birthday celebration

Yesterday was mR Tay's 20 yr old birthday and evofussss met up at Holland's hog's breath cafe. Oh yes before i get into detailc HIS CAR BROKE DOWN! whilst helping me to move my fridge to the hostel. horrid. the car kept stalling like for 5 or 6 times IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD then i had to act like traffic police, open the door and swing my hand like mad.. arrgh but so funny, i pushed a car for the first time of my life.. muha there was smoke coming out of the car.. think if we continued driving we would have get killed coz the car will burst into flames and we die also dont know what happened. kao seriously we dint know that it was so serious.. so scary and i was with TAY alone only lor.. die already havent even say byebye to everyone.. tsk tsk but anyways we got to the cafe in one piece. haha nice place but the price of the food is a bit too steep. arrgh anyways just a short note for the rest if u hadnt notice, actually i already planned my date with Aloys yesterday but coz of TAY! we cancelled it.. it was our 14th month anniversary.. heh but anyhow i still enjoyed myself meeting up with u peeps, me and ultra black comparing the disgusing ah-diongs in our hall.. lol so fun we better meet up soon again ok. since the ultra round's exam is over already.. haha but so sorry girl, cant celebrate your ultra black birthday with u coz i'll be india with all your same colour.. :( sigh but i'll still rmb it.. it's on 3rd of dec right? haha CAUGHT YOU! i know la it's 8th of dec, the black day.. muha ok i'm getting evil here. below got some pics check it out yourself huh.. a note to evofussssss, i think everytime we meet up only for a short while and it's like a dinner or so only so if that's the case, maybe we should try to do it more often dui ma? anyways for a short while only mah.. *STOP ROLLING YOUR EYES* haha so how so how? anyone wants spices from indie tell me kayz.. i can try to bring some bangala back too if there is a demand for it.. Hui.. u want? lol :X

evofus without the ultra black
Eh?
birthday BOY. :D
evofussssss+ aloys
food not bad, service not bad, price VERY BAD.
me with the fantastic hug provider -__-"
i look seemingly happy :)
Spongebob says HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
couple shirt. :)))))))))))

bliss

Peeps who wanna order the siKKim tee from me pls do so by monday coz all the sizes are available now and 1000000000% can get the size u want but after monday would be hard to say leh.. $12 for a black dri-fit tee. plain with some lime-green designs :D support support k think i can wear M or L. agar your size and can tag me here to order.. SAnk You alL very MucH *HUgs*

i'm confused between eating and studying. look at the amount of food i have. luckily the fridge is not here yet.. if not i dont think my friends will recognise me at the end of the sem. arrgh how slim :X
HATTY! this is for u. haha this shows that i'm not only threatening you.. i really do it.. lol cool combi that all ah-diongs wannabe can try. tight jeans with oversized sports shoes! WOoHoOoooOOooOoOO....
This is my fave pic of us together. Since when did i have a chin?! think my chin went on a holiday.. hadnt seen it for quite some time. i think my stomach is gg to cover up my legs soon. cant see them from the top. muha :P
love ya so much :*
my stupid NIE friend told me that he saw an insect on my hair when it's the beautiful clip aloy chose for me. I think he is just jealous. arrgh hahaha
the All purple flower i got for my bday.. sorry had been rather busy so it slipped my mind to take a pic with it and it's drying up already.. It's good to have a camera phone that can bluetooth pics taken on the spot onto my lappy right Ms Black? hur :))
OH MAN.. the cactus i bought from NTUC @JP is budding.. so cool. nv seen it in my whole life.. haha so proud of my cactus. lol the red circled area is the part where it grew out! maybe i need to get a new pot soon.. :D
this pot of cactus belongs to Socks. her budding is damn cute can. one small part only.. haha feel like pulling it out and touch it. looks hairy and it's LIME GREEN.. muha cool right. Told u hall life is interesting.. Stop being jealous of us. It's really nice to stay with someone who is your best friend and can gossip whole night. :X the bad point is that u will have to handle all kinds of insects on your own. HORRID. last night got baby grasshopper. It hopped onto my table. quite cute actually but when i tried to smack it it hopped away. tsk tsk what the heck. arrgh so the whole night i was feeling itchy. what the heck i had to use my hair to cover my ear also in fear that it would hop inside my ear. haha that's all folks. ciaooozzzzzz

love u so much!!

