pursuit of un-happyness

Was just thinking what are some of the possible causes that will result in couples breaking up? izit
1. unfaithfulness
2. childishness
3. fading of feelings
4. no reason
?? just a thought that came up after we had this weird conversation.

Happy 18 months. anymore to come?

maybe meeting up doesnt hold as much significance as before already since we are so busy with our own life.. but i still cherish every moment spent with you..

cravings..

i wanna eat
1. fish soup from either red hill/ bugis branch
2. pig stomach soup ("zhu du tang") from tiong bahru market
3. KFC.
arrgh will update more when more food items come to my mind.. lol i dont mind cheng teng from newton also arrgh. diet diet.. when am i gg to embark on that terrible journey again.. sigh

back and wounded

sigh.. this is a bad start of the year man.. everything seems to be gg wrong for me.. sigh tot i could go for OBS then at least i can slim down 1-2kg but it turned out worst think i became even fatter.. arrgh coz i strained my both hands and had to go back early.. what the heck lor and not to mention i returned home with lots of mosquito bites.. arrgh but it's a experience worth paying for.. i mean it's only $80 and we get to learn how to appreciate things are in our lives and how we should not take small small things like even a reasonable amount of space to sleep at night la.. tsk tsk let's not go into details ask me if u wanna know more and i can rattle on.. arrgh :( back in hall now and i miss my comfortable bed and high speed fan :( sucky.. what i'm looking forward to now is the encounter camp from 31st mar-1st apr.. hopefully i can to really encounter GOD and pray for all who need.. aloys had been wanting me to go for an encounter camp and since this camp is RIGHT BEHIND MY HOUSE.. why not go for it man.. dont wanna procrastinate anymore.. think i've wasted too much time in doing that already and the time i've spent procrastinating can like be used to take one good sleep la.. sorry huh the english here a bit wrong but WHO CARES. be yourself.. lol :X today's test suck like shit and the teacher still say it's super easy -_-'' i couldnt even do it la.. just praying hard that i'll do a pass.. dont wanna fail any modules if not can say byebye to my degree le.. arrgh now that the test is over can slack a bit but need to do some catching up also.. heh but tetatively quite free.. lol :D thurs's socks's 21st big day.. hopefully we can play like mad that day and really enjoy ourselves man.. i think i really deserve some time TO LET LOOSE!!! watch out man.. lol nothing much to update actually.. everything's the same for me and aloys the usual quarrels but we're still gg strong.. just wanna encourage all those ppl out there who are reading my blog and are having difficulties in their relationship, if u guys are not exactly feeling very happy now at this moment in this relationship maybe u should think back from the start, what had brought u together.. was it LoVE? if it is, and u still love the other party then maybe u should hang on and try to make the relationship work.. yeah that's just a thought of mine and what held on together for me and aloys.. yup caught the movie "pursuit of happyness" and it's really a very meaningful show.. it actually reflects on us how we view things like we are all very worried about small stuff like hiccups in relationships or even not being able to be attached but there are actually bigger and more important things in life that are more worth of us to spend time on.. was telling ling dude that day coz she was feeling super sad that her crush is attached then i told her to think of her tutee that found out he was adopted.. i mean it may be different issues but whatever it is, it really kept me thinking, thinking of how shallow we can get at times when we get emotional, here we are worrying over our crush and there somebody else is facing another kind of problem X100000000 times worse than ours.. we should just strive ahead and move on ba.. i think this is the kind of attitude we should have in life and what is said in bible.. so friends, let all unhappiness be bygones and strive ahead. if we keep looking back, we will never move ahead. just a funny thing i read a few days ago.." women stop worrying when they are finally married. Men start worrying when they are finally married" lol :X attended a secondary school close friend's wedding on sun.. had a shock of my life she became super bloated lor.. dont know if she put on weight for the wedding or what but it seems like she put on 10kgs??? oh man she used to be so lean in the good old days but now is like VOOM! OMG. *faint* but maybe it's the malay tradition to be slightly on the plump side when you're married but my friend is only 21!!!!!!!! so scary i was sitting on the table there eating and wondering what will happen when i'm getting married too.. it sounds rather scary who knows in just 7 years time it'll be my turn soon.. SO SCARY and to think that secondary school life has just passed not long.. when you're young u wanna be old. when you're old u wanna be young and return to the good old' days.. sigh that's life man.. arrgh my stomach having cramps now.. byebye

rants..

