donuts

it's so difficult to be this happy anymore.. i dont know what's in for us in the future and i'm feeling very tired holding onto our relationship though i still very much want to be in it.. sigh * ok i know it's very contradicting* whatever :(

presenting to you... DOnuts from donut factory.. i know it's like sooooo expired if i say i just ate it today.. muha but it's true okie.. and i queued 1.5 hrs for it hor.. heh with my NIE friends but the 1.5 hr passed quite quickly.. my fave one is the white one with black stripes.. inside got choco and will ooze out when you bite into it.. haha :P slurrp nice nice :) but the rest so so only maybe a bit overated and the queue for the donuts are really GET A LIFE. probably the last time i will eat them if i have to get them myself again.. haha :X

expired products

ok.. some really expired pics to share.. muha :X me and sweetheart we went to waraku@ the central.. nice restaurant and good service :) you get free coke if you are waiting for your seat.. lol

some green drink i forgot what's the content le.. heh not bad :D

scallop and prawn pizza. very thin base very fresh seafood shiok ar :D

hokkiado crab pasta.. a bit too creamy for my liking.. heng i nv order.. lol

mine!!!!! scallop and asparagus pasta.. very nice cooked in some herb style.. i like it :D

oh my.. did i post this before? me and AT went prawning and this was our catch of the day..

monkey business on the MRT.. tsk tsk

durian puffs waiting in the line to be sent into the oven

getting themselves a good tan in the oven.. haha

the masterpieces!!!!!!!!!!! puffs filled with durian puree!!!!! fresh and SLURRP

the guy behind the "stuffings" haha

after a hectic day.. US

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i dont want to be just the person who is free to accompany you on weekends to go out for movies. i want your time on weekdays too, but you dont seem to be able to do it.. i really dont know now how... sucks man am i really your girlfriend? but u really dont treat me like one

hurt and broken

hurt and broken was how i had been feeling for the past one week. but ok..now we've made up. but is that the end of everything? i'm not sure if writing this entry is the right thing to do or not. but really though we have made up and both of us have tried to make things like how they were before i wont deny that things are different now. changed for the better or worst, maybe it's still too early to say. whatever it is, i'm still not ready to let go of things now. there are too many memories, good ones and bad ones and really i'm not mentally ready to miss them now, and of course you. i really hate myself, why i dont have the courage to just end things, choosing to hold on instead then i read in the bible, that if GOD brought these 2 people together, let man not separate them. think it's in the book of matthew and also mark but not sure the exact chapter. sigh maybe it's the stress coming from your work that's changing everything but i dont want that to be any excuse.. and no matter how tired you are, i think it's only right that you give me a little of your time everyday. if we cant meet everyday, then at least you could call me to talk to me for a while every night? maybe for some couples, there isn't a need to do that every night but we have been doing that for nearly 2 years already and if now suddenly we stop doing it, i'll have difficulties in adapting to it.. :( i cant say that i'm feeling very blissful now but i'm just glad that we are still together in this and also we have decided to work things out. it's inevitable that things will change and ppl will change too, but what i need now is time to adapt to everything, you cant possibly expect me to accept everything overnight? sigh.. dont know la think for that unfortunate event that happened to us has really tested my patience and i can tell you that if there's gg to be a repeat of it, really goodbye this time.. no matter how hurt i will be, i will let go. all the good memories that we have and we're gg to have will be destroyed.. :X dont really know what i'm typing now la.. maybe eat too full just now.. i had steamboat with my nie friends.. so full BURRP feel like puking :X but whatever, dont sidetrack, i want this to be the closure for us and not to mention it again in any of the quarrels. i know it's difficult for me to do it but i'll really try even if it's gg to hurt me like mad :( . i promise you

17-08-2007

if it's so difficult to make a decision whether to hold on or to move on, i guess this time round it's really time to let go.. it's really eating into me and i cant afford that :( I really need to trust in GOD to guide me and to comfort me.

birthday wishlish

Ok.. i've come up with a brief birthday wishlist.. haha

1. "i'm not a plastic bag" canvas tote bag dont need to buy the authentic one.. i saw one on yahoo auctions selling at $35.. either blue or brown will do :D i'm super tempted to buy one NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrgh

2. Oven (evofus?)

3. Diamond earrings( darling?)

4. ANNA SUI Dolly Girl Bonjour L'Amour ( the biggest bottle) - the new anna sui perfume.. purple colour de.. let me know if you're choosing to get this coz i've got a contact selling cheap. :D below $70

5. nice shoulder bags

6. accessories. *nice ones pls*

7. spongebob merchandise ( but no soft toy pls coz my bed no space le..)