You're the best thing that ever happened to me. *MuacK*

03-11-06

ok. i admit i am bored in the hostel. yawn supposed to be researching for my 1500 word essay but i'm too sian to do anything and i just ate famous amos so my brain is like dead already so here i am to blog about my wonderful bday party i had :D thanks peeps for celebrating with me especially evofus. i really had so much fun in caleb's car. muha but funny sia i dint bring the cam along. hur but still thanks so much... Think now we wont have time to meet up also but when i go india i will rmb to bring some india air for you guys to try. haha i will miss u guys lots.

Caleb: OOI rmb sat help me move the fridge can? Thanks $20 delivery la. hur :P

CAnt believe i'm 20 already. horrid and in a few months time i'm gg to be 21! WooHoo. legally an adult. so gg to watch RA shows. lol damn cant stop sneezing arrgh (*)(*) muha ok i shall stop being RA -_-'' oh yes MOL this year.. anyone interested?

Ms Black: maybe u can come together with your Mr Black then the two of u can come experience the REal magic of love together.. how? let me know if u wanna come k then i can get the tix for u :) yup oh yes the cactus i bought for my room it's budding!!!!! haha so happy i cant believe it. oh yes DUDE: Should we buy fishy for our room?hmmm howz :? so far hall life is alright la. a bit boring coz i dont feel like watching tv in the very sick room but i have no tv in my room. arrgh whatever. today when i came back, i felt a little home sick, it seems that me and my family would get closed only at times like this, when we dont get to see each other so often, we would take each other for granted. seriously i think everyone should have a chance to experience hall life. it's far more different than styaing at home coz you'll have to learn how to handle everything on your own. oh yes and today when i went to bathe, i forgot to take my towel.. kao what the heck man so i went naked to the door there and shouted for dude. luckily she heard me if not i was thinking if i should use the toilet paper to dab myself dry. haha tsk tsk.. yup that's all for the updates. keep your eyes glued to this corner. more to come in the next entry. byebye and GOD BLESS ALL..

*hint* this esprit watch is damn nice. haha how about hugo boss purple? i got a cheap dealer in that. ask me for more info. if not get me some nice accessories (hair clips or whatever, pearl earrings) or maybe a free slimming session which is most welcomed.:)))

my 20th birthday celebration with my sweetheart. Thanks for the purple rose. *muack* we dint do much this year but coz u said u had not much time but thanks for the card that could talk! haha love u so much. :)) but dont forget your promise to me that we will go take the hot air balloon ok.. :X
partying with my most loved ones since sec sch except jing2 but who cares? we are a mad bunch and i love u girls sooooo much. Thanks for the surprise party which dint turn out to be one. haha but thanks for the effort too. :D where the heck is my present then. damn. lol joking la
i still love him when he tries to stretch my t-shirt this way. haha *HUg*

fucked up

i've never felt so let down by everyone around me before.. my leader from the sikkim and also by the person i love most.. :( seriously i mean.. do we always have to sacrifice ourselves for the sake of others, when i put in so much effort, but in turn nothing comes out right, why should i put myself through all the trouble? i dont really see the point. i'm ultra pissed now. To my leader of sikkim: if you guys need more tiles, go get the god damn tiles yourself and ask the other team also to get their own tiles, i dont see why i have to put myself through all these trouble and get all these nonsense from you. i mean seriously till so far, i've secured such a good contact and you have yet to say one thank you to me. i'm not trying to claim any glory or whatever shit but it's that i feel that my efforts have gone unappreciated. same for the cookies and cream project. damn all this are shitifying me. damns. i've to beg my relatives to buy from me and here the orders are being cocked up. WTF la seriously. as if my schoolwork is not busy and hectic enough, ppl that i love dont seem to care enough for me, maybe he did, but i cannot feel it. i always have the feeling that we both switch roles la. i'm the boyfriend and you are the girlfriend, i mean i'm mostly the one caring for u, making sure of this, that, going down to your place to meet you, maybe u can say that it's all that i'm doing out of my own will, true but cant you do it for me? true, u may be in army, and we dont have to meet everyday, then fine la. dont meet. i really hate myself sometimes...:( damn pissed up now. sigh maybe what jr said in the very first place is true that i'm not yet ready to be in a relationship. even till now, we're together for one year odd already, i mean seriously, dont u feel suffocated in the relationship, having such a demanding and unreasonable gf? sigh i dont know man, when such things happen, i just cant help but want to throw away everything we have had. i mean i feel it's a burden to carry on with things and also who knows, things might be better for you if you were without me. i still love you, but if loving you is too taxing on me and that i feel that i cannot cope anymore, can i just let go?

