school's starting tmr..

hey peeps.. school is starting tmr.. i'm really not looking forward to it la.. but haiz yah la.. today i went to church and i'm enlightened by the pastor's saying.. " PAIN IS INEVITABLE BUT MISERY IS OPTIONAL" true isnt it? many of us chose to dwell in the pain and endure the misery but if we view it in another way it may not be such a bad thing afterall? but once again it's easy to say but difficult to put into action.. isn't it? a bit contradicting also.. haha aiyah dont know la.. got a blog with my JC peeps.. view if u have time.. www.v-0f-us.blogspot.com okie.. that's all liao i want to sleep early tonight.. tmr's gg to be a hectic day.. bye all miss ya!

my eyes are popping out..

burp.. so full ate some rice for dinner cum supper just now and feeling so bloated now.. wonder how am i gg to sleep.. haha just now went to catch with aloysius.. the movie is wonderful so is the company.. dint expect myself to enjoy the show coz i wasnt really interested in such scientific shows lor.. about cloning and stuff.. that's like so super GP.. lolz.. yep yep but i enjoyed the show although it was a long 2.5 hours.. haha super cold in the theatre but someone just insisted that it wasn't haiz.. ok la.. when he called me to tell me that he was in town already i was so dont want to go and meet him.. (sorry aloy if you're reading this) but i wanted to spend more time with my gfs.. seriously not les or what.. actually i wanted to tell u this just now but i didn't know how to start but i feel that now me and sm in different unis already.. i'm starting to lose this friend.. i dont want our relationship to change in any way u understand? i know u would say that we're lesbians but i DONT CARE.. she's been my best friend since sec school and i dont want to lose her.. damns what the heck.. i'm repeating myself.. yep yep yesterday was my last day at work.. after work went out with daphy and eunice for dinner and we just had to embarrass ourselves.. haiz our dear daphy went to book the wrong location of the restaurant and we went to the cuppage branch.. btw the restaurant is the rice table.. yep so she booked the wrong one and went we reached there the person said that we dint reserve any seats.. so we created a din there and i even had the cheek to demand for discount.. what the heck. haha and halfway through our order the branch that she called up to book called her and asked if she's still coming.. what the heck lor.. paisey ourselves only.. lolz after that actually we went to go out for dessert de but the queen at home will sing the phatom of opera so she had to send me home.. so sickening.. haiz.. we had a lot of fun.. i think this is the last time i'll work there anymore.. i'm like a maid.. moving stuff, packing bookselves.. WTF i can be professional librarian already la.. somemore so dusty.. not say i'm complaining or what but the pay is spastic also.. somemore must sweat and i'm allergic to dust will keep sneezing one lor.. so when i was packing the books i had to hold my breath.. SUCKS.. but anyways all the shit are over i'm now shaking my legs at home and waiting for $$$ to roll in.. lolz got a very bad headache now.. dunnoe what's wrong with the contacts lens.. today wear already feel very giddy.. even when watching the show i kept having migraine.. damns yah la.. sian man next week gg to start school already.. not so ready yet.. having mixed feelings about everything now.. including HIM. haiz i just dont know what i want... but i've learnt something.. and that's to NOT GIVE TOO MUCH OF MYSELF! ciaoz.. head is splitting apart :/

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it's been almost 10 days since i last blogged.. sorry peeps if u have been coming online hoping to see a new entry but it's the same old thing! muhaha yep yep anyways.. i'm secretly using this blogger thingy in the office while waiting to photocopy some shitty things for a bitch..damns.. it has many pages and must photocopy 18 sets somemore.. i'm not gg to stand there and wait lor.. haiz.. yes la.. again i'm very vexed.. i cant read the signs.. seriously.. why are u blowing hot and cold? maybe i should not waste my time on you anymore.. huh.. am i right? sometimes u make me feel as if we're really in a relationship but sometimes u totally ignore me.. though i know u are not my type of guy i feel that i'm willing to give it a try.. can't u see? dont tell me u cant read the signs either.. i wont believe u lor.. yah la but as if u would tell me that.. haiz.. i dunnoe! school is starting soon but i'm so not looking forward to it.. damns.. i feel that i'm crapping nonsense.. fcuk.. blog again later.. actually i've got a lot of things to say but when i'm here i feel so lost.. ciaoz brb~

long long time ago..

