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Dear dear.. i'm so sorry that such a terrible thing had to happen. U must be strong ya.. for the time being let's put all our plans aside first. Wait till everything is settled le then we discuss again okie? I will always be by you if u need anything yepp? Just want to let u know that i care ya.. Take care and I love you :))

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Oh man.. i got my long awaited wish come true today. Not to get into NTU but to teach at pei hwa primary.. all the squeeky high pitched voices---> made me have headache but i simply enjoyed myself.. tmr during DOM's break time, pei hwa called me up and asked me if i could go down for class to relief for pri 1 and 2 class.. i dint want to miss another chance so i decided to go for it! yeps.. haha.. i was so excited that i finally had a chance to do down there to teach.. i was waiting to see all the chubby faces and i wasnt disappointed.. haha just that i dint get to pinch their faces.. haha if not wait i kena complained then can say BYEBYE le.. haha so yeps i relief-ed from 12-630 and after that i was like super shagged le but still had to meet jr and tay at city hall to discuss tuition stuff.. my head was throbbing like mad le but i felt better just by being in company with them. yeps. but still it's still hurting and it's all from the squeeky kids.. they are really super cute " teacher, teacher, can i drink water?'', " teacher, teacher, can i go toilet?", "teacher,teacher, can i go over to my friend's table?" haha so cute.. all these small little acts really reflected their innocence and how much i really love them.. haha i think this is the best present i received this year besides the WONDERFUL card dearie made. yeps haha i just took 2 panadol to suppress the headache but apparently it's not getting any better coz my head is still throbbing arrgh! sigh.. MON! haha our 2nd month and i got relief classes too.. muhahha $_$ so happy.. cant wait for mon to come. yep yep that's all peeps.. i feeling a little stoned already... Bye~~~~~~~~~

woW~

*sings* Happy birthday to me.. Happy birthday to me.. Happy birthday to Royal Meeeeee... Happy birthday tooooo Meeeeeeee *applause*
haha think i'm not so alright.. anyways yest i celebrated my ROyal 19th birthday and it would be the last year i can count my age starting with number '1'.. sigh next year will be 20 le.. getting real OLD.. haha yeps yeps but i think this year's celebration was the BEST i ever had.. haha because of my royalty *shy*, celebration for princess peh's birthday actually started on the 2nd of Nov.. haha i went to meet dearie for dinner at Fish and Co..(the glass house as vivien calls it) yeps and he bought me a bouquet of Daisies.. haha so nice.. i thought that was the end and he also bought me a care bear(the one with the four leaf clover on the stomach de) and famous amos.. (slurpz) that's not the HIGHLIGHT.. haha the highlight was the card he made.. oh man.. it's really SUPER DUPER nice.. i was so super touched by it.. he used little bulbs to make a heart shape and it was connected to batteries so when i on it the heart would light up.. oh man.. i cant believe he could actually do it. So proud of him!!!!! and so proud of myself to have such a BOYFRIEND.. haha tsk..tsk.. peeps reading this must be so jealous of me.. *shy* haha if got chance ask me to show u the MASTERPIECE.. lolz.. it's really B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!!!!!!! haha.. yeps so we headed home after that and i washed up.. least did i expect evofus + kelvin were ambushing at west mall already waiting for me to come home and gave me a surprise! haha they were all at my place when i was watching my Jay Chou's MTV.. lolz i was really really surprised and touched too.. haha but the sad thing was that they only stayed on for a while and we dint really have a good chance to chat about stuff.. yeps got lots to share but NO!!!! time.. arrgh.. haha they left at about 1230 and i cleared up and zzzz.. haha the next morning.. i was awaken by dearie's phone call and he called at around 9.30 and i was shocked coz i slept so well that i dint realise that it was so late already and we were meeting at clementi at 11 to go picniking at West Coast.. haha i've never gone picniking before.. maybe except cum sun tanning but yest we were like intensive picniking.. ok. whatever -_-'' the weather was super good.. not very sunny but it started to drizzle a little but it couldnt dampen our mood.. haha dearie bought me a slice of BLACK FOREST CAKE (are u reading this TAY?!) haha but i think the cream melted under the intense heat and it was quite sick but still.. Greedy me ate the cake.. haha yeps there were many ppl flying kites.. and were.. hmmm CoOL but we dint know how to fly a kite so we played frisbee instead.. haha it was quite a day.. luckily we brought lots of fruits or else i think we would have died of dehydration.. lolz i went home around 5+ coz at night i had BBQ with the Royal family mah.. lolz we ate and ate and ate just like PIGS.. lolz *snort* finally got to rest at around 9+ almost died.. what a hectic day.. today is not good too.. i had IBM class in the morning then at night i have socio from 6-930 @_@ maybe i'll fall asleep in the lect.. sigh.. but miraculously i paid attention in class today.. haha i knew what DOM was talking about and maybe i did laugh at some of his lame jokes... haha yeps so now i'm one year older i must be more Matured.. haha lolz.. that's all folks got any other stuff when we meet up i'll update ya okie? take care peeps! Miss u all :))