random pics

Just some random pics, let the pictures do the talking :)

i tot it is funny to embarrass my NIE friend lidat. :X haha so funny la
me and my baby @ settlers cafe (holland)
the HAPPY ONE YEAR CARD that dint disappoint. thanks love (14-09-2005)
Ms Roly Poly and Mr Fido-Dido :)
HAHAHA R-RATED. hearts boxers 3 for $20 @ NIE bazaar

taken today 08-10-2006 muackx i still love you very much even though we might have our differences, just glad that we managed to thrash things out and that we talked over it instead of just keeping everything to ourselves. *hUg*

my tortoise wanted to commit suicide. seriously -_-''

i'm a lazy pig

OH man.. i'm getting ultra lazy.. hadnt been in the mood to blog, not even now so just a short one just in case i disappoint any of my loyal blog readers. muha yup but it's just a short one also. had my hair cut and highlighted today. dont know y i chose today maybe coz i need to de-stress myself and after my haircut i was on the phone with darling and he kept asking me why i'm so happy maybe coz i feel slightly better after highlighting my hair.. hmmm i only did patches la not the whole head.. huh just in case u guys were wondering what did i do to my hair and also had my hair cut. yup BOB- shaped. haha shall post up new pictures after i take some nice ones okie? ;P oh yes and ppl please remind me that it's time to go on a diet. I'm like putting on so much weight. arrgh i think it's GOD's will for me to be roly poly. haha ciaoz.. GOD BLESS ALL :)

mixed feelings.

When eating tons of chocolates doesnt make me feel better, that's the kind of mood i'm feeling now. sigh Aloy's very sick and he's sleeping now.. yest he puked after sending me home, i thought i was food poisoning so i cursed the pig organ soup he had for dinner. Thinking that he will feel better if i cook dinner for him so at least he will eat home cooked food and get better but after dinner (we had porridge) not even 10 mins later he went to puke, and puke and puke and puke, after dinner after back from the doctor, he puked 4 times just in a night. when waiting for cab he had the urge to puke again but i gave him dried orange skin and it stopped for a while but when he's home, he went to the toilet again. seeing him puke like this really want to make me cry. my heart is very pain can anyone understand? sigh and there's nothing i can do. my heart's aching now.. very badly :( we went to the doc and the doc say coz of the acne medication prescribed by Dr Loke, it's too acidic for him that's y he kept puking and he was too weak to stand on his own. i had to hold him up lor.. and his mum was working so i was the only one there. i'm not complaining coz i'm willing to do all this for him, to cook for him, to wash for him, even to the extend of applying cream for him on his toes and i had to masssage them for him.. but all this is nothing.. seriously i'm happy that i'm the one there but when he refuses to do what i say especially when i want him to do is FOR HIS OWN GOOD, it just breaks my heart. really. i dont think words can describe how i'm feeling now but sigh just hope that he'll get well soon i miss my darling's laughter :(( sigh this is so depressing.. the doc even ask if he had depression coz the medicine Dr Loke prescribed would have such side effects but i think now i'm the one who is not happy la.. sigh what an irony -_-'' maybe everyone needs to getalife! arrgh oh yes to share something happy for my GESL group, touch community has replied to our email and expressed interests to collaborate with us! Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!!! I only prayed once regarding this, and indeed it's God's will that this cooperation will fall through. oh man.. THANK GOD! :) yup that's the only thing that made me a little better now and also looking at my piggily's niece photo also made me feel a little better. hope tmr's will be a better day. GOD BLESS ALL..

happy 1st year :D

this is a love-hate relationship. hah

rooftop terrace @ esplanade
red ruby cheesecake :X so slim
half eaten lychee pine cake. not bad

white rose from my darling..