heyz.. been quite a while since i worked at my mum's place.. and i must say i've earned quite a lot.. muhahah $_$ yep yep.. yesterday had tuition at jr's tuition centre and after that we had a meeting.. goodness gracious! that was the worse meeting i've ever had in my entire life.. i was so fucked up by that bitch.. jr dint even tell me that they will be other ppl joining us and greedy me bought durian puffs hoping to eat them during the meeting and greedy TT also bought $10 worth of famous amos cookies hoping to eat.. and what happened in the end?? we dint even get to eat them together la.. damns! why leh coz of that !@#$128975!@#^&* person.. haiz.. talking about her really makes my blood boil lor.. not just me but for the first time of my life i see TT critising someone.. and is a SHE. but that "thing" huh.. really bossy. and what's the most fuck thing? she actually rolled her eyes when i said that i'm gg sim.. maybe i should have lied that i'm gg harvard.. but damns why should i sin because of her.. not worth it lo.. sucks! i think i've sinned so terribly here cursing so much! muhaha yep yep.. i've created a blog for my jc friends i think it will aid in our communication coz like we can write about how we feel and stuff.. for me is minus the vulgarities! haha :P today went out with hui and sm.. so much fun playing and embarrassing ourselves.. haiz.. i think it's going to be even worse on aloy's bday party with 1.53 around! THUNDEROUS!!!!! haha.. but anyways i've always enjoyed piggying and hanging out with my gfs. no hypocrisy lor.. i really cannot stand it. we just burp and fart and behave as though we are a family.. so that's why i'm super duper depressed when i couldnt get into the same uni as them. i dont want our relationship to change in any way.. but i know it will coz we are all in different schools and stuff.. damns typing this can make me tear.. haiz.. i can only blame myself for not studying hard la.. my fate is sealed that very day i sat for the maths paper.. i knew all my efforts will be going down the drain but.. i was still hoping for a miracle but a miracle hasnt come yet.. my whole life i've been very unlucky.. seriously speaking.. i think i'm someone who brings bad luck to myself.. WTF?! i always dont get what i want.. damns.. yah la but i know that life still goes on.. :( that's all folks. stay tuned if u wanna know more.. ciaoz! take care i miss u all!

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i behaved like a fucking bitch on msn today.damns.i hate myself!

lifeless!

for this whole week, today is the only day i went out.. with hui.. yep yep went to bugis wanted to go xodus buy that cheap cheap shoe but the sale is over already so dint buy from there.. hui recommended to go seiyu and i bought a shoe from there.. i guess i knew what i wanted.. the comfort not the looks. similarly for guys.. muhaha it's the feeling when we're together that matters and not how he looks?! muhahaha aiyah think i'm talking nonsense.. today spend too much money liao.. bought shoes and a new wallet! muhahahaha i'm really a bitch. damn. but the wallet i'll think about it everytime i go bugis leh so might as well get it... haha yah la we had dinner at crystal jade.. not bad at bugis but hui's baked rice was a bit too creamy and the milk powder taste was rather strong.. haha went to mum's place to work and made new friends again.. haha they look bimbo-tic but OH MY GOODNESS! they're such nice peeps.. surely gonna miss them when i stop working there.. saw nice earrings at bugis think is 3 for $10 maybe can get for them.. hahaha k la gotta go already.. Mr tan is talking nonsense liao. bye!

