cooked for me.. the pic i'll upload later when he sends me.. he cooked me steamed promfret, veg with prawn and shitake mushroom,chicken inside with glutunious rice (actually only use microwave to heat up),dumplings and still got almond jelly with rambutan and pineapple. the two of us actually finished 4 dishes and 1 dessert *Slurrpz* something really nice and heart warming. NOt really food that is very delicious but at least he did his best to touch my heart and he did. :) but we did have a little argument before he even finished cooking but it's so small and not worth mentioning.. yep alright now to the BAd part.. i actually initiated a Break-Up. oh man.. it's that bad.. i was on my way home and my mind started thinking again.. seriously how can i make it through the time when he's in army.. think my life's gg to be sooo empty and lonely.. sigh so !!!!!!Alert!!!!!! to all my friends.. please dont turn me down when i jio you guys out to party.. :X yah lor.. i told aloy that i wanted to end the relationship coz i dint want to put myself through misery when he's in army and i guess it's really very selfish on my part but just that i had only thought of myself and dint think of what both of us really wanted. The ironic thing was that, in fact i'm still very very in love with you but just that i dint want to go through that part of you gg into army so i had the thought of ending everything. So sorry.. made u take taxi down and to have to rush down so late at night, dont know if i worried your mum or your sis coz i kept calling (maybe twice) just to check where were u.. but still, i'm glad everything has been sorted out and both of us can sleep well tonight.. so sorry aloy that i have to you through all this. I hereby promise u that i'll stop all my nonsense and that i'll be strong and persevere on ya.. *HUG* special thanks to caleb and lua tek.. both of you guys were there for me when i felt soooo helpless and listened to my endless complains and rattlings. sigh. life isnt easy but i'm so glad that i had u guys as my friends, my besties. take care peeps. :))

pics pics pics

I miss those days..

Pick your choice! Classic Vanilla; Caramel Mint (slurrpz); Choco Pop
The smelly fish is in white. MUha
Now u know why we were being stared at when eating at Haegen Daez. lolz

sigh

It seems like the situation is getting worse now.. As in the situation at home.. dont know what my bro is thinking about.. sigh.. yellings everyday.. maybe my mum also going through menopause so the mood swings are super extreme de.. arrgh tonight i have night classes from 7-10 think i'm so going to @_@ already.. sigh 3 more weeks before my exams and so much just had to happen.. Dear dear is enlisting on July 7th. oh man.. i was thinking of getting a count down chart to the saddest day of my life.. hah but no time. arrgh.. can u imagine a situation like this.. exams coming, notes un-read,syallbus not finished revising, bf enlisting,yellings at home and a whole lot of confused stuff that enwaits you to settle, the feelings are so confusing yet i have to settle them.. :( my stupid nose is at it again.. apparently i've been sleeping very late this few days so no matter what med i eat also no use.. arrgh! sucks man.. dear dear just gave me a stress bag.. hah inside got a lot of goodies.. from food to stationery.. thanks dear *HUG* next week he's gg to work intensively fron 730am-930pm so guess we wont have the time to meet up too.. i'm so gg to miss him but still i have no choice but to let him go work i mean for $$$ sake.. sigh think sometimes i'm really selfish and self-centred. Dint know i was such a person until we've got together.. sigh :( ok la.. shall continue my rambblings another day.. gotta go out for lunch already. miss ya all~

trouble-fied

A lot of things have happened recently and i suddenly felt very burden-fied.. not just my own studies and the fact that i've to attend classes everyday till SAT! 10-5 is indeed very very draining.. it's so boring and i just have to keep drinking coffee to keep myself awake.. sigh.. just when can all these #@$*^##$*&#*$&^T be over? sucks man.. dear dear's starting work next week tmr and luckily he's only working 3 hrs a day but next week he's gg for some 14 hr job thingy and the worse thing is that i have classes till 10pm on the few days he's working so late, think i'm so going to miss him.. :( but it's okay la.. When he first told me that he wanted to go work that thingy, the first thing that came to my mind was to ask him not to do it.. but i dint. I thought that it would seem selfish on my part that i had to deprive him of earning more cash so i let him be.. it would be good for us to take a 5 day break from each other also, maybe just to rethink our postition in this relationship. I told u that i'll never let go of the hand i've held. so i wont, unless u make me do it.(but i doubt so) i was both happy and sad when i told u that i wanted a 5 day break but u said NO. Happy coz i know how much u treasure me and dint want any breaks in between our relationship, Sad coz i know how tired you'll be and still u have to come and meet up with me just for a while. Sometimes i do feel that it's not worth the time.. but maybe for u seeing each other for a while is better than not seeing at all.. Sigh.. dont know la. i feel so troubled now. arrgh maybe everything will be settled soon. i also dont want to keep thinking about it coz i feel that it doesnt help and i got so much more things to bother about.. i just cant keep dwelling on the same things.. arrgh. a-loy told me that some of his poly friends have already received their enlistment letter and most probably his enlistment date would be arnd July or what.. i just dont want July to come coz i have a feeling that it's going to be a difficult time for me.. seriously.. sigh dont know la.. so many things--> so sucky. arrgh :/ also the application date for NTU and NUS have closed and i've submitted my applications. "Dear God please bless my application, Aloy's, xiaohui's,vivien's,caleb's and jr's that we'll be granted a place in the local unis and me, an interview and even to go through the interview without any hiccups. In Jesus name i pray and ask, AMEN." For all the others, please pray for me ya? i really really want to get into NTU. take care peeps. outta here

Passion for the Christ

Cant believe that i actually cried during service on Sunday when Church showed some short clips of The Passion of the Christ. Oh man.. i could practically feel tears welling up in my eyes and there was no where else i could look.. arrgh the whole atmosphere was just so tense and the feeling was totally different from what i had felt when i watched it at the cinema two years ago.. oh man.. it's like i can really feel the pain and this awful sadness stayed with me for the rest of the day.. After Service i went with Aloy to Airport to eat the supposedly nice satay from the staff canteen but i think alright only leh.. maybe the satay sauce is good but the satay were like very cold lor.. what the heck.. still got minimum purchase de.. kaoz anyway we studied for a while at Mac before we got shoo-ed away by the workers.. so we had to "forcefully" end our study session and go back to expo for the flee market.. heh nothing much actually.. all the stuff they were selling were more like unwanted then goods to be bought.. at least this is what i thought.. second hand toys that even the fur of the bears look grey-ish i mean this kind of things where got ppl want to buy? tsk tsk.. heh actually now i should be studying but i'm HERE! oh no.. gotta go liao.. Miss ya peeps :)

YES!

Just realised that i hadnt had any newer pics to upload but just coz my seafood taught me how to upload pics onto blog liao and i just cant stop it.. haha will do it again with my newer pics. outta here!!!

Who did this? hmmm.. heh
Happy birthday you are a mouse.. so sorry for the late upload of pics.. i'm a bit retarded.. heh
hah.. finally can upload liao.. all thanks to my seafood.. Ms black colour!!! *applause* lolz thanks girl.. oh yes.. this is my piggly niece.. got more pics to upload.. heh