Happy 1st year! heh today's officially the 1st day we held hands and ended our platonic relationship. hur we had KFC for lunch ( so budget) then decided to go down to town to get my crumpler bag. WOOHOO. finally put a hole in my pocket with a $157 purple crumpler bag. hah at least i dont have to lunge all my stuff to sch with so many things in hand. hur couldnt really make up my mind when i was at the shop but in the end, still decided to get it coz i really like it. but aloy say i like anyhow spend $$ muha.. but i really like it leh.. how. arrgh before tt we went to Cedele @ Wheelock to have some cakes. supposed to buy 14 pcs of cakes de but SOMEBODY whom i passed the responsibility to had apparently forgotten about it. but nvm la better still , i've been gourging myself silly this few days when i'm so stressed out and face is getting rounder. arrgh. after that we went for a movie @ the cathay, think it's our fave movie getaway there, like so retro there the exterior of the theatre.. i like. hur we caught "little man" wasnt really that funny la. maybe not my cup of tea. heh after that we initially had in mind to go to the beach but due to time constraint, we had to change our plans and went to esplanade instead.. we hanged out at the roof top terrace for a while, no surprise, no nothing, just the company of who i love :) and i must say that it's quite romantic there though there were many other ppl, at least all the ppl there were considerate enough to keep their voices down, to avoid disturbing the love birds. for that i think singaporeans deserve a round of applause! hahah *clap clap* just wanted to blog about out special day before it ends in like 30 mins time and aloy says he is feeling giddy already. we dint even drink alcoholic drinks, how in the world sia.. tmr he's getting his posting le.. i'm keeping my fingers and heart crossed. GOD BLESS ME.

Tea time --> Cedele @ Wheelock.

happy happy

I love us! muack :*

Lemon milkshake. not bad :P
disappointing buffalo wings, NO KICK! arrgh
Chicken drumstick with beef sausage. SLURRP
This is my lappy's wallpaper. sweet bah. dont be jealous kkz

We went dating on sat and it was a blast! hur.. shopping @marina but dint get anything in the end. yup had dinner at billy bombers.. (ey is this how u spell it?) anyways, the food came in humongous servings but hah. what do we have to fear? we have the DA WEI WANG here. hah ALOYSIUS TAN HAN TIAN. lol before that can u believe he actually ate a subway sandwhich? ok la the 6 inch de but still.. tsk tsk and yogurt ice cream and whats not more oh man.. and that was like after lunch not long.. muha piggily. oh yes we ordered buffalo wings. quite disappointing leh. i expected something better and also some chicken drumstick with a beef sausage. sounds so meaty huh. muha and oh yes we had lemon milkshake. heh something cool right.. feeling so fatty now though it's been quite some time. but! hah later got kungfu fighting class, so can shake off a little bit of fats. supposed to be doing my assignment but here i am blogging away and uploading pics like nobody's business, arrgh there's something wrong with friendster as usual. whatever. yawn @_@ so tired today had classes at 830 so chiong here and there and now back home. later gg back sch also. zzzz sch's alright la. everything's basically fine for me :) oh yes TMR ALOY'S GONNA POP already!!!!!!!! haha i feel that i'm so happy for myself and also for him like as if he's gonna ORD but still long way la huh.. lol but still i'm gonna attend the ceremony. hur and skip class -_-'' but nvm la. for him, heh it's worth it :))) but have to stay on tekong till 7+ wait i @_@ already lor.. so tiring the whole day. heh just pray hard that the weather would be good and wont be too draggy also. lol finally after such a long wait and separation he's coming back mainland singapore and i can finally see him on weekdays! yup but the posting results also dont know yet. But no matter what just hope that he'll get what he want the most-Air Force. he can join with the rest of the hunkies there (except TAY) and be not so cute. hah yup. just want to leave a short note here for my friends who are not feeling too happy recently.. Quoting from aloy.. "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going" get it? :) cheer up kkz learn how to cherish ppl arnd u, coz when they leave you, you wouldnt know what to do and would definitely regret that you hadnt cherish them then. dont think so much la okie? boat reach the bridge head will become straight automatically. hah :) okie? think open lor. dont brood over stuff. there are many other things for u to think over other than brooding over something that cannot be solved. SMile. GOD BLESS U :) muack* (exclusively for aloy only) heh