dont step into my heart`

back from m'sia for quite a while already.. haiz and so so so much bad things have happened recently.. finally my appeals for nus and ntu have been rejected. that's my fate but i've yet to come to terms with it..i just cant! yest jr called me and was crying on the other line saying that she had been rejected too and had nowhere to go now.. am i better off than her? maybe la.. at least i've got sim to go but is that what i really want? although i've always wanted to set up my own business but do i have to study business? maybe i'm still not sure of what i want in my life.. seriously.. when she called me yest i felt so helpless too.. never in my life have i had this feeling.. really bad.. a feeling of being left behind from all my friends.. this kind of feeling is indescribable and only those who are in the same situation as me will understand.. OTHERS WHO CLAIM THAT THEY DO, DON'T! i thank u all for keeping up with my whines but FOR GOODNESS SAKE u all really dont know what i'm going through now.. haiz i'm drained of my energy already. besides being super vexed with the application to uni the woman at home is also giving me hell.. i hate to elaborate on it, so i shan't. but i just want to make a point. she insists that i go out to shop and waste money but in the first place she was the one who dint allow me to go work at Hui's place coz she said is LOW-CLASS.. HELLO???????? i'm not even a graduate la. what can i complain when i've got a job that pays $6.50 per hour and $9.7o for OT? WTF.. she's been yelling at me for the past few days over stupid things that i've got no power over.. that somebody crashed our car can be linked to me not getting into uni.. damnit. now tell me. WHO UNDERSTANDS WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH NOW? i may be the same me who laughs loudly and playful when with friends, but when the night settles in, my heart aches for myself again. damn. i'm not trying to be poetic here but seriously this is how i feel deep inside. everytime i see my friends all getting ready and excited over their uni camps and i've got nothing to rejoice about my heart just aches. :(

i hate my life.

been quite a while since i last blogged.. haiz and so muchie have happened.. finally i've received my final judgement.. i'm gg to SIM. That's it. but apparently that woman at home just dont want to accept the fact and insist that i enrol for the dip in teaching.. haiz.. what's the prob la.. haiz i'm so sick and tired of arguing with them what i want and what is GOOD for me.. what the heck.. i'm jobless now and damn damn broke. i help hui pay for 45 pounds and sm $45 for her SD card. how great. and all my previous employers just refuses to pay me back..(My PAY LA! DAMNIT) my bank account is depleting at an alarming rate.. my goodness.. haha but anyways that's not the main point.. yep yep.. today i went for Aloy's church service.. though it's EARLY in the morning but i felt much more comfortable then the time i went for JR's de.. dunnoe but not much jumping la.. then i got to talk to his cell leader for quite a while.. which i find that it's not bad.. maybe can ask sm and fishy along next time if i wanna go again.. maybe what aloysius said is true that you'll need to go more often to be familiar with the practice.. and seriously it is not easy to become a christian.. 1stly, i've got a woman at home who is always here to BLAST at me. 2ndly, i admit i lack the commitment to go to church every sunday and read the bible everyday.. 3rdly, i still kind of live by sight and not faith.. in one of the songs they sang during service is that " i live by faith and not sight" but i dont think i can do so yet.. aiyah it takes time lor.. yep yep but seriously i think nowadays ppl are so busy and caught up with their own stuff and attending something that makes u grow mature spiritually is like quite hard? i dont know la.. but if u ask someone would they rather go church or movie? if both are FOC i bet it's the latter lor.. but yah la.. just let nature takes its course.. i also dont want to force anything now.. just let things stay the way they are. I'm loving it! haha haiz.. oh yeah.. Hui if you're reading this.. your timetable u try to arrange same as mine okie? wed no school! haha then we can go chill out or exercise hor.. i made a new friend at SIM.. haha she's as crazy as me (thank God!) lolz.. i'm not so lonely afterall.. haha i've not been able to sleep well this few days.. dunnoe why also cant sleep that's why it's 1am liao but i'm still here.. damn what's wrong..also, i still love hockey so i'm gg to join SRC's hockey dont care what the woman says.. it's my passion :) even at the expense of my grades.. at least i'm doing something i like.. not say get a degree will ensure a better life.. my uncles are only sec 4 educated but they are like bloody rich.. so as long they are willing to slog to achieve..i would too if i put my passion in it ok! aloysius stop laughing when u are reading this okie. i'm serious.. i'm starting a cafe! lolz.. k la think i wrote enough already. must go watch movie when i come back from m'sia okie? Ciaoz take care Peeps miss ya~ /inital D/

