after so loooooong

heh.. it's been nearly a month since i updated my blog.. well coz i've been really busy in school and once i'm at home i dont even want to go near to the computer la.. so havent had time to blog.. hope my loyal readers hadnt abandoned your dear blog here.. haha i've been attached to West View Primary for nearly 5 weeks already and this is my last week here.. think i'm really gonna miss the kids here.. though they nearly drove me crazy, they are all cute in their own way.. :D shall post up some pics when i've taken pictures with them.. sigh cant believe i'm blogging here when i'm being buried in un-marked books.. lol.. so many things happened lately and i would wish i can update you guys here but seriously la.. there are too many and some maybe i cant even rmb le.. heh anyways major changes.. i bought a new phone :D samsung Z720 very nice slide phone.. shall take some nice pics and upload them here.. :) hmmm also i'll be taking my basic theory on the 8th of Aug.. PraY foR mE ppl!!!! i wanna drive :X muha.. yup.. that's about all everything is alright for now.. i just completed all my observations for this module and thanks GOD.. everything went somehow well. i managed to complete carrying out my lesson plans and the kids were very cooperative.. sigh a bit sian to go back NIE :( must wake up early to go school.. arrgh but i wake up earlier each day to come to school i wake up at 550 everyday lor.. yawn now gg back to nie i dont even get a room in hostel lor.. arrgh hope that my name is still on the waiting list if not i'm gg to squeeze in with LUA KA already.. lol that's about all.. needa go and mark my books already if not fri i cannot go home liao.. hahaha bye ppl shall update soon again.. GOD BLESS :D

check it

Just wanted to go some quick uploading of pictures since the previous time i couldnt upload any when i was in the blogging mood.. muha :X anyways i just dl-ed mozilla firefox and it's supposed to prevent any forms of spyware and stuff la.. so for those ppl who love to dl stuff online maybe can try using it lor.. at least can prevent your com/lappy from crashing.. heh it's free de.. get it from www.downloads.com then click browser or something then have le :D ciaoAh ha.. peachy-longany tarts..

oreo cheesecake by me and dear.. :D

the super nice tarts that i was talking about in the previous post..

my cutesy nephew and me.. i kept squeezing his face. muha :X
P.S. pls excuse the weird looking brows. i'm waiting for them to get bushier then i go for shaping.. haha a bit out of shape already. arrgh

baker and baker-ress of the day.. :D

baking days

i wanted to post some pics that i've taken of the delicious peachy-longany-lycheey custard tarts i made at piu piu's place but apparently high class blogger is giving me problems again so cannot.. arrgh sucks.. but still this holiday has been a rather fruitful one, for my baking part coz i've tried fruit tarts (success!!), durian roll (not bad..), yam paste (tok gong!!!), tea leaf egg (shiok!!), durian puff (failed.. dont ask me. ask piu piu why :( ).. think that's about all i've tried making le.. heh but soooo happy, managed to try so many different stuff, of which i've never made before.. today went to catch Fantastic 4 with aloys.. not that nice la.. think in the middle of the show i almost doze off.. heh dont know why so tired.. yawn we always go watch movie de la.. muha next on the list is transformers.. muha thought i wouldnt like it but when i watched the trailer.. it's really --------> NICE. haha shall watch it with my little longan-no-more haha. @_@.. then on thurs for our 21st month we went to watch shrek 3.. that's nicer la.. for our little celebration we cooked dinner together.. very nice. thanks sweetheart for everything, you patience and love. muack :* think i've challenged his patience and limits everytime but everytime he'll give in to me, hopefully i can change this bad temper of mine.. sigh anyways i've decided that i'm gg to hold another............................. TEA PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woo hoo aint that exciting?? for those who missed it that time can come again.. hah but think u guys coming have to chip in a little la ok? muha $_$ your friend here is a little broke. lol maybe u can request what u want to have then i see if i can cook for you all :D i love tea parties.. heh :) oh yes it'll be held near the end of july before school reopens coz i have attachment till dont know when.. ( so wait for my invitation okie????) :D sigh needa report to school on the 21st le.. arrgh for staff meeting, praying for all to be well.. oh yes.. tmr's a exciting day coz i'm gg BBQ with my cell members whom i'm meeting for the first time.. hehe soo excited but just hoping that i wont get toooo emotional there.. haha nothing much to update also.. heh just keep gaining weight only and my bank's drying up.. lol and i havent pay my hp bill yet.. arrgh byebye hah but i'm still feeling happy in the midst of all this.. ciaoz PRAISE GOD!!!!!!

