so in love

I think it's really amazing how i can stay in love with the same person over such a long period of time. maybe for me la.. the crushes that i have never last more than half a year -_-'' hah but this time is different man. i'm really amazed by myself. hah and the feelings never seem to go lesser but more each time. i dont know man, many peeps say coz this is the honeymoon period so it's sweeter but i mean it's gg to be 1 year soon le izit still the honeymoon period or do we have to determine this ourselves? hah aloy has been PROPOSING to me many times this few weeks to come but still.. where's the 10 carat ring? tsk tsk no ring no talk. hah wait till u save up enough to buy me a 10 carat ring then i'll consider marrying u okie. hah but i still love u very very X1000000000000000 much. i wouldnt give u up for anything in this world but if $$$$$$$$$ a lot a lot haha i can still consider no la joking :X whatsmore my ultra huge crush on the 199 cutesy is dashed since he has a not-as-cute-as-me gf already. sigh they were like hugging on the bus this morning and i can practically see blood flowing out of my heart. haha like those taiwan drama shows.tsk tsk and my second mini crush on the PE hunk is also dashed coz he saw me and aloy together. arrgh so aiyah forget it. haha they are so my dream guy sia. hah but too bad they cant have me!!!!!! muha kill me please *shy* I'M ALOY'S hahaha lol okie la i gtg le need to get ready for my kickfit class later at 7. yawn ciao

service was superb.great sermon,great atmosphere,great company!

SOME of my NIE pals :) (taken using my lappy's webcam hor) cool ba

This is worth dying for. haha ultra nice SUPER CHEAP hah :X

-after service-

stayover at aloy's. hah X-rated. muha

my love and i :*
wow.. it's been quite some time since i last blogged. heh have been busy with sch work and stuff so hadnt really have the time to come online and blogged. and GUESS WHAT? muha i'm using my new lappy to blog. haha everything's so fast.. uploading pics and stuff NO PROB lol.. yup small screen 12" but still damn cool. arrgh cant stand it.. hah shall upload some pics.

:)

Stayover at aloy's place was a blast :) heh we went for a movie "click" at 10 and the movie ended arnd 11+ nearing 12 when the next day's his birthday so i was the first to wish him. :P ultra funny but still meaningful, supper at SPIZE and after birthday cake at his place. the whole of sat and sun's morning i spent with him, made me feel all fuzzy and warm like having a family of my own. hah it may sound adsurb but i just had a implusion to MARRY HIM! hah except the sleeping part. OMG it was horrible. coz he snored and snored and snored and SNORED the whole night! oh my.. he was on the floor and i'm on the bed but what i felt was that he was snoring right into my ear and i tot there was a thunder storm la -_-''it's that bad.. hah but still fun. we almost overslept coz we had service but i woke up and we quickly washed up. so nice to wake up early in the morning and seeing the person u love the most :D it would be cool to do it more often but cant la.. heh i cant keep having camps in school.. lol (if u guys know what i mean) was supposed to get my lappy today but the stupid guy said that i have to wait till later to get it so here i am still in school in the lib using the com to blog again.. sigh feel so lonely.. :( but whatever.. oh yes i signed up for jewellery making and MAGIC classes so chai i make sure i can bian bian bian in front of u also.. hah it's so cool and the BEST thing? it's FOC.. muha NIE's good got lots of freebies.. lol.. so yup. arrgh my throat behind there like very pain lidat. arrgh think i dint drink enough water :X aloy's gg to POP in 3 weeks time. really fast and great i'm having my holis till then so i can go for the ceremony.. WOO HOo! heh think GOD really heard my prayers and knew what i needed. ha my bank account was like drying up already and i was like so worried i wouldnt have enough cash to pay for my lappy and i even considered borrowing from my friends but heng ar.. my pay came in on time and tadah~ hah i'm a rich bitch once again but think i need to save up for my wedding le. muhaha i sound so desperate -_-'' need to getalife already.. arrgh feeling so sian i ended class at 130 and i nua in school all the way until now.. what the heck arrgh okie la i gg off le bye peeps and GOD BLESS :) Speak to GOD if u need coz HE really hears us (even for non-believers) :))

:)

cant believe that i'm actually blogging in the lib's com lab. muha. school has started not long and i've made quite a number of friends.. arrgh that's so boring.. actually everything's fine now and that I CANT WAIT FOR THE STAYOVER TMR!!!!!!!!!!! muhahah coz aloy's birthday is on the 13th so i'll be gg over to his place to stay over on the 12th then we can pre-celebrate his birthday and also our 11th month together on the 14th which happens to be on Mon, and he'll be in camp we'll have to celebrate it earlier.. but it's okie la.. i'm already accustomed to it le.. even w/o seeing him now, i think it's fine for me, anyway i'm busy with schoolwork also.. wont have the time to meet everyday and stuff.. steamboat with evofus was wonderful. i'm glad that jas brought yk along coz we managed to have some interaction but caleb leh.. TSKTSK.. sigh all the best to u man. hope everything will improve after u guys come back from thailand :) as for the costs for the steamboat just take it that i'm treating u guys to it lor after i get my nie pay. muha $_$ so no need to pay me back le. just thank me can liao :))) heh cant believe i'm in school so early when my class starts at 1230.. yawn and i'm feeling tired already. arrgh classes are stretching all the way to 430 coz today got make up.. heh tmr's really worth anticipating man.. sushi feast, fireworks seeing, and each other's company.. how i wish there's 25hrs tmr, i'm not greedy just 1 one extra hour to spend with aloy, i'll be very happy le,really. :) outta here GOD BLESS YOU ALL. <3

