:)

someone

goodies from japan :D

burnt a hole in my pocket today. total damage: $132 on clothes and a new bag.. haha considering i just bought sooooooo many tops during my stay- in this week OMG.. in just one week i have like 7 new tops?? haha costing $200+++ oh man :X i think i have to eat air already for the rest of the month.. arrgh anyways PIU PIU is back.. haha my fitchy roomie!!! :D when i spotted her round face admist all the skinny booties at TOP SHOP i wanted to give her a big HUG! haha rmb that time i gave a her a hug i almost suffocated her. :) how i love her. a big thanks to piu piu for her goodies from japan.. haha i love the spongebob box and the "mike" the most.. haha u just got me a teaching tool :D sank u very much piu piu.. invigilating is the boring-est job in the world coz it's dead silence then cannot sms and talk so best zzzz haha but easy money la so better not complain.. hur anyways my legs have 80% healed but the blue black part and my ankle still hurt a bit especially when i run.. which is real bad.. arrgh pls pray for healing okie. thanks peeps. anyways retail therapy really works for me.. especially when i'm feeling lonely i just shop non- stop by myself, taking my own sweet time at every shop, going everywhere i like but it's a little lonely la.. but what to do.. sigh nvm buying something nice beats everything. even missing that someone. ( refer to above pic for someone ) sigh ciaoz

i know i have to be understanding that u are having parade and stuff and you'll be very busy but.. sigh i dont know man.. asking u to take leave to spend the day with me is like asking u to do something very difficult or maybe asking u write an essay in chinese.. i really dont know la NS is really taking up a lot of OUR time. u say u wanna spend the weekends with me, but u should know for my mum the weekends are like "family time" to her so how can i just tell her that i want to go out with u and stuff? i really dont know la the taking leave part i've told u long ago even before my exam ended and u said u will take leave, i thought before the parade practise starts but by the time i reminded u to take leave, we're one week away from the parade. :( sigh i really hate it la.. i dont know how to tell u also ok. anyways i blog here i wonder when will u ever read it also la. sigh forget it la :( i miss my friends man i hate having holidays and staying at home, watch tv eat, sleep like a pig i want to hang out with my friends, i want to hang out with you. but when? u tell me june. ok. but june i'm gg to school already and i wont have time to us, maybe much lesser than now. i'm gg to be busy and i want to make up for the time later on.. sigh you say we will try to make time.. but how? sucks man.. i dont want to pretend that i'm very happy in front of you when in fact i'm bitter over all this ok. it's not gg to work out. everything. :( tmr's my first day at work invigilating for the UOL exam. hope everything will work out fine.
keep me in your prayers ok. :X

The state i'm in now--> sprained ankle and bruises.. :(

My darling and his new specs

i miss my hamster babies.. all of them :(

Kelong trip!!!!!!! :D

Happy family. all sunkissed :X

catch of the day

my hands have been itching to blog suddenly but blogger's layout sucks but anyways i'll try to blog kaez.. wonder if my entry will turn out not. kaoz last night whilst lying on my bed, i talked to GOD and guess what?? i was given the anointing of speaking in tongues.. Oh my goodness. i was quite taken aback by it coz i spoke of it for quite long leis.. during encounter few months back i thought i could speak in tongues but it was only for a syallbus but yest it was different. i really felt that GOD was speaking to me.. it's really a wonderful feeling. :D yeah.. just wanted to share this wonderful experience with all of you.. anyways wanted to post some pics but i lazy to use my lap top since now i'm at home so the pics have got to wait till i'm the in "i like to post pics" mood haha.. yup me and darling went to queensway to make new specs and i must say he looks quite cute in the new specs.. haha i know u cant wait to see the pics too.. haha too bad :X lol kelong fishing on sat.. cant wait.. alright la shant rant on anymore. byebye take care everyone..

i typed a whole of shit now and this @$#*^@)(#*&^@*(& blogger dint even take down any. BLOODY HELL. i hate u