pics..

alright let the pics do the talking.. haha

me and my best friend in the world--> fitch muha ;)
someone.. help!

Us gg to watch this

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It's a MUSICAL ok.. hah but just that the characters are spongebob and pats.. lol the whole expo hall was packed with shrieking kids.. it's a MUSICAL not a cartoon show lor.. but i think singaporeans love to pamper their kids la.. i bet the kids were wondering why spongebob's head is on top of the sponge instead of the front.. -_-'' and the super disappointing thing is and still is.. i was looking forward to lots and lots and lots of spongebob and pats merchandise but to my disappointment, they only had cap (too small for my head) , light wand( quite a lot of kids bought and were waving them like mad during the show.. HELLO it's a musical not a concert lah. -_-'' wake up your idea), keychain ( super ugly can), spongebob toy ( i've one bigger and cuter one and home) and guess what? THAT'S ALL. woa lao ey i thought i can grab some nice and cute stuff but in the end.. sigh what the heck lor.. arrgh but the show was quite nice la.. maybe we should catch DIM SUM DOLLIES sometime?? terence? check it out kaez. heh

*****hint***** spongebob and PATS's merchandise for 3rd Nov *shy* muha

him and Pats

me and pats

i'm so going to get a patrick shaped bday cake! i dont care :X

:)

someone

goodies from japan :D

burnt a hole in my pocket today. total damage: $132 on clothes and a new bag.. haha considering i just bought sooooooo many tops during my stay- in this week OMG.. in just one week i have like 7 new tops?? haha costing $200+++ oh man :X i think i have to eat air already for the rest of the month.. arrgh anyways PIU PIU is back.. haha my fitchy roomie!!! :D when i spotted her round face admist all the skinny booties at TOP SHOP i wanted to give her a big HUG! haha rmb that time i gave a her a hug i almost suffocated her. :) how i love her. a big thanks to piu piu for her goodies from japan.. haha i love the spongebob box and the "mike" the most.. haha u just got me a teaching tool :D sank u very much piu piu.. invigilating is the boring-est job in the world coz it's dead silence then cannot sms and talk so best zzzz haha but easy money la so better not complain.. hur anyways my legs have 80% healed but the blue black part and my ankle still hurt a bit especially when i run.. which is real bad.. arrgh pls pray for healing okie. thanks peeps. anyways retail therapy really works for me.. especially when i'm feeling lonely i just shop non- stop by myself, taking my own sweet time at every shop, going everywhere i like but it's a little lonely la.. but what to do.. sigh nvm buying something nice beats everything. even missing that someone. ( refer to above pic for someone ) sigh ciaoz

