almost gone..

Today's a GOODBAD day.. good coz it's our 7th months together and indeed, it hadnt been an easy journey.It hadnt been easy for us to endure till now and even more to come.. Dinner, i went to aloy's place and he cooked for me.. the pic i'll upload later when he sends me.. he cooked me steamed promfret, veg with prawn and shitake mushroom,chicken inside with glutunious rice (actually only use microwave to heat up),dumplings and still got almond jelly with rambutan and pineapple. the two of us actually finished 4 dishes and 1 dessert *Slurrpz* something really nice and heart warming. NOt really food that is very delicious but at least he did his best to touch my heart and he did. :) but we did have a little argument before he even finished cooking but it's so small and not worth mentioning.. yep alright now to the BAd part.. i actually initiated a Break-Up. oh man.. it's that bad.. i was on my way home and my mind started thinking again.. seriously how can i make it through the time when he's in army.. think my life's gg to be sooo empty and lonely.. sigh so !!!!!!Alert!!!!!! to all my friends.. please dont turn me down when i jio you guys out to party.. :X yah lor.. i told aloy that i wanted to end the relationship coz i dint want to put myself through misery when he's in army and i guess it's really very selfish on my part but just that i had only thought of myself and dint think of what both of us really wanted. The ironic thing was that, in fact i'm still very very in love with you but just that i dint want to go through that part of you gg into army so i had the thought of ending everything. So sorry.. made u take taxi down and to have to rush down so late at night, dont know if i worried your mum or your sis coz i kept calling (maybe twice) just to check where were u.. but still, i'm glad everything has been sorted out and both of us can sleep well tonight.. so sorry aloy that i have to you through all this. I hereby promise u that i'll stop all my nonsense and that i'll be strong and persevere on ya.. *HUG* special thanks to caleb and lua tek.. both of you guys were there for me when i felt soooo helpless and listened to my endless complains and rattlings. sigh. life isnt easy but i'm so glad that i had u guys as my friends, my besties. take care peeps. :))