8.nice earrings. dangling ones pls. i like bronze coloured ones. no silver pls.

-till then .. haha that's all. let me know which one you guys are interested in then i can chope it for you.. HAHA *shy* :X

after so loooooong

heh.. it's been nearly a month since i updated my blog.. well coz i've been really busy in school and once i'm at home i dont even want to go near to the computer la.. so havent had time to blog.. hope my loyal readers hadnt abandoned your dear blog here.. haha i've been attached to West View Primary for nearly 5 weeks already and this is my last week here.. think i'm really gonna miss the kids here.. though they nearly drove me crazy, they are all cute in their own way.. :D shall post up some pics when i've taken pictures with them.. sigh cant believe i'm blogging here when i'm being buried in un-marked books.. lol.. so many things happened lately and i would wish i can update you guys here but seriously la.. there are too many and some maybe i cant even rmb le.. heh anyways major changes.. i bought a new phone :D samsung Z720 very nice slide phone.. shall take some nice pics and upload them here.. :) hmmm also i'll be taking my basic theory on the 8th of Aug.. PraY foR mE ppl!!!! i wanna drive :X muha.. yup.. that's about all everything is alright for now.. i just completed all my observations for this module and thanks GOD.. everything went somehow well. i managed to complete carrying out my lesson plans and the kids were very cooperative.. sigh a bit sian to go back NIE :( must wake up early to go school.. arrgh but i wake up earlier each day to come to school i wake up at 550 everyday lor.. yawn now gg back to nie i dont even get a room in hostel lor.. arrgh hope that my name is still on the waiting list if not i'm gg to squeeze in with LUA KA already.. lol that's about all.. needa go and mark my books already if not fri i cannot go home liao.. hahaha bye ppl shall update soon again.. GOD BLESS :D

check it

Just wanted to go some quick uploading of pictures since the previous time i couldnt upload any when i was in the blogging mood.. muha :X anyways i just dl-ed mozilla firefox and it's supposed to prevent any forms of spyware and stuff la.. so for those ppl who love to dl stuff online maybe can try using it lor.. at least can prevent your com/lappy from crashing.. heh it's free de.. get it from www.downloads.com then click browser or something then have le :D ciaoAh ha.. peachy-longany tarts..

oreo cheesecake by me and dear.. :D

the super nice tarts that i was talking about in the previous post..

my cutesy nephew and me.. i kept squeezing his face. muha :X
P.S. pls excuse the weird looking brows. i'm waiting for them to get bushier then i go for shaping.. haha a bit out of shape already. arrgh

baker and baker-ress of the day.. :D

baking days

i wanted to post some pics that i've taken of the delicious peachy-longany-lycheey custard tarts i made at piu piu's place but apparently high class blogger is giving me problems again so cannot.. arrgh sucks.. but still this holiday has been a rather fruitful one, for my baking part coz i've tried fruit tarts (success!!), durian roll (not bad..), yam paste (tok gong!!!), tea leaf egg (shiok!!), durian puff (failed.. dont ask me. ask piu piu why :( ).. think that's about all i've tried making le.. heh but soooo happy, managed to try so many different stuff, of which i've never made before.. today went to catch Fantastic 4 with aloys.. not that nice la.. think in the middle of the show i almost doze off.. heh dont know why so tired.. yawn we always go watch movie de la.. muha next on the list is transformers.. muha thought i wouldnt like it but when i watched the trailer.. it's really --------> NICE. haha shall watch it with my little longan-no-more haha. @_@.. then on thurs for our 21st month we went to watch shrek 3.. that's nicer la.. for our little celebration we cooked dinner together.. very nice. thanks sweetheart for everything, you patience and love. muack :* think i've challenged his patience and limits everytime but everytime he'll give in to me, hopefully i can change this bad temper of mine.. sigh anyways i've decided that i'm gg to hold another............................. TEA PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woo hoo aint that exciting?? for those who missed it that time can come again.. hah but think u guys coming have to chip in a little la ok? muha $_$ your friend here is a little broke. lol maybe u can request what u want to have then i see if i can cook for you all :D i love tea parties.. heh :) oh yes it'll be held near the end of july before school reopens coz i have attachment till dont know when.. ( so wait for my invitation okie????) :D sigh needa report to school on the 21st le.. arrgh for staff meeting, praying for all to be well.. oh yes.. tmr's a exciting day coz i'm gg BBQ with my cell members whom i'm meeting for the first time.. hehe soo excited but just hoping that i wont get toooo emotional there.. haha nothing much to update also.. heh just keep gaining weight only and my bank's drying up.. lol and i havent pay my hp bill yet.. arrgh byebye hah but i'm still feeling happy in the midst of all this.. ciaoz PRAISE GOD!!!!!!

pics..

alright let the pics do the talking.. haha

me and my best friend in the world--> fitch muha ;)
someone.. help!