arrgh i really hate it la when u have to do shift work and turn up to meet me so shagged... sigh it's my e learning week so kinda free but you're not.. i think this is the kind of things that couple quarrel about and also maybe the root of them breaking up coz either party is not spending enough time together but whatever it is, i just hope that this is one of the phase that we will look back and smile about how silly the two of us were.. this afternooon, after my appointment, i went to meet up with aloy.. i had to go all the way to cck then take train down to red hill again..sigh this is the kind of silly things u will do when you're in a relationship.. and the big problem was that i was dressed like an auntie.. sigh gg here and there.. can u believe it?! during my free time i'm cooking for u while u are sleeping.. i'm not complaining or what la but sigh.. i just having PMS again.. arrgh i'm sian about so many things la seriously.. i wonder if other girls that are in similar situation as me will feel the same way too? i think for the guys maybe they are too tired to even feel this way..can u imagine waking up at 3am in the morning only to end work at 3+pm?? what the hell and for a measly pay of $300.. then the next day it's the same thing again.. how to have time to spend with girlfriend? they wont even let him go on valentine's day.. sucks man i really hate all these and how i wish we were back to where we were.. where u just had to go to school and not tied down by all these other stuff :((((((( but i know la it's not possible sigh ...anyways in front of u, i have to react as though i'm swallowing all this willingly and not make things difficult but coz this is my blog, i think i have the right to say what i really feel and what i'm not happy with, so if any of these sound sucky to u, i'm sorry man but this is really how i'm feeling at this exact moment--- SHITTY. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

RIP Bee Leng

i never knew knowing the truth could be so difficult for me.. the passing on of one of my sec sch/JC friend certaintly woke me up from where i was dreaming.. the news of her dead was smacked right into my face whether i like or not.. i had no choice but to face the cold hard truth.. she was not close to me but whatever it is i knew her and she knew me. :X when i read the words "she commited suicide last friday and now buried at..." on shumin's msn window, all the goosebumps on me just came up.. i was at a lost of what to do.. and how i should react to this sudden news.. i couldnt believe my eyes that this quiet girl actually had the courage to do something like that.. or maybe she just couldnt control herself.. :( sigh but whatever it is, this incident just taught me not to take anyone or anything for granted.. seriously u never know some friends u've always to contact but nv do is already.. dead. very sad but what to do.. come to think of it, the day that she died, i was still happily prawn fishing with my NIE friends.. ultra guilty.. there's nothing i can do now but to look back and take it as a lesson learnt. it is very sad to know that only through such traumatic things that we learn how to treasure the people arnd us more.. yest me and shumin went to her tomb to pay our respects we almost couldnt find her "address".. her ashes is located right at the bottom and it is so not prominent that we missed it twice.. whatever it is, looking at the cold hard maroon marble plate, i just felt a overwhelming sense of sadness. this is all left of my friend that is only 20 years old. how come she got so sick and tired of this world and that no one reached out to her?? though the crematorium was filled with a slight tinge of sadness, it was also peaceful and a good place i would say for someone like her to Rest in Peace..
May your soul find rest in wherever u are now and that you are happier than before.. RIP BL

randoms

EEEEEEWWWWwww but i still love him leh.. muha ;P

sorry for not blogging for such a long time... really lazy these days.. anyways this entry is gonna be a super random okie.. just trying to remember what happened like long long time ago... lol

alright, spotted this kiwi look alike bird in school few weeks back and it wasnt moving that's why i could take a super close up photo of it.. it had long wings but cannot fly or maybe lazy to fly just like i got a lot of things to say but lazy to blog.. muha

A pretty photo of me to cheer up all my friends who are not feeling not too good ok.. Hang in there k :D
oh yes.. prawn fishing today!!!!! damn fun can $26 for 3 hours.. fish like u have never fish before.. i went down to some fishing village at lakeside area.. damn cool lor.. i caught 5+++ prawns la.. got +++ coz got a few of them i let them go away.. one was out of water already but it flipped back la.. kao.. this is the mess that's left over by me and my NIE fwends.. lol
so fun.. we should go again next time.. lol the full-of-salt prawns.. very fresh, very nice.. we brought hotdogs, sotong balls, crabsmeat, satay there to eat.. more like BBQ outing rather than fishing.. all my greedy idea. damn
preparing to be BBQ-ed.. muha

