school is starting soon in one week's time and i'm not prepared for it.. shucks i shouldnt have nua-ed my whole 2 weeks away la.. i didnt even think of preparing anything for my school stuff and now i only have like 2 more days before i leave for tioman on fri to prepare ALL My things.. oh man.. sometimes i just hate myself.. i've never been sooooooo last minute in my whole life.. maybe coz i'm gg through some kind of transition now, from study to work, that's why i fumbled a little.. i am looking forward to seeing my students though i've already heard terrible things about them, but how terrible can it get when God's on my side? hmm i really wonder.. haha now it's almost 2 already and here i am trying to act hardworking like planning briefly what i can do with the kids the coming week ahead... and i got a sin to confess man.. i booked my driving test on the 26th, which is a weekday, thursday in fact and at 245pm and i got circuit in the day 11am be4 the test and i doubt i can get urgent leave or whatever kind of leave so i'm gonna fake MC! *gasps* i've just started work and it isnt nice to keep applying for MC, it kind of affects my grading later on so what now.. arrgh GOD please help me.. :X I need a lot teaching and games incorporated in my teaching, hope whatever i've learnt in nie these 2 years can really help me through.. anyways i've decided to enrol for the advance dip course in nie but i'm still not sure about the timings and duration of the course.. but not too long i hope.. :X unisim is seriously not for me, all the things that i have to study it's like zzzzzzzzzzzz i cant take it man.. and $20k for me is like WAH!!!!!!!!! so i think for now the option opened for me is advance dip which i hope will aid in me crossing over.. yeap.
Recently i knew about a illness of a friend of mine ( caleb u know who, i shant mention names here ok ) not just any common flu or what but kidney failure. it is really very bad. i never knew that kidney failure is such a big deal, but after i knew about the effects of it i am seriously ashamed of myself. Kidney failure is not like how NKF protrayed it to be. somehow i feel that those artistes helping to raise funds for the kidney patients are a bit over exaggerating. in a sense that they dont have to make those weird faces to make it like real sad or what but i know it's damn sad. Maybe u hear from someone who knows of a kidney failure friend or something then that's the real thing :( I hate myself coz only bad things happen that i really understood how life should really be. On one side, someone is battling to stay alive, and on the other hand, i'm like so super sad of not being able to cross over, thinking of what colour i should highlight my hair to, quarrelling with aloysius.. etc it's only at times like this that i really understood what the important things are and what the bible said about "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal."- Matt 6:19, that indeed the word of God is sooooooo right. One day we will all die and if we have like 10000000000000 million dollars left in our bank, there is no way we can spend it also, but if we seek the treasure that God has in store for us in heaven, i'm sure it's better than anything we have tasted on earth. We should indeed learn to live life and let go of things that are of little significance to helping us attaining our final place in heaven.sigh life is so fragile, really.
We should live everyday like it's our last, shouldnt we?
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
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