Saturday, May 29, 2004

Is L0v5 in E a|r?

haiz... think this few days i'm really very depressed thanks to HIM.. yeah it's that HIM again the same old HIM... haha anyway.. just this week i met him on the bus and at the bus stop.. i cant stop thinking about him.. non-stop even when i'm with my close guy friend.. darn! aren't i a bitch.. sucks man.. yeah anyway something damn shitty happened just now.. cuz i was looking for someone with ink jet printer then i asked swimming cap if she know anyone la.. she told me concrete (a guy from her class) have but i think i saw wrongly and thought that she meant red colour(another guy from her class) so i kept smsing concrete thinking that he is red colour... darn and i even scolded him cuz he didn't know who i was when we were in the same tuition group?! aiyah it's very confusing cuz i was so messed up at that point of time and luckily i called swimming cap to clear things up or i would have embarrassed myself until dunnoe wad.. kaoz... really very paisey! haha but at least concrete is nice enough not to be angry with me.. haha..oh yah be4 i forget just now i went to jp with TT and jr then when TT saw the cd he wanted to buy he started to scream and attempted to hug me!!!!! luckily i siam fast enough... haha if last time maybe i not have budge but now.. my hug is not for him... haha but seriously speaking we really look like couple lor... but... too bad la i got over him and love sick over the other guy liao.. kaoz.. he also like another girl so though we behave like couple.. both our hearts are made lonely by another guy and girl.. yeah very sad lor.. sometimes i feel like asking him to be my bf just to fill up the loneliness i have everytime i think about HIM yeah.. HIM the HIM in all my entries.. but to think of it.. like not fair to TT lor.. so i just got rid of that stupid thought.. Are crushes that agonising? if they aren't why are all my crushes all agonising? i'm always so close to being together with that guy and then suddenly overnight everything just *POOF* gone.... haiz... dunnoe la anyway i think it's improving already la.. or izit my own wishful thinking? sucks.. i dunnoe just to end of with a quote i read somewhere from the net.. here it goes "i love you in silence cuz in silence i love u with all my heart, i love u in loneliness cuz in loneliness no one owns u but me.." so sad right the quote? but it's exactly how i'm feeling now.. no one understands but you...

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