super expired entry

Hey people.. sorry for the super expired entry coz i think my lappy's been infected with virus and only TODAY that i managed to blog.. heh blogger just wouldnt load for the past few days and even though i had a lot of urge to blog, i couldnt and i just had to bear with it.. can u imagine how tough it had been for me? hahaha *sniff sniff* lol anyways this entry is gonna be some super expired one coz all this events happened like one thousand years ago and then now your super lazy-fied friend has decided to blog all at one go.. -speaks- kill me somebody... haha till now, blogger's still lagging a bit whilst i'm typing now.. the words dont appear immediately after i type. sucks man this is super high CRASS.. hur.. anyhow, pictures galore :D oh yes for your info folks, i've got something up my sleeve which i'm embarking on, only lua ka and aloys know about it and it's gonna remain a secret until further notice, wells, i just want to "diao your wei kou" muha see my pictures la.. hur

Doesnt this just shock everyone? And i'm in love with him.. haha
We are supposedly playing with sparkles on New Year's Eve but it looks like it has caught fire on the grass coz i threw all of them onto the grass,afraid that it will get onto my hands! ok fine, i'm a scaredy cat.. i mean tiger.. -_-''
DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE HECK IS THIS???? JACK'S ASS i mean Place ESCARGOTS.. super duper heavenly but not heavenly on the wallet.. super ex la but horridly delicious. we should go again.. think we had it on Christmas or was it our anniversary.. hehe cant remember la :X
we tried making odeh odeh using some receipes we found online and it was a success. Aloys said that we can sell em' in future like as in for a living and i told him "GOODBYE" haha y would i? :P i know it's nice and i'll try and make for any loyal readers who is interested in trying.. SLURRP
the coconut-less odeh odeh.. humongously BIG and they will squirt out the gula melaka IN YOUR MOUTH. just imagine...... god
imagine me saying.. "and then" me and my boy after JR's 21st party.. check out those cool eye bags.. @_@ ahhh i love it like that u move it like that.. muha :P
Happy 16th months :D pleasant surprise love u ***muack***

delayed entry

hey ppl! i'm finally back from Sikkim.. wonderful trip.. :D i'm so blogging on expired stuff and sikkim stuff the last.. this rounded pic of me was taken on Aloy's Sis's wedding at grand hyatt hotel.. heh think i was trying to embarrass myself.. lol the big rose.. i like it.. some random pics first okie.. think it's gg to be super messy coz i wanted to arrange the pics de but apparently i missed out some pics so had to add in afterwards.. just read la okie.. hur HOMe alone now everyone's out of town.. arrgh lonely buny

