i dont wanna live anymore

today just sucked for me. i had my nmr test and i felt so damn bloody stressed. i dont feel like living anymore. everything's going wrong for me. i'm flunking my tests(including today's i guess) suck. i dont think i can make it for the As. so damn stressed. sm say this is the route i've chosen so i just have to make the best out of it but i cant. i feel sucked off my soul. my everything. i have no time for anything except to study.what the hell. and to make things worse. just now when i took 176 home and when i was boarding the bus some fucking guy in front of me actually elbowed my face. fuck. and he dint even apologose. just treat as if nothing happen. what the hell. today's real shitty. everyone thought i was something wrong and i was la k.. i've got attitude problem. checked out TT's new T630 like not very user friendly.. maybe i should continue waiting for my dream phone but if i die then dont need to wait liao. great.