feeling slightly better

Today wasnt as bad as the few days, as in i woke up without the weird feeling in my stomach and most importantly my emotions are maybe.. under controlled. i still miss him very very much but luckily his sergents gave him 5 mins to use his hp and he did call me. i'm so glad coz i've sort of given up waiting for his call if the time passes 1030 coz that's their lights out time. Now i'm more worried for him if he can cope inside, all the strenuous exercise, all the early morning wake-ups and stuff, i really worry for him if he can take it. it really broke my heart yesterday when he told me stop crying coz he felt like crying also and that he asked me to pray for him. it seems like he has much more problems coping and adjusting to life in there more than i have problems adjusting to life without the late night talks with him.. at least for me, i still have my family and friends to hear me cry but for him? all he has is just himself to fend for. Now then did it daunt on me that i've been so selfish all this while. Wanting him to console me when he's feeling even worse than i do. :( I just felt that he had so much things and problems to complain to me about but the talking time for the both of us is limited. If we can manage a 10 mins or so, it would be considered a luxury. sigh.. I've decided to be strong for the sake of Aloy, to listen to his complains instead of he listening to my sobbings every night. I just cant wait for the 21st to come for his first book out. sigh alright gtg already. needa pack my stuff, gg over to sm's place already. bye peeps. take care and God bless