i know i have to be understanding that u are having parade and stuff and you'll be very busy but.. sigh i dont know man.. asking u to take leave to spend the day with me is like asking u to do something very difficult or maybe asking u write an essay in chinese.. i really dont know la NS is really taking up a lot of OUR time. u say u wanna spend the weekends with me, but u should know for my mum the weekends are like "family time" to her so how can i just tell her that i want to go out with u and stuff? i really dont know la the taking leave part i've told u long ago even before my exam ended and u said u will take leave, i thought before the parade practise starts but by the time i reminded u to take leave, we're one week away from the parade. :( sigh i really hate it la.. i dont know how to tell u also ok. anyways i blog here i wonder when will u ever read it also la. sigh forget it la :( i miss my friends man i hate having holidays and staying at home, watch tv eat, sleep like a pig i want to hang out with my friends, i want to hang out with you. but when? u tell me june. ok. but june i'm gg to school already and i wont have time to us, maybe much lesser than now. i'm gg to be busy and i want to make up for the time later on.. sigh you say we will try to make time.. but how? sucks man.. i dont want to pretend that i'm very happy in front of you when in fact i'm bitter over all this ok. it's not gg to work out. everything. :( tmr's my first day at work invigilating for the UOL exam. hope everything will work out fine.
keep me in your prayers ok. :X

The state i'm in now--> sprained ankle and bruises.. :(

My darling and his new specs

i miss my hamster babies.. all of them :(

Kelong trip!!!!!!! :D

Happy family. all sunkissed :X

catch of the day

my hands have been itching to blog suddenly but blogger's layout sucks but anyways i'll try to blog kaez.. wonder if my entry will turn out not. kaoz last night whilst lying on my bed, i talked to GOD and guess what?? i was given the anointing of speaking in tongues.. Oh my goodness. i was quite taken aback by it coz i spoke of it for quite long leis.. during encounter few months back i thought i could speak in tongues but it was only for a syallbus but yest it was different. i really felt that GOD was speaking to me.. it's really a wonderful feeling. :D yeah.. just wanted to share this wonderful experience with all of you.. anyways wanted to post some pics but i lazy to use my lap top since now i'm at home so the pics have got to wait till i'm the in "i like to post pics" mood haha.. yup me and darling went to queensway to make new specs and i must say he looks quite cute in the new specs.. haha i know u cant wait to see the pics too.. haha too bad :X lol kelong fishing on sat.. cant wait.. alright la shant rant on anymore. byebye take care everyone..

i typed a whole of shit now and this @$#*^@)(#*&^@*(& blogger dint even take down any. BLOODY HELL. i hate u

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choosing to let go

i've been really unhappy this few weeks, or maybe i choose to blog about unhappy stuff or maybe nothing happy exists between the two of us anymore. quarrels are more frequent than ever and i'm unhappy than anytime. i think one of the reason is we have lesser time to meet up also, since i'm having my exams and you are busy with your work, guess we both dont have time for each other, maybe not as much as before. are we gg to stick to this for the rest of the time we have in this relationship, because if it is, i'm telling you now that i'm choosing to let go. you can say that i dont treasure this relationship or whatever thing but i've told u many times what i hope to see in you but it just doesnt come up or maybe it did and i failed to notice them. i'm really one unreasonable and hard to satisfy girlfriend,i admit but maybe you should ask yourself if you've done enough for this relationship and for me. If you felt that u did, ok good for you but to me, there's always something lacking. Maybe we are not meant for each other afterall or maybe GOD wants me to meet someone wrong before finally i meet the right guy? i dont know.. i'm selfish, self-centered and impatient with you i admit it all but that's not gg to solve the problem now right? coz i'm not changing and i dont know how.. maybe choosing the easy way out (like what u always say) is the only solution for Now. i'm really at a lost of what i can do to salvage this relationship.. :(( but i'm sure to say that i wont allow unhappiness to consume myself . God Bless all

things are not good

this is it. we've got nothing more to say to each other. or maybe coz you're just too tired to talk to me. nvm

