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What's wrong with me? I need to learn how to control my temper. When two people are together, they really need lots of patience and be accomodating. But i think i lack of both. Sorry i'm just pissed. Leave me Alone. :(

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Arrgh just now the post that i typed halfway was deleted.. @Q&^@@#^%$@#!^& yeps so i have to start all over again.. so i met dear dear at holland today for dinner at SUBWAY (slurpz) and we were early so we decided to walk around first before eating. just when we crossed the road, we saw this super duper old man pushing a suspiciously-looking-like cold-storage trolley and he was like so super frail. dont know why suddenly i turned over to him and ask him (as in dear dear not the old man yep) if we should help him.. he had his address printed on a piece of paper stuck to the trolley so initially we wanted to just help him across the road coz he said he wanted to go home but if we just left him at the traffic light there like super evil so end up we send him right back to his home. my heart just went out to him lor i mean he is so old and frail and living all alone. sigh i wonder if i'll be lidat when i grow old already.. all alone and waiting to die in a one room flat. the living condition isn't good and it was my first time doing such stuff.. sigh i really pity him. so i was telling dear dear if we should engage in some sort of volunteer work together? i mean we can do meaningful stuff together and most importantly, spend time together? haha one stone kill 2 birds.. but the both of us must have the time and commitment first? lolz we left H.V early coz i tot i could come home and eat my econs notes but apparently my heart fly away already and i'm feeling lazy to study. maybe now i should get going? yeps. i should. ciao peeps. :))

what's my purpose in life?

Today i was on board 970 on my way to dearie's place then suddenly this thought struck me. " why are we born when we have to die eventually?" then i tot that i had actually read this book " the purpose-driven life" but the thing is that i hadnt found the purpose in my life,that is. And i know that the only way i will know why the heck i was born is through accepting Christ but the time is still not ripe yet. seriously. i know many of my friends out there are hoping that i've already accepted Christ but Queen.. yeps u should know la. Some of the ppl out there also tell me that i shouldnt let my mum be the deciding factor of me accepting Christ but i really lack the courage to face the music when she knows that i've accepted Christ.. i think she'll kill me and she will not let me go out ANYMORE.. that's the end man.. seriously. So now i think the best solution for me is to wait till i'm 21 when i'm an adult already and i'll make this important decision promptly. :)) i guess this is not a wise decision to make coz i shouldnt put this issue off anymore but i guess it's the best for the time being and i hope u peeps will understand too. so i was thinking about all this on board 970 then i saw this european lady carrying a cambodia looking kid. i guess she has adopted him? then i tot of how fortunate i am to be born in singapore where i'm given good food and education so i was thinking again if i should adopt a kid next time. True i may have my own kids(hopefully) but i may still want to adopt another not-so-fortunate- kid and let s/he have the privilege the other kids in his/her country dont? haha think what i'm blogging today a bit profound. but yah la this is all what i think from the bottom of my heart. :)) Today's IBM class was quite alright.. boring though but i actually laughed at DOM's lame jokes.. he was practically reading all the stuff from the notes and making weird noises hoping to catch our attention and he is really DOM lor.. he was like telling all the skimpily-dressed girls who came like so damn late to walk down the stairs slowly and not to fall down me and vivien were like -_-'' .. sucks man. woa lao so tiko.. and it's super obvious that he's bias against those who dress normally like me and vivien and will give extra care to those that wear skimpily and show off their ASSETS. damns but aiyah i dont care also.. haha i'm in school for a purpose.. not to fashion parade. haha.. yeps. k la blogged long enough for today already. Prince is back and IMMEDIATELY needs to hog the com so i have to "xiam" already.. haha bye peeps~ outta here :))))))

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This is getting bad.. i'm supposed to be studying for socio test tmr but my heart is not there.. shucks man.. i was doing well in the morning but i decided to give myself a break and so i was reading my diary which i used to keep from sec 3- sec 4 and after that i slacked already.. i really must pia later.. cannot slack anymore *slap myself* shit man.. i'm like so distracted over what? i also dont know la.. but just that my mind wondering off when i'm studying and i cant really absorb the stuff also. partly i think coz it's just super DRY and BORING. yep so yah la i must force myself to stay focused and after tmr everything would be back to normal.. yep. fri i'm gg for an encounter camp till sun hope i would gain an insight and yep. it's BACK to the books again! i miss u dear dear.. :/

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Dear dear.. i'm so sorry that such a terrible thing had to happen. U must be strong ya.. for the time being let's put all our plans aside first. Wait till everything is settled le then we discuss again okie? I will always be by you if u need anything yepp? Just want to let u know that i care ya.. Take care and I love you :))

