Instant death

My sis walked into our room shouting " OH MY GOD" and she turn back and to our horror, this was on the floor
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Crushed under her 55kg body. Instant death. luckily she weighed only that much, coz the lizard still managed to wriggled it's little tail after all it's juices in it's body spilled out. so sad. if i'm the one who stepped on it, i think the lizard cant even wriggle it's tail la.. tsk tsk..
RIP lizzy. ( we're leaving the corpse there till tmr morning when my maid is gg to discover it) :X

messy!

Arrgh finally managed to log in into blogger.. apparently my high crass laptop is virus-fied.. maybe from too much edison-ing.. lol needa invest in a good anti virus software.. yup anyways my main point in wanting to blog now, today is after reading all my cell group mates' testimonies on the way they view BGR. i really thank GOD for them and their readiness to share with me openly.. after reading what they had to say, i suddenly felt that actually so many of them wanted to step into a relationship, but instead of doing what they want, they want to do what GOD wants for them, so they held back and chose to remain single till GOD plans for them the man of their life.. after reading so much, i just felt an overwhelming of emotions. i dont know if what i'm doing now, all these are part of GOD's will? i know it's stupid and a tad too late to talk about all this but i'm really confused at times.. in my heart i know i love aloysius dearly and would certainly want to spend the rest of my life with him ( although sometimes i still feel like killing him) but i do want to admit that sometimes our relationship gets into the first place, instead of placing GOD first. i've got thousand and one examples to illustrate, some even i forget about them already but one very apt one is probably my commitment with YA. actually, it cannot even be considered a commitment since i only went down ONCE. oh man can u believe it? i just didnt feel committed to going down coz i didnt want to sacrifice my time-out with aloy for those kids there. i'm already having my tuition twice a week and if i go down one more day ( ON A SAT!!!!!) i'll be like #@#^$%*#$.. so that's why till now i'm still procrastinating whether or not to go for it.. i've talked to aloy about it and even suggested that the both of us go down together for YA since he is like nua-ing with the scouts and he wanted to consider about it.. i hope it wont take too long till the cows come home or what.. haha i've never ignore this issue and it has certainly been on my mind all this while. i guess the answer is simple. whether or not i'm willing to sacrifice my will for GOD's will. sometimes we need to make this sacrifice for GOD. i've got one question in mind now. How do we know if the partner we have now is the one GOD wanted for us? Or how do we even know if GOD wants us to be single for the rest of my life? i remembered pastor kwong saying about BGR stuff and he said it's ok to be single for GOD's sake and i look at my cell group, among all the girls i think i'm the only one who is attached and I AM NOT DOING GOD's WORK. oh man but in order to do GOD's work, do i have to sacrifice my relationship with aloy? i really feel very lost.. sigh but i'm proud of my cell mates who have the courage to share with us. i definitely dont know HOW to share with them about aloy or even from where to start? Share WHAT????? oh man this is soooooo bad.. arrgh
nvm next week would be the official start of my practicum, gg to be really busy with writing lesson plan and stuff like that, really hope that i can arrange for a solitude session with GOD this coming sat, like what i had planned earlier on that during this practicum he will allow me to grow closer to him and to rely on him in every area. i thank GOD for GOD. if not for Jesus i think i would have been like poo poo all my life, not knowing to turn to who when the whole world turns against me. Thank GOD for God.

Valentine's day 140208

Happy Rat year to the rat.. muack

Both of us @ the flower exhibit @sentosa..

Legs dangling on the sky rider check out somebody's hands(on the left) gripping sooooo tightly on the bar.. muha :X

All ready to luge-ride.. once is really not enough.. haha so fun :D

not knowing what will happen next..

Wheee.. posing for the moment

" bai xuan xuan.. i can drive faster than you.." oh yah right :P

LOOKING soooo happy with his subway lunch

Coz' u squashed my part! i hate you!!!!!!

@Butterfly and insect park EEeewww roaches!!!!!

me with roxy

this is what happens when you dont practice safe Sex.. lol

flirting @ images of singapore.. lol

posing outside the exhibition hall with "mr wise rat" -_-''

Carlsberg tower

Up up and away!!!!!

shagged but happy..