today's sun and still got FOUR more days before i get to talk to aloy again.. it's been really a looooongg wait but i'm a bit surprised that i handled it quite alright. i only cried like once? when i was waiting for the MRT to service and i opened my phone to read his last msg to me before he left for camp i was like.. tears just welled up in my eyes but i managed to control my emotions then i just took the train all the way to expo, alone, went for service alone,shopped at bugis alone, until sm and sis came, after that went home, alone.bought a top from dorothy perkins and a POLKA DOTTED SKIRT! hah something i really like. think i need to lose a few more kg if not the skirt gonna be real high. but i think i'm really accustomed to it already la.. i mean seriously when school starts, i got so many prog lined up and projects coming up.. sigh i really wonder how life will be and what GOD has planned for me.. i just feel that the future is so uncertain. but i just hope that this relationship will last la.. sigh i just cant imagine me having to go dating with BRODS! *blush* :P muha.. yep.. i'm getting quite excited over the next few weeks and got so many activities planned ahead.. orientation, getting new lappy, maybe moving to hostel, steamboat with evofus and partners,birthday celebration for my beloved and the STAYOVER! WOO HOO we can talk all night and be damn tired for service on sun.. hah @_@ sounds so exciting right? i guess i've never been so excited in my whole life before.. hah but seriously. arrgh i need to go get gift for aloy. having any sale anywhere? muha tell me if u guys know okie. oh yes for the steamboat: EVOFUS SUPPOSE TO PAY ALSO! there's no free lunch in this world. kaoz especially TAY who always want to take advantage of your friends in this aspect ! tsk tsk. hah orientation at NIE was quite alright. got to know quite a few good ppl. and there's this guy in my GESL project grp that looks like WU KE QUN! haha seriously and his cologne woa kao put so much -_-'' and the best thing? he's in my chinese tut grp also and HE'S GOT A CAR!!!!!!!! muha.. so excited but he's 30.. yawn too old for me i like longan still. slurrp hah alright la too much nonsense already. c u evofus on the 9th at the royal palace for steamboat ya? take care peeps and GOD BLESS ciaoz

i love u han han

*muack* Mr longan ;P one picture speaks thousand words

i love my army boy

Time really pass by very quickly. That day when i went to pasir ris to pick aloy up i felt like a thousand years had to pass before i would reach there but after that time passed very very quickly.. and sigh before i knew it, it was sunday already and he had to book in le.. the worse thing? both of us were sick down with flu and sore throat.. sigh really cant bear to see him gg in to tekong again this time round sick and coughing so badly :( but still the separation this time round wasnt as bad coz i'm sort accustomed to it already.. HOWEVER!!!! this fri he's gg for field camp so i wont be seeing him again coz he wont be booking out.. sigh so it's another 2 weeks before i will see him again.. sigh the only thing that comforts me now is that at least when he books out he would have only 1 more month in tekong before he POP so i'm actually loooking forward to it. The good thing is that now i'm not crying anymore.. my tears have dried and i've gone tired from crying and crying but many many thanks to my friends who have attempted to distract me and to accompany me, also to listen to my endless stories and to comfort me when i felt the weekest. Things arent that bad afterall.. i'll make it through it. sigh.. so many things have happened recently. i shant elaborate any further here but just to tell u all peeps out there to take care of yourselves and talk to me if anything's troubling u okie? GOD BLESS ALL!

:)

long while since i've blogged again. so fast it's thurs already. one more day and Aloy would be booking out.. yup but bad news next week it's going to be a tough week for us coz i'm gg orientation and he would be gg for field camp and it's gg to be 7 SEVEN!!!!!!!! days without seeing him or even talking to him on the phone and what's worse? NO BOOK OUT. hurray. cant wait it to come. sucks man what's wrong.. #@$&^@(*$&%(@*^$& anyways booked evofus and partners on national day for steamy boaty cum chocolate fountain at the royal palace. hope that all can come :) yeps. that's one exciting thing that's keeping me going. School's starting soon and i feel a bit lost. Maybe a new environment can help me keep things off my mind for a while. To all my friends out there who saw me shopping and even asked me if i'm ok after reading my oh-so-depressing entries, just want to make a loud shout out " THANK YOU!" i'm better le. trying to adapt myself to this new but not permanent lifestyle, but i know i'm gonna make it coz i have u guys with me :) Take care and GOD BLESS. :)

happy 10 months :)

10 Months ago, we were still friends, and 10 months later, we've turned from friends to lovers. indeed, time passed very very quickly. Hopefully for the 2 years in NS will also be this quick.. sigh last night i was crying to myself, coz i suddenly felt very lonely.. i think by this time most of my friends would have gotten sick of me feeling so sian and crying all the time, so i decided to leave u guys out of my heartbroken-ness. Especially aloy.. dint want him to worry so every night when we're on the phone i would sound very happy. :( the truth is i'm feeling more lonely than ever. everyday may pass very quickly, but my days are very lonely.. this is the truth. but i'm still glad that i have some friends that i can lie back on. that day went out with fish and sm. sorry fish i dint mean to sound rude bout the last thing i said that if u guys hadnt been in my situation before, you'll never really understand how it feels. but it's really the truth. many of you guys out there are asking me to be strong but can u guys really understand what i'm gg through? i doubt so.. i read in the fasting booklet today that we can never know what is LOVE unless we've given out our LOVE and received it back from the same person. similar to this situation i'm in.. The kind of feeling when i miss aloy is not something i can use words to describe and fish say that i still have my friends, but my friends are already very busy with their own stuff and troubled enough. The person who shares the most time with me and most willing to listen to my complaints is far away in tekong.. sigh it's never the same u see.. :( but i'm still thankful for the time on the phone everyday and even for my friends who bothered to listen to my heartbreak stories. Thank u peeps. i really appreciate them. For those who are nursing a broken heart too, i'm really sorry i cant feel how u are feeling now coz i'm not you but i guess we all will have to learn how to pick up the broken pieces and move on again..

