Whispers of my heart

Back again-- for bad

2010-09-10T03:45:00.002+10:00

Here I am again, gonna vent my anger, frustration, brokenness, disappointment! Everything negative. I can't believe u actually blamed me for nt booking the hotels/chalet early to celebrate our 5th anniversary?! If it's truly my fault, I apologize.. Bt I knew tt for our anniversary I'm even more excited than you are, to mark this milestone in our lives.. I can't believe tt you actually said I didn't tell u earlier. You were the one who said that you didn't have the money and didn't really want to organise anything special for it and now it's my fault? God! The BBQ was specially organized for u coz u said u missed BBQ food and now you're telling me tt u can't cme coz u have to go hiking? Am I asking too much from you or izit that you can't really be bothered to do anything for us anymore? Sometimes I really wished tt u wld read all these by chance and give me all the answers I am looking for.. You were the one who said tt u wld treasure the annual anniversaries and I just cant believe tt u asked me if we were still celebrating?! I hate to say this, but I thought I heard a sense of relief when you asked me tt, hoping tt I would say "yes" let's just not meet and celebrate.. Maybe to u, all this is nothing? I've always been the joke? Or is it that I'm just not worth you of all the efforts... ...

Is this it?

2010-08-15T02:34:00.002+10:00

Once again, i return to this place. damn sucks everytime i'm here it's to blog about unhappy stuff. when can the happy stuff start to fill this place? you were sick today and i went down to your place, cooked for you but ended up quarrelling.. during the quarrel smses, you asked me why wouldnt i be like the other girls, more gentle and good tempered? when you tell me such things, i just feel so broken do you know? i feel that you are starting to dislike me for being me. after so long, you still want me to be LIKE OTHER GIRLS.. sighs i've never felt so sucky before in this relationship. so sick of it. even the previous quarrels are nothing compared to this.. i cant be other girls because i am me. if you really want a gf who is gentle, kind, slim and whatever then go find them. i am not the one for you. i cant be that and i cant imagine me being that. my heart is hurting but no one knows..

Forgotten

2010-07-31T02:24:00.002+10:00

It's times like this where i feel forgotten, forgotten in your world. Saw you online @ FB but didnt initiate chat. Thinking that you are online, i purposely signed into MSN thinking that you would come up and chat, but still, it's that silence. Been busy the whole day and back late, but no sms. Thinking that you MIGHT drop me an sms/call and ask where am i, but.. Is this the space you are looking for? If so make it clear to me. Well, what can i say? this kind of silence will only leave us further apart but if that's what you want, i will quietly walk away, slowly but surely. I am tired of this relationship already. Very very tired and i dont think i am suitable for u..

Brokenness

2010-07-29T19:40:00.002+10:00

I really don't understand how can someone make me happy memories and at the same time make me feel so broken? Asking you gf to leave u alone?? I really think that I am very silly crying and feeling very sad knowning well that in your eyes, you simply don't give a damn.. Was I really wrong to have given ourselves a second chance? If I hadn't, maybe I would be spared from all this heart broken ness. Today I've seen how hardhearted you can be towards me.. Maybe it was me who took the wrong step in the beginning but don't u have a role to play in all these? Sometimes I wished I could be brave enough to just walk away from all these but deep inside I knew I couldn't just walk away ignoring how I feel in my heart. All the cover-ups, all the stupid SMS and phone calls?! I called you because I felt lonely.. My phone dint even ring at all the whole day. Like I was forgotten.. Do you ever had such a feeling? Guess you would never be able to feel how I am feeling now just like how you will never understand me no matter how much I wished you would and make concessions for me. Am I just like any other of your exs, due to be on your expired list? :~(

2010-07-29T02:29:00.002+10:00

What's the point of staying together if you're nt happy in it? The unhappy memories supercede the happy ones? Or maybe we have given up on giving ourselves or creating happy memories for us.. We are just too cowardly, afraid of being the one to say that we want quits. I'm tired.. Tired of you, of myself. Think I've hated myself more than ever since I got into this relationship. Many regretful things too.. Things I wished I hadn't done, things that I've said that hurt u and of course things that u say that will break my heart over and over again. Maybe this time round we will have the break for good.. How I wished I could fill all these spaces on my blog with unforgettable memories or happy memories that we hold on to, but instead this has become a channel for me to express my unhappiness towards you and how much I wished at times we understood each other more, times where we show our love for each other.. But I'm uncertAin that such a time would ever come.. For now, I just wished that I was alone, maybe I just wasn't ready..

2 things that the LORD showed me during the Holidays

2010-06-21T01:03:00.002+10:00

In the month of June, GOD made use of the holidays and showed me 2 things.