I really feel very blessed when i have my friends with me. serious.. all my peeps reading this.. some of u guys messaged me and asked me what i want for my ROYAL birthday but i told your that i dont know what i want.. and apparently the first response that you guys gave me was to ask me not to act shy.. but P-L-E-A-S-E since when has Shuan Shuan will act shy one?? lolz.. yeps so i really mean it when i said that i dont know what i want okie.. hehe $_$ maybe cold hard cash? hehe.. what i really want is some time for us to gather, sit around the talk. since we have not been doing that for a long long long long time le.. :)) alright? Also, what i wanted most in my life.. my dearie.. is there for me.. what more can i ask for? haha but i still welcome MONEY$$$$$.. lolz haha i just read a email from my friend i guess it's really true.. "You cant make someone love you. All you can do is to be someone who can be loved,the rest is up to the person to realise your worth." woW it's like so inspirational.. lolz gotta go.. dearie just called to say that his class is cancelled so we're going out.. WoO hoO! byebye :P

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long long time never blog le.. i'm really lazy these days.. please forgive me my loyal readers (that is if i have any) yeps.. today's officially the last day of my tuition!!! wahaha finally all the torture is over.. but i guess maybe i'm gg to miss it just a little.. hehe oh yes.. something to mention.. just now dearie gave me a BIG surprise.. and the surprise is HIM.. hehe apparently i called him after jogging and he was already at my house the bus stop but he lied! he said he gg to buy something for his sis.. then when i left my place for tuition he suddenly appeared from nowhere and surprised me and send me to tuition.. i felt quite bad la coz he came all the way down from home and he bought me kinder surprise also.. tee hee but we only spend like 10 mins together? arrgh but the surprise was.. Heart warming.. really it brought a smile to my face and i suddenly felt that tuition wasnt that bad afterall.. haha :)) thanks dear dear i really appreciate that.. heez.. oh yes.. evofus when u guys want a gathering huh?? keep me updated if any ya? i miss u guys..

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Long long time never had chance to blog already coz handsome PRINCE is always hogging the com playing his games even when he's having exams.. i wonder if he'll do well and if he do well i think he is really God. serious.. hai WTH today's sociology class was alright only only managed to adsorb like maybe say 70% of what she taught and i got back my test paper.. wasnt as good as i had anticipated la.. i only got 19.5/30 but the passing grade is like 11/30 but still meiqi got 24/30!!!! oh man and she's the highest in the whole lect.. can u believe it?? haha maybe i'm lazy la that's why.. oh yeah yest caught european giggolo with dearie and it was quite funny.. i felt quite bad coz dearie wasnt feeling well and kept coughing but BAD me had wanted to go watch the movie.. hai sorry dear and the worse thing he had to send me home :( something embarrassing happened in the theatre though.. haha at the starting of the show.. A couple came and started looking for their seats..
US: -stares-
Me: i was thinking to myself coz beside had only 1 seat left
Them: excuse me i think you guys are sitting at our place?
Act smart Me: Are u sure? this is G20 RIGHT?
Them:NO?! This is C20!!!!!!
US: Sorry Sorry..
So we stood up and went to look for G20 hai.. when we almost settled down..
He: Did u take the drink??
Me: Shit! It's still there.. -_-''
We just cant watch in peace. but the remaining part of the show was rather peaceful la.. the show was rather R-rated.. haha though it's written M-18 haha maybe i'm not open-minded enough.. yawn so sian just got back from jogging havent even bathe yet and later i still got tuition.. arrgh i dread going for tuition now.. it's so SHIT. i dont know la.. but i practically drag myself to tuition week after week.. maybe i should get an attachment somewhere part time de and not so sian.. i cannot stand it.. that girl show me attitude for a spastic $170 i have to tolerate all her nonsense! hai see how ba.. everything else is going well for me at least for the time being and i thank GOD for that.. the fever's gone but i'm having slight flu but that's no big deal also.. haha i get flu every now and then~ thanks all for ya concern. i'm back to my health le so can continue my intensive exercise.. haha but my toe huh.. tsk..tskk. Ouch! :/ haha next week gotta go down queensway get new sports shoe and my long awaited Jay Chou's inspired blouse! haha so nice.. hopefully i can fit in.. lolz that's all folks.. byebye :))

