Instant death

My sis walked into our room shouting " OH MY GOD" and she turn back and to our horror, this was on the floor
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Crushed under her 55kg body. Instant death. luckily she weighed only that much, coz the lizard still managed to wriggled it's little tail after all it's juices in it's body spilled out. so sad. if i'm the one who stepped on it, i think the lizard cant even wriggle it's tail la.. tsk tsk..
RIP lizzy. ( we're leaving the corpse there till tmr morning when my maid is gg to discover it) :X

messy!

Arrgh finally managed to log in into blogger.. apparently my high crass laptop is virus-fied.. maybe from too much edison-ing.. lol needa invest in a good anti virus software.. yup anyways my main point in wanting to blog now, today is after reading all my cell group mates' testimonies on the way they view BGR. i really thank GOD for them and their readiness to share with me openly.. after reading what they had to say, i suddenly felt that actually so many of them wanted to step into a relationship, but instead of doing what they want, they want to do what GOD wants for them, so they held back and chose to remain single till GOD plans for them the man of their life.. after reading so much, i just felt an overwhelming of emotions. i dont know if what i'm doing now, all these are part of GOD's will? i know it's stupid and a tad too late to talk about all this but i'm really confused at times.. in my heart i know i love aloysius dearly and would certainly want to spend the rest of my life with him ( although sometimes i still feel like killing him) but i do want to admit that sometimes our relationship gets into the first place, instead of placing GOD first. i've got thousand and one examples to illustrate, some even i forget about them already but one very apt one is probably my commitment with YA. actually, it cannot even be considered a commitment since i only went down ONCE. oh man can u believe it? i just didnt feel committed to going down coz i didnt want to sacrifice my time-out with aloy for those kids there. i'm already having my tuition twice a week and if i go down one more day ( ON A SAT!!!!!) i'll be like #@#^$%*#$.. so that's why till now i'm still procrastinating whether or not to go for it.. i've talked to aloy about it and even suggested that the both of us go down together for YA since he is like nua-ing with the scouts and he wanted to consider about it.. i hope it wont take too long till the cows come home or what.. haha i've never ignore this issue and it has certainly been on my mind all this while. i guess the answer is simple. whether or not i'm willing to sacrifice my will for GOD's will. sometimes we need to make this sacrifice for GOD. i've got one question in mind now. How do we know if the partner we have now is the one GOD wanted for us? Or how do we even know if GOD wants us to be single for the rest of my life? i remembered pastor kwong saying about BGR stuff and he said it's ok to be single for GOD's sake and i look at my cell group, among all the girls i think i'm the only one who is attached and I AM NOT DOING GOD's WORK. oh man but in order to do GOD's work, do i have to sacrifice my relationship with aloy? i really feel very lost.. sigh but i'm proud of my cell mates who have the courage to share with us. i definitely dont know HOW to share with them about aloy or even from where to start? Share WHAT????? oh man this is soooooo bad.. arrgh
nvm next week would be the official start of my practicum, gg to be really busy with writing lesson plan and stuff like that, really hope that i can arrange for a solitude session with GOD this coming sat, like what i had planned earlier on that during this practicum he will allow me to grow closer to him and to rely on him in every area. i thank GOD for GOD. if not for Jesus i think i would have been like poo poo all my life, not knowing to turn to who when the whole world turns against me. Thank GOD for God.

Valentine's day 140208

Happy Rat year to the rat.. muack

Both of us @ the flower exhibit @sentosa..

Legs dangling on the sky rider check out somebody's hands(on the left) gripping sooooo tightly on the bar.. muha :X

All ready to luge-ride.. once is really not enough.. haha so fun :D

not knowing what will happen next..

Wheee.. posing for the moment

" bai xuan xuan.. i can drive faster than you.." oh yah right :P

LOOKING soooo happy with his subway lunch

Coz' u squashed my part! i hate you!!!!!!

@Butterfly and insect park EEeewww roaches!!!!!

me with roxy

this is what happens when you dont practice safe Sex.. lol

flirting @ images of singapore.. lol

posing outside the exhibition hall with "mr wise rat" -_-''

Carlsberg tower

Up up and away!!!!!

shagged but happy..