:(

choosing to let go

i've been really unhappy this few weeks, or maybe i choose to blog about unhappy stuff or maybe nothing happy exists between the two of us anymore. quarrels are more frequent than ever and i'm unhappy than anytime. i think one of the reason is we have lesser time to meet up also, since i'm having my exams and you are busy with your work, guess we both dont have time for each other, maybe not as much as before. are we gg to stick to this for the rest of the time we have in this relationship, because if it is, i'm telling you now that i'm choosing to let go. you can say that i dont treasure this relationship or whatever thing but i've told u many times what i hope to see in you but it just doesnt come up or maybe it did and i failed to notice them. i'm really one unreasonable and hard to satisfy girlfriend,i admit but maybe you should ask yourself if you've done enough for this relationship and for me. If you felt that u did, ok good for you but to me, there's always something lacking. Maybe we are not meant for each other afterall or maybe GOD wants me to meet someone wrong before finally i meet the right guy? i dont know.. i'm selfish, self-centered and impatient with you i admit it all but that's not gg to solve the problem now right? coz i'm not changing and i dont know how.. maybe choosing the easy way out (like what u always say) is the only solution for Now. i'm really at a lost of what i can do to salvage this relationship.. :(( but i'm sure to say that i wont allow unhappiness to consume myself . God Bless all

things are not good

this is it. we've got nothing more to say to each other. or maybe coz you're just too tired to talk to me. nvm

unhappiness

i dont think there's such a thing as "Happily Ever After" even for married couples i dont think that such a thing even exists especially when the 2 ppl involves me. i'm really selfish, self-centered. u dont know what i want and what i need. what u ever do is to ever give in to me. where's your personality? where's your temper? gone. you always say you are there waiting for me, you will love me. your loving really made me suffocate. or maybe like what u say i'm the one making myself suffocate or what.. but i really feel that our lives are so different now, we'll never ever cross paths. you in ns and me studying now. we have to make an effort to meet up and travel up and down. now u will tell me that u dont mind travelling,i really dont know what to say lei.. you always give in to me and just dont want to fight for what u really want. i can tell u now that if u still want to be in this relationship with me, more of such things will happen. we are just 1 day short of our anniversary, but just looking back at my entries, maybe for the past one month or even longer, we have more quarrels then happy times la. it's wearying me down. u definitely will say that i'm always the one picking trouble with you and that u are happy in this relationship but i'm not la. i'm not happy when we quarrel every now and then. AT THIS VERY MOMENT. you are sleeping coz u have a headache and u ask me to cheer up.. ON MY OWN? how man? self- entertain? i know u will be very angry when u read this entry but this is really what i want to say before u tell me that it's very late for u to stay up already coz u have to work 630 tmr. i dont know la maybe we are just not right for each other and waiting for the right time to end all this for good. i dont know how are we ever to solve all this :( all this nonsense things that can be avoided if your gf hadnt been me :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

arrgh..

Just got back from NUS's hostels.. sigh and listening to my friend's woes it really made me think, izit that good to be in a relationship? hmm i dont know. sigh i dont want to quarrel with him but think i'm really short-tempered in this relationship.. how i can make myself more big hearted towards someone i really care a lot for? i really wonder how i can be.. i'm really very selfish and self-centered then all of u can imagine.. :(

*_*

Cant believe i'm here blogging when everyone in the world now is mugging like never before.. yawn zzz i'm a bit distracted lei like i cant concentrate hard enough on what i'm studying coz they dont hold much meaning to me.. maybe later after i finish blogging then i can go start on another more interesting module.. muha.. exams in one weeks' time. hope that everyone has more or less started their revision.. yup got a few expired photos i'm gonna update. :D
This is My Hall Pet ---> "Tang Yuan" super cute fellow, the biggest amongst all the other hammies.. but he/she ( still too young to differentiate) muha -_-'' escaped from the cage on sat & sun and me, sm and jing2 had to launch a emergency "sao dang" to find him/her.. and in the end he/she was hiding in my wardrobe's drawer that i had NEVER opened ever since i've moved in hall la.. tsk tsk i was so scared that i would see a dead hamster body but luckily nv.. i've seen a lot ever since gg over to hui ting's place, from hamsters giving birth to being eaten up and also growing up.. exciting biology class. :) so real..