end of the world

i think what aloy said about the end of the world is coming is TRUE.. maybe not for others but definitely for me. damn.. so many things happened recently and i'm not on track to settle all at once.. haiz.. my nus and smu application got rejected and now still waiting for the bloody ntu to reply me.. i was really feeling very down recently.. though i may not show it on the outside but seriously, inside me.. my heart is really broken.shattered. did i not work hard enough to earn myself a place in the university? but my grades this time were the best i had since i started JC.. so? what can i ask for more? maybe except my GP la.. but my maths is really gone case already lor.. haiz :'( i was really feeling very very very sad when i heard all my other friends looking forward to their uni life and which course they had to choose. but for me? I'VE GOT NOTHING TO CHOOSE FROM!!!!!!!!! haiz.. ok la SIM may have accepted me but so what? that's not the kind of uni life i was looking forward to when i made my choice to enter JC. rights? but again am i the cause of this whole shit? i think so.. and the worse thing.. the adverse support my mum has given me makes me feel that the whole world is crumpling down on me. she expects me to go work at some voluntary work and that i dont get paid?! WTF.. she everytime keep saying that she go out work so hard then i slack at home.. how come she dont understand the main purpose of her working so hard is because SHE IS PAID? damn. and i'm like working for free.. still must travel to HOUGANG.. fuck. i'm really very pissed lor.. even when i'm seriously sick she also say i act sick to stay at home.. damn. and the worse thing? i had to pay for my medical bills. see la, with this kind of mother i really feel that life is meaningless for me lor.. i really cannot stand it anymore.. she is like pushing me to the edge already.. i had ENOUGH! the comparision between me and my sis is also.. haiz why she just cannot get the idea into her thick skull that me and sister ARE TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE!? and that i cannot become like her? haiz.. dunnoe la.. like what i told aloy maybe this is what God has planned for me and it would be a better choice.. But still i hope i can still get into NTU.. that would be my best birthday present : so long

Rebellious!

muhaha.. mum's out of town and i've become super rebellious.. at this point of time when even i myself feel that i've gone out way too much it really mean business..haha but i really cannot resist the temptation la.. damn.. the day before we went to hui's bro's place to play mahjong.. wasnt really focusing cuz we were like more gossiping than playing.. heez after that hui drove us to crystal jade for supper.. SLURPZ and apparently with the ultimate 1.53 around we weren't short of embarrassing ourselves with her thunderous laughter.. haha ok la i also played a part :P i got home at 3 am la.. what the heck haha but big thanks to hui cuz she drove me back... haha so cool! lolz then yest also she drove us out specially to eat supper.. we went to the pasir panjang food centre to eat BBQ stingray and Zhu Zhu some seafood thingy that you hafta suck the flesh out de.. apparently we couldnt get the meat out and still have to ask the uncle to demo for us to see.. haha but we dint manage to finish it cuz it tasted really bloody.. haha anyways after that we went to dou feng around to changi and she brought us to see bah poks at changi village.. goodness first time experience such things.. i couldnt believe my own eyes.. i think i'm those ppl that i have to see it for myself to believe de lor.. if u tell me something but i never see it for myself.. i'll still have doubts about it.. hehe yep yep.. been gg with aloy more frequently this few weeks.. i better do something about it.. like keep a distance? aiyah i dunnoe also.. sian.. gg for bible lesson then tonight gg for oinks birthday party also.. alrights.. wanted to go sun tanning de but i think the sun like not strong already.. ciaoz

has my time come?