1. He put in the place where i am now to teach me some lessons he wants me to learn. ( Overcoming discouragement)

During one of the service, Pastor talked about overcoming discouragement, i dont know why but the message is still stuck in my head till now. Pastor spoke about why izit that we feel discouraged at times and how should we overcome it. At the beginning of the year, i felt really discouraged with what i was doing, the low pay, low returns, long hours etc. but after listening to that particular sermon, i felt that the Holy Spirit was telling me why was i placed in teaching. God definitely had a lesson for me. Pastor also spoke that even if we are discouraged by the current situation we are facing in the job now and changed another job, we would face the same situation too because that is what God wanted me to learn in the first place, just that i hadnt learnt it and changed the environment. So even if i had changed the environment, GOd would still want me to learn the same old lesson. For now, i will work obediently and listen to God's prompting in directing my career's path. :)

2. Consider the greatness and goodness of God

In Service ytd, Pastor shared a very powerful sermon that i felt that GOD was warning me about the things that i am doing. We should not take God's grace for granted. How many times have i sinned and went before GOd asking him for his forgiveness? Things i knew was wrong but yet i chose to do it. One thing that stood out for me in the sermon was the spirit of inferiority. Guess i never felt contented with what i had, wishing i had more, a richer bf? a higher paying job? a slimmer body? i dont know the list just goes on.. but aft listening to the sermon, *shouts out loud* I get the picture LORD. thank God for Pastor who shared the word.

During the holidays, it had been mad shopping and a mini retreat at Bintan, though i felt that physically i didnt get much rest but spiritually, GOD spoke to me thru the sermons this two aspects of my life which are very impt to me. It's now time to get ready for the next half of the year. Behold my friend. :)))

Wedding Ring

2010-06-07T00:02:00.001+10:00

This is damn chio. Really want it to be my wedding ring. woohoo. Shall find out the name of the gem in the center. :))

Bizarre Dream..

2010-06-03T13:21:00.002+10:00

Read this from my friend's FB post. -Letting go doesn't mean you've given up, but rather accepting some things that cannot be. - Annonymous

Bizarre dream last night left me lingering for more.. hmmm Now David Tao's 爱很简单is playing in my head. COz last night u sang it to me.. :(( 爱真的有那么简单吗？

我们的约定

2010-05-22T17:25:00.002+10:00

一个简单的约定，至今还深刻地落印在我的脑海里... 记得那一次我俩在等巴士，你对我说，如果我们俩在四十岁时还没找到自己的另一半，我们就当对方终老的那一方...你还记得吗？一个幼稚的想法，我竟然会记得如此久，但不知你是否已经把它忘了？这时的我真的很想让时光倒流... ... 那几十个“如果当初”... ... 如果当初我们在一起... ... 如果当初我没有... ...人生里到底能让我有几个"如果当初"呢?

Shucks

2010-05-21T01:52:00.002+10:00

Thought I had gotten over you.. But things aren't so simple.. I can't get u out of my head!!! Whatever happened 4years back I thought I had forgotten about it.. BUT all these are all my一厢情愿 you aren't even aware of it!! Hw dumb can I get arrgh.. Wake up your idea la pss

爱的告白还是爱的告别呢？

2010-05-19T02:23:00.002+10:00

我怎么能如此下贱呢？电话的另一端的你正和我聊天，但我心里想的却是另一个人... 或许我不是一个专一的人.. 不管是爱情还是事业都是如此.. 不知什么时候开始对你有感觉，心里都会不由得想着你.. ，对你来说我们只是普通朋友，但我知道如果能重来一次，结局肯定会是不同的.. 我应该放手一搏吗？但我又担心自己只是一时冲动.. 明知你不能给我的，但却死心眼要胡思乱想。我该怎么办呢？我和他五年来的感情也只不过如此？因为我们都试过了，但感情终究淡了，可能谈不上进入令一段感情，但或许我应该回味一下一个人的生活.. 现在的我只能不停的胡思乱想，等待着你拒绝我吗？

New beginning

2010-05-07T01:37:00.002+10:00

I didn't expect to abandon my blog for so damn long and finally I'm blogging frm my iPhone!! I guess it's only times like this I rmb that I still have this channel to vent my frustration.. It's been almost five years already but sometimes I still feel damn sucks. If you can't carry outbwhat you've told me then y did u even say it in the first place?? Is it just to make me feel happy for that one second? Coz at the end of the day, with one " I forget" or " I already fall asleep" as your excuse and u expect me to forgive u? Y do u want me to make me feel that u really cared bt after a while throw me down frm heaven again? To I this may be a small issue bt it has been repeating itself and I am damn sick of it.. Can't u grow up? And y can't I be just more Xiao sa and just forget this whole thing? What is exactly holding me back? Sigh.. Maybe I have been watchig too much " bai quan nv wang" and start to live in fantasy again but today's matter is like dejavu.. It has happened so often. Am I really just your weekend partner??