Thank you ah pok for the trip to sentosa.. really enjoyed myself very much though i had to eat a SQUASHED sandwich.. lol we should plan for such activities for our anniversary also okie.. so relaxing like what u said and i think it really gives us time to just spend time doing stuff together and to get to know each other better also.. muack love u sweetheart. Happy 29th months too :)

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Dearest Ah pok Happy Valentines' and 29th months day..(in advance) This year going to be very special coz we're gonna celebrate this special day with evofus and it's Chinese New Year too.. Have a verse here to share with everyone..
"Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance." - 1 Corinthians 13:7
Love u ah pok muack :*

ultra bing-ish pendant from SK. thank u so much ah pok i really LOVE it.. *_* call me diamond girl now.. muha as we get older the diamonds must get bigger hor.. haha

made pineapple tarts that day with evofus but the cookies seems a bit hard leh.. hmmm i'll try and improve on the recipe k.. maybe it's the pineapple :X

I permed my hair.. haha for CNY :) couldnt get those short permed hair effect leh.. arrgh like the one i wanted in the previous posts.. nvm shall do some HAir extension next year and SHOCK everyone.. lol anyone wanna join me?

In the process of perming.. lol that's my hairdresser at the back.. heh :) $99

God's plan for me

With regards to my previous post, i'm glad to say that things are alright for now. And through this eventful thing, God brought me back to what he wanted us to do in this year of Sabbath.

1. Remembrance and Reliance upon the Lord. - when things were getting out of hand, i just had to rely and remember that God is always with me.

2.Restoring and Rebuilding relationships.- my relationship with aloysius can only be restored in Christ.

3.Rest and Re-creation of the land. - i'm sure GOD will show this to me when i start my attachment in Feb. How do i find rest in the midst of my busy schedule and how do i re-create my students..

God is revealing everything and his plan for me for this year,at this point of time. When i first read of these 3 points, i couldnt find any connection with them. But God is revealing his plans for me, and i thank God for that . It's really important to start the year off by spending time with GOD.. *aloy.. we shall plan for a solitude soon..

i just feel so blessed suddenly. i just finished watching the online sermon for last week i know it's super late to do so.. heh but better late than never. it's difficult for me to attend service but i'm just glad that church has this online viewing that i'm able to listen to GOD speak to me through the sermon even w/o attending service. What pastor say is so apt of how i am feeling. He did not say this but i interpreted it this way. Everything is not important because "GOD is our sufficiency". this is also the theology of Sabbath. Pastor gave us 3 things to remember in this year of sabbath that is

1. Draw near to God

2. Get right with God

3. Stand up for God

Setting aside time for morning devotion has always been a struggle for me. but i thank God that i've kept to doing it but...... sometimes in a rush. coz morning i wake up at 730 then i've got till 810 to catch my bus. that's why i read through the word of GOD in a rush at times. My house aint a conducive place to do my morning devotion either. but i thank God each time for the chance to do so.. just by watching one sermon and i feel that God is really speaking to me. in so many areas of my life. Areas that i've yet to surrender to him. Areas that i still think that i can control and do it my way. i thank God for this sermon that i've woken up and from now onwards, i will set aside time to seek GOD because only he is sufficient.

breakingup

At this point when i'm typing this, things are going down for me and aloysius. i think the time has come. ytd we had the worst quarrel of the year.. i know the year has just started but it's just bad. that's all i can say. the way he behaved and reacted to me, it just made me feel that he wanted me out of his life. i'm known to be pestering and controlling to him. hanging out late with his friends, and me asking him what time he'll be back ----> that's controlling. i dont know what else can i say now. i'm sick and tired of having to go through all this same thing as what had happened last year. ignoring my calls and telling me that you dont want to talk to me now. now no mood to talk , all these crap. i'm not here to be bullied by u. think i've reached the darkest part of our relationship already. i dont know what else can i do since u dont seem to want to save this relationship. then let's just end it. your attitude towards me sucks and i dont want to be the one taking all this shit from u. if you want all your freedom, and as a gf i cant even ask u what time u'll be back home aft hanging out, then i'm sorry please go and find someone else. i'll return all the freedom u once had and i will not pester u anymore. i dont know what to say and how to say things anymore to u. we'll just do a mutual split. you wont want to talk to me anymore, u wont get all this shit from me anymore. i'm just wrong for you. It's sorry that we have to end just like that. i know the road ahead of me will just get tougher but i'm ready. coz GOD's with me...

