has my time come?

hey.. it's been a while since i last blogged.. very lazy to blog also.. haha yep yep that day i went out with aloy and guess who i saw?! my goodness he would be the last person i would want to see and i did.. haiz do u call this fate? J! argh.. i was like so damn paisey to see him.. at that moment i suddenly felt that i was doing something bad.. but apparently -_- i wasnt la.. i'm single so i can do what i want.. but.. to the extend of letting others misunderstand? i dont want.. haiz that day when we went out aloy was looking at my phone then he saw TT's pictures.. haiz i dont want him to misunderstand. then when i went out with aloy. J had to see us. damn what the heck man?!? actually i also dont know what i want la.. haiz.. just now we went to visit TT cuz he wasnt feeling well and so he hasn't booked in yet and i was watching some funny shows and i started laughing very loudly as usual and he actually said "aiyoh u laugh until so loud, next time how to live with you?" woa lao since when i say we'll live together? or is he hinting something? cuz when i ask him " i got say want to live with u meh" then he said " oh yah, i mean your parents?" someone.. PLEASE tell me is that this all is my wishful thinking.. damn. haiz then when i went out with aloy that day.. for the first time i think we just met up for dinner lor and movie.. and he is the one who initiated it la.. AGAIN REMIND ME CONSTANTLY! haha we went to eat subway for dinner cuz quite late liao then he was very hungry.. un-professional me eat until the whole table and skirt very dirty but he was like nothing happen and wanted to find a 'tian mi mi' place to eat -_- but dint la coz the air was too polluted.. haha i've never been serious before but i want to say something very very serious here! i really dont know what i want. damn. how do u make a choice? can i not make one? and if i dont want to make one why do i get jealous? for no reason? maybe what they say on tv is true that scorpio peeps get jealous easily huh.. i was quite convinced.. but haiz.. yah la i cant make a decision and this decision is no one can make for me de.. it's just my own personal choice.. and the greatest shit is that i'm jobless. fuck. how can this be true? haiz... $_$ life sucks even after exams :/