unhappiness

i dont think there's such a thing as "Happily Ever After" even for married couples i dont think that such a thing even exists especially when the 2 ppl involves me. i'm really selfish, self-centered. u dont know what i want and what i need. what u ever do is to ever give in to me. where's your personality? where's your temper? gone. you always say you are there waiting for me, you will love me. your loving really made me suffocate. or maybe like what u say i'm the one making myself suffocate or what.. but i really feel that our lives are so different now, we'll never ever cross paths. you in ns and me studying now. we have to make an effort to meet up and travel up and down. now u will tell me that u dont mind travelling,i really dont know what to say lei.. you always give in to me and just dont want to fight for what u really want. i can tell u now that if u still want to be in this relationship with me, more of such things will happen. we are just 1 day short of our anniversary, but just looking back at my entries, maybe for the past one month or even longer, we have more quarrels then happy times la. it's wearying me down. u definitely will say that i'm always the one picking trouble with you and that u are happy in this relationship but i'm not la. i'm not happy when we quarrel every now and then. AT THIS VERY MOMENT. you are sleeping coz u have a headache and u ask me to cheer up.. ON MY OWN? how man? self- entertain? i know u will be very angry when u read this entry but this is really what i want to say before u tell me that it's very late for u to stay up already coz u have to work 630 tmr. i dont know la maybe we are just not right for each other and waiting for the right time to end all this for good. i dont know how are we ever to solve all this :( all this nonsense things that can be avoided if your gf hadnt been me :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

arrgh..

Just got back from NUS's hostels.. sigh and listening to my friend's woes it really made me think, izit that good to be in a relationship? hmm i dont know. sigh i dont want to quarrel with him but think i'm really short-tempered in this relationship.. how i can make myself more big hearted towards someone i really care a lot for? i really wonder how i can be.. i'm really very selfish and self-centered then all of u can imagine.. :(

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Cant believe i'm here blogging when everyone in the world now is mugging like never before.. yawn zzz i'm a bit distracted lei like i cant concentrate hard enough on what i'm studying coz they dont hold much meaning to me.. maybe later after i finish blogging then i can go start on another more interesting module.. muha.. exams in one weeks' time. hope that everyone has more or less started their revision.. yup got a few expired photos i'm gonna update. :D
This is My Hall Pet ---> "Tang Yuan" super cute fellow, the biggest amongst all the other hammies.. but he/she ( still too young to differentiate) muha -_-'' escaped from the cage on sat & sun and me, sm and jing2 had to launch a emergency "sao dang" to find him/her.. and in the end he/she was hiding in my wardrobe's drawer that i had NEVER opened ever since i've moved in hall la.. tsk tsk i was so scared that i would see a dead hamster body but luckily nv.. i've seen a lot ever since gg over to hui ting's place, from hamsters giving birth to being eaten up and also growing up.. exciting biology class. :) so real..

Night cycling with JR and the rest of the youthnet ppl.. i had fun really.. nv tried night cycling before, this is my first and it was great.. all the CUTE GUYS slurrp.. haha :P got so much la until i a little regret that i asked aloy along.. lol but still he took care of me the whole journey making sure i'm always in front of him and that we will look out for each other.. overall rating: AWESOME. :D dinner cum supper @ lau pat sat. then we cycled to vivo city and back to east coast. it was a long journey but before we started out Pastor said that God was actually cycling with us :) so it wasnt that bad afterall.. yup we were actually worshipping at the place where they fish i dont know what izit called.. but we were there before sun rise and we sang and worshipped the LORD all the way till the sun was right in our face and i remember clearly that when we stand facing the sea, the sun was on our left and the moon was still on our right.. it's a really amazing feeling no words can describe the kind of feeling we felt at that moment. Indeed he is a Great GOD. how can a man make the sun and moon appear together at the same time? woah woah :D coz we dint sleep the whole night we felt extremely shagged the next day and my legs were aching real bad. seriously think i used too much strength or what till i had to eat pills to stop the pain la.. but thank GOD i recovered fully in 2 days time.. :) next time got anymore such stuff remember to jio me along okie? or maybe after exams we can do it on our own.. lol i got my own bike. muha

US before starting out cycling.

