i hate my life.

been quite a while since i last blogged.. haiz and so muchie have happened.. finally i've received my final judgement.. i'm gg to SIM. That's it. but apparently that woman at home just dont want to accept the fact and insist that i enrol for the dip in teaching.. haiz.. what's the prob la.. haiz i'm so sick and tired of arguing with them what i want and what is GOOD for me.. what the heck.. i'm jobless now and damn damn broke. i help hui pay for 45 pounds and sm $45 for her SD card. how great. and all my previous employers just refuses to pay me back..(My PAY LA! DAMNIT) my bank account is depleting at an alarming rate.. my goodness.. haha but anyways that's not the main point.. yep yep.. today i went for Aloy's church service.. though it's EARLY in the morning but i felt much more comfortable then the time i went for JR's de.. dunnoe but not much jumping la.. then i got to talk to his cell leader for quite a while.. which i find that it's not bad.. maybe can ask sm and fishy along next time if i wanna go again.. maybe what aloysius said is true that you'll need to go more often to be familiar with the practice.. and seriously it is not easy to become a christian.. 1stly, i've got a woman at home who is always here to BLAST at me. 2ndly, i admit i lack the commitment to go to church every sunday and read the bible everyday.. 3rdly, i still kind of live by sight and not faith.. in one of the songs they sang during service is that " i live by faith and not sight" but i dont think i can do so yet.. aiyah it takes time lor.. yep yep but seriously i think nowadays ppl are so busy and caught up with their own stuff and attending something that makes u grow mature spiritually is like quite hard? i dont know la.. but if u ask someone would they rather go church or movie? if both are FOC i bet it's the latter lor.. but yah la.. just let nature takes its course.. i also dont want to force anything now.. just let things stay the way they are. I'm loving it! haha haiz.. oh yeah.. Hui if you're reading this.. your timetable u try to arrange same as mine okie? wed no school! haha then we can go chill out or exercise hor.. i made a new friend at SIM.. haha she's as crazy as me (thank God!) lolz.. i'm not so lonely afterall.. haha i've not been able to sleep well this few days.. dunnoe why also cant sleep that's why it's 1am liao but i'm still here.. damn what's wrong..also, i still love hockey so i'm gg to join SRC's hockey dont care what the woman says.. it's my passion :) even at the expense of my grades.. at least i'm doing something i like.. not say get a degree will ensure a better life.. my uncles are only sec 4 educated but they are like bloody rich.. so as long they are willing to slog to achieve..i would too if i put my passion in it ok! aloysius stop laughing when u are reading this okie. i'm serious.. i'm starting a cafe! lolz.. k la think i wrote enough already. must go watch movie when i come back from m'sia okie? Ciaoz take care Peeps miss ya~ /inital D/