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HURRAY!!!! i'm gg india at the end of this year :)) more or less confirm le. ha yup for 2 whole weeks or even longer i would gg down to Sikkim for NIE's YEP so exciting. heh wonder if i will spot any indie's hunk. lol -_-'' for now i better buck up for my readings. falling back later gg for kickfit classes. heh just had my early dinner. super fatty but arrgh i'm gg to shake off my fats later. how does ham and cheese omelette with fish nuggets sound? lol they are cook separately la but i dump them all into my bowl. muha so full now and my blouse seems to be bursting already. muha just completed one project and apparently it's very different working with ppl who claims to be from chinese sch and that they dint know that they have to include their own points when they are doing the ppt slides la. just copy and paste from what we discussed. sigh cannot include own points sia. arrgh what the heck. made me and xx do more stuff and still want to boss arnd. AHHHH keeping my fingers crossed that i wont dio anymore projects with her le.. sigh. xx told me to manage my anger better and dont let them know that i'm actually very pissed. hah difficult leh. but i'll still try :) yup Aloy's going to POP next wed. so fast man. hah time really pass very fast. it's like only 2 months ago i sent him off at tekong and i was crying so hard in my heart but soon, he's coming out le. but NS is like only the beginning only. arrgh dont even know where he'll be posted to lor. but anything la. dont go back tekong can liao. will really agonise me man :( so near yet so far. oh yes to celebrate our first year together Mr Tan decided that wei'll go book a hotel room. WOOHOO and chill out there for one night. PLEASE. dont think side side. hah -_-'' i'm not ready to be a mother yet. hah and oh yes before i forget i took a picture of my 199 CUTESY. oh man he's really the man of my dreams. SLURRP. please dont kill me aloy. :X hah alright la needa go check out the hotel rates and availability le. outta here before i go here's my hunk's pic. hah ciaozz Oops the pic is up there. nvm la huh still can drool. BACK VIEW but still cute. hahah but the sad news? he got a gf liao but girls out there dont worry. she is not as cute as me so they will probably break up (i'm so evil seriously) hah then you will have a chance. i will miss one chance coz i've got aloy le and i'm happy :))

so in love

I think it's really amazing how i can stay in love with the same person over such a long period of time. maybe for me la.. the crushes that i have never last more than half a year -_-'' hah but this time is different man. i'm really amazed by myself. hah and the feelings never seem to go lesser but more each time. i dont know man, many peeps say coz this is the honeymoon period so it's sweeter but i mean it's gg to be 1 year soon le izit still the honeymoon period or do we have to determine this ourselves? hah aloy has been PROPOSING to me many times this few weeks to come but still.. where's the 10 carat ring? tsk tsk no ring no talk. hah wait till u save up enough to buy me a 10 carat ring then i'll consider marrying u okie. hah but i still love u very very X1000000000000000 much. i wouldnt give u up for anything in this world but if $$$$$$$$$ a lot a lot haha i can still consider no la joking :X whatsmore my ultra huge crush on the 199 cutesy is dashed since he has a not-as-cute-as-me gf already. sigh they were like hugging on the bus this morning and i can practically see blood flowing out of my heart. haha like those taiwan drama shows.tsk tsk and my second mini crush on the PE hunk is also dashed coz he saw me and aloy together. arrgh so aiyah forget it. haha they are so my dream guy sia. hah but too bad they cant have me!!!!!! muha kill me please *shy* I'M ALOY'S hahaha lol okie la i gtg le need to get ready for my kickfit class later at 7. yawn ciao

service was superb.great sermon,great atmosphere,great company!