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It's a MUSICAL ok.. hah but just that the characters are spongebob and pats.. lol the whole expo hall was packed with shrieking kids.. it's a MUSICAL not a cartoon show lor.. but i think singaporeans love to pamper their kids la.. i bet the kids were wondering why spongebob's head is on top of the sponge instead of the front.. -_-'' and the super disappointing thing is and still is.. i was looking forward to lots and lots and lots of spongebob and pats merchandise but to my disappointment, they only had cap (too small for my head) , light wand( quite a lot of kids bought and were waving them like mad during the show.. HELLO it's a musical not a concert lah. -_-'' wake up your idea), keychain ( super ugly can), spongebob toy ( i've one bigger and cuter one and home) and guess what? THAT'S ALL. woa lao ey i thought i can grab some nice and cute stuff but in the end.. sigh what the heck lor.. arrgh but the show was quite nice la.. maybe we should catch DIM SUM DOLLIES sometime?? terence? check it out kaez. heh

*****hint***** spongebob and PATS's merchandise for 3rd Nov *shy* muha

him and Pats

me and pats

i'm so going to get a patrick shaped bday cake! i dont care :X

:)

someone

goodies from japan :D

burnt a hole in my pocket today. total damage: $132 on clothes and a new bag.. haha considering i just bought sooooooo many tops during my stay- in this week OMG.. in just one week i have like 7 new tops?? haha costing $200+++ oh man :X i think i have to eat air already for the rest of the month.. arrgh anyways PIU PIU is back.. haha my fitchy roomie!!! :D when i spotted her round face admist all the skinny booties at TOP SHOP i wanted to give her a big HUG! haha rmb that time i gave a her a hug i almost suffocated her. :) how i love her. a big thanks to piu piu for her goodies from japan.. haha i love the spongebob box and the "mike" the most.. haha u just got me a teaching tool :D sank u very much piu piu.. invigilating is the boring-est job in the world coz it's dead silence then cannot sms and talk so best zzzz haha but easy money la so better not complain.. hur anyways my legs have 80% healed but the blue black part and my ankle still hurt a bit especially when i run.. which is real bad.. arrgh pls pray for healing okie. thanks peeps. anyways retail therapy really works for me.. especially when i'm feeling lonely i just shop non- stop by myself, taking my own sweet time at every shop, going everywhere i like but it's a little lonely la.. but what to do.. sigh nvm buying something nice beats everything. even missing that someone. ( refer to above pic for someone ) sigh ciaoz

i know i have to be understanding that u are having parade and stuff and you'll be very busy but.. sigh i dont know man.. asking u to take leave to spend the day with me is like asking u to do something very difficult or maybe asking u write an essay in chinese.. i really dont know la NS is really taking up a lot of OUR time. u say u wanna spend the weekends with me, but u should know for my mum the weekends are like "family time" to her so how can i just tell her that i want to go out with u and stuff? i really dont know la the taking leave part i've told u long ago even before my exam ended and u said u will take leave, i thought before the parade practise starts but by the time i reminded u to take leave, we're one week away from the parade. :( sigh i really hate it la.. i dont know how to tell u also ok. anyways i blog here i wonder when will u ever read it also la. sigh forget it la :( i miss my friends man i hate having holidays and staying at home, watch tv eat, sleep like a pig i want to hang out with my friends, i want to hang out with you. but when? u tell me june. ok. but june i'm gg to school already and i wont have time to us, maybe much lesser than now. i'm gg to be busy and i want to make up for the time later on.. sigh you say we will try to make time.. but how? sucks man.. i dont want to pretend that i'm very happy in front of you when in fact i'm bitter over all this ok. it's not gg to work out. everything. :( tmr's my first day at work invigilating for the UOL exam. hope everything will work out fine.
keep me in your prayers ok. :X