GOD bless u

ah bling and randoms

ah bling is my new best friend.. haha i bought this diamond ring from online $4120 with a negligible decimal point somewhere in the middle.. lol it's man-made diamond okie.. so very bling-kish also.. hehe ching if u want to buy one nicey bling for jr can ask me more about it.. affordable and bling-ish haha :D

ah bling on my round fingers.. *_*

things have been rather monotonous recently.. no more that kind of excitement and urge of wanting to see each other.. guess it doesnt matter that much anymore.. but that doesnt mean i dont love u or i dont care about u anymore.. hug bought aska yong's album today.. thought i've gotten over those days that i'll buy cd de but in fact i bought 2 cds in just one month.. hehe i'm listening to yang zong wei's album now and the other one i bought was the wedding album.. heh thought i would invest in one for my wedding 5 years down the road.. heh i really want to walk down the aisle with *ahem* u la ah pok if not who ;) i sincerely hope that all my friends will find the happiness they deserve.. GOD bless

breakups..

All of us wanted 2008 to be a great year for ourselves, but how much exactly can we control? none in fact.. it is only January and i received 2 bad news. 2 of my close friends have ended their relationship with their boyfriends. the period of time they have been together seems so insignificant when both parties have decided to end the relationship.. dont know why when i was on the phone with jr today and after she put down the phone, i felt especially down and i broke down in the cafe i was in with aloy.. dont know why but everytime sad stuff happens and i talk to her, i feel this sense of peace. i pretty sure it's coz of her faith. as a christian , for me personally i feel that she can give me that bit of comfort, but the biggest source of comfort comes from GOD, coz when the whole world decides to break off with us, the only one who is the always there regardless of the circumstances is GOD. thank u aloy for reminding me that. i just feel so sad for my friend who have decided to end the relationship coz i thought u guys would last. :( i just felt this overwhelming wave of emotions suddenly man.. like so sad and everything.. LOVE is so fragile. it takes so much effort to build up but it takes just one decision to end everything.. sigh.. hey, i know it's stupid to be talking about all this when u guys are not together anymore but i guess that doesnt matter anymore.. i just want u to know that i'll always be there for u, a shoulder for u to cry on, a hug to give ..try to cheer up ok. i know it's very difficult but i'm sure u will make it through and find someone better :D *hug* smile after reading my post ok.. :)

i hate u aloysius tan!

Dont bother to say anything if u cant carry it out.

mucusy

i realised that i said i will continue my japan trip entry but heh i'm not gg to do it la.. super lazy anyways more or less the highlights of the trip i've already written them down.. this is just gg to be a super random entry k. read it if u are super bored and bo liao.. muha

i want to cut this hairstyle lei.. so means i have to perm my hair.. lol any comments? :X
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Got a disgusting pic to share.. if you have just eaten go digest your food somewhere first then come back.. haha anyways had been sick the past 2 days.. dint go out. stayed at home and slept like a pig.. but i think that's what most needed when you're sick isnt it.. heh i had fever up to 38.8 man luckily i kept sponging myself and my nose was like super mucus-y la tsk tsk and one point of time i blew this out
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.i thought i was gg to die. blood in my nose man.. and the mucus is like so sticky and yellowish. EEEeeewWWWWww sorry shouldnt have gone into details.. muha
told u it's bo liao entry..
ciao

Japan 20-26th

Greetings from Japan.. haha back from the month of holidaying.. lol this month of december had been a lot of travelling for me.. BKK then Japan.. i spent more than half of the month away from Singapore and indeed travelling opens our insight to the world. and we really need to travel to see more things instead of getting cooped up in dear cheena-pore.. lol anyways let the pics do the talking.. these few pics that i uploaded are my fave got lots more uglier photos in my computer and laptop.. let me know if you are interested to view them.. muhapretty me in the kimono suit..

universal studios - in osaka

santa-faced melon bun

i think i look pretty with long hair :D

hi elmo.. the whole world (in U.S) were wearing this head warmers and they cost a whopping $38! haha so i only took a picture of myself wearing it.. haha ( the shop keepers wont chase u out though.. so nice haha)

elmo and zoe this christmas hat cost arnd $25 i think.. so again i took a picture with it :)

streets on U.S

attempting to pat the deers at nara deer park where the deers walk arnd freely.. the deer biscuit that i bought to feed them smells nicer than our Khong Guan biscuit.. seriously :X

pigsy had no space in my luggage
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BUT he went with me to Japan! haha

check out that egg in my hand! it's smoked and guess what does it taste like? Bacon. i'm serious my sis hates egg but when she ate it she had a different view on eggs now haha.. slurrp u wont find it in singapore.. lol