medical checkup

This morning i woke up in shock when my alarm rang.. it's like so loud la.. havent been sleeping well this few days.. been having insomnia maybe coz i'm too used to be sleeping after 1+ but almost everyday when i lie on my bed, all the day's events would run through my head again and i keep thinking about everything, him gg army, how will i cope, what stuff can i bring him when he books out.. so it's like my mind's still very active though i'm tired.. but still cant sleep. was awaken by his sms in the early monring was really happy and when i re-read the sms, but i almost teared coz he told me that i was the only thing that kept him going on in army.. and that really made me feel ultra super sad.. it's like he's so helpless, and there's nothing i can do but to encourage him.. but it's okie. i have faith my dearest that he'll do it. I'm so glad that i managed to talk to hatty jing yest and she gave me advice that really was what i needed. Thanks girl :)) what i really need to do is to THINK POSITIVELY now.. wait patiently for the 2 weeks to be up when i will see him again.. :X yup today went for medical checkup.. horrid. shall elaborate the details when i see u guys again.. haha ciaozz. blogger a bit lagging.. the words that i type dont appear immediately and arrgh. i think there's something wrong sersiously.. sucks.. outta here !

feeling slightly better

Today wasnt as bad as the few days, as in i woke up without the weird feeling in my stomach and most importantly my emotions are maybe.. under controlled. i still miss him very very much but luckily his sergents gave him 5 mins to use his hp and he did call me. i'm so glad coz i've sort of given up waiting for his call if the time passes 1030 coz that's their lights out time. Now i'm more worried for him if he can cope inside, all the strenuous exercise, all the early morning wake-ups and stuff, i really worry for him if he can take it. it really broke my heart yesterday when he told me stop crying coz he felt like crying also and that he asked me to pray for him. it seems like he has much more problems coping and adjusting to life in there more than i have problems adjusting to life without the late night talks with him.. at least for me, i still have my family and friends to hear me cry but for him? all he has is just himself to fend for. Now then did it daunt on me that i've been so selfish all this while. Wanting him to console me when he's feeling even worse than i do. :( I just felt that he had so much things and problems to complain to me about but the talking time for the both of us is limited. If we can manage a 10 mins or so, it would be considered a luxury. sigh.. I've decided to be strong for the sake of Aloy, to listen to his complains instead of he listening to my sobbings every night. I just cant wait for the 21st to come for his first book out. sigh alright gtg already. needa pack my stuff, gg over to sm's place already. bye peeps. take care and God bless

i miss u my darling

i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u very very very much. It's not as if you're not coming back coz it's just NS right? but at this very moment, i really miss the times we've spent together, the late night talks even u wishing me good morning or good night. but now all this have become things that i can only wish for and maybe for the next few months or so our daily regime wouldnt be there anymore.. but still aloy, i just want to tell u that i really miss u very much that my heart aches. i seriously dont know what i can do to make myself feel better, because i'm already trying my best to do it but i'm still far from succeeding. Let's just hope that the NIE orientation will keep me busy that i wouldnt feel like crying all the time. I will be strong and to all my friends out there who had bothered to call and ask how am i, Thanks but still i've to admit that i'm feeling very sad and nursing a very hurt and broken heart coz of this cruel separation, even just for 2 weeks. It's agonising :((((