hey.. it's been a while since i last blogged.. very lazy to blog also.. haha yep yep that day i went out with aloy and guess who i saw?! my goodness he would be the last person i would want to see and i did.. haiz do u call this fate? J! argh.. i was like so damn paisey to see him.. at that moment i suddenly felt that i was doing something bad.. but apparently -_- i wasnt la.. i'm single so i can do what i want.. but.. to the extend of letting others misunderstand? i dont want.. haiz that day when we went out aloy was looking at my phone then he saw TT's pictures.. haiz i dont want him to misunderstand. then when i went out with aloy. J had to see us. damn what the heck man?!? actually i also dont know what i want la.. haiz.. just now we went to visit TT cuz he wasnt feeling well and so he hasn't booked in yet and i was watching some funny shows and i started laughing very loudly as usual and he actually said "aiyoh u laugh until so loud, next time how to live with you?" woa lao since when i say we'll live together? or is he hinting something? cuz when i ask him " i got say want to live with u meh" then he said " oh yah, i mean your parents?" someone.. PLEASE tell me is that this all is my wishful thinking.. damn. haiz then when i went out with aloy that day.. for the first time i think we just met up for dinner lor and movie.. and he is the one who initiated it la.. AGAIN REMIND ME CONSTANTLY! haha we went to eat subway for dinner cuz quite late liao then he was very hungry.. un-professional me eat until the whole table and skirt very dirty but he was like nothing happen and wanted to find a 'tian mi mi' place to eat -_- but dint la coz the air was too polluted.. haha i've never been serious before but i want to say something very very serious here! i really dont know what i want. damn. how do u make a choice? can i not make one? and if i dont want to make one why do i get jealous? for no reason? maybe what they say on tv is true that scorpio peeps get jealous easily huh.. i was quite convinced.. but haiz.. yah la i cant make a decision and this decision is no one can make for me de.. it's just my own personal choice.. and the greatest shit is that i'm jobless. fuck. how can this be true? haiz... $_$ life sucks even after exams :/

Ah-nei-you-ha-sei-you!

muhaha.. it's been quite a while since i last blogged.. though i was online practically the whole of last week, but i was just too lazy to blog.. muhaha.. yeps.. so now i'm attending bible lessons from Arthur.. maybe someday i may really become christian but i think for the time being maybe not yet cuz i need some time to really accept christ.. oh wells everything is not really going well for me.. i dint land myself the AES admin job.. damn must be coz i can only start in MAY that the bloody woman rolled her eyes and just eliminated me. fuck. whatever but sad to say... bye to my $1000 a month sit-there-do-nothing job.. sigh.. god save me.. sucks.. tell u guys something.. that day when i acc sm to see KOK for our bible lesson we went MAC and so after we finished everything i hadn't finished my drink and guess what? he just took it and drank from my straw.. i was like oh my God! but he like just drank it like normal.. even if it is TT he would remove my straw and drink from the cup la.. what the heck..i'm not trying to say anything here but hmmm... maybe i'll keep ya updated on the happenings.. muhaha last sat aloy asked me out but i couldnt coz i was super packed.. had to meet up with TT and JJ peeps since he got into army and at night got gm's birthday.. what the heck and i postponed it to this coming sat.. not really looking forward to it coz i look like a pile of shit now.. damn. really missed TT.. i felt a pang of jealousy when i knew that he was meeting another girl ALONE after the meeting with us.. damn why sia.. i should know that i dont have any feelings for him liao.. but why now this? fuck. but seriously i think it takes both hands to clap lor.. maybe we both have been behaving the wrong way that even my cousin mistaken us and even wanted to tell the bitch that i'm in a relationship.. -_- what the heck la.. damn.. yah la now i'm not asking for anything but just hope that nature takes its course and i will accept anything that comes my way.. today i went to SIM to apply for the business course coz till now i havent receive any letter from any of the unis and hopefully no news is good news.. and i had to take picture using those auto type of machine. damn guess what happened. i put in the coins and i thought i had to press some buttons and it started snapping.. how cool in the end one the pictures showed me bending down to examine the button.. how fuck.. hahaha but it was quite an experience... :P yeps fri i'm gg down to the attitude dance studio with JT and SM for some cardio dance class hope it will help me shake off some fats.. muhahahahaha time to exercise.. lolz k la that's all for now.. tmr i still have to go down to MOLE.inc to help out and shun bian gope some nice biscuits.. hahahahaha an-yeong-yi-kay-sei-you!