P.S i know i look super round and fair coz i'm standing beside someone dark and skinny. OK FINE, i put on weight. damns

PRESENTING TO ALL.. ***jiang*** jiang*** jiang*** jiang***....................................................... my NTU?NIE? cute guy *_* muha wonder if anyone of you know him or what.. so much eye candies!! lol anyways he was sleeping and i managed to snap a few photos of him but this photo shows his coolness the most..*shy* :X see the ring on his left hand?? muha i thought he is attached and maybe it's some couple couple ring but GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?! when i went for encounter earlier on, i was presented the G12 ring, EXACTLY THE SAME AS HIS. is this fate or what? lol ciaozz... mug hard everyone :D

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THE SWEETEST THING ON EARTH.. heh her name's cammy.. love her to bits man PIGLET!!! lol anyways just want to "use" her face to cheer any of you guys up who are feeling a little down.. no matter how bad things are, there are surely something small that's worth your smile :D been through a lot this week.. i mean you know la relationship problems.. think this time it got a little out of hand.. and vivo's really our cursed place. everytime we go there together we surely quarrel de.. and everytime we go there the quarrels seem to get worse and worse.. :( but i'm just thankful that we managed to cool down la.. but please, dont do that again ok? it really scared me.. whatever it is.. i wanna share some stuff that happened to me this pass few weeks.. we had our DSJ test and some #*^)#&^$)#&^$ PRC ppl had to cheat in the test la.. sigh and some singaporeans not happy go expose but apparently the teacher dint really penalise the PRC woman then they even more not happen went to expose to the management.. so now the whole lect kena liao lor.. woa lao super politics la.. i wonder how this kind of ppl gonna teach the kids in school in one more year's time.. it's really sad that i'm in the same lect as them.. not just one woman cheated..i saw so many of them la.. sucks the PRC woman who got caught still had the cheek to say " which eye of yours saw me cheating?!?" like what the hell la.. cheat liao still dont want to admit.. sigh so sad right.. and i'm also very bad la as usual always gossip with my gang of friends then one of my classmate from last sem she wear stockings, 37 years old :X, not married/attached and we always gossip about her la.. tsk tsk but apparently she know that we are gossiping about her then not happy.. muha -_-'' got another PRC also we suspect that she had a botox job but recently see her face like very swollen like that dont know izit she went back her country then did a cheapo one.. lol so bad hor me.. but it's so me also.. but i really have to ask GOD for a heart of love.. and he gave me a verse.. "This is my command: Love each other"- John15:17 and it's like so real.. just yesterday i was hoping i'll be able to change my ways and this morning while doing my daily bread the Lord gave me this verse.. think i'll have to change my ways and walk with the Lord.. i dont want to sound so holy but it's true that the one and only GOD is Jesus.. going for the encounter was indeed a good decision coz i really did encounter God and of course the annointing from the holy spirit and for the first time i tried speaking in tongues.. think i'm not really used to it but i'll practice it hard since it's a Gift from God.. i really want to thank the Lord for all his mercy he has shown in my life.. All the test i thought i'm gonna flunk like mad or if not, not gg to do well but because JESUS is Lord of my life, i'm blessed. Friends out there if your are feeling down or lonely, why dont u look up into the sky? You'll see someone out there waving at you, wanting to be there for you.. :) Take care ppl getting a little excited over night cycling tmr.. heh shall update sometime soon. outta here~

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- i'm just glad that we did not decide to end it just that.
- i'm super glad that i encountered GOD.
- it's time to move on with my life
- it's time to study for the exams two weeks later. OMG
Persevere on everyone :D

pursuit of un-happyness

Was just thinking what are some of the possible causes that will result in couples breaking up? izit
1. unfaithfulness
2. childishness
3. fading of feelings
4. no reason
?? just a thought that came up after we had this weird conversation.