SOME of my NIE pals :) (taken using my lappy's webcam hor) cool ba

This is worth dying for. haha ultra nice SUPER CHEAP hah :X

-after service-

stayover at aloy's. hah X-rated. muha

my love and i :*
wow.. it's been quite some time since i last blogged. heh have been busy with sch work and stuff so hadnt really have the time to come online and blogged. and GUESS WHAT? muha i'm using my new lappy to blog. haha everything's so fast.. uploading pics and stuff NO PROB lol.. yup small screen 12" but still damn cool. arrgh cant stand it.. hah shall upload some pics.

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Stayover at aloy's place was a blast :) heh we went for a movie "click" at 10 and the movie ended arnd 11+ nearing 12 when the next day's his birthday so i was the first to wish him. :P ultra funny but still meaningful, supper at SPIZE and after birthday cake at his place. the whole of sat and sun's morning i spent with him, made me feel all fuzzy and warm like having a family of my own. hah it may sound adsurb but i just had a implusion to MARRY HIM! hah except the sleeping part. OMG it was horrible. coz he snored and snored and snored and SNORED the whole night! oh my.. he was on the floor and i'm on the bed but what i felt was that he was snoring right into my ear and i tot there was a thunder storm la -_-''it's that bad.. hah but still fun. we almost overslept coz we had service but i woke up and we quickly washed up. so nice to wake up early in the morning and seeing the person u love the most :D it would be cool to do it more often but cant la.. heh i cant keep having camps in school.. lol (if u guys know what i mean) was supposed to get my lappy today but the stupid guy said that i have to wait till later to get it so here i am still in school in the lib using the com to blog again.. sigh feel so lonely.. :( but whatever.. oh yes i signed up for jewellery making and MAGIC classes so chai i make sure i can bian bian bian in front of u also.. hah it's so cool and the BEST thing? it's FOC.. muha NIE's good got lots of freebies.. lol.. so yup. arrgh my throat behind there like very pain lidat. arrgh think i dint drink enough water :X aloy's gg to POP in 3 weeks time. really fast and great i'm having my holis till then so i can go for the ceremony.. WOO HOo! heh think GOD really heard my prayers and knew what i needed. ha my bank account was like drying up already and i was like so worried i wouldnt have enough cash to pay for my lappy and i even considered borrowing from my friends but heng ar.. my pay came in on time and tadah~ hah i'm a rich bitch once again but think i need to save up for my wedding le. muhaha i sound so desperate -_-'' need to getalife already.. arrgh feeling so sian i ended class at 130 and i nua in school all the way until now.. what the heck arrgh okie la i gg off le bye peeps and GOD BLESS :) Speak to GOD if u need coz HE really hears us (even for non-believers) :))

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cant believe that i'm actually blogging in the lib's com lab. muha. school has started not long and i've made quite a number of friends.. arrgh that's so boring.. actually everything's fine now and that I CANT WAIT FOR THE STAYOVER TMR!!!!!!!!!!! muhahah coz aloy's birthday is on the 13th so i'll be gg over to his place to stay over on the 12th then we can pre-celebrate his birthday and also our 11th month together on the 14th which happens to be on Mon, and he'll be in camp we'll have to celebrate it earlier.. but it's okie la.. i'm already accustomed to it le.. even w/o seeing him now, i think it's fine for me, anyway i'm busy with schoolwork also.. wont have the time to meet everyday and stuff.. steamboat with evofus was wonderful. i'm glad that jas brought yk along coz we managed to have some interaction but caleb leh.. TSKTSK.. sigh all the best to u man. hope everything will improve after u guys come back from thailand :) as for the costs for the steamboat just take it that i'm treating u guys to it lor after i get my nie pay. muha $_$ so no need to pay me back le. just thank me can liao :))) heh cant believe i'm in school so early when my class starts at 1230.. yawn and i'm feeling tired already. arrgh classes are stretching all the way to 430 coz today got make up.. heh tmr's really worth anticipating man.. sushi feast, fireworks seeing, and each other's company.. how i wish there's 25hrs tmr, i'm not greedy just 1 one extra hour to spend with aloy, i'll be very happy le,really. :) outta here GOD BLESS YOU ALL. <3