没有在一起的第十二天

2009-10-25T04:10:00.002+11:00

今天, 我们一起参加了礼拜。虽然我们不应该见面的，但在不属于“情侣”身份的我们一起参加了礼拜，意义上好像和以往不同。在你的眼里，我看到了你对我们这段爱情的渴望。在我上巴士之前，因为你站在马路上很危险，我主动拉了你的手腕。没想到你却牵了我的手... ... 也只有在那时候，我真正感觉到我们的这段感情对你来说是如此的重要。虽然我也很怀念有你在我身边的日子，但我必须在这段日子中离开，让我真正确认这份感情对我来说到底是什么。我心里到底想要什么。看着身边的好朋友和老公闹翻了，还搞到要离婚，我想想清楚，你是否就是我要定终身的那个人。虽然现在说起来还是有点儿早，但毕竟我们在一起也四年多了，我们真的该想一想在未来的日子该怎么办... ... 我还有多两个半星期的时间想清楚... ...愿我能得到一个双赢的答案。

加油！

没有在一起的第八天

2009-10-20T01:29:00.002+11:00

Today, i went shopping at JB. I guess for me, exercising and shopping makes everything feel much better. Dint really spend much only gt 2 pairs of earrings, hair conditioner and treated my feet to french pedi.. Though a part of me wanted him to drop me an sms or even a call, another part of me just wanted to enjoy all the quietness my phone is giving me. See, told you i'm so indecisive towards these. arrgh bt anyhow, since this is the break i suggested, it should be a break and not to have any contacts or whatsoever. Let me slowly find out and discover my hearts' desire.. Sat- GU JUN PYO's coming to town! woohoo~

没有在一起的第七天

2009-10-19T03:27:00.002+11:00

这几天，虽然没有以往的那些电话和简讯，但星期六在礼拜后，我心里好像是有了一个决定。虽然如此，今天，我的心里的感受又好像不同了... ... 感觉上，我好像是不想失去这个朋友，而不是这个情人。虽然恋爱的感觉淡了，但友情的感觉却加深了。我不想放手是因为我真的还爱你吗？还是因为我不敢去面对一个人的日子？庆幸的是，我还有三个多星期的时间，好好的想清楚我心里到底要的是什么，我不想再有那种“不想有人烦”的感觉。我想找回当初选择在一起的感觉... ...

你说可能吗？

没有在一起的第五天

2009-10-17T03:33:00.003+11:00

今天，我和他碰面了。虽然只不过是短短的五分钟，但一切的感觉好像不如以前了。再也没有期待，再也没有那种“恨不得赶快见到对方”的感觉了。感觉上好像是两个朋友碰个面罢了。临走前，我主动给了他一个拥抱，但抱在怀里的感觉也不如从前了。少了那种“不想放手”的感觉，多了“朋友”的feel。哎！我也该是时候醒醒了。我和晶晶谈了很久，她告诉我其实他为人不错，只不过是我一时鬼遮眼，头脑想歪了，她也觉得我们在一起是会很幸福的... ...

为什么自身在幸福中的我不能感受到幸福呢？是不是像他所说的，我对他人的期望太高了呢？脑子和心里想的都是一些不实际的东西？我也希望能赶快从恶梦中醒来，发现自己是幸福的。但愿我也能珍惜一切、一切的幸福。

今天的你，幸福吗？

没有在一起的第三天

2009-10-15T00:25:00.002+11:00

我心里想要什么，我自己也不清楚... ... 我想要的真的是这样吗？那时候做的决定，现在回想起来好像没多大意义。我应该给我们最后的一个机会吗？

没有一起的第二天

2009-10-14T01:20:00.002+11:00

友情和爱情之间一定要我选择吗？

没有在一起的第一天

2009-10-13T00:56:00.002+11:00

昨天晚上，我做了一个决定。这个决定是对是错，到现在我还分不清楚。今天是第一天，或许我
还没有任何很深刻的想法，但是女人都是犯贱的，拥有的却不懂得珍惜，一旦失去了，心里又好像放不下似的。也因为这样，我给他发了两三个简讯、通了一通电话。但是在通了电话后，心里更加难受。没有发简讯、通话的日子虽只有仅一天，但却令我有点儿坐立不安。但是，通了电话后，听到另一方传来的声音，心里并没有好受一点。他说：“我还是会关心你的”我反问：“你没有发简讯没有打电话给我，怎么关心我？？”他：“当你打给我的时候，我就会关心你呀...这一切不是你要的吗？这一段冷静期不是你提出的吗？”确实如此，但是我心里并不清楚我想要的是什么... 或许现在的我正在等待着另一个能给我关怀、温暖的人吧... 我也想学着放手... ...

