sucks

just now went to check out hui and sm's blog. seems like no one came online to blog recently except me. haiz when my results are like shit already i should be studying hard and not blogging here. sucks. yest just had maths paper 1 and fuck lor think i'm going to flunk it all the fucking shit i cant prove.. use wrong formula have no idea how to do.. that's so cb and i was having cramps sitting in the i-think-it's-zero-degrees hall freezing and trying to think of how to do.. fuck la.. i really hate maths. yest TT say that he thinks that he may not be able to make it to uni i'm very scared that i'll have the same fate as him.. i dont want.. though i know chances of me being that is quite high.. damn it ar i dunnoe how also.. maths really suck lor. i still got quite a few chapters i'm not familiar with and only got a month away from the As.. how sia. this is so fuck. yest i studied till 3 in the morning and this morning bitch woke me up at 9.30 saying that our maid had ran away. fuck. she was hanging the clothes when i woke up la.. what run away so sucky. and my bastard bro.. woa lao think my family arh.. really suck..oh yah one thing i must mention about.. now i dunnoe if i really still like HIM not.. cuz yest i was looking at HIS pic hehe then i suddenly asked myself if i really still liked him.. i couldnt answer cuz i was so damn scared that i have a crush on my stupid CT. woa lao.. i dunoe.. argh! how do u define if u love someone?
1. do things out of freewill for him
2. sms him and hoping that he'll strike up a conversation
3. paisey to talk to him in school?
4. try to avoid him as much as possible although i may want to see him very much
5. become jealous when he's alone with other girls
6. when he sends u simple msges like even "take care ya" you'll feel warm at heart
7. every single thing of his (money) you'll keep it and wont spend it..$17 hahaha :P
argh.. i'm so in love.. but dunoe with who.. aiyah maybe i can like 2 person at the same time? hahaha no la i not so bad de.. haiz cant wait for all this shit to be over.. i wanted to biao bai together with hui after the As de but now i cant even be sure of my own feelings how to biao bai? my goodness.. maybe i should do a sign test.. (numerical analysis) hahaha i love him. i love him not. i love him .i love him not. i love him .i love him not. i love him. i love him not.i love him.i love him not.i love him.i love him not.i love him.i love him not.i love him.i love him not. i love him. i love him not.i love him.i love him.i love him not. i love him.i love him. i love him.i love him. i dunoe! do i love him? can time tell? this is so fuck.