today's sun and still got FOUR more days before i get to talk to aloy again.. it's been really a looooongg wait but i'm a bit surprised that i handled it quite alright. i only cried like once? when i was waiting for the MRT to service and i opened my phone to read his last msg to me before he left for camp i was like.. tears just welled up in my eyes but i managed to control my emotions then i just took the train all the way to expo, alone, went for service alone,shopped at bugis alone, until sm and sis came, after that went home, alone.bought a top from dorothy perkins and a POLKA DOTTED SKIRT! hah something i really like. think i need to lose a few more kg if not the skirt gonna be real high. but i think i'm really accustomed to it already la.. i mean seriously when school starts, i got so many prog lined up and projects coming up.. sigh i really wonder how life will be and what GOD has planned for me.. i just feel that the future is so uncertain. but i just hope that this relationship will last la.. sigh i just cant imagine me having to go dating with BRODS! *blush* :P muha.. yep.. i'm getting quite excited over the next few weeks and got so many activities planned ahead.. orientation, getting new lappy, maybe moving to hostel, steamboat with evofus and partners,birthday celebration for my beloved and the STAYOVER! WOO HOO we can talk all night and be damn tired for service on sun.. hah @_@ sounds so exciting right? i guess i've never been so excited in my whole life before.. hah but seriously. arrgh i need to go get gift for aloy. having any sale anywhere? muha tell me if u guys know okie. oh yes for the steamboat: EVOFUS SUPPOSE TO PAY ALSO! there's no free lunch in this world. kaoz especially TAY who always want to take advantage of your friends in this aspect ! tsk tsk. hah orientation at NIE was quite alright. got to know quite a few good ppl. and there's this guy in my GESL project grp that looks like WU KE QUN! haha seriously and his cologne woa kao put so much -_-'' and the best thing? he's in my chinese tut grp also and HE'S GOT A CAR!!!!!!!! muha.. so excited but he's 30.. yawn too old for me i like longan still. slurrp hah alright la too much nonsense already. c u evofus on the 9th at the royal palace for steamboat ya? take care peeps and GOD BLESS ciaoz

i love u han han

*muack* Mr longan ;P one picture speaks thousand words

i love my army boy

Time really pass by very quickly. That day when i went to pasir ris to pick aloy up i felt like a thousand years had to pass before i would reach there but after that time passed very very quickly.. and sigh before i knew it, it was sunday already and he had to book in le.. the worse thing? both of us were sick down with flu and sore throat.. sigh really cant bear to see him gg in to tekong again this time round sick and coughing so badly :( but still the separation this time round wasnt as bad coz i'm sort accustomed to it already.. HOWEVER!!!! this fri he's gg for field camp so i wont be seeing him again coz he wont be booking out.. sigh so it's another 2 weeks before i will see him again.. sigh the only thing that comforts me now is that at least when he books out he would have only 1 more month in tekong before he POP so i'm actually loooking forward to it. The good thing is that now i'm not crying anymore.. my tears have dried and i've gone tired from crying and crying but many many thanks to my friends who have attempted to distract me and to accompany me, also to listen to my endless stories and to comfort me when i felt the weekest. Things arent that bad afterall.. i'll make it through it. sigh.. so many things have happened recently. i shant elaborate any further here but just to tell u all peeps out there to take care of yourselves and talk to me if anything's troubling u okie? GOD BLESS ALL!

:)

long while since i've blogged again. so fast it's thurs already. one more day and Aloy would be booking out.. yup but bad news next week it's going to be a tough week for us coz i'm gg orientation and he would be gg for field camp and it's gg to be 7 SEVEN!!!!!!!! days without seeing him or even talking to him on the phone and what's worse? NO BOOK OUT. hurray. cant wait it to come. sucks man what's wrong.. #@$&^@(*$&%(@*^$& anyways booked evofus and partners on national day for steamy boaty cum chocolate fountain at the royal palace. hope that all can come :) yeps. that's one exciting thing that's keeping me going. School's starting soon and i feel a bit lost. Maybe a new environment can help me keep things off my mind for a while. To all my friends out there who saw me shopping and even asked me if i'm ok after reading my oh-so-depressing entries, just want to make a loud shout out " THANK YOU!" i'm better le. trying to adapt myself to this new but not permanent lifestyle, but i know i'm gonna make it coz i have u guys with me :) Take care and GOD BLESS. :)

happy 10 months :)