8th april

sianz.. i just woke up not long ago and later still have to go kumon to work..damn actually i'm feeling kinda lost now TT is in army.. why huh? haiz so sad.. damn.. yest i went back JJ and true enough AK was telling me stuff about jesus and wants to have 4 sessions with me to tell me all the stuff.. but i was explaining to him the main hindrance is my mum la.. she sort of limit my beliefs.. and my religion is what she believes in.. actually i dont really mind also la but if i have the freedom to choose from what i want.. i would rather.. -_- haiz i dont know la but i dont like christians to be very pushy like keep asking me to convert or what la.. OK?! damn so sian also yest JR ask me if i want to look for a customer service job at MOE from 10-2 i think it's good la.. one month lidat can earn $600+ dollars plus all my other tuition jobs sure can get a thousand dollars de lo.. hopefully i can secure that damn job.. yest went for the interview and i screw up the whole shit.. FCUK. the damn man was like so bu shuang with me lor.. haiz or maybe he is like what sm said that he has attitude problem.. but still i hope i can scrape through lor.. i still at a dilemma whether should i apply for SIM leh.. coz to think of it $52.50 is NOT a small sum.. but it's like a back road for me la in case i cant get into NTU or NUS (CHOY!) i think i'll consider again before i apply.. SUCKY oh yah btw i've gotten myself an english name.. muhahaha ZUAN peh.. nice and special no ppl have de.. -shy- lolz k la gotta go for lunch liao.. buai

Happy April F00l's Day..--> what e heck

ok.. another day just passed lidat.. actually tmr wanted to go blading with JJ peeps de but Jas couldnt make it so i think the whole thing cancel lo.. sian.. got to go for tuition in the morning tmr.. haiz.. but at least the dog my tutee has at home and the $$ makes me go.. muhahaha.. yest i was watching the "LADY FAN" and in the show one of the guy told the girl he liked "if i could, i would give you all the happiness in the world" woa lao after hearing that sentence i got goosebumps sia.. haha but i really cant imagine the feeling leh a guy that like u until will say this kind of thing.. but will he make good of what he says or just empty promises? haha who knows.. what the heck think i'm talking nonsense again.. haha haiz something's troubling me again.. SUCKY! that day when i know i was shortlisted for the interview i msged my CT and he congratulated me la.. nothing amazing but.. he started tell me stuff about GOD and wanted to meet me outside! goodness.. not say i'm interested in him or what la but somehow i dont have this good feeling.. but i can guarantee that he wont be up to anything.. damn am i contradicting myself? hahahah what the heck la.. tmr gg tuition in the morning then evening gg shopping with fishball peh to buy nicer clothes besides the usual tee shirt and jeans.. sian sun got tuition AGAIN haiz.. earning $$ not easy ah.. now i finally understand.. hahahahahahahaha but it seems like time really flies.. just when i thought i'm still growing up in a glance i'm working already and all the guys around me are enlisting into army already.. time really really flies.. it's so fast.. i read in a mag they said " there's no free lunch in the world except at mum's" haha true right? the only time we wont have to spend money and get a place to sleep and a meal to eat is at mum's mah.. haha saying about enlistment TT gg in liao i better get him a present on sun. a cap perhaps. he wants to wear a bandana.. what is wrong with him.. haha anyone who knows where to get nice and cheap caps TEXT ME PLEASE.. sank u very much :) ok la that's all for today.. ciaozzzzzz