Hello kitty Bao

Shrimp bao that looks like doughnut and a swimming float.. ( disney sea) it's very very very soft and fluffy and SLURRP

Chinese food we had there.. typical and taste like my mum's cooking! *gasps*

typical Japanese meal. i enjoyed the food there very much.. it's nothing like sakae sushi or ichiban here in cheena-pore the miso soup and the rice is heavenly.. sometimes i feel that the restaurants in singapore spoil the taste of the original food.. arrgh

bullet train.. the train travels at a speed of 333.3km/h and the ppl can eat on the train. YET the train is still squeaky clean. if the Japanese are not considerate then i have to say that they have very very hardworking cleaners.. haha obviously not. -_-''

TO BE CONTINUED...
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Getting myself a haircut aft a quarrel really helps.. but i dont think it'll help in long term coz my hair cant go sooooo fast.. heh well, time will tell everything. check out my new hairstyle below.. :D thank u piu piu for coming over to my place, just hanging out in the pool, doing the forever cannot finish ppt and cutting our hair afterwards.. hehe your company meant a lot.. and it seems that aft since i got attached i havent been spending much time with u girls, but u all still mean a lot to me.. best friends forever piu piu *shy*

both of us making double chin to the cam

after the haircut
p.s hope after the haircut piu piu will have some peach flower luck! lol

me and my coolest haircut.. TAY i know u gonna comment but i can just deduce that as jealousy!!! haha just coz u cant do the same :X

a verse to encourage everyone out there:
Dear Children, let us not love with words or tongue, but with actions and in truth. - 1 John 3: 18

the word of GOD is indeed very true. if we only love telling each other how much we love each other, but dont even show it through our actions, i think it's just plain talk. And of course for a couple to grow closer, firstly we need to grow close to the LORD, in his truth. This is something i really want to work towards to..

ok enough of getting sentimental, anyways went for my FIRST driving lesson today aft passing my advance theory on MON.. woo hoo really thank GOD that i passed coz the questions were really quite tough :X some ppl may think that i passed coz i was plain lucky but i want to tell them that i passed coz of GOD's blessings. comparing the amount of time i spent studying for that and the basic theory, this is nothing man.. so, THANK GOD THANK GOD PRAISE GOD PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!! :D gave my relief instructor a ride of his life man.. lol he kept stepping on the brake and say:" too fast too fast!" haha i thought i was driving a sports car.. muha but thank GOD, it was a smooth learning time for me. :) 7 more days before BKK.. cant wait for the time to spend with my gfs!!!!!! muha

P.s caleb rmb to lend me your cam hor. i promise i will take good care of it. if not i pay u back one brand new one haha :)

GOD bless everyone and stay happy

unappreciative

first time in my life, someone told me that i am unappreciative. just because of 2 words " so troublesome" . usually i'm the one feeling that i'm not being appreciated not the other way round. i dont know. sucks man having mixed feelings now towards our relationship. everytime this kind of things happen i just hate US. i hate the fact that we are together. i just wanna be friends. i dont want you anymore. i dont love u anymore. today is supposed to be a happy day coz i passed my advanced but apparently the both of us had to ruin it at the very last minute u go to bed. i wonder if u will ever read this entry.. but whatever it is, i hope we both can do something to this relationship coz i feel that it's getting rocky. maybe in the eyes of others we are lovey dovey but i can tell all of u out there we are quarrelling almost everyday.and i dont feel as happy as we look. frequent quarrels really make me very sick of this whole thing. if i'm not with u then i wont even behave like this. u are the one who made me feel and behave like this all this while. not saying that it's your fault but i can tell u i behave like this only when i'm with u. period.