Night cycling with JR and the rest of the youthnet ppl.. i had fun really.. nv tried night cycling before, this is my first and it was great.. all the CUTE GUYS slurrp.. haha :P got so much la until i a little regret that i asked aloy along.. lol but still he took care of me the whole journey making sure i'm always in front of him and that we will look out for each other.. overall rating: AWESOME. :D dinner cum supper @ lau pat sat. then we cycled to vivo city and back to east coast. it was a long journey but before we started out Pastor said that God was actually cycling with us :) so it wasnt that bad afterall.. yup we were actually worshipping at the place where they fish i dont know what izit called.. but we were there before sun rise and we sang and worshipped the LORD all the way till the sun was right in our face and i remember clearly that when we stand facing the sea, the sun was on our left and the moon was still on our right.. it's a really amazing feeling no words can describe the kind of feeling we felt at that moment. Indeed he is a Great GOD. how can a man make the sun and moon appear together at the same time? woah woah :D coz we dint sleep the whole night we felt extremely shagged the next day and my legs were aching real bad. seriously think i used too much strength or what till i had to eat pills to stop the pain la.. but thank GOD i recovered fully in 2 days time.. :) next time got anymore such stuff remember to jio me along okie? or maybe after exams we can do it on our own.. lol i got my own bike. muha

US before starting out cycling.

P.S i know i look super round and fair coz i'm standing beside someone dark and skinny. OK FINE, i put on weight. damns

PRESENTING TO ALL.. ***jiang*** jiang*** jiang*** jiang***....................................................... my NTU?NIE? cute guy *_* muha wonder if anyone of you know him or what.. so much eye candies!! lol anyways he was sleeping and i managed to snap a few photos of him but this photo shows his coolness the most..*shy* :X see the ring on his left hand?? muha i thought he is attached and maybe it's some couple couple ring but GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?! when i went for encounter earlier on, i was presented the G12 ring, EXACTLY THE SAME AS HIS. is this fate or what? lol ciaozz... mug hard everyone :D

:)

THE SWEETEST THING ON EARTH.. heh her name's cammy.. love her to bits man PIGLET!!! lol anyways just want to "use" her face to cheer any of you guys up who are feeling a little down.. no matter how bad things are, there are surely something small that's worth your smile :D been through a lot this week.. i mean you know la relationship problems.. think this time it got a little out of hand.. and vivo's really our cursed place. everytime we go there together we surely quarrel de.. and everytime we go there the quarrels seem to get worse and worse.. :( but i'm just thankful that we managed to cool down la.. but please, dont do that again ok? it really scared me.. whatever it is.. i wanna share some stuff that happened to me this pass few weeks.. we had our DSJ test and some #*^)#&^$)#&^$ PRC ppl had to cheat in the test la.. sigh and some singaporeans not happy go expose but apparently the teacher dint really penalise the PRC woman then they even more not happen went to expose to the management.. so now the whole lect kena liao lor.. woa lao super politics la.. i wonder how this kind of ppl gonna teach the kids in school in one more year's time.. it's really sad that i'm in the same lect as them.. not just one woman cheated..i saw so many of them la.. sucks the PRC woman who got caught still had the cheek to say " which eye of yours saw me cheating?!?" like what the hell la.. cheat liao still dont want to admit.. sigh so sad right.. and i'm also very bad la as usual always gossip with my gang of friends then one of my classmate from last sem she wear stockings, 37 years old :X, not married/attached and we always gossip about her la.. tsk tsk but apparently she know that we are gossiping about her then not happy.. muha -_-'' got another PRC also we suspect that she had a botox job but recently see her face like very swollen like that dont know izit she went back her country then did a cheapo one.. lol so bad hor me.. but it's so me also.. but i really have to ask GOD for a heart of love.. and he gave me a verse.. "This is my command: Love each other"- John15:17 and it's like so real.. just yesterday i was hoping i'll be able to change my ways and this morning while doing my daily bread the Lord gave me this verse.. think i'll have to change my ways and walk with the Lord.. i dont want to sound so holy but it's true that the one and only GOD is Jesus.. going for the encounter was indeed a good decision coz i really did encounter God and of course the annointing from the holy spirit and for the first time i tried speaking in tongues.. think i'm not really used to it but i'll practice it hard since it's a Gift from God.. i really want to thank the Lord for all his mercy he has shown in my life.. All the test i thought i'm gonna flunk like mad or if not, not gg to do well but because JESUS is Lord of my life, i'm blessed. Friends out there if your are feeling down or lonely, why dont u look up into the sky? You'll see someone out there waving at you, wanting to be there for you.. :) Take care ppl getting a little excited over night cycling tmr.. heh shall update sometime soon. outta here~

