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FINALLY!!! aft 2 tries, i passed! haha so happy for myself :) at least i've achieved one of my new year's resolution.. haha PRAISE GOD. i thank all who prayed for my test and most importantly, i couldnt have done it if GOD hadnt given me the confidence. I remember Pastor Kwong Preaching that if we believe that GOD will bless us with what we want, it will be DONE for us. So we just simply had to keep the faith. I did. Thank you, Lord.Life has just started for me as a beginning teacher, i went to observe the various classes and the students and i must say i'm surprised by the way the P5 em3 students turn out to be.. They are really very willing to learn, especially one of the boys.. my heart really went out to him. Not that he had any disabilities, it's just that his ability to learn is slower, but the main point is that he is VERY WILLING TO LEARN. His attitude in class is much better than the rest of the students in the better classes. I'm determined to help him excel once i take charge. I need wisdom to teach the P3 eat potatoes kids.. gg to have a tough time.. all come from good family background, parents are all $$$$$$$$ and they just cant be bothered to learn.. that's the vast difference.. P1s i've yet to get to know them better coz i've nv taught p1s be4 but i'm ready to take up the challenge.. heh :) Now i see God's plan for me.. Not able to cross over may not be such a bad thing afterall.. I'm assigned to teach these P5 em3 students and i want to set a good example for them, to teach and to inspire them....

God, bless me with the wisdom and the patience :)

Tioman Island

I had a short getaway to Tioman from the 20th-22nd of June just before school reopened and i dint really felt like coming back to sing.. heh life over at tioman is really relaxing for the peeps there and they didnt seem to have any trouble.. heh kampong style if you get what i mean.. yup i had my first try in snorkeling and i'm sure i drank like 2 litres of sea water or something before i could get the hang of it.. we just had to keep breathing through our mouth.. heh it was fun and of course something new to try out.. i took some fotos using the underwater cams but the fotos are not out yet.. when they are done shall upload them soon.. Till then, enjoy these fotos first :)

We left our footprints there :D

Beautiful view from the jetty ---> make this your wallpaper for your coms ;)

Da jeti

Super low tide in the morning

Ear candling

The route we had to take to walk back to where we stayed.. seriously :X

This is where we stayed..

Chalet-like exterior

Interior of the room.. a bit lock-kok.. and creeky.. got mosquitoes at night also.. but surprisingly the air con is quite cold.. lol

They had ramly's over there too!

Group pic :)

She is really happy DOWN THERE.. lol

Me and my best friend piu piu

The dinner that greeted us there.. taste like the food my maid cooks.. :X

Lunch aft snorkeling.. fried rice with drumstick

BBQ dinner on the last day.. rating of food over @ Tioman ---> 6/10


P.S Dont expect too much..

P.P.S I wanna go back there again.. :) miss

hard pressed for time :X

school is starting soon in one week's time and i'm not prepared for it.. shucks i shouldnt have nua-ed my whole 2 weeks away la.. i didnt even think of preparing anything for my school stuff and now i only have like 2 more days before i leave for tioman on fri to prepare ALL My things.. oh man.. sometimes i just hate myself.. i've never been sooooooo last minute in my whole life.. maybe coz i'm gg through some kind of transition now, from study to work, that's why i fumbled a little.. i am looking forward to seeing my students though i've already heard terrible things about them, but how terrible can it get when God's on my side? hmm i really wonder.. haha now it's almost 2 already and here i am trying to act hardworking like planning briefly what i can do with the kids the coming week ahead... and i got a sin to confess man.. i booked my driving test on the 26th, which is a weekday, thursday in fact and at 245pm and i got circuit in the day 11am be4 the test and i doubt i can get urgent leave or whatever kind of leave so i'm gonna fake MC! *gasps* i've just started work and it isnt nice to keep applying for MC, it kind of affects my grading later on so what now.. arrgh GOD please help me.. :X I need a lot teaching and games incorporated in my teaching, hope whatever i've learnt in nie these 2 years can really help me through.. anyways i've decided to enrol for the advance dip course in nie but i'm still not sure about the timings and duration of the course.. but not too long i hope.. :X unisim is seriously not for me, all the things that i have to study it's like zzzzzzzzzzzz i cant take it man.. and $20k for me is like WAH!!!!!!!!! so i think for now the option opened for me is advance dip which i hope will aid in me crossing over.. yeap.



