RIP Bee Leng

i never knew knowing the truth could be so difficult for me.. the passing on of one of my sec sch/JC friend certaintly woke me up from where i was dreaming.. the news of her dead was smacked right into my face whether i like or not.. i had no choice but to face the cold hard truth.. she was not close to me but whatever it is i knew her and she knew me. :X when i read the words "she commited suicide last friday and now buried at..." on shumin's msn window, all the goosebumps on me just came up.. i was at a lost of what to do.. and how i should react to this sudden news.. i couldnt believe my eyes that this quiet girl actually had the courage to do something like that.. or maybe she just couldnt control herself.. :( sigh but whatever it is, this incident just taught me not to take anyone or anything for granted.. seriously u never know some friends u've always to contact but nv do is already.. dead. very sad but what to do.. come to think of it, the day that she died, i was still happily prawn fishing with my NIE friends.. ultra guilty.. there's nothing i can do now but to look back and take it as a lesson learnt. it is very sad to know that only through such traumatic things that we learn how to treasure the people arnd us more.. yest me and shumin went to her tomb to pay our respects we almost couldnt find her "address".. her ashes is located right at the bottom and it is so not prominent that we missed it twice.. whatever it is, looking at the cold hard maroon marble plate, i just felt a overwhelming sense of sadness. this is all left of my friend that is only 20 years old. how come she got so sick and tired of this world and that no one reached out to her?? though the crematorium was filled with a slight tinge of sadness, it was also peaceful and a good place i would say for someone like her to Rest in Peace..
May your soul find rest in wherever u are now and that you are happier than before.. RIP BL