:X

- i'm just glad that we did not decide to end it just that.
- i'm super glad that i encountered GOD.
- it's time to move on with my life
- it's time to study for the exams two weeks later. OMG
Persevere on everyone :D

pursuit of un-happyness

Was just thinking what are some of the possible causes that will result in couples breaking up? izit
1. unfaithfulness
2. childishness
3. fading of feelings
4. no reason
?? just a thought that came up after we had this weird conversation.

Happy 18 months. anymore to come?

maybe meeting up doesnt hold as much significance as before already since we are so busy with our own life.. but i still cherish every moment spent with you..

cravings..

i wanna eat
1. fish soup from either red hill/ bugis branch
2. pig stomach soup ("zhu du tang") from tiong bahru market
3. KFC.
arrgh will update more when more food items come to my mind.. lol i dont mind cheng teng from newton also arrgh. diet diet.. when am i gg to embark on that terrible journey again.. sigh

back and wounded

sigh.. this is a bad start of the year man.. everything seems to be gg wrong for me.. sigh tot i could go for OBS then at least i can slim down 1-2kg but it turned out worst think i became even fatter.. arrgh coz i strained my both hands and had to go back early.. what the heck lor and not to mention i returned home with lots of mosquito bites.. arrgh but it's a experience worth paying for.. i mean it's only $80 and we get to learn how to appreciate things are in our lives and how we should not take small small things like even a reasonable amount of space to sleep at night la.. tsk tsk let's not go into details ask me if u wanna know more and i can rattle on.. arrgh :( back in hall now and i miss my comfortable bed and high speed fan :( sucky.. what i'm looking forward to now is the encounter camp from 31st mar-1st apr.. hopefully i can to really encounter GOD and pray for all who need.. aloys had been wanting me to go for an encounter camp and since this camp is RIGHT BEHIND MY HOUSE.. why not go for it man.. dont wanna procrastinate anymore.. think i've wasted too much time in doing that already and the time i've spent procrastinating can like be used to take one good sleep la.. sorry huh the english here a bit wrong but WHO CARES. be yourself.. lol :X today's test suck like shit and the teacher still say it's super easy -_-'' i couldnt even do it la.. just praying hard that i'll do a pass.. dont wanna fail any modules if not can say byebye to my degree le.. arrgh now that the test is over can slack a bit but need to do some catching up also.. heh but tetatively quite free.. lol :D thurs's socks's 21st big day.. hopefully we can play like mad that day and really enjoy ourselves man.. i think i really deserve some time TO LET LOOSE!!! watch out man.. lol nothing much to update actually.. everything's the same for me and aloys the usual quarrels but we're still gg strong.. just wanna encourage all those ppl out there who are reading my blog and are having difficulties in their relationship, if u guys are not exactly feeling very happy now at this moment in this relationship maybe u should think back from the start, what had brought u together.. was it LoVE? if it is, and u still love the other party then maybe u should hang on and try to make the relationship work.. yeah that's just a thought of mine and what held on together for me and aloys.. yup caught the movie "pursuit of happyness" and it's really a very meaningful show.. it actually reflects on us how we view things like we are all very worried about small stuff like hiccups in relationships or even not being able to be attached but there are actually bigger and more important things in life that are more worth of us to spend time on.. was telling ling dude that day coz she was feeling super sad that her crush is attached then i told her to think of her tutee that found out he was adopted.. i mean it may be different issues but whatever it is, it really kept me thinking, thinking of how shallow we can get at times when we get emotional, here we are worrying over our crush and there somebody else is facing another kind of problem X100000000 times worse than ours.. we should just strive ahead and move on ba.. i think this is the kind of attitude we should have in life and what is said in bible.. so friends, let all unhappiness be bygones and strive ahead. if we keep looking back, we will never move ahead. just a funny thing i read a few days ago.." women stop worrying when they are finally married. Men start worrying when they are finally married" lol :X attended a secondary school close friend's wedding on sun.. had a shock of my life she became super bloated lor.. dont know if she put on weight for the wedding or what but it seems like she put on 10kgs??? oh man she used to be so lean in the good old days but now is like VOOM! OMG. *faint* but maybe it's the malay tradition to be slightly on the plump side when you're married but my friend is only 21!!!!!!!! so scary i was sitting on the table there eating and wondering what will happen when i'm getting married too.. it sounds rather scary who knows in just 7 years time it'll be my turn soon.. SO SCARY and to think that secondary school life has just passed not long.. when you're young u wanna be old. when you're old u wanna be young and return to the good old' days.. sigh that's life man.. arrgh my stomach having cramps now.. byebye