i'm so upset :(

sad..sad..sad.. so sad and disappointed with myself.. WHY? why must i be plagued by this fever bug? i cant go anywhere.. have to stay at home and worse of all.. cant spend time with Dearie.. i'm feeling really upset. shit. just came back from the doc again.. i've been there 4 times already for the past week.. arrgh and the freaking fever just wont subside.. just now at the doc my fever hit the highest dot 38.9 WOO HOO! and i was like shivering the clinic but now back home i'm fine already leh.. i want to get well.. really! i stayed at home the whole of today hoping to have more rest so tmr can go out but in the end? still the same! then at least i should have gone out today so that arrgh.. i dont know also la.. i think everyone's sick and tired of me telling them that i'm still having fever and boring everyone with my long grandmother stories. my plans for tmr and fri all thwarted! !@#%^*%$ i'm really upset now. serious. why cant we be like other couples go out watch movie, shop, eat,chill and spend time together?? all i can do is rest at home and u come over visit me for a few hours. this is not the courtship both of us wanted right? haiz i dont know.. :X i dont know if u have made the right choice choosing to be with me coz i dont know if i can be the girlfriend that u want and it's like ever since we got together we never really go chill le.. maybe partly coz of my fever la.. but haiz.. whatever it is i just hope that all this shit will be over soon.. i'm very sick of fighting this fever and i'm sure u are sick of me telling u all the shit i have to go through also.. fri would be the lst month we are together ler.. supposedly going out to have celebration but now the situation looks gloomy and this is B-A-D. real bad. i dont want to think about it ler.. i want to cry! arrgh i'm so disappointed with myself. damns. is this retribution? let me think about it. -_-''

today is the last day ler..

Hi all, i went to the doc again today afternoon coz i was still running a fever.. it was 38.0 when the doc measured me but my body dint feel hot. i was expecting a blood test today but he dint give me one, instead, he gave me an injection! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOouch!!!!!!! it's been a million years ago since i got an injection.. haha--> on my butt somemore.. woa lao made my bootie feel so sore for like a few hours.. he said that if the fever is still there tmr morning then i really have to go back do blood test and the situation seems to be that IT'S REALLY DENGUE :-X my temp has been fluctuating and i was still so hopeful yesterday that my temp has gone down to 36.7 or whatever it is.. arrgh.. hope that freaking mosquito which had bitten has already gotten smashed by someone or at least have died of diabetes coz i'm too sweet.. *shy* haha.. i've been staying at home for the past 2 days and the !@#$%^ fever still hasnt gone away.. i've been drinking a lot of water and resting A LOT. almost like a pig liao.. *snort* i'm so afraid that i cant catch up with my schoolwork too.. hai.. hope i'll be fine tmr coz today is really the last day for the fever to go away ler.. i feel very cooling now but who knows?! May God have mercy on me :)) Outta here~

close brush with death..

:/ my high fever for 4 days has finally subsided or izit i had thought so only?? just now i measured my temp and it was 36.7.. hopefully it will stay the way it is.. just now i was taking afternoon nap coz i ate the fever medicine and Queen came to check on me and asked me why my whole body was feeling so cold. but i was sweating like mad.. my whole shirt was drenched in sweat leh.. then i woke up feeling cold?! arrgh my body's like becoming hot and cold, hot and later cold again.. last night i was lying on bed when suddenly i had chest pain. it was like having a thousand needles poking into my chest and i was so scared that i cried. i was so scared that the next morning i wouldnt be able to wake up.. and i would just die in my sleep. :(( the kind of fear is no one would understand unless he or she has gone through it before.. i was so scared that i called Dearie and was talking to him and crying at the same time.. guess i really scared him but i felt so helpless at that time and Queen was like couldnt really be bothered with me.. coz she tot i was faking sickness.. but why would i want to do that? hai i dont know la i just want to get well and get out of the ''we can take of each other'' relationship. Dear Dear u should know right.. hehe that's all la OUtta Here~ To all: please pray for my recovery :)) Thankies

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What are the signs and symptoms of dengue fever and dengue hemorrhagic fever?