damn u aloysius

i think that it is indeed true that the longer you spend your life with a person, the more you'll be able to see the person's true colours.. and even more so when two of you are together as a couple. more than once did i mention the word breakup, but not once we did breakup. i think i am the coward, the one afraid of taking the step towards singlehood. because i dont know what to expect. who i can rely on once we are really separated. after being with you for 2 yrs odd, we've spend most of this time together, so much so that i've not watched any movie with my gfs for 1 yr or so.. not even meeting up with them. all my time and effort, even money i've thrown in for our relationship, seems to be gg into waste. we are just too strong headed for each other i must admit. you a leo, me a scorpio. i know it's dumb to use horoscope as a basis for analysis but i really cant think of another better reason why we are behaving like this. it just sucks. many a times we quarrel, i'm very tempted to hurl abuses at you, but i've always held back. it maybe true that you give in to me many times or let me have my way but i've given in to u ( or maybe you just insisted your way so much that no matter what i said doesnt matter anymore) for a reasonable number of times as well. i hate to be self-centred in this relationship but if i dont i will be hurt. things i do are always for u but things u do are mostly for yourself. i know you're gg to say you dint ask me to do the things for u but we are a COUPLE, mind you. if either party only bothers to do things for him/herself, what's the point? i think they are better off as friends. isnt it? quarrels and quarrels are keeping us real busy in this relationship. you once said, we can quarrel but not to the extent to breaking up and today you told me, i always ask to break up but i dont mean it but if one day u ask to break up, you'll mean it then FINE. let's just go on separate ways. the only thing that is holding me back is probably the lonely life i'll have after the break up ok. i tell u frankly. not that i cant live without you, but i'm just not willing to go everywhere on my own and doing stuff on my own. i need someone constantly there for me, but now i'm not sure if you are the one anymore. i'm so sick of us quarrelling and argueing every other day. you can pretend nothing happen after we quarrelled but sorry i cant. and you told me to go find my inspiration?! hello how to? i realise that we are quarrelling but i dont know how to walk away feeling as though nothing happen because i'm a girl. precisely.
i cant pretend that i dont care for u when i care so much for u.
i cant pretend that i'm not angry with u when i'm boiling inside.
i cant pretend to be magnanimous when i'm dying of jealously inside.
i cant pretend to forgive u when i'm still holding grudges against you.
i cant pretend.. why cant i be just who i am. if you dont love me for who i am, then why are we still together? if i cant show you exactly how i feel, then y should we still be together? i'm just forcing myself to be someone i am not... i thought love is supposed to be sweet and to love the other party just like he/she is.. but it's all different from what i had perceived it to be..
so izit finally over? you tell me. i have no idea whatsoever for us anymore. think some ppl will be very happy that we are finally breaking up. whatever.

random and expired

This is going to be a random, expired, after exams post :X
cant rmb if i blogged about buying this pair of asics shoes.. heh in my fave colour PURPLE feel that i can run very fast in them... lol

DIAMOND earrings from han han MUACK! *_* bling bling $***

catch of the day..
went fishing with NIE fwends the day after my exams and this is what we caught.. muha dont think we are that pro just coz we fished at the pond called "sure catch" and we paid 10 bucks per catch meaning we HAVE TO CATCH SOMETHING.. lol and the fishes were damn strong till a point our fishing rod snapped. seriously i think the guy was damn pissed his face was super black all the time.. haha i realised that everyone who fishes SMOKES and it's real bad coz they just cant stop as in the moment one cigarette leaves their mouth their hand will be reaching out for another one already.. soooooo bad.. anyways..
fishes SLURP i like
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pasir ris park "sure catch" pond lol for the fun and like my friend's friend said.. this is for amateur fishing peeps.. muha

AND... before we went fishing we were CRABING over at the other side of the park haha we caught 7 crabs in 2 hrs and the crabs were not restrained and some attempted to escape so challenging.. haha

here's the small pond with all the crabs inside haha

exam package from han han! thanks muack the double choco from famous amos contributed to my sore eyes during the exams.. haha but i still LOVE them.. heh thanks sweetheart muack :*

THIS IS MY NTU HOTTIE.. oh man from the hey gorgeous show.. SLURRP i want him WOO HOO!

check this out.. haha i drank the whole bottle of it

it's real one hor and i think it really helps in the developing of the brain lol ( ok at least for mine) heh

muack can slack and nua now after the exams.. heh BKK and japan trip in dec and wedding dinners.. haha cant wait and i want to use the oven tmr (kudos to evofus!) work hard for yer exams girls! caleb go and die arrange to play spongebob monopoly with your bro :D

i love you chen han tian

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