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Finally!!!!! the intensive camp is over.. haha after such long preparations and stuff.. all the compilation of notes and all the endless meetings.. finally.. say BYEBYE.. :P haha but i really wonder if jr is still going to do back the same stuff AGAIN next year.. lolz.. but i enjoyed myself la.. hehe today i actually screamed at the top of my voice at kenneth. and he still got the cheek to say "Miss Peh, why u so fierce huh" i was like -.-'' if i'm not fierce how they heck can the rest hear me when he was talking at the top of his lungs?! damns. but yah la we played games towards the end of the class and i guess the kids and myself did enjoyed ourselves.. haha finally everything is over. and.. and.. this gives me more time to think of HIM. when he is not. haiz.. i also dont know la.. was talking to Jas a few days ago and she concluded for me that YES. he just wants to be friends. how nice. though it is the truth. it hurts u know.. and i'm feeling real hurt now. u know that kind of feelings where he makes u feel real loved and cared for and suddenly,everything's just gone. why? if u had intended to make me feel hurt. u have gotten what u desired.. but i think u are not that evil anyway but really.thanks. u've hurt me. not u la Jas.. dont be confused.. lolz haha.. thanks for telling me the truth.i need the truth to wake myself up. thanks for waking me up so i wont be living in my fantasy world. haha. thanks for opening my heart and mind to other guys.. (like as if i am) muhaha u asked if we(as in me and him) want to bring our relationship to another level but u know this kind of thing, one hand cannot clap know.. haiz really la.. i should just leave all this in God's hands. i really dont know what i can do and what i should do. should i just leave everything as it is? but it's really eating me up and i hate this kind of feeling.. haiz dont know la.. anyways went swimming alone today.. downstairs only mah.. vivien actually wanted to come over to study de but i woke up at 11 and called her then she said she gg over to library to zap econs notes and what the heck was i sleeping at home? haha aiyah.. but at least.. i finished my sociology assignment.. woa lao i did that so like so damn long lor.. but like never ending de leh.. but *phew* managed to do it all today. at least one thing to be happy about. tmr gg jogging again.. 2.4km here i come. haha come to think of it,it's quite sad lor.. when i'm having holis everyone's like so super busy.. dint even contact or arrange to go out.. i just cant be bothered also.. haiya.. that's life la.. yep yep and YOU. yes YOU if u know i'm referring to YOU earlier on. drop me a note can? i really want to know. please. outta here!!!