i'm really ultra sad

Firstly, i must apologise to fishy that i called u that day and sobbed like mad and somemore u were using your hp to call me :X but i felt slightly better after that but i was really unwell. Today's worse. last night i couldnt even sleep.. my stomach felt so bloated and i felt ultra nauseous.. arggh couldnt get back to sleep until 3+ and i had to wake my mum up to ask her for some medicine. sigh.. sucks man.. Secondly i must apologise to tek kah that i ps u to go watch the NDP preview but i really felt too weak and sick to go out. Just want to catch up on my rest at home.. :((( so sorry girl.. Thirdly, i need to apologise to the girl whom i had agreed to rent my choco fountain to coz last min i backed out, too sick to travel all the way to kembangan to pass u. I think she wont even read my blog but still i want to apologise to her. arrgh. i'm like so paranoid now.. just now in the morning when i woke up i felt so weak then i went back to sleep again then during the midst of my rest, many ppl called my hp and everytime my phone rang i quickly jumped up hoping that it was aloy who had called, but apparently it was just my own wishful thinking. i kept calling him, hmmm ok maybe like thrice but his phone was off. i juct couldnt get him when i am feeling so weak and sick now.my phone's like stuck with me now 24/7 lest i miss any of his calls even when i'm in the toilet. peeps, it's this bad u see.. :(( yesterday at tekong was real bad, coz we dint even spend the time together. We were separated the moment we reached there and i hanged out with his sis and mum the whole afternoon together. sigh the goodbye part was the worse and everytime i think about it, i just feel like crying, even now.. i promised him that i wouldnt cry and that i really did try my best to suppress my emotions but it was really very very saddening. :`( on the ferry back to mainland singapore, i tried my best to hold back my tears and luckily jr called me to ask me about tuition stuff so my mind was away from it just for a while.. later on his brother came and picked us up from changi jetty and dropped me off at lavender. i have to admit, the moment i got off the car, i started crying like mad. it's like everything being wrapped up for so long that i finally managed to release my emotions.. i admit that i'm a crybaby and that i cried all the way from lavender to clementi. i was sobbing real hard and my nose was like so blocked, but i just couldnt care less. on 184, i still couldnt stop. i just sobbed and sobbed all the way home. when i was back my eyes were ultra swollen but i couldnt care less. luckily no one was home yet and i quickly went to bathe just in case he called. Thankfully he did call but we only managed a 2 mins and that he had to hang up already. lights out was at 11 and the time he called me was like at 1058 and he hadnt bathed. sigh.. i started crying when i heard his voice over the phone but i knew i had to stop it if not i would be wasting our time on the phone. it's like so many more days before he will book out and today's only the 1st day. sigh hopefully things would get better next week and that i would stop crying.. :(( Thank u peeps out there who tagged me to ask me to be strong. i've tried and will continue trying. I love u guys.

i got a heavy heart

OK. that's it. No more crying and heartaches because all of those i had already done and there's this numbness in me. aloy's enlisting later and no matter how much i hate to admit it or even hating that time had passed so quickly, i've got no choice. Seriously after crying for like two days straight, i wonder if i had no more tears.. sigh.. it's quite bad. the feeling is like as though i watched an ultra sad korean movie that i'll really cry my heart out. i have to admit that i'm really not a strong person. No matter how hard i tried to hide my emotions, the tears still came out and when i tried to control it, the worse it got. yesterday aloy wrote my a letter and the letter sort of comforted me, but still i cried after reading it. sigh.. the atmosphere in the house is like very tense now coz everyone knows that aloy wont be back for another 2 weeks. for some it may be like only 14 days but for someone in a relationship, it's actually quite a long time coz anyone who is in a relationship, wouldnt want any separation from the one they love and so do i. But anyway, i thought it through when i was bathing yesterday and sort of "xiang kai le" there's nothing i can do to stop him from enlisting or whatsoever, so maybe i should go with an open heart and that life will still carry on. No one would care that my heart is aching or what so why should i torture myself? anyways this is not a separation but a time for us to grow in our own independent ways. Maybe this is the time for me to spend more time with my family and friends and even with myself and GOD. This is the time when i commit all i have to GOD and let him plan my way. It may sound absurb to non-believers but indeed, everything is much easier and the load is lighter when we commit all our burden to the Lord. So now, even though i still feeling a little upset that aloy's gg into army already, i'm a little looking forward to the next 2 weeks that i will spend with GOD, family, friends and myself. Hope that this 2 weeks would be a time for me to mould my character when he's away and that when the 2 weeks' up i would be ready as a new and better person to pick him up from pasir ris.. Just keep your fingers crossed that i wouldnt cry and paisey myself later when i'm at tekong.. arrgh keep me in your prayers okie? take care peeps

darling's enlisting tmr :(

oh man.. the dreadful 070706 is here tmr.. seriously though i've known about it for so long, i'm not yet prepared for it.. sigh :( i dont know how i'm gg to cope.. seriously then everything about NIE is like so complicated and.. sigh i dont know la. i'm just have to be strong when aloy's in army.. will blog again about our last few days together when i'm feeling better. and the liu geng hong's song is making me feel even worse. arrgh outta here. take care peeps¬

Praise God

Something very inspiring for me.. Read it and hope u guys get something out of it too :)

P.S Read it with an open heart and mind

This is an absolutely incredible short interview with Rick Warren , "Purpose Driven Life " author and pastor of Saddleback Church inCalifornia .In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said:People ask me, What is the purpose of life? And I respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were made to lastforever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven.One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body-- but not the end of me.I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going to spend trillions of years in eternity. This is the warm-up act - the dressrehearsal.God wants us to practice on earth what we will do forever in eternity. We were made by God and for God, and until you figure thatout, life isn't going to make sense.Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're just coming out of one, or you're getting ready to go into another one.The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort.God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy.We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness.This past year has been the greatest year of my life but also the toughest, with my wife, Kay, getting cancer.I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a dark time, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don'tbelieve that anymore.Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you havesomething good and something bad in your life.No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on.And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for.You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems.If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness, "which is my problem, my issues, my pain."But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others.We discovered quickly that in spite of the prayers of hundreds of thousands of people, God was not going to heal Kay or make it easyfor her.It has been very difficult for her, and yet God has strengthened her character, given her a ministry of helping other people, given her atestimony, drawn her closer to Him and to people.You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life. Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder. Forinstance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 million copies, it made me instantly very wealthy.It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal with before. I don't think God gives you money or notoriety for your ownego or for you to live a life of ease.So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two different passages thathelped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72.First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change our lifestyle one bit. We made no major purchases.Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary from the church.Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call The Peace Plan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care for thesick, and educate the next generation.Fourth, I added up all that the church had paid me in the 24 years since I started the church, and I gave it all back. It wasliberating to be able to serve God for free.We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity?Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism?Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)?When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You moreand love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do. That's why we'recalled human beings, not human doings.
Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD.

jelly fish killer on the loose!

