mixed feelings.

When eating tons of chocolates doesnt make me feel better, that's the kind of mood i'm feeling now. sigh Aloy's very sick and he's sleeping now.. yest he puked after sending me home, i thought i was food poisoning so i cursed the pig organ soup he had for dinner. Thinking that he will feel better if i cook dinner for him so at least he will eat home cooked food and get better but after dinner (we had porridge) not even 10 mins later he went to puke, and puke and puke and puke, after dinner after back from the doctor, he puked 4 times just in a night. when waiting for cab he had the urge to puke again but i gave him dried orange skin and it stopped for a while but when he's home, he went to the toilet again. seeing him puke like this really want to make me cry. my heart is very pain can anyone understand? sigh and there's nothing i can do. my heart's aching now.. very badly :( we went to the doc and the doc say coz of the acne medication prescribed by Dr Loke, it's too acidic for him that's y he kept puking and he was too weak to stand on his own. i had to hold him up lor.. and his mum was working so i was the only one there. i'm not complaining coz i'm willing to do all this for him, to cook for him, to wash for him, even to the extend of applying cream for him on his toes and i had to masssage them for him.. but all this is nothing.. seriously i'm happy that i'm the one there but when he refuses to do what i say especially when i want him to do is FOR HIS OWN GOOD, it just breaks my heart. really. i dont think words can describe how i'm feeling now but sigh just hope that he'll get well soon i miss my darling's laughter :(( sigh this is so depressing.. the doc even ask if he had depression coz the medicine Dr Loke prescribed would have such side effects but i think now i'm the one who is not happy la.. sigh what an irony -_-'' maybe everyone needs to getalife! arrgh oh yes to share something happy for my GESL group, touch community has replied to our email and expressed interests to collaborate with us! Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!!! I only prayed once regarding this, and indeed it's God's will that this cooperation will fall through. oh man.. THANK GOD! :) yup that's the only thing that made me a little better now and also looking at my piggily's niece photo also made me feel a little better. hope tmr's will be a better day. GOD BLESS ALL..

happy 1st year :D

this is a love-hate relationship. hah

rooftop terrace @ esplanade
red ruby cheesecake :X so slim
half eaten lychee pine cake. not bad

white rose from my darling..

Happy 1st year! heh today's officially the 1st day we held hands and ended our platonic relationship. hur we had KFC for lunch ( so budget) then decided to go down to town to get my crumpler bag. WOOHOO. finally put a hole in my pocket with a $157 purple crumpler bag. hah at least i dont have to lunge all my stuff to sch with so many things in hand. hur couldnt really make up my mind when i was at the shop but in the end, still decided to get it coz i really like it. but aloy say i like anyhow spend $$ muha.. but i really like it leh.. how. arrgh before tt we went to Cedele @ Wheelock to have some cakes. supposed to buy 14 pcs of cakes de but SOMEBODY whom i passed the responsibility to had apparently forgotten about it. but nvm la better still , i've been gourging myself silly this few days when i'm so stressed out and face is getting rounder. arrgh. after that we went for a movie @ the cathay, think it's our fave movie getaway there, like so retro there the exterior of the theatre.. i like. hur we caught "little man" wasnt really that funny la. maybe not my cup of tea. heh after that we initially had in mind to go to the beach but due to time constraint, we had to change our plans and went to esplanade instead.. we hanged out at the roof top terrace for a while, no surprise, no nothing, just the company of who i love :) and i must say that it's quite romantic there though there were many other ppl, at least all the ppl there were considerate enough to keep their voices down, to avoid disturbing the love birds. for that i think singaporeans deserve a round of applause! hahah *clap clap* just wanted to blog about out special day before it ends in like 30 mins time and aloy says he is feeling giddy already. we dint even drink alcoholic drinks, how in the world sia.. tmr he's getting his posting le.. i'm keeping my fingers and heart crossed. GOD BLESS ME.

Tea time --> Cedele @ Wheelock.

happy happy

I love us! muack :*

Lemon milkshake. not bad :P
disappointing buffalo wings, NO KICK! arrgh
Chicken drumstick with beef sausage. SLURRP
This is my lappy's wallpaper. sweet bah. dont be jealous kkz

We went dating on sat and it was a blast! hur.. shopping @marina but dint get anything in the end. yup had dinner at billy bombers.. (ey is this how u spell it?) anyways, the food came in humongous servings but hah. what do we have to fear? we have the DA WEI WANG here. hah ALOYSIUS TAN HAN TIAN. lol before that can u believe he actually ate a subway sandwhich? ok la the 6 inch de but still.. tsk tsk and yogurt ice cream and whats not more oh man.. and that was like after lunch not long.. muha piggily. oh yes we ordered buffalo wings. quite disappointing leh. i expected something better and also some chicken drumstick with a beef sausage. sounds so meaty huh. muha and oh yes we had lemon milkshake. heh something cool right.. feeling so fatty now though it's been quite some time. but! hah later got kungfu fighting class, so can shake off a little bit of fats. supposed to be doing my assignment but here i am blogging away and uploading pics like nobody's business, arrgh there's something wrong with friendster as usual. whatever. yawn @_@ so tired today had classes at 830 so chiong here and there and now back home. later gg back sch also. zzzz sch's alright la. everything's basically fine for me :) oh yes TMR ALOY'S GONNA POP already!!!!!!!! haha i feel that i'm so happy for myself and also for him like as if he's gonna ORD but still long way la huh.. lol but still i'm gonna attend the ceremony. hur and skip class -_-'' but nvm la. for him, heh it's worth it :))) but have to stay on tekong till 7+ wait i @_@ already lor.. so tiring the whole day. heh just pray hard that the weather would be good and wont be too draggy also. lol finally after such a long wait and separation he's coming back mainland singapore and i can finally see him on weekdays! yup but the posting results also dont know yet. But no matter what just hope that he'll get what he want the most-Air Force. he can join with the rest of the hunkies there (except TAY) and be not so cute. hah yup. just want to leave a short note here for my friends who are not feeling too happy recently.. Quoting from aloy.. "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going" get it? :) cheer up kkz learn how to cherish ppl arnd u, coz when they leave you, you wouldnt know what to do and would definitely regret that you hadnt cherish them then. dont think so much la okie? boat reach the bridge head will become straight automatically. hah :) okie? think open lor. dont brood over stuff. there are many other things for u to think over other than brooding over something that cannot be solved. SMile. GOD BLESS U :) muack* (exclusively for aloy only) heh