Mango ice from XING WANG ** SHIOK AH**
darling with grandma at sis's wedding :)
hotcakes hair and me @ ikea buying Sikkim stuff
photo shot @ grand hyatt before wedding..
Me and Eugene :))
Skinny version of Obelix.. haha
I can fly if i pay $24.. haha and i did.. so fun
Bird eye view of the area
netting protection..
There's even boarding pass for the ride.. haha so cool and the Person in charge will read out the flight number before we can get onto the balloon ultra cool.. heh it's like sitting aeroplane without all the protection.. :X
Sunset in Singapore
We are being supported by one thin rope.. haha
Pic on the HOT AIR BALLOON.. finally one more wish fulfilled :D
This is the HOT AIR BALLOON!!! totally awesome
i was eating some sweet and sour squid today at paragob abt the tentacles are gg into my NOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEWWWWW haha
BOO!
AFter bathe.. hats and passion fruit.. hhaa
Paragon today
Antique lift those kind with gate doors that u have to drag it close yourself and the lift can only fit me when i'm carrying my luggage.. how cool -_-''
The "hotel" that me hani and aza stayed in when in Delhi.. " Hotel White House".. erms no comments.. :X
Now.. children of Lepcha Cottage that caught my heart... Bhasang Keepu.. one of the talkative girls, who insisted that i read to her the news of some explosion when i'm having sore throat.. miss her sooooo much and her pumpkin song.. *sniff sniff*
Our Makeshift kitchen in the Girls' bunk.. Kushi rox!!!!!!!!!!1
Henna that i tried out myself before setting up the stall 1 day later.. haha not bad even the boys love it.. :))
THIS is our water supply, exclusive of 2 big tubs i think 1000Litres.. no tap, no heater, no flushing toilet, all this water in the aquafina bottle helped us through our 14 days @ LEpcha cottage.. but i enjoyed every single moment.. at least now i know i can brush my teeth using 1.2 Litres of water, wash my hair with 2 and a half bottle of Aqua fina (1.5 Litres each) and bathe using one pail of water.. :D really an experience all youths should try out coz no words can describe how i'm feeling now and also the exact thoughts and experience i've gained while i'm in India.. A beautiful country which i wouldnt mind visiting again.. She can teach us to be thankful of what we have, from clean tap water to electricity.. things that we never thought would be so scarce in most countries.. Now i can answer Aloy why izit NIE decide to embark on this overseas YEP trip instead of helping poor ppl in Singapore.. The singapore poor people cannot be compared to them.. seriously and i think they need help from overseas organisations because the Sikkimese ppl leaving arnd there arent wealth off enough to help them.. Whatever it is, i've learnt a lot from this YEP trip and that it really did help me grow mentally and maybe physically.. haha :D
Natula Pass nearby the Chunga Lake Snow Mountain
Me and Pampkit.. i call her Waikitkit also.. heh she is super chubbly and her stomach is a bit bloated.. when u call her name she will lower her head slightly and blush.. SO CUTE.. my heart just melt man..
Naughtiest boy @ Lepcha ---> Bai he's super cute though.. arnd 3 yrs old..
me and DAWA.. autistic 5 yr old.. arrgh
SPOILT BRAT.. Butin and I.. this small boy here is super mischievous and SPOILT.. just because his mum work in Lepcha he is like the KING there.. but he is very cute even though he dont understand english at all.. haha whenever i raise my voice or stare at him, his funny laughter will just make me break into a smile.. haha love him to bits..
Tshering Bai.. this boy here is the new kid on the block.. heh he just been sent to Lepcha Cottage this year and he doesnt smile.. though it's winter time there, he is always wearing short t shirt and shorts, running arnd bare footed.. sigh and considering that we all wear until like ba zang he is always shivering. he's got big eyes that smile even though he is not smiling literally.
My "Son" Garap Lepcha.. super cute and handsome boy that i always pamper when i'm there... he's eyes are super shiny and he is super small size for his age.. he is in Pri 1 but always covered up by his friends.. kena block haha :X
SEE SEE SEE!!! told u handsome right? slurrp

Sunset @ Sikkim--> something unforgettable and wonderful.. something that i will miss and the children there.. will upload more pics once hani burn the cd for us :D

birthday celebration

Yesterday was mR Tay's 20 yr old birthday and evofussss met up at Holland's hog's breath cafe. Oh yes before i get into detailc HIS CAR BROKE DOWN! whilst helping me to move my fridge to the hostel. horrid. the car kept stalling like for 5 or 6 times IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD then i had to act like traffic police, open the door and swing my hand like mad.. arrgh but so funny, i pushed a car for the first time of my life.. muha there was smoke coming out of the car.. think if we continued driving we would have get killed coz the car will burst into flames and we die also dont know what happened. kao seriously we dint know that it was so serious.. so scary and i was with TAY alone only lor.. die already havent even say byebye to everyone.. tsk tsk but anyways we got to the cafe in one piece. haha nice place but the price of the food is a bit too steep. arrgh anyways just a short note for the rest if u hadnt notice, actually i already planned my date with Aloys yesterday but coz of TAY! we cancelled it.. it was our 14th month anniversary.. heh but anyhow i still enjoyed myself meeting up with u peeps, me and ultra black comparing the disgusing ah-diongs in our hall.. lol so fun we better meet up soon again ok. since the ultra round's exam is over already.. haha but so sorry girl, cant celebrate your ultra black birthday with u coz i'll be india with all your same colour.. :( sigh but i'll still rmb it.. it's on 3rd of dec right? haha CAUGHT YOU! i know la it's 8th of dec, the black day.. muha ok i'm getting evil here. below got some pics check it out yourself huh.. a note to evofussssss, i think everytime we meet up only for a short while and it's like a dinner or so only so if that's the case, maybe we should try to do it more often dui ma? anyways for a short while only mah.. *STOP ROLLING YOUR EYES* haha so how so how? anyone wants spices from indie tell me kayz.. i can try to bring some bangala back too if there is a demand for it.. Hui.. u want? lol :X

evofus without the ultra black
Eh?
birthday BOY. :D
evofussssss+ aloys
food not bad, service not bad, price VERY BAD.
me with the fantastic hug provider -__-"
i look seemingly happy :)
Spongebob says HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
couple shirt. :)))))))))))