something to be happy about

GREAT! i received the letter for me to go down for interview next thurs for the BA in NTU de.. my goodness finally got a dream come true.. haiz hope it will be smooth for me.. TT going to be enlisted next thurs.. i'm missing him already.. miss him not as in BGR type but as a friend.. no more ppl to acc me to gossip at night.. sigh.. ciaoz

coming home late.. haiz

sucks man.. now every mon----wed i'll only be home after 10 la what the heck.. and i bet bitch is going to show me the famous black face and sing the well-known opera. damn even if i explain to her that I'M WORKING NOT GOING OUT TO PLAY..somehow she'll say i'm talking back to her and blah..blah..blah.. damn. so i dont bother to do so la when she calls to kb i'll play the shut up game. shut up and let her nag the fuck all she wants. i just cant be bothered lor.. seriously.. that day when she said"u everyday go work until so late might as well dont work, stay at home good enough liao" and i was like what the heck la.. you ask me stay at home for what? do homework ar? what the hell la?!?! i think she just dont understand.. then that day i acc aloy go study also must tell her say i gg to visit my teacher.. woa lao also not say i'm doing something bad but haiz.. as usual if i tell her that i'm surely gg to get free tickets to DA OPERA! haha.. anyways.. what can i say man.. working at xue hai is fun la i get to teach the kids and stuff.. really got power to scold and do what i want in class lor.. being a teacher is REALLY SLACK.. seriously lor.. haha no wonder so many ppl want be teacher.. haha hope i can land a place in nie.. haiz.. sian man my love life is a clean SHIT i mean sheet haha.. seeing HIM like nothing also leh.. now this HIM i also is dunnoe which one.. haha maybe is aloy ba or TT or J but i think now i dont really care liao ba.. wait till i go uni.. muhahahaha *evil laugh gotta go liao my fucking eye is itching like hell.. damn

heya!

woa liew.. it's been quite a while since i last blogged.. haiz so much has happened over a short period of time.. think the last time i blogged.. havent get results yet but now the As are out and i cant believe i got B D O what the heck.. but actually i'm not disappointed at all cuz i was expected this kind of shitty grades lor.. just that my GP really made me feel disappointed.. i was expecting a B3 or B4 but fcuk.. i got C5.. damn.. maybe i was overconfident or what la.. but now i'm just keeping my fingers crossed that i can get into NTU NIE.. i really want to go there.. partly cuz there got cute guys! haha that day the guy that talked to us during the open house.. my godness.. haha but i guess cute guys will become not cute after you get to know them.. just like TT? haha i dont know la but haiz.. i just want to be good friends now. FULL STOP.. i dont wanna think of all this shit anymore.. True la i may feel lonely at times but do i really need a guy now? the thought of being burden-fied just turns me off.. and the fact that i cant let my parents know it.. damn.. worse lor.. but true enough sometimes i really think that we're more than friends la.. but so what sia? it just stops there.. we went blading again last week and after that we went to celebrate jas's birthday.. not bad la had quite a lot of fun.. haha although i think blading is really scary.. haha i'm quite terrified of the thought of falling down but i'm determined to learn it well.. haha not gg to let it have the same fate as knitting.. haha i think i'm really have "san fen zhong re du" whatever i like wont last for more than 3 months.. and this is the same towards guys also.. seriously.. i maybe crazy over this guy for some time.. doing everything for him but suddenly one day when i wake up i just feel dumb over all this shit then i realise that i dont really like him that much.. haha what the heck.. aiyah dunnoe la maybe i'm still not matured enough to be in a relationship? but if got any cute guys in uni... MUHAHAHAHAHAHA no la see how ba.. my wish now is just get into uni.. others can wait.. :P seriously.. haha went shopping with sm yest.. bought lots of stuff... i think top shop's really cool man! i think they had this new series of makeup and bath accessories and i bought a body mist from there.. cheap cheap $12.90 only.. haha bought nail enamel from red earth also.. $13.60 this one ex but the colour is the one i've been looking for so peeps if you're reading this call me up if you wanna do manicure! haha i can give you discount.. lolz.. so fun.. today went to eat international buffet at United Square.. very nice but very very very filling.. the food there has a wide range of variety lor and i think the coolest part is that we get to drink fruit juice using test tubes! haha i wanna set up a restaurant using all the chemistry apparatus to eat de.. haha good idea ba.. anyone interested please draft up a business proposal.. hahahaha we can be partners.. i'll consider except TT cuz i know he's out to cheat me! lolz feeling very bloated now.. really very full.. not a good feeling.. okay gotta ciao feeling very warm now.. damn