Recently i knew about a illness of a friend of mine ( caleb u know who, i shant mention names here ok ) not just any common flu or what but kidney failure. it is really very bad. i never knew that kidney failure is such a big deal, but after i knew about the effects of it i am seriously ashamed of myself. Kidney failure is not like how NKF protrayed it to be. somehow i feel that those artistes helping to raise funds for the kidney patients are a bit over exaggerating. in a sense that they dont have to make those weird faces to make it like real sad or what but i know it's damn sad. Maybe u hear from someone who knows of a kidney failure friend or something then that's the real thing :( I hate myself coz only bad things happen that i really understood how life should really be. On one side, someone is battling to stay alive, and on the other hand, i'm like so super sad of not being able to cross over, thinking of what colour i should highlight my hair to, quarrelling with aloysius.. etc it's only at times like this that i really understood what the important things are and what the bible said about "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal."- Matt 6:19, that indeed the word of God is sooooooo right. One day we will all die and if we have like 10000000000000 million dollars left in our bank, there is no way we can spend it also, but if we seek the treasure that God has in store for us in heaven, i'm sure it's better than anything we have tasted on earth. We should indeed learn to live life and let go of things that are of little significance to helping us attaining our final place in heaven.sigh life is so fragile, really.





We should live everyday like it's our last, shouldnt we?

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This you promise me :)




Thank you for being there when i needed support the most..




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i've lost it.. again

I've lost my temper again today for no reason. And i'm terribly sorry about it. i hate to see the face of yours when u are so frustrating and have no way to calm me down or to console me and just keep saying 'woalao ey' it is very hurtful to my ears. today was supposed to me like a normal sat where we go catch a movie together or just hang out but it just had to turn ugly in the end.. :( alright, it was just me. i cant remember the last time i posted something sad about but i'm going to start in this post. shucks man :( for some of you may know, nie results are out and i DIDNT GET TO CROSS OVER. i think that was the saddest point in my life when i knew about it and i just cried in the middle of orchard road. i remember it clearly. in front of orchard swensens, beside paragon. there was where i stopped walking and tears started to flow out. i wanted a cross over from the beginning of my studies in nie 2 years back, and 2 years flew past just like that and the truth is out. i worked hard in nie, i gave my best, did all i could, but this just showed me something. they didnt want what i had. is that a good or a bad thing? i admit that at one point of time, i did blame God for not blessing me with a cross over, something that i've constantly prayed about for the past 2 years. Also for flunking my driving tests. Have i not been holy enough to read the word everyday? Is that why God didnt give me what i had asked for? I've reached the bottom of the pit already. I dont know what else to ask for now. something that i've asked and wished that would happen, both i was disappointed in. Today is also the first time after so long, that i hid in the toilet and cried. i really felt very weak. not knowing what can i expect anymore and what would happen when i start teaching. the time spent with him would obviously be lesser, especially when he starts school in Aug. not to mention now when i'm having my holis, he is working. i'm just praying hard that everything will go on smoothly. i know that it is mentioned in the bible that when God closes one door, he will open another window, so this got me thinking, if God hadnt wanted a cross over for me, no matter how much i cried or wished i had gotten one, i still wouldnt have gotten it. Now i've got 2 choices placed in front of me.
1. Sign up for part time unisim.
2. Finish my bond, get my 10k and start a business.
Both a paths waiting for me to walk and for now, i'm not so sure which one do i want or should i say God wants for me. If i were to sign up for unisim, time spent together would further be reduced, but i need to sacrifice some things for others. I'm not very sure if i can cope studying whilst working.
If i were to finish my bond and get my 10k, do i use the money for marriage or business?i really dont know what to do now. kind of feel that i am at the crossroads, not knowing where to go. should i just not think so much and go with the flow? But what's the flow? i dont know. feeling very frustrating and disappointed with myself right now, but i'm sure i will bounce back in a few days back. dont worry :)