Thisismybestfriendluatekkah.

Jellyfish drink ANYONE???? slurrp

This is how i love him. :))

phototaking at ECP. So much fun. we MUST do it AGAIN.. lol TEKS: may tan's rock dont look obvious at all.. what the heck

YES! i love the sun.. late updates from the ECP outing with TEKS,bitchy,aloy and me.. due to the delay of the pics.. heh :X we cycled so much that our butts hurt so much the next day.. got a weird tan also coz we were wearing tees.. tsk tsk but still we had so much fun.. it's been such a long time since we met up with bitchy but still, our relationship hadnt changed. hah we still love to bully her.. :))) lolz we should go again some day.. anyways now i'm gg to study in NIE le maybe can meet up sometime too. yup thanks all folks. Good day :) bye bye

han han where are u????

I miss u so much. so many things to tell u in such a short conversation span. oh man.. :(

troubled..

Aloy's off to Bangkok and will only be back on sat.. sigh so miss him already.. love can really make someone sick.. next week's gonna be worse. dont even want to think about it now.. arrgh.
To Caleb: Hey man.. dont worry so much. things will work out for u both. Even if it doesnt, it just mean that u will meet someone else who will love u more than she did :)
To Xiaohui: Check out the airline thingy then decide how again. Dont worry too much okie.. anything just drop me a mesage, or give me a call. i'm always here
To Black colour: So sorry for asking u to help me buy the cam then until now havent get back from u.. will pay u asap when jr pays me okie.. haha :X
To Jasmine: WHAT'S THE SONG ON YOUR BLOG LA. KAOZ WATCH IT I'M BUYING MOUSE TRAPS.
To Fishy: Hope u guys will have a chance to talk things out and to get to know each other better. :)
To Shumin: DUDE. be happy okie i'm always here..
And to all others whose names are not mention, just want to tell u guys to be happy and to cherish what u have. Dont lose it liao then regret that u hadnt cherish it. And if u have already taken the first step, dont lose heart when things dont go your way coz GOD has a plan for u. yup. that's all take care peeps.. :) *HUG*

:X

blogging at aloy's place while he's nuaing on the bed like a pig..*snort snort* he's leaving for thailand tmr.. 4D3N and sigh i'll be alone for 4 whole days.. next week the dreadful 070706 is coming.. how many more days left? i wonder how i'm gg to cope with it.. arrgh dont even want to think about it now.. a bit unhappy.. :( sucks man.. that day went to JJ's concert wasnt as fantastic as i thought it would be.. a bit disappointing also.. dropped by jr's place and reached home ultra late. tired but still had lots of fun. i need my friends by my side now when he's gone.. feel a bit bad coz i only look for my friends when aloy's not around.. To ALL: Please forgive me. :X i need to make plans for my next few coming weeks.. suddenly feel so lonely.. all my friends are gg for camps and stuff and looking at my diary it's like rather empty for the next few weeks before school starts.. :( hopefully i'll secure the job SIM intro-ed. $10/hr then at least i can treat my besties to a meal.. :P oh yes.. i've decided to go to NIE le.. yup.. so i'm gg to go for their briefing on thurs.. wonder how it is gg to be.. sigh.. everything's like so uncertain but i'm gg to try not to worry so much coz like what aloy said, GOD has a plan for me.. but it's a bit scary considering i have no idea what the plan would be.. sigh.. listening to the song on jas's blog just make me feel so sad and a little depressed. sigh. okie la that's about all.. needa to go talk to aloy le.. he's feeling real bored and will fall asleep if i dont go disturb him. bye all and miss ya peeps!

worse day of my life

can u imagine waking up in the morning and getting scolded? and when u tried to explain things, things got worse and u start crying. what a nice start to a sunday. This sunday is miracle sunday and i so much wanted to attend service but everything screwed up and i had to stay home facing the person who screwed up my whole sunday. she insisted that i go to her office to help her pack her stuff and said that it's very messy and need lots of ppl. dint want to go down but dad persuaded my sis to go down with me so wasnt so bad afterall. help her move ultra heavy boxes up and down. was busy the whole afternoon but actually most of the time i was slacking in the office nothing much to do after i complete my task. came back, dead beat and fell asleep till 8+ tot they gg out for dinner but ended up calling pizza hut and KFC for dinner. after dinner i did something bad and got yelled at by aloy. the very first time in my life and it didnt make me feel better after this whole shitified day. last night was worse. so it's like actually the whole thing was carried forward from last night de. dint know i made my friend feel this way all along. u should know who u are dont want to name names. u did clarify things with me but i think i wouldnt want to do it again. true we are very "shou" but what u said really did hurt me coz i dont feel good asking u to send me home everything and since u said that u are not my boyfriend. i think what u said is true la. it's alright la i wont trouble u anymore next time i'll find my own transport home just that i have to leave early. yep that's about all la i'm still feeling moody now shall stop here now. ciao

sentosa!

Thanks love for making the day so special and wonderful :* love ya so muchie! muack

imagine this crab was used to cook chilli crab! SLURRP..