sigh

i'm sick.not love sick but really sick as in cough,flu and sorethroat. muhahah ok but that's the main point. the thing is. there's these two guys. i told both that i'm sick. One replied " Dont pass to me leh" and the other one said " Let's get sick together" Fine. so what now? i also dunnoe. yest when i saw his friends(before that they were apparently looking for me cuz jas heard them yelling my name) and i dunnoe him except one is my sis's friends they were like all waiting to see me la.. and my sis's friend actually said "jiu yang da ming" What's that supposed to mean sia? he's been telling his friends bout me? but for what? the day before i lent him my mp3 player and his friends thought that we had some sort of ai mei guan xi. in the past i thought so too know.. i also very confused now.. when he told me that i was like a bit shocked la but aiyah.. dunnoe leh!!!!!!!! ARGH howz? he taught me mahjong and i felt that we were like flirting on the mahjong table la.. that's very bad Daniel wont like it.. muhahaha but anywayz i think i'm just going to accept the fact that guys and girls can be good friends so.... we can too.. ciaozzzzzzzzzzzz

CNY!!!!

what is he trying to prove when he goes to buy 4D and the number is my unit number? ok la whatever maybe is my wishful thinking. damn tmr still got tuition with china boy.. sigh ciaoz.. the shitty headache is killing me!!!!

so happy¬

today is the happiest day of my life(2005) in the morning i went over to TT place to learn guitar and i learned the G chords already.. haha he said that's the easiest but when i learn it.. damn.. my fingers are super painful lor.. he say will grow some dead skin there then next time play liao wont be painful le.. but i doubt so.. haha after that we went to east coast to rollerblade.. though we dint get to sun tan but at least i learnt a little of rollerblading.. haha jasmine was holding on to me then when at the slope both of us were so confident but we end up falling and embarrassing ourselves.. haha so paisey lor.. she almost toppled over me but luckily she siam in time or else.. haha she ended up with a big bruise on her knee hahaha and today's also the first time i held hands with a guy but too bad la he's just teaching me how to rollerblade----> TT haha i guess the feeling is really different la.. although we held hands i felt that it was no big deal lor cuz he's not the one mah.. but i suddenly have this feeling that if one is in a relationship it's like carrying a burden and will be super tiring lor.. haiz.. even holding hands this kind of things will make me think of so many stuff.. really ar.. but i really had lots of fun.. after that me TT and jasmine went to far east to shop for new year clothes.. stupid TT wanted to buy new shoes but i told him say that design not nice but ppl insist on buying i wonder what his mum will say.. haha today so paisey la when i went to his house in the morning his mum was at home lor so i went to his room and dunnoe his mum will suspect that we're up to some mischief.. hahaha but please la i won't :P wahahaha really really enjoyed myself today we ate orange on the bus and i say until very loud on the bus "any fresher u have to peel it yourself" haha then got a ang moh guy look at me la.. but who cares.. after that got a few old woman boarded the bus and they look like the witches by ronald dahl? is this how u spell his name? haha dunnoe la just now news got say NTU offering 300 more vacanies for students hope i can get in successfully.. haha btw after i quit my job at MOLE and kumon i'll learn more stuff.. i feel that it enriches my life.. wahahaha ciaoz