Thank you ah pok for the trip to sentosa.. really enjoyed myself very much though i had to eat a SQUASHED sandwich.. lol we should plan for such activities for our anniversary also okie.. so relaxing like what u said and i think it really gives us time to just spend time doing stuff together and to get to know each other better also.. muack love u sweetheart. Happy 29th months too :)

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Dearest Ah pok Happy Valentines' and 29th months day..(in advance) This year going to be very special coz we're gonna celebrate this special day with evofus and it's Chinese New Year too.. Have a verse here to share with everyone..
"Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance." - 1 Corinthians 13:7
Love u ah pok muack :*

ultra bing-ish pendant from SK. thank u so much ah pok i really LOVE it.. *_* call me diamond girl now.. muha as we get older the diamonds must get bigger hor.. haha

made pineapple tarts that day with evofus but the cookies seems a bit hard leh.. hmmm i'll try and improve on the recipe k.. maybe it's the pineapple :X

I permed my hair.. haha for CNY :) couldnt get those short permed hair effect leh.. arrgh like the one i wanted in the previous posts.. nvm shall do some HAir extension next year and SHOCK everyone.. lol anyone wanna join me?

In the process of perming.. lol that's my hairdresser at the back.. heh :) $99

God's plan for me

With regards to my previous post, i'm glad to say that things are alright for now. And through this eventful thing, God brought me back to what he wanted us to do in this year of Sabbath.

1. Remembrance and Reliance upon the Lord. - when things were getting out of hand, i just had to rely and remember that God is always with me.

2.Restoring and Rebuilding relationships.- my relationship with aloysius can only be restored in Christ.

3.Rest and Re-creation of the land. - i'm sure GOD will show this to me when i start my attachment in Feb. How do i find rest in the midst of my busy schedule and how do i re-create my students..

God is revealing everything and his plan for me for this year,at this point of time. When i first read of these 3 points, i couldnt find any connection with them. But God is revealing his plans for me, and i thank God for that . It's really important to start the year off by spending time with GOD.. *aloy.. we shall plan for a solitude soon..

i just feel so blessed suddenly. i just finished watching the online sermon for last week i know it's super late to do so.. heh but better late than never. it's difficult for me to attend service but i'm just glad that church has this online viewing that i'm able to listen to GOD speak to me through the sermon even w/o attending service. What pastor say is so apt of how i am feeling. He did not say this but i interpreted it this way. Everything is not important because "GOD is our sufficiency". this is also the theology of Sabbath. Pastor gave us 3 things to remember in this year of sabbath that is

1. Draw near to God

2. Get right with God

3. Stand up for God

Setting aside time for morning devotion has always been a struggle for me. but i thank God that i've kept to doing it but...... sometimes in a rush. coz morning i wake up at 730 then i've got till 810 to catch my bus. that's why i read through the word of GOD in a rush at times. My house aint a conducive place to do my morning devotion either. but i thank God each time for the chance to do so.. just by watching one sermon and i feel that God is really speaking to me. in so many areas of my life. Areas that i've yet to surrender to him. Areas that i still think that i can control and do it my way. i thank God for this sermon that i've woken up and from now onwards, i will set aside time to seek GOD because only he is sufficient.

breakingup

At this point when i'm typing this, things are going down for me and aloysius. i think the time has come. ytd we had the worst quarrel of the year.. i know the year has just started but it's just bad. that's all i can say. the way he behaved and reacted to me, it just made me feel that he wanted me out of his life. i'm known to be pestering and controlling to him. hanging out late with his friends, and me asking him what time he'll be back ----> that's controlling. i dont know what else can i say now. i'm sick and tired of having to go through all this same thing as what had happened last year. ignoring my calls and telling me that you dont want to talk to me now. now no mood to talk , all these crap. i'm not here to be bullied by u. think i've reached the darkest part of our relationship already. i dont know what else can i do since u dont seem to want to save this relationship. then let's just end it. your attitude towards me sucks and i dont want to be the one taking all this shit from u. if you want all your freedom, and as a gf i cant even ask u what time u'll be back home aft hanging out, then i'm sorry please go and find someone else. i'll return all the freedom u once had and i will not pester u anymore. i dont know what to say and how to say things anymore to u. we'll just do a mutual split. you wont want to talk to me anymore, u wont get all this shit from me anymore. i'm just wrong for you. It's sorry that we have to end just like that. i know the road ahead of me will just get tougher but i'm ready. coz GOD's with me...

GOD bless u