The state i'm in now--> sprained ankle and bruises.. :(

My darling and his new specs

i miss my hamster babies.. all of them :(

Kelong trip!!!!!!! :D

Happy family. all sunkissed :X

catch of the day

my hands have been itching to blog suddenly but blogger's layout sucks but anyways i'll try to blog kaez.. wonder if my entry will turn out not. kaoz last night whilst lying on my bed, i talked to GOD and guess what?? i was given the anointing of speaking in tongues.. Oh my goodness. i was quite taken aback by it coz i spoke of it for quite long leis.. during encounter few months back i thought i could speak in tongues but it was only for a syallbus but yest it was different. i really felt that GOD was speaking to me.. it's really a wonderful feeling. :D yeah.. just wanted to share this wonderful experience with all of you.. anyways wanted to post some pics but i lazy to use my lap top since now i'm at home so the pics have got to wait till i'm the in "i like to post pics" mood haha.. yup me and darling went to queensway to make new specs and i must say he looks quite cute in the new specs.. haha i know u cant wait to see the pics too.. haha too bad :X lol kelong fishing on sat.. cant wait.. alright la shant rant on anymore. byebye take care everyone..

i typed a whole of shit now and this @$#*^@)(#*&^@*(& blogger dint even take down any. BLOODY HELL. i hate u

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choosing to let go

i've been really unhappy this few weeks, or maybe i choose to blog about unhappy stuff or maybe nothing happy exists between the two of us anymore. quarrels are more frequent than ever and i'm unhappy than anytime. i think one of the reason is we have lesser time to meet up also, since i'm having my exams and you are busy with your work, guess we both dont have time for each other, maybe not as much as before. are we gg to stick to this for the rest of the time we have in this relationship, because if it is, i'm telling you now that i'm choosing to let go. you can say that i dont treasure this relationship or whatever thing but i've told u many times what i hope to see in you but it just doesnt come up or maybe it did and i failed to notice them. i'm really one unreasonable and hard to satisfy girlfriend,i admit but maybe you should ask yourself if you've done enough for this relationship and for me. If you felt that u did, ok good for you but to me, there's always something lacking. Maybe we are not meant for each other afterall or maybe GOD wants me to meet someone wrong before finally i meet the right guy? i dont know.. i'm selfish, self-centered and impatient with you i admit it all but that's not gg to solve the problem now right? coz i'm not changing and i dont know how.. maybe choosing the easy way out (like what u always say) is the only solution for Now. i'm really at a lost of what i can do to salvage this relationship.. :(( but i'm sure to say that i wont allow unhappiness to consume myself . God Bless all

things are not good

this is it. we've got nothing more to say to each other. or maybe coz you're just too tired to talk to me. nvm

unhappiness

i dont think there's such a thing as "Happily Ever After" even for married couples i dont think that such a thing even exists especially when the 2 ppl involves me. i'm really selfish, self-centered. u dont know what i want and what i need. what u ever do is to ever give in to me. where's your personality? where's your temper? gone. you always say you are there waiting for me, you will love me. your loving really made me suffocate. or maybe like what u say i'm the one making myself suffocate or what.. but i really feel that our lives are so different now, we'll never ever cross paths. you in ns and me studying now. we have to make an effort to meet up and travel up and down. now u will tell me that u dont mind travelling,i really dont know what to say lei.. you always give in to me and just dont want to fight for what u really want. i can tell u now that if u still want to be in this relationship with me, more of such things will happen. we are just 1 day short of our anniversary, but just looking back at my entries, maybe for the past one month or even longer, we have more quarrels then happy times la. it's wearying me down. u definitely will say that i'm always the one picking trouble with you and that u are happy in this relationship but i'm not la. i'm not happy when we quarrel every now and then. AT THIS VERY MOMENT. you are sleeping coz u have a headache and u ask me to cheer up.. ON MY OWN? how man? self- entertain? i know u will be very angry when u read this entry but this is really what i want to say before u tell me that it's very late for u to stay up already coz u have to work 630 tmr. i dont know la maybe we are just not right for each other and waiting for the right time to end all this for good. i dont know how are we ever to solve all this :( all this nonsense things that can be avoided if your gf hadnt been me :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

arrgh..

Just got back from NUS's hostels.. sigh and listening to my friend's woes it really made me think, izit that good to be in a relationship? hmm i dont know. sigh i dont want to quarrel with him but think i'm really short-tempered in this relationship.. how i can make myself more big hearted towards someone i really care a lot for? i really wonder how i can be.. i'm really very selfish and self-centered then all of u can imagine.. :(