10 Months ago, we were still friends, and 10 months later, we've turned from friends to lovers. indeed, time passed very very quickly. Hopefully for the 2 years in NS will also be this quick.. sigh last night i was crying to myself, coz i suddenly felt very lonely.. i think by this time most of my friends would have gotten sick of me feeling so sian and crying all the time, so i decided to leave u guys out of my heartbroken-ness. Especially aloy.. dint want him to worry so every night when we're on the phone i would sound very happy. :( the truth is i'm feeling more lonely than ever. everyday may pass very quickly, but my days are very lonely.. this is the truth. but i'm still glad that i have some friends that i can lie back on. that day went out with fish and sm. sorry fish i dint mean to sound rude bout the last thing i said that if u guys hadnt been in my situation before, you'll never really understand how it feels. but it's really the truth. many of you guys out there are asking me to be strong but can u guys really understand what i'm gg through? i doubt so.. i read in the fasting booklet today that we can never know what is LOVE unless we've given out our LOVE and received it back from the same person. similar to this situation i'm in.. The kind of feeling when i miss aloy is not something i can use words to describe and fish say that i still have my friends, but my friends are already very busy with their own stuff and troubled enough. The person who shares the most time with me and most willing to listen to my complaints is far away in tekong.. sigh it's never the same u see.. :( but i'm still thankful for the time on the phone everyday and even for my friends who bothered to listen to my heartbreak stories. Thank u peeps. i really appreciate them. For those who are nursing a broken heart too, i'm really sorry i cant feel how u are feeling now coz i'm not you but i guess we all will have to learn how to pick up the broken pieces and move on again..

medical checkup

This morning i woke up in shock when my alarm rang.. it's like so loud la.. havent been sleeping well this few days.. been having insomnia maybe coz i'm too used to be sleeping after 1+ but almost everyday when i lie on my bed, all the day's events would run through my head again and i keep thinking about everything, him gg army, how will i cope, what stuff can i bring him when he books out.. so it's like my mind's still very active though i'm tired.. but still cant sleep. was awaken by his sms in the early monring was really happy and when i re-read the sms, but i almost teared coz he told me that i was the only thing that kept him going on in army.. and that really made me feel ultra super sad.. it's like he's so helpless, and there's nothing i can do but to encourage him.. but it's okie. i have faith my dearest that he'll do it. I'm so glad that i managed to talk to hatty jing yest and she gave me advice that really was what i needed. Thanks girl :)) what i really need to do is to THINK POSITIVELY now.. wait patiently for the 2 weeks to be up when i will see him again.. :X yup today went for medical checkup.. horrid. shall elaborate the details when i see u guys again.. haha ciaozz. blogger a bit lagging.. the words that i type dont appear immediately and arrgh. i think there's something wrong sersiously.. sucks.. outta here !

feeling slightly better

Today wasnt as bad as the few days, as in i woke up without the weird feeling in my stomach and most importantly my emotions are maybe.. under controlled. i still miss him very very much but luckily his sergents gave him 5 mins to use his hp and he did call me. i'm so glad coz i've sort of given up waiting for his call if the time passes 1030 coz that's their lights out time. Now i'm more worried for him if he can cope inside, all the strenuous exercise, all the early morning wake-ups and stuff, i really worry for him if he can take it. it really broke my heart yesterday when he told me stop crying coz he felt like crying also and that he asked me to pray for him. it seems like he has much more problems coping and adjusting to life in there more than i have problems adjusting to life without the late night talks with him.. at least for me, i still have my family and friends to hear me cry but for him? all he has is just himself to fend for. Now then did it daunt on me that i've been so selfish all this while. Wanting him to console me when he's feeling even worse than i do. :( I just felt that he had so much things and problems to complain to me about but the talking time for the both of us is limited. If we can manage a 10 mins or so, it would be considered a luxury. sigh.. I've decided to be strong for the sake of Aloy, to listen to his complains instead of he listening to my sobbings every night. I just cant wait for the 21st to come for his first book out. sigh alright gtg already. needa pack my stuff, gg over to sm's place already. bye peeps. take care and God bless