rants..

arrgh i really hate it la when u have to do shift work and turn up to meet me so shagged... sigh it's my e learning week so kinda free but you're not.. i think this is the kind of things that couple quarrel about and also maybe the root of them breaking up coz either party is not spending enough time together but whatever it is, i just hope that this is one of the phase that we will look back and smile about how silly the two of us were.. this afternooon, after my appointment, i went to meet up with aloy.. i had to go all the way to cck then take train down to red hill again..sigh this is the kind of silly things u will do when you're in a relationship.. and the big problem was that i was dressed like an auntie.. sigh gg here and there.. can u believe it?! during my free time i'm cooking for u while u are sleeping.. i'm not complaining or what la but sigh.. i just having PMS again.. arrgh i'm sian about so many things la seriously.. i wonder if other girls that are in similar situation as me will feel the same way too? i think for the guys maybe they are too tired to even feel this way..can u imagine waking up at 3am in the morning only to end work at 3+pm?? what the hell and for a measly pay of $300.. then the next day it's the same thing again.. how to have time to spend with girlfriend? they wont even let him go on valentine's day.. sucks man i really hate all these and how i wish we were back to where we were.. where u just had to go to school and not tied down by all these other stuff :((((((( but i know la it's not possible sigh ...anyways in front of u, i have to react as though i'm swallowing all this willingly and not make things difficult but coz this is my blog, i think i have the right to say what i really feel and what i'm not happy with, so if any of these sound sucky to u, i'm sorry man but this is really how i'm feeling at this exact moment--- SHITTY. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

RIP Bee Leng

i never knew knowing the truth could be so difficult for me.. the passing on of one of my sec sch/JC friend certaintly woke me up from where i was dreaming.. the news of her dead was smacked right into my face whether i like or not.. i had no choice but to face the cold hard truth.. she was not close to me but whatever it is i knew her and she knew me. :X when i read the words "she commited suicide last friday and now buried at..." on shumin's msn window, all the goosebumps on me just came up.. i was at a lost of what to do.. and how i should react to this sudden news.. i couldnt believe my eyes that this quiet girl actually had the courage to do something like that.. or maybe she just couldnt control herself.. :( sigh but whatever it is, this incident just taught me not to take anyone or anything for granted.. seriously u never know some friends u've always to contact but nv do is already.. dead. very sad but what to do.. come to think of it, the day that she died, i was still happily prawn fishing with my NIE friends.. ultra guilty.. there's nothing i can do now but to look back and take it as a lesson learnt. it is very sad to know that only through such traumatic things that we learn how to treasure the people arnd us more.. yest me and shumin went to her tomb to pay our respects we almost couldnt find her "address".. her ashes is located right at the bottom and it is so not prominent that we missed it twice.. whatever it is, looking at the cold hard maroon marble plate, i just felt a overwhelming sense of sadness. this is all left of my friend that is only 20 years old. how come she got so sick and tired of this world and that no one reached out to her?? though the crematorium was filled with a slight tinge of sadness, it was also peaceful and a good place i would say for someone like her to Rest in Peace..
May your soul find rest in wherever u are now and that you are happier than before.. RIP BL

