Perish in the name of love

i must say.. yesterday was the most memorable day of my life idunnoe la but i felt that it was lo.. for the first time in my life the guy that i had a crush on actually asked me out to buy CNY clothes.. when we were out i took a liking on a quiksilver shirtn he actually liked it too.. wahaha but too bad the smallest size theyhad is XL which is apparently too big for him.. heez.. yah lor. so we just walked around and we went to pacific plaza thinking that there are so many surf shops there maybe can find something nice but when we went there all the shops were closed liao lor.. so he suggested sitting down to think where we should go next.. haha for that moment i thought he was going to biao bai.. but please lor.. i think i'm too thick skinned to think of it that way.. ppl like me are not worthy of being in a relationship.. argh i hate myself.. but after that he suggested walking to wisma to check out the surf shop over at that side but when we walk there the shop is closed too.. so he suggested that we go drink coffee but i said drink liao wait tonight cannot sleep.. if i'm not wrong i think he asked about thrice if we should go get a cuppa but i said no la.. on one hand is i dont want to go home too late cuz i never tell mum that i'm going shopping.. she'll kill me on the other hand i dont want to be awake until 3+ even though i still did despite not drinking the coffee.. haha haiz i told xy bout it and she said maybe he wants to cosy up la but i doubt that's the case.. but come to think of it.. he's 21 this year and we've known each other for like 5 coming 6 years liao leh and this is the first time he asked me out to go shopping lor.. but when he confided in me that he's having some relationship problems with his classmate for being too popular.. haha i started thinking if he asked me out cuz his friends didn't want to go out with him.. if that's the case.. i'll be super disappointed in him.. damn.. why should my thoughts run wild lidat? :( dunnoe la so sick.. his going for haircut say that he wants to book it on fri but aiyah i dunnoe la so damn confused.. i want to know what he is thinking about.. i guess it's the same for everyone who has a crush lor.. sigh* sometimes i feel like msging him " how i wish i'm a guy so i wouldn't fall in love with you" but i think that it's super duper obvious that i'm trying to biao bai and he 100000000000% wont take me seriously de.. my goodness.. wo bu zhi dao la.. my mind's in a whirl now.. ciaozz think i'll do some knitting before i go to bed tonight.. tmr sm coming over to sun tan hope lime green wont be downstairs and that the sun would be super strong.. watch out for this corner.. haha