damn u aloysius

i think that it is indeed true that the longer you spend your life with a person, the more you'll be able to see the person's true colours.. and even more so when two of you are together as a couple. more than once did i mention the word breakup, but not once we did breakup. i think i am the coward, the one afraid of taking the step towards singlehood. because i dont know what to expect. who i can rely on once we are really separated. after being with you for 2 yrs odd, we've spend most of this time together, so much so that i've not watched any movie with my gfs for 1 yr or so.. not even meeting up with them. all my time and effort, even money i've thrown in for our relationship, seems to be gg into waste. we are just too strong headed for each other i must admit. you a leo, me a scorpio. i know it's dumb to use horoscope as a basis for analysis but i really cant think of another better reason why we are behaving like this. it just sucks. many a times we quarrel, i'm very tempted to hurl abuses at you, but i've always held back. it maybe true that you give in to me many times or let me have my way but i've given in to u ( or maybe you just insisted your way so much that no matter what i said doesnt matter anymore) for a reasonable number of times as well. i hate to be self-centred in this relationship but if i dont i will be hurt. things i do are always for u but things u do are mostly for yourself. i know you're gg to say you dint ask me to do the things for u but we are a COUPLE, mind you. if either party only bothers to do things for him/herself, what's the point? i think they are better off as friends. isnt it? quarrels and quarrels are keeping us real busy in this relationship. you once said, we can quarrel but not to the extent to breaking up and today you told me, i always ask to break up but i dont mean it but if one day u ask to break up, you'll mean it then FINE. let's just go on separate ways. the only thing that is holding me back is probably the lonely life i'll have after the break up ok. i tell u frankly. not that i cant live without you, but i'm just not willing to go everywhere on my own and doing stuff on my own. i need someone constantly there for me, but now i'm not sure if you are the one anymore. i'm so sick of us quarrelling and argueing every other day. you can pretend nothing happen after we quarrelled but sorry i cant. and you told me to go find my inspiration?! hello how to? i realise that we are quarrelling but i dont know how to walk away feeling as though nothing happen because i'm a girl. precisely.
i cant pretend that i dont care for u when i care so much for u.
i cant pretend that i'm not angry with u when i'm boiling inside.
i cant pretend to be magnanimous when i'm dying of jealously inside.
i cant pretend to forgive u when i'm still holding grudges against you.
i cant pretend.. why cant i be just who i am. if you dont love me for who i am, then why are we still together? if i cant show you exactly how i feel, then y should we still be together? i'm just forcing myself to be someone i am not... i thought love is supposed to be sweet and to love the other party just like he/she is.. but it's all different from what i had perceived it to be..
so izit finally over? you tell me. i have no idea whatsoever for us anymore. think some ppl will be very happy that we are finally breaking up. whatever.

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This is going to be a random, expired, after exams post :X
cant rmb if i blogged about buying this pair of asics shoes.. heh in my fave colour PURPLE feel that i can run very fast in them... lol

DIAMOND earrings from han han MUACK! *_* bling bling $***

catch of the day..
went fishing with NIE fwends the day after my exams and this is what we caught.. muha dont think we are that pro just coz we fished at the pond called "sure catch" and we paid 10 bucks per catch meaning we HAVE TO CATCH SOMETHING.. lol and the fishes were damn strong till a point our fishing rod snapped. seriously i think the guy was damn pissed his face was super black all the time.. haha i realised that everyone who fishes SMOKES and it's real bad coz they just cant stop as in the moment one cigarette leaves their mouth their hand will be reaching out for another one already.. soooooo bad.. anyways..
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pasir ris park "sure catch" pond lol for the fun and like my friend's friend said.. this is for amateur fishing peeps.. muha

AND... before we went fishing we were CRABING over at the other side of the park haha we caught 7 crabs in 2 hrs and the crabs were not restrained and some attempted to escape so challenging.. haha

here's the small pond with all the crabs inside haha

exam package from han han! thanks muack the double choco from famous amos contributed to my sore eyes during the exams.. haha but i still LOVE them.. heh thanks sweetheart muack :*

THIS IS MY NTU HOTTIE.. oh man from the hey gorgeous show.. SLURRP i want him WOO HOO!

check this out.. haha i drank the whole bottle of it

it's real one hor and i think it really helps in the developing of the brain lol ( ok at least for mine) heh

muack can slack and nua now after the exams.. heh BKK and japan trip in dec and wedding dinners.. haha cant wait and i want to use the oven tmr (kudos to evofus!) work hard for yer exams girls! caleb go and die arrange to play spongebob monopoly with your bro :D

i love you chen han tian

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happy day

Happy 26 months anniversary han han! heh muack I LOVE THE LILIES! :D

what a spread for the both of us only heh :X

beautiful lilies :D

happy day :)

21st birthday 3rd Nov'2007

2nd Nov - Pre-celebration with my honey

2 person 5 dishes ---> still finished everything

Hans@ marina 3 cakes/pastries to celebrate first ok

me and han han

3rd Nov'2007

Arthur and I (colleagues now :D )

cake cutting time

my beloved evofusss and partners all dressed to KILL! haha
ok presents time
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wade of notes from some NIE friends and Uncle.. so kind :)

My colourful bday cake ( $90 ) hor

BEAUTIFUL card by evofus ( minus the ugly photos of myself.. oh man)

$$$ tefal oven from EVOFUS you guys are the best man! :D

stuff from arthur

spongebob merchandise from JC/SIM friends! i really love them! ( both the presents and the ppl) muha!