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Jellyfishes---> WATCH OUT

*muack*

after tanning and swimming (SOMEBODY FORGOT TO BRING HIS TOWEL) eeks. yup we headed down to the underwater world!!!! Yeah :P

the next day..we headed down to sentosa to SUNTAN and to go to UNDERWATER WATER WORLD.. lolz and we even managed to check out the dolphin lagoon.. lolz now got some mid year promotion thingg so we managed to get a good deal.. :)))))))))


since Mrs government and Mr government went to hk for 3 short days.. muha my 3 short days were packed with fun filled activities. =X for the first day we went to watch garfield 2.. heh not bad the movie was quite nice. we watched it at the cathay the new movie theatre and before we left we took some pics.. looks very misty leh.. also dont know y.. lol after that we headed now to river valley there for supper.. lolz that's our second time there coz mrs government wasnt in town too at that time.. lol.. the ROTI JOHN there is superb.. filled with meat egg cheese. BAGUS! slurrrrp

cable skiing!

Jellyfish on the grass before we left.

sorry peeps.. the alignment of the pics a bit messy.. muha but still nice.. lolz anyways yesterday i went double dating with caleb,fishy and aloy.. muha we went cable skiing at east coast and the waters was infested with jellyfishes. Eeks we managed to torture 3 of the jellyfishes coz they stung our dear fishy and caleb. muha it's quite sick considering they are ultra jelly-like and poisonous. muha so much fun to catch them though. we were like yelling like mad. erm maybe only me la huh.. lol but it's sooo much fun we must go back again!!!!!!! Cable skiing was quite fun and thrilling.. haha but i kept falling back into the water.. lol got a tan but the rest like nothing leh.. maybe coz i'm the real BEACH BABE *shy* muha.. yep after that we went to the no signboard seafood restaurant for lunch-dinner and we ordered chilli crab.. SLURRRRP a little ex but nevertheless it's superb.. ultra nice lor the crab is very meaty.. muha :P seriously the restaurant doesnt need any signboard. -_-'' haha after the date at east coast caleb had to go for keyboard classes so he dropped us off at bugis and suggested taking neoprint. muha.. it's like so long since i last took it and we were like suaku la.. coz we took the pics le but dint know that we had to do editing outside the machine there and i even went to ask the person how come our photos not printed yet.. lol what the heck la.. and caleb said that neoprints are for ah lian and he was the one who suggested it.. lol soooo..... caleb are u ah lian? MUHAHAHAHAHAHA :))) we had so much fun and now my hands are paralysed. lol they feel like wood as tekkah said it.. muha. oh yes before we went east coast.. i almost forgot.. it started raining and we thought we couldnt go skiing anymore and partly coz caleb went the wrong way and we drove up to changi airport and tsk tsk he suggested that we have an "excursion" to the airport it was like ultra boring la.. zzz what the heck but we left after the rain was smaller and started out our DOUBLE DATE! lol we should do it more often.. muha yep.. that's all.. shall blog another time. bye peeps and take care! check out the double dating couples *wink wink* ;)

Jellyfish in the cup. it's damn sick
<-- on the floor.. it's EVERYWHERE!!!

FEASTING AGAIN.

DOUBLE DATING IS SO MUCH FUN! :)))

before setting out.. me and my love (little brownies) heh :P

9th months!

HAPPY 9th months han han!!!!! may our love grow stronger 140606

i made this for him :))))))))))))
out of 6 pics we took only this wasnt blurred. TROTTERS i must say. lol


One of my MOST LOYAL FAN--aloysius tan. muha told me blog coz he love reading it.. so here i am back with the last entry before i fly off to bangkok tmr.. 14th of June. i'm leaving.. the day which matters most importantly to the both of us.. i'm so sorry aloy that we cant have a full day celebration but at least we celebrated on the day before.. muha we went to Jacks' place for lunch and it's HIS first time there.. lol.. we enjoyed ourselves very much but we didnt talk much during meal time not only because it's rude but also we were too hungry.. lol when we had finished the food, aloy spotted a ROACH. OMG that's the most disgusting thing and not a very small one i must say. kaoz so sick and the waitress felt disgusted to kill it too. what the heck.. after that we walked along the old singtel now HSBC bank there and saw hao ting working.. muha so qiao and she asked me to sign up some stuff got free ben&jerrys ice cream. cheapo me of course sign up immediately la.. lol after that we went to CK tang to buy the chocolate fountain choco and went to aloy's sis's place to chill out. yeps. not a very exciting day but at least we get to spend time together. and that's more precious than anything else. :) i love u aloy *shy* how i wish i could put the stupid msn emotion here.. lol the shy face de.. oh yes PEEPS I'M RENTING THE CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN if u guys are interested can contact me okie. i give u best deal okie? :) for caleb who's having a hard time now, take care and dont think too much liao la huh.. u shouldnt be thinking of such stuff now instead u should.. you know what la huh.. okie. take care and JIA yOU! dont be too troubled ya? i'm always here to lend u my cute and jade ear MUHA!
To aloy: take care of yourself okie.. i'll try to call u when i'm free from shopping alright.. may u recover from your luo han yu symptoms soon :))) *HUG* miss ya peeps lots will get u all something from BANGKOK! take care!

