you will NEVER understand :((

guys would never experience what i'm going through now.. i've got my own school stuff to settle and jr's camp thing and another side my mum's up to my throat already.. i really feel like ending my life now.. at this point of time.. i dont want to think about any of this stuff already.. i cannot handle them.. i'm not strong enough. serious.. i'm nervous about the camp, i have to lie to my mum whenever i go out.. who can even understand all this? dont tell me u can.. i know u are lying. BECAUSE YOU NEVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm mad at everybody mad at myself.. so sick of this world.so sick of everything. leave me alone