Dengue fever usually starts suddenly with a high fever, rash, severe headache, pain behind the eyes, and muscle and joint pain. The severity of the joint pain has given dengue the name "breakbone fever." Nausea, vomiting, and loss of appetite are common. A rash usually appears 3 to 4 days after the start of the fever. The illness can last up to 10 days, but complete recovery can take as long as a month. Older children and adults are usually sicker than young children.

Most dengue infections result in relatively mild illness, but some can progress to dengue hemorrhagic fever. With dengue hemorrhagic fever, the blood vessels start to leak and cause bleeding from the nose, mouth, and gums. Bruising can be a sign of bleeding inside the body. Without prompt treatment, the blood vessels can collapse, causing shock (dengue shock syndrome). Dengue hemorrhagic fever is fatal in about 5 percent of cases, mostly among children and young adults.---> i dont want to die this way.. :((

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haha finally.. i can type normally ler.. blogger's back.. hehe but i'm sick.. oh man.. and there's a possibility that it's dengue.. FREAK. oh man.. i'm having a fever 38.2 and body ache but surprisingly no FLU.. *cries* how sia.. what if it's really dengue?? argh.. but Dearie was sweet enough.. he had chalet till today and he rushed down straight after checking out, to SIM to pick me up from school then we had lunch at bukit timah market before heading back home. by the time i reached home, my fever was already 38.1.. *applause* how cool.. and the worse thing? i dont feel weak leh.. just that my face and body sometimes cold and then hot again.. :( after chilling at my place for a while dearie suggested that i should really go see a doctor coz my fever was like not subsiding.. so we took a bus now to see the doc and the doc couldnt even prescribe anything.. he said we have to monitor and see if the temperature drops after 3 days or more if not IT'S REALLY DENGUE.. initially i was still joking around that it would be dengue but now.. seriously i'm scared. i'm so scared of dying, losing my loved ones forever.. one of the symptoms of dengue is bone pain and the 'GOOD' news, my left ankle hurts now.. i dont know leh.. i'm so so so scared of kena-ing dengue.. what if i die in the hospital? i cant bear to leave my family and friends and most importantly DEARIE.. *boo hoo* :(( i was sponging myself just now while resting hoping that the temp would at least drop to 37. something.. but it dint it went down to 38.0 how nice.. peeps if i really die. get me a purple coffin. i dont wanna look on the dark side but there's is this possibility right? but maybe u guys could PRAY really hard for my recovery? just want to make a note here.. Dearie.. thanks for everything today.. thanks for feeling tired because of me, thanks for rushing down and being worried for me. i will take care of myself. This is the first time i'm sick and feel so cared for. All the credit goes to you! :)) hehe yeps.. thats all.. love ya Dearie :*

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i dont know.. maybe it's just me.. i dint mean to make u worry but when i couldnt reach somebody on their mobile i would be pissed. really. fine u told me that u went swimming and so i couldnt reach u i should be understanding and u are at the chalet enjoying yourself and i shouldnt be disturbing u.. right?? i tried to put myself in your shoes so i know.. but somehow this time i find it rather difficult for me to do so.. :( just now i was so sick (i dont know the reason for it) and i so much wanted to talk to u but u just werent there for me. i think i'm just being unreasonable. leave me alone. now i realise that i'm not such a easy person to be with. *sigh* feeling so sick yet still have to go for tuition later. it's not easy to do all these alone and i want and need u to be there for me.. Will you?

argh..

blogger is still down for my com.. damns whats wrong sia.. today's wed which means no school day for me so i slept till 10 in the morning.. hehe later meeting fishy to go holland to chill and chat up a bit. havent been meeting up with sm for a long long long long time ler. this sun we arrange to go for the hockey training together, hopefully nothing goes wrong and we can go for it.. argh. been postponing it for many many weeks liao.. lost touch of playing also.. i did 4km yesterday and my whole body was aching like siao but today feeling better already.. yeps.. on friday gonna meet up with the JJ peeps and bringing dearie along.. haha and apparently i got teased by them.. haha but nvm next time when it's their turn, they're gonna get it! haha.. that's all for today.. nothing much to blog also.. outta here~

what's wrong??