'choking pendant' from weili ( sikkim fwend)

xiao jun gave me this but i wonder if i'll use it.. heh

cupcake recipe book from fishy

spongebob monopoly from bernard :D

TOPshop voucher and Levis watch from the NTSS gang :D purplicious

hand made card from han han

a bouquet of roses from him! *_*

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all from cell group mates.. thank you guys i'm very touched sooooo many of you made the effort to come down when you all stay ultra far away and we're not that close also but dont worry time will make up for that part.. THANK GOD for everyone of you :)

perfume from xiaoxuan and shannon

bought myself this nike water bottle and sports shoe from the ANGBAO $$ heh

CHECK OUT THE BLING! FINALLY I OWN A PAIR OF DIAMONDS!!!!! WOO HOO !!!!! thank you han han muack*

seemingly happy with the bling

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my hubby wu did this for my upcoming exams and assignments and it really works!!!!! love him to bits haha *shy* :X

if you can do this mouth too then we'll take a picture together like that on my birthday okie :D

cant believe that i survived 3 days of using the no colour and camera phone.. haha 8310

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geared up for party!!!!

Oh man.. i cant believe that my stupid phone for only 4mths odd DIED on me.. as in the toopid LCD screen cracked and i cant see a thing.. arrgh it's under repair now for 3-5 working days and only then will i get it back.. so for now.. guess what? i'm using NOKIA 8310!!!!!!!! arrgh that ugly fugly phone.. arrgh seriously no colour screen, puny small screen and the phone is obviously too small for my hand.. the buttons are small, everything! haha but still i Thank GOD that i didnt have to pay for the repair for the stupid phone.. sigh coz it's still under warranty.. muha anyways preparation for the birthday party is almost ready.. cake and pastries ordered, buffet confirmed.. muha let me see if i can copy and paste the buffet menu here arrgh cant must type it out myself.. :X

1.Curry Chicken with Potato

2.Fish Fillet with Mayonnaise

3.Golden Oaty Prawn (deshelled!!!!)

4.Beancurd with Mushroom & Mince Chicken

5.Siao Bai Chye with Vegetarian Abalone

6.Golden Spring Roll

7.Steamed Chicken Siew Mai

8.Yang Chow Fried Rice

9. Almond Beancurd with Longan

10.Fruit Punch

11.Assorted mini eclair and cream puff ( complimentary)

12. Deep fried chicken wings

total damage done: $513.60 haha aloy was soooooo shocked when he heard that and started nagging that i'm spending soooooo much on food and everything.. but Thank GOD, like what's said in the bible, give and u will be given.. true enough (i have to confess something) heh after not giving tithes for such a long time i finally gave my first fruit of labour to the LORD and indeed GOD is good.. he blessed me with more $$$$ haha my grandma gave my angbao for my bday and my dad suggested that he pay $500 for my catering.. heh so more or less the money part gao dim already.. heh if u guys got any games wanna bring on that day also can.. the programs are really exciting.. i've got goodie bags, lucky draw goodies up for grabs.. goodies bags are for the sweet toothed but i only prepared 50pcs so if u wanna check out what's inside the goodie bag and grab one.. heh rmb to drop by early okie.. i'll cut the cake at 9pm sharp soooooo better make sure any of u dont come later than that hor.. :X the party will start sharply at 7pm c u guys then and rmb and humongous present.( dress to kill!!) woohoo if not stand outside. no food allowed :D GOD bless u

trotters

new haircut.. :D ever round and chubbysize of leg before swelling ( right leg)

size of leg swelling NOW ( left leg)

Pray for me for recovery ok.. i need to get to exercising again!!!! soon

hotel room

http://www.tripadvisor.com/LocationPhotos-g293916-d643721-I_Residence-Bangkok.html#16905120

hui and min check this out ok.. the hotel is awesome :D

quick update

photo whoring at bus stop.. :D

check out this couple.. notice anything unusual?? heh actually nothing but i saw this ah gong actually helped the ah ma ( his wife) to carry her handbag and i thought that it's real sweet of that.. seriously if they are so old already and they can do this what's more for us who are in love now? heh i really hope that my future husband will be as sweeeeeeeet to me as when we were young :X

i bought this maroon tube dress for the upcoming weddings.. heh so happy that i managed to get something nice and i CAN WEAR!!!!! haha $79.90 but i think it's alright la.. not bad and there are a lot of designs.. good place to shop for gowns for 'jie mei' or bridesmaid.. city plaza at paya lebar there.. heh i must watch my weight if not i will burst the dress.. seriously.. hahah

ciao