randoms

EEEEEEWWWWwww but i still love him leh.. muha ;P

sorry for not blogging for such a long time... really lazy these days.. anyways this entry is gonna be a super random okie.. just trying to remember what happened like long long time ago... lol

alright, spotted this kiwi look alike bird in school few weeks back and it wasnt moving that's why i could take a super close up photo of it.. it had long wings but cannot fly or maybe lazy to fly just like i got a lot of things to say but lazy to blog.. muha

A pretty photo of me to cheer up all my friends who are not feeling not too good ok.. Hang in there k :D
oh yes.. prawn fishing today!!!!! damn fun can $26 for 3 hours.. fish like u have never fish before.. i went down to some fishing village at lakeside area.. damn cool lor.. i caught 5+++ prawns la.. got +++ coz got a few of them i let them go away.. one was out of water already but it flipped back la.. kao.. this is the mess that's left over by me and my NIE fwends.. lol
so fun.. we should go again next time.. lol the full-of-salt prawns.. very fresh, very nice.. we brought hotdogs, sotong balls, crabsmeat, satay there to eat.. more like BBQ outing rather than fishing.. all my greedy idea. damn
preparing to be BBQ-ed.. muha

super expired entry

Hey people.. sorry for the super expired entry coz i think my lappy's been infected with virus and only TODAY that i managed to blog.. heh blogger just wouldnt load for the past few days and even though i had a lot of urge to blog, i couldnt and i just had to bear with it.. can u imagine how tough it had been for me? hahaha *sniff sniff* lol anyways this entry is gonna be some super expired one coz all this events happened like one thousand years ago and then now your super lazy-fied friend has decided to blog all at one go.. -speaks- kill me somebody... haha till now, blogger's still lagging a bit whilst i'm typing now.. the words dont appear immediately after i type. sucks man this is super high CRASS.. hur.. anyhow, pictures galore :D oh yes for your info folks, i've got something up my sleeve which i'm embarking on, only lua ka and aloys know about it and it's gonna remain a secret until further notice, wells, i just want to "diao your wei kou" muha see my pictures la.. hur

Doesnt this just shock everyone? And i'm in love with him.. haha
We are supposedly playing with sparkles on New Year's Eve but it looks like it has caught fire on the grass coz i threw all of them onto the grass,afraid that it will get onto my hands! ok fine, i'm a scaredy cat.. i mean tiger.. -_-''
DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE HECK IS THIS???? JACK'S ASS i mean Place ESCARGOTS.. super duper heavenly but not heavenly on the wallet.. super ex la but horridly delicious. we should go again.. think we had it on Christmas or was it our anniversary.. hehe cant remember la :X
we tried making odeh odeh using some receipes we found online and it was a success. Aloys said that we can sell em' in future like as in for a living and i told him "GOODBYE" haha y would i? :P i know it's nice and i'll try and make for any loyal readers who is interested in trying.. SLURRP
the coconut-less odeh odeh.. humongously BIG and they will squirt out the gula melaka IN YOUR MOUTH. just imagine...... god
imagine me saying.. "and then" me and my boy after JR's 21st party.. check out those cool eye bags.. @_@ ahhh i love it like that u move it like that.. muha :P
Happy 16th months :D pleasant surprise love u ***muack***