`HeArtbreAk of HArdbreAk?

yeah.. today's maybe the suckiest day of my life.. in the morning went for maths and the bloody lecturer kept calling me dunnoe for wad woa lao.. made me embarrassed myself in front of the whole lt group.. sucks lor...haiz.. yah then after that i still got the bloody self study thingy.. actually i shouldn't call it bloody since i agreed with HIM that this self study thingy is actually good.. yah so WP and JR left earlier and i decided to stay back myself in the library to do my work cuz i know i at home sure slack de.. yah i did lor.. yah whatever.. so during break time i msged HIM cuz he said HE was sick yesterday and okay he said he was feeling better ler but he told me something that really broke my heart.. maybe it's nothing to u the one reading it but to me... haiz :~( he said from tmr onwards he will off his phone during the day so that he can focus on his studies.. what the hell did he mean that when he told me that lor.. isn't it indirectly telling me to stop smsing him? FUCK lor.. maybe is i too sensitive or wad lar.. but i think when u're in love with somebody.. you'll tend to be over sensitive.. damn it i got no one to talk to lor.. no one will understand cuz they'll just say that i think too much la.. haiz.. dunnoe how.. i think studying in school is really effective man.. wont feel sleepy.. yeah.. so that's bout it that fucked up my whole damn day.. can't stand it.. i dont want myself to fall in love with him but i cant la.. damn it.. somemore now is not like leh.. it's love.. but one sided.. haiz.. tmr going still to see him in school dunnoe what's going to happen.. think i'm going to kill myself later.. bye