:)))))))))

before leaving.. we wore our couple shirt out and everyone was staring at us *shy*

me and my love
burning hot.. went to sentosa with aloy today to sun tan.. and got scorched. horrid. bikini babes everywhere and there i was with my ultra white and fat tire. what the heck.. but still i enjoyed myself a whole lot, tanning and beaching around.. heh we managed to play bluff and AGAIN.. aloy LOST to me.. just admit it la.. i'm better than u.. heh after that we went over his place and played a game of FISHING. AS usual.. aloy lost to me AGAIN. i cant believe he actually stuck to his newton law's rule but still *look who is the winner.... WHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOO is the winnnnnneeeeerrrrrrrrrr?!?!?!?!?!?!?* muha.. had so much fun but my whole back was cooked lobster red. seriously.. very hot and itchy now.. sucks man.. and the aloe vear thingy doesnt really cool my skin.. think the sun screen i used not enough.. arrgh hehe but still i had lots of fun.. oh yes be4 we left we went to new zealand ice cream and bought the 2 scoop de.. SLurrp.. orange choco and mango sorbet.. stacked on top of each other.. lol.. so much fun and so red now.. oh yes.. i bought new earrings too.. from moshi moshi.. got 20% off.. not bad.. u guys can check out my earssssss on the tea party okie.. muha i'm ciao-ing already.. byebye *waves* see u all at the tea party huh.. 090606 6+7pm starting

BURRP

muha.. today went piggying out with aloy, caleb and christina.. muha we went to alexandra market for seafood and greedy us ordered.. *take a deep breath* black pepper crab, chilli crab, salad you tiao,la la, oyster omelette,satay and many many drinks.. lol we dint take any pics of us eating like PIGS coz too excited and partly also coz we wanted to save ourselves from the embarrassment.. lol oh yes.. christina bought durian puffs for us from taka and she bought it since like 4pm in the afternoon all the way till 8 before we ate it and seriously they smell like fart. i was like what the heck.. lol but still very delicious.. all the pics that u see below, we took them at ikea.. coz caleb had to pass his friend something so we took his car over and the 3 of them ate ice cream whilst i downed yakult heh.. (for digestion purpose) i'm not so greedy like the 3 of them.. lol.. we had lots of fun (embarrassing ourselves).. muha.. anyways be4 all this happened, i went with aloy to the bookfair and bought myself 4 books.. 2 eng and 2 chinese.. just coz the NIE interviewer told me to read chinese stories i went to buy "san wen" okie.. but it's nice la.. love story kind. yep and i bought another 2 danielle steel books at a bargain.. lol but dont know if like the books is very old edition mah..met up with ms black and she was acting busy trying to promote to me some DVCAM.. like as if i got money to buy.. lol.. but thanks still :)) meet up soon ya.. arrgh sucks man i suspect that there's mosquitoes nearby.. my legs are itching like mad arrgh alright la.. i ending soon.. tmr gg to call up part time job offers.. sucks man. my bank account drying up soon. peeps if u have any lobang jio me okie! ciaozzz... byebye *waves*

ah.. i love flowers!

i love my BIG face
check out the eggs on our face! o_O
i pinched ham's face real hard. can ask caleb or aloy.. muha
We went piggying out! slurrp

:))

nDim sum with fish,aloy and teks was great. we ate and ate and ate of course not forgetting to embarrss myself too.. lol but i had lots of fun man. heh holis are finally here and i'm bored and broke the double Bs what the heck la yaps.. confirm liao peeps.. tea party on 090606 cant wait man.. so many nice stuff lined up AND I"M GOING TO WATCH BRODS PERFORM!!!!!!!! i cant wait slurrp. muha another day without you. outta here!



i love my greens
i NEED to embarrass myself. muha
dimsum piggies

Natural eater. muha

sfijhghu

sigh.. exams are over and yet i'm feeling even more restless than ever.. arrgh aloy's out with his peeps and again.. never charge his phone so batt's flat and i cant contact him.. arrgh sucks man.. i feel so so so bored and what's more i'm still not feeling well so well so had been staying at home for the past 2 days.. :(( i'm sooo bored and HOOOORAY!!!!! next week he's gg JB too.. how fun can it be. arrgh

arrgh

HORRID.. tea party postponed till next fri.. i'm down with fever, flu,sore throat, cough.. oh man anything u name it i have it.. arrgh yesterday night was the longest night in my life.. my whole body was aching like mad and i kept waking up in the middle of the night coz i cant even sleep.. sucks man.. and i feel like dying.. arrgh but still i made it.. muha tea party next fri.. sorry peeps made u guys so excited over it then in the end had to postpone it.. sigh i so wanted to have it today also but seriously can la.. it's like i'm still SICK. arrgh and the worse shit? my exams are over and yet i'm sick! sucks man.. just want to pray hard that my sickness will be over soon and it's PARTY time.. heh thank u peeps who msged me and asked if i'm alright.. i'm fine :))))))))) just needa lots of rest now..outta here!

NIE!!!