i really think that there is something wrong with blogger.. what the heck!!!! i cant change the colour of the text and the space to type is like so freaking small.. argh shant rabble on on that.. hehe.. today went out with Dearie on our first official date to TOWN! haha.. BUDGET date.. tee hee.. we went Marche at first for lunch coz i was craving for SAMBAL STINGRAY.. haha then we ordered rosti, pizza and crepes.. so much for the two of us but *burp* we managed to finish everything.. tsk..tsk.. must go jog more liao.. lolz yeps then after that we hang around heeren for a while i went to get my hairbands and we decided to proceed on with the journey to go check out squash rackets.. but i wanted to drop by paragon first to shop around.. then when we were about to leave, it started raining.. and that started off our BUDGET time out.. lolz i suggested going to the basement level of paragon coz Dearie was feeling thirsty so i was thinking maybe we can go get drinks downstairs.. he wanted to get some juice from starbucks but Cheapskate me decided that we should just go to the liberty market or whatever supermarket that was, to get cheapo drinks. hehe after that we decided to go use the kodak machine that can print pictures de so print out the pics we took earlier on and we printed.. and printed.. and printed.. and printed.. altogether we spent $5 on printed the same picture.. haiz just that it's of different frames and sizes.. haha but it was fun and just that my legs ache now.. lolz we spent around an hour just printing those pics and giggling like small kids but i had a lot of fun. really.. haha :)) after spending an hour or so in front of the machine, the rain finally stopped.. haha so we decided to go taka and check out the rackets at stadium after checking out finding them TOO EXPENSIVE, haha we went to the basement level (again!) of taka and Cheapo me suggested go test out the free stuff behind.. haha how greedy and cheapskate.. but it was fun. really i so long nv go chill out with him le so this was like WOW! haha yeps.. though my legs are aching now.. i also dont know why..for ppl who can run 4km, legs also wont break but shop whole day legs want to break liao.. oh yes another point i want to make.. at TAKA there, there's this "mei wu" shop that sells all kinds of preserved fruits but dont ever go there and buy raisins.. i got cheated man *sniff* there's another stall further up that sells the same stuff for a cheaper price for MORE too!!!!! argh felt so heart pain when i knew i got cheated coz the $$ i'm spending now is what i've earned de leh.. Queen also never give me $$ lor.. haiz yeps yeps. i shant let this kill my happy mood.. lolz that's all folks.. OUTTA HERE~ peace.

blogger looks suspiciously virus-fied

haha.. long time since i blogged then when i'm here.. the posting section looks suspiciously virus-fied.. lolz this few days havent got time to blog coz busy studying for socio test TODAY.. hehe the test was quite alright la.. i managed to do hopefully can pass.. heh.. yeps.. today's also the last day of Dearie's exams.. finally we can go out and CHILL.. sooooo long never go town ler.. my buying list is getting longer.. haha rights.. nothing much that's all for now maybe i'll be back again tonight.. OUTTA HERE~
P.S Indeed it is virus-fied.. i cant change the freaking colour of the text.. :((

tiring day..

Today i had IBM class and it was quite a miracle that i actually listened in class.. and PAID ATTENTION to what DOM had to say (btw DOM = Dirty old man) haha so i was paying attention.. maybe it's the power of love.. haha not for DOM la.. heh.. U should know who huh.. yeps yeps. so today's lect was good. After school i came home went downstairs to swim and the water was icy cold even though the sun was very sunny.. WTH.. hehe after that actually wanted to revise de but i was too hungry and tired to do anything.. i only had delicious raisins for lunch. how nice :(( dinner i ate at sakae sushi with evofus but dinner was good. think i'll have nightmare tonight.. still feeling full.. hehe.. but NICE~ slurpz.. just now was on the phone with Dearie and he was feeling so excited about the planes and stuff and he was telling me but i dont really understand what he is talking about.. :(( so sad.. maybe i'm a little slow and retarded.. yah la but i'll try to understand okie.. i enjoy listening to u sharing your stuff with me. really. yeps. that's all for today.. OUTTA HERE` miss yer

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i miss you..

Today's Econs class was terrible.. i wasnt really distracted but i could not really focus in class.. so ended up i dint really listen to what the lecturer was explaining.. gotta go do some reading up later on.. haiz.. I miss you leh.. even worse everytime after we talk on the phone.. haiz coz it's like so near yet so far.. u know that kind of feelings? hmm... but i think it's okay la.. we may be physically apart but what matters most is that we are mentally together. Easy to say, Difficult to Do.. yeps just a short one today.. Christina coming over to ask Hairdresser Peh to help her Dye her hair.. haha.. Outta here~ miss yer