Happy 18 months. anymore to come?

maybe meeting up doesnt hold as much significance as before already since we are so busy with our own life.. but i still cherish every moment spent with you..

cravings..

i wanna eat
1. fish soup from either red hill/ bugis branch
2. pig stomach soup ("zhu du tang") from tiong bahru market
3. KFC.
arrgh will update more when more food items come to my mind.. lol i dont mind cheng teng from newton also arrgh. diet diet.. when am i gg to embark on that terrible journey again.. sigh

back and wounded

sigh.. this is a bad start of the year man.. everything seems to be gg wrong for me.. sigh tot i could go for OBS then at least i can slim down 1-2kg but it turned out worst think i became even fatter.. arrgh coz i strained my both hands and had to go back early.. what the heck lor and not to mention i returned home with lots of mosquito bites.. arrgh but it's a experience worth paying for.. i mean it's only $80 and we get to learn how to appreciate things are in our lives and how we should not take small small things like even a reasonable amount of space to sleep at night la.. tsk tsk let's not go into details ask me if u wanna know more and i can rattle on.. arrgh :( back in hall now and i miss my comfortable bed and high speed fan :( sucky.. what i'm looking forward to now is the encounter camp from 31st mar-1st apr.. hopefully i can to really encounter GOD and pray for all who need.. aloys had been wanting me to go for an encounter camp and since this camp is RIGHT BEHIND MY HOUSE.. why not go for it man.. dont wanna procrastinate anymore.. think i've wasted too much time in doing that already and the time i've spent procrastinating can like be used to take one good sleep la.. sorry huh the english here a bit wrong but WHO CARES. be yourself.. lol :X today's test suck like shit and the teacher still say it's super easy -_-'' i couldnt even do it la.. just praying hard that i'll do a pass.. dont wanna fail any modules if not can say byebye to my degree le.. arrgh now that the test is over can slack a bit but need to do some catching up also.. heh but tetatively quite free.. lol :D thurs's socks's 21st big day.. hopefully we can play like mad that day and really enjoy ourselves man.. i think i really deserve some time TO LET LOOSE!!! watch out man.. lol nothing much to update actually.. everything's the same for me and aloys the usual quarrels but we're still gg strong.. just wanna encourage all those ppl out there who are reading my blog and are having difficulties in their relationship, if u guys are not exactly feeling very happy now at this moment in this relationship maybe u should think back from the start, what had brought u together.. was it LoVE? if it is, and u still love the other party then maybe u should hang on and try to make the relationship work.. yeah that's just a thought of mine and what held on together for me and aloys.. yup caught the movie "pursuit of happyness" and it's really a very meaningful show.. it actually reflects on us how we view things like we are all very worried about small stuff like hiccups in relationships or even not being able to be attached but there are actually bigger and more important things in life that are more worth of us to spend time on.. was telling ling dude that day coz she was feeling super sad that her crush is attached then i told her to think of her tutee that found out he was adopted.. i mean it may be different issues but whatever it is, it really kept me thinking, thinking of how shallow we can get at times when we get emotional, here we are worrying over our crush and there somebody else is facing another kind of problem X100000000 times worse than ours.. we should just strive ahead and move on ba.. i think this is the kind of attitude we should have in life and what is said in bible.. so friends, let all unhappiness be bygones and strive ahead. if we keep looking back, we will never move ahead. just a funny thing i read a few days ago.." women stop worrying when they are finally married. Men start worrying when they are finally married" lol :X attended a secondary school close friend's wedding on sun.. had a shock of my life she became super bloated lor.. dont know if she put on weight for the wedding or what but it seems like she put on 10kgs??? oh man she used to be so lean in the good old days but now is like VOOM! OMG. *faint* but maybe it's the malay tradition to be slightly on the plump side when you're married but my friend is only 21!!!!!!!! so scary i was sitting on the table there eating and wondering what will happen when i'm getting married too.. it sounds rather scary who knows in just 7 years time it'll be my turn soon.. SO SCARY and to think that secondary school life has just passed not long.. when you're young u wanna be old. when you're old u wanna be young and return to the good old' days.. sigh that's life man.. arrgh my stomach having cramps now.. byebye