this morning i woke up in shock coz my mum was yelling that my NTU application letter had arrived and i opened the letter slowly knowing the outcome was " i'm sorry to inform u that your application to NTU has been seriously looked through and...." blah blah blah.. the rest is history so i told my mum that forget it la.. cant get in, it's GOD's will and that i should just study my sim properly but still i cant help feeling that little bit of disappointment. just a little seriously :X but later when my mum went to market and asked my dad and i to go downstairs to help her with the groceries, my dad went to open the letterbox and saw a NIE letter inside. my heart skipped a beat when i opened the letter and it was FINALLY.. what i had anticipated most.. a NIE interview letter on the 30th 11am.. arrgh think i'm gg to be the first one to be interviewed or maybe last one be4 they go for lunch. it's a DIP 'A' programme and i'm just gg to go for the interview, not having any high hopes, the fact that i was so excited over it last year and got rejected.. oh man the rejection is just too much.. so i've learnt to take in within my stride just as it comes, hoping for the best only. Just want to thank GOD and praise GOD for all that he's done for me. seriously all the fasting and praying hadnt gone in vain and after reading the daily bread, i shouldnt ask GOD to do what i want him to do but to do what GOD wants me to do. maybe i'm really not fated to get into NTU and that this NIE interview is my last chance le.. gonna elaborate more on my TEA party on the 26th.. actually i'm more excited bout the tea party then the interview. Oops. muha yah lor.. sigh okie la that's about all.. gonna get change and meet loy loy for dinner already.. ciaozz.. please give me feedback regarding the TEA PARTY. Tag me tag me. whoever can come early to help out.. sms and let me know okie... take care peeps and GOD BLESS~ :))))))))))))))))))))))

tea party!!!!!!!

oh yes! muhahah one last paper on the 25th and TEA PARTY on the 26th!!! WOOOO HOOOOO i've sort of got the menu up le.. but still need to know what u guys are expecting or wants to have.. yep it's supposed to be a sort of like high tea session and stuff only finger food lor but.. there can be exceptions.. the food would be like cool de..not the usual hot dog or crabsticks ok. muha. can expect exotic food but taste wise it's my first time so i'm not very sure how it's going to turn out to be but please give your fullest support! $_$ muha i'll be buying vodka.. any comments anyone? or would it be better if i serve lime and lemon soda? not those pre-pack kind.. is D.I.Y de slurrp slurrp... more details will be coming up later.. peeps if you're free on that day maybe can come down earlier to help out? those not coming down earlier can help me out FINANCIALLY!!!!!!! hahahaha.. soo sooos oosooososososososos excited hehehe.. good food and good friends. that's like since so long man.. sigh but hold back first..gonna burst out on the 26th.. should i have a theme? like maybe all who are coming down must wear something purple? if not FORFEIT!!!!!!!!! hahahaha how how how?? tag me okie peeps lemme know whatcha think. *only limited to invites via sms* yep yep.. more details coming up soon when i finish brain-storming okie.. byebye~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

:))

Next Thurs 25th!!! hehe last paper.. yawn yep and i so lack of the motivation.. arrgh.. i love u aloysius!!! ******************muack**************** heh ciaooozzzzz

:)

Guess everything's back to normal already.. Peeps.. thanks for being there for me especially Ah lua and caleb thanks man.. had u two to hear my whine and complain.. tmr i'm still having tuition.. arrgh what the heck lor.. and wed i'm having my first paper already.. a bit nervous but still i'm not studying enough!!! ahhhh.. *slap myself* i will jia you! arrgh oh yes BTW anyone got watch superband? haha i love BRODS!!!!!!!!!! go go go haha slurrp sooo MAN and cute (aloy forgive me for saying this) muha
ciaoz.. results coming out soon.. haha jia you jia you jia you :P tot i couldnt find anymore pics! i'm so wrong!! haha i got their webbie!! hah http://www.brods.net/gallery/photo_gallery.swf i cant copy and paste their pics so for more of their MANLY pics check out the webbie!!! muhahaha outta here :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

:(

something real bad happened yesterday.. think i was quite badly shaken by it.. sigh though it's a thing of the past, i just cant help it too.. arrgh that kind of struggle and anguish i felt isnt anything that i can put in words. You said that it's the thing of the past and wont want to bring it up again. i'll respect your decision and do that too. It's going to be real difficult but if we can overcome this, i'm sure nothing will be too tough for us next time.. :) (hopefully) you're enlisting on July 7th.. not much time left till then plus i'm still having my exams for now still got 3 more weeks.. arrgh time that we spend together is really precious.. I'll treasure them so i hope you will treasure them too.. I really hope that nothing has changed after yesterday's incident.. You said nothing's changed but i did feel that things are not the same anymore.. do u still trust me? sigh.. what a thing to happen. :(( my stomach's feeling so bloated now.. still fasting from seafood and meat.. tmr's gg to be the last day already or maybe today? something's wrong.. i cant seem to digest the food and that my stomach feels so BIG (though it has always been big) and a bit painful when i try to press it down.. arrgh gassy.. oh yes.. can u help me thank your mum for making me the "suan mei" drink in the afternoon.. yep it's a bit weird tasting at the beginning but at the end it wasnt that bad actually..:)) exams starting soon in 3 more days time.. i gotta jia you already.. no news from NTU still. gosh but i'm holding on to my faith.. :)

Cooking!!!!!

Cant wait for JJ's concert on the 24th of June.. muhah $_$
Before i forget i must congratulate Fishy on your graduation and Good Luck on Wed :)) Jia you
Haha..Ahhh.. so compatible.. 0_o

Dearest Aloysius Cooked a meal for me on Sat and no need anymore words.. See for yourself. A guy willing to cook and wash for me. How nice. Imagine Husband cum Maid. Not a bad combination. haha.. Enjoy~

Maid Tan -->Part II mopping floor

Maid Tan (MT) washing pot

Cooking mushroom and Spaggedies together.. Weird but still edible :X

Presenting to you---> the CHEF OF THE DAY!!!!!! ( Oh man so cute!!!) muack muack muack

Our lunch by Mr Aloysius Tan

It's damn nice. SLurrp

(before) cheese mushroom-->anyone? (btw, i invented it) :P

Outta here~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ *wave*