At the crossroads

2009-10-08T12:47:00.002+11:00

Work

Wow.. it's mean a damn long period of time since i last blogged. Guess i've been too lazy and whatsnot to even start blogging.. we've got facebook wah..heh but anyways.. i'm doing good in what i'm doing except! that today a girl came up and asked me how to do a p5maths question and i did it wrongly! kns until her friend had to come up to me and tell me that what i did was wrong.. :( haha so the moral of the story is: teach chinese :) waha so paisey felt like digging a hole and burying myself inside.

Love

L-O-V-E this 4 letter word is so simple yet so complicated at the same time. I am having the feeling of being at the crossroads.. the choice is to be or not to be. i do not know and i am afraid to choose. I have been having these thoughts for more than a month already. Ever since i finished watching the BBF, i started having wild thoughts. It's every girl's dream to be with a $_$ guy but even if the guy isnt $_$ at least he should be manly or with a strong personality or something? sighs i dont know la. but the Gu Jun Pyo lovestruck thingy seems to have died down but the rollercoaster in my heart hasnt stop! arrgh i do not know what to do now man. sucks.. arrgh i want to tell someone abt hw i feel bt i dont know hw and where to start. one of my colleagues know hw i'm feeling coz she had the same experience before bt still the reason to separate was not the same. I am shocked at the rate of how i have become so materialistic in such a short period of time.. I think i need some time to cool down and think through things.. i dont want to make any decisions now because i am afraid that if i do, i will regret later on.. it is easy to say it but to bring it all back again, it will definitely take a lot more effort. till then even if i do put in that much effort, i dont think things will be the same anymore..

Friends

One happy thing that happened this week----> I found a part of my primary school friends using Facebook!!! Wow friends that i have lost touch with ever since i graduated from school. I am certainly amazed by technology.. heh Maybe i should organise a gathering for all soon. Bt it seems like they are all overseas studying! hmm we'll see how it goes~

Durian puff baking

2009-06-21T01:40:00.011+10:00

Thought i would be busy baking this whole holis bt end up baking once only.. heh bt better than nothing hor.. waha whole holiday nua until put on weight.. omg cant imagine man.. bt now let me present to you the best pastry in the world.. Jing suggested selling them.. heh actually i dont mind :P waha we'll see..

LIU LIAN PUFF.. haha it's the nicest slurrrp :P

Fresh durians

Mixture
Durian peeler licking his gloved fingers.. haha :X

Freshly baked out from the oven
Spoonsful of durian!

Ultimate durian puff. If i sell one of these for 60cents would you buy? haha
Baker and Peeler of the day.

P.S ignore the double chin please. heh

So tired today.. so fast the one month holiday is over.. cant imagine. in a blink of eye i cant nua anymore.. heh need to use the last week to energise myself and charge my battery for the next half of the year.. Hopefully i will get more chances to bake and organise gatherings for my friends.. heh nx outing.. Aloy's bday? haha we'll see hw.. till then.. BYe ByE

* can you smell my puffs from your desk? haha ;)

JB shopping madness

2009-06-04T01:21:00.004+10:00

Sour Plum and Soda

Pretty Toes@RM45

Me and CLY

Went down to JB this time round again with my colleagues.. Met at 10m and shopped all the way till 9pm.. waha cant stop.. bt i had a lot of fun, frm cheap pedi to cheap food.. everything is sooo half-ed priced la.. waha i could get so much more stuff than when i'm in Sing.. bt i think it's understandable.. the SOL here is higher and of course with that everything goes up.. heh so once in a while go over can siao siao.. heh i bought plenty of stuff today. one pair of shoes, two tops, one pants, one whole big bag of titbits and whatsnot.. heh total damage done: RM300. omg shant convert that to sing dollar.. $_$

heh bt i'm gg in again tmr.. wah call me crazy if you must.. lol bt i'm gonna trade in my phone there and buy a JB phone.. -_- waha.. shall update all my stash when i get my phone to join the team tmr.. waha cant wait and i cant seem to hide my excitement.. lol :P

~Happy Holidays everyone~

Candy Swirl Cheesecake

2009-05-27T00:50:00.002+10:00

Finally after my exams, i had some time to do a bit of baking in the midst of all the busyness.. hehe.. my second attempt at baking cheesecake following the recieps from