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Oh man.. i got my long awaited wish come true today. Not to get into NTU but to teach at pei hwa primary.. all the squeeky high pitched voices---> made me have headache but i simply enjoyed myself.. tmr during DOM's break time, pei hwa called me up and asked me if i could go down for class to relief for pri 1 and 2 class.. i dint want to miss another chance so i decided to go for it! yeps.. haha.. i was so excited that i finally had a chance to do down there to teach.. i was waiting to see all the chubby faces and i wasnt disappointed.. haha just that i dint get to pinch their faces.. haha if not wait i kena complained then can say BYEBYE le.. haha so yeps i relief-ed from 12-630 and after that i was like super shagged le but still had to meet jr and tay at city hall to discuss tuition stuff.. my head was throbbing like mad le but i felt better just by being in company with them. yeps. but still it's still hurting and it's all from the squeeky kids.. they are really super cute " teacher, teacher, can i drink water?'', " teacher, teacher, can i go toilet?", "teacher,teacher, can i go over to my friend's table?" haha so cute.. all these small little acts really reflected their innocence and how much i really love them.. haha i think this is the best present i received this year besides the WONDERFUL card dearie made. yeps haha i just took 2 panadol to suppress the headache but apparently it's not getting any better coz my head is still throbbing arrgh! sigh.. MON! haha our 2nd month and i got relief classes too.. muhahha $_$ so happy.. cant wait for mon to come. yep yep that's all peeps.. i feeling a little stoned already... Bye~~~~~~~~~

woW~

*sings* Happy birthday to me.. Happy birthday to me.. Happy birthday to Royal Meeeeee... Happy birthday tooooo Meeeeeeee *applause*
haha think i'm not so alright.. anyways yest i celebrated my ROyal 19th birthday and it would be the last year i can count my age starting with number '1'.. sigh next year will be 20 le.. getting real OLD.. haha yeps yeps but i think this year's celebration was the BEST i ever had.. haha because of my royalty *shy*, celebration for princess peh's birthday actually started on the 2nd of Nov.. haha i went to meet dearie for dinner at Fish and Co..(the glass house as vivien calls it) yeps and he bought me a bouquet of Daisies.. haha so nice.. i thought that was the end and he also bought me a care bear(the one with the four leaf clover on the stomach de) and famous amos.. (slurpz) that's not the HIGHLIGHT.. haha the highlight was the card he made.. oh man.. it's really SUPER DUPER nice.. i was so super touched by it.. he used little bulbs to make a heart shape and it was connected to batteries so when i on it the heart would light up.. oh man.. i cant believe he could actually do it. So proud of him!!!!! and so proud of myself to have such a BOYFRIEND.. haha tsk..tsk.. peeps reading this must be so jealous of me.. *shy* haha if got chance ask me to show u the MASTERPIECE.. lolz.. it's really B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!!!!!!! haha.. yeps so we headed home after that and i washed up.. least did i expect evofus + kelvin were ambushing at west mall already waiting for me to come home and gave me a surprise! haha they were all at my place when i was watching my Jay Chou's MTV.. lolz i was really really surprised and touched too.. haha but the sad thing was that they only stayed on for a while and we dint really have a good chance to chat about stuff.. yeps got lots to share but NO!!!! time.. arrgh.. haha they left at about 1230 and i cleared up and zzzz.. haha the next morning.. i was awaken by dearie's phone call and he called at around 9.30 and i was shocked coz i slept so well that i dint realise that it was so late already and we were meeting at clementi at 11 to go picniking at West Coast.. haha i've never gone picniking before.. maybe except cum sun tanning but yest we were like intensive picniking.. ok. whatever -_-'' the weather was super good.. not very sunny but it started to drizzle a little but it couldnt dampen our mood.. haha dearie bought me a slice of BLACK FOREST CAKE (are u reading this TAY?!) haha but i think the cream melted under the intense heat and it was quite sick but still.. Greedy me ate the cake.. haha yeps there were many ppl flying kites.. and were.. hmmm CoOL but we dint know how to fly a kite so we played frisbee instead.. haha it was quite a day.. luckily we brought lots of fruits or else i think we would have died of dehydration.. lolz i went home around 5+ coz at night i had BBQ with the Royal family mah.. lolz we ate and ate and ate just like PIGS.. lolz *snort* finally got to rest at around 9+ almost died.. what a hectic day.. today is not good too.. i had IBM class in the morning then at night i have socio from 6-930 @_@ maybe i'll fall asleep in the lect.. sigh.. but miraculously i paid attention in class today.. haha i knew what DOM was talking about and maybe i did laugh at some of his lame jokes... haha yeps so now i'm one year older i must be more Matured.. haha lolz.. that's all folks got any other stuff when we meet up i'll update ya okie? take care peeps! Miss u all :))