trouble-fied

A lot of things have happened recently and i suddenly felt very burden-fied.. not just my own studies and the fact that i've to attend classes everyday till SAT! 10-5 is indeed very very draining.. it's so boring and i just have to keep drinking coffee to keep myself awake.. sigh.. just when can all these #@$*^##$*&#*$&^T be over? sucks man.. dear dear's starting work next week tmr and luckily he's only working 3 hrs a day but next week he's gg for some 14 hr job thingy and the worse thing is that i have classes till 10pm on the few days he's working so late, think i'm so going to miss him.. :( but it's okay la.. When he first told me that he wanted to go work that thingy, the first thing that came to my mind was to ask him not to do it.. but i dint. I thought that it would seem selfish on my part that i had to deprive him of earning more cash so i let him be.. it would be good for us to take a 5 day break from each other also, maybe just to rethink our postition in this relationship. I told u that i'll never let go of the hand i've held. so i wont, unless u make me do it.(but i doubt so) i was both happy and sad when i told u that i wanted a 5 day break but u said NO. Happy coz i know how much u treasure me and dint want any breaks in between our relationship, Sad coz i know how tired you'll be and still u have to come and meet up with me just for a while. Sometimes i do feel that it's not worth the time.. but maybe for u seeing each other for a while is better than not seeing at all.. Sigh.. dont know la. i feel so troubled now. arrgh maybe everything will be settled soon. i also dont want to keep thinking about it coz i feel that it doesnt help and i got so much more things to bother about.. i just cant keep dwelling on the same things.. arrgh. a-loy told me that some of his poly friends have already received their enlistment letter and most probably his enlistment date would be arnd July or what.. i just dont want July to come coz i have a feeling that it's going to be a difficult time for me.. seriously.. sigh dont know la.. so many things--> so sucky. arrgh :/ also the application date for NTU and NUS have closed and i've submitted my applications. "Dear God please bless my application, Aloy's, xiaohui's,vivien's,caleb's and jr's that we'll be granted a place in the local unis and me, an interview and even to go through the interview without any hiccups. In Jesus name i pray and ask, AMEN." For all the others, please pray for me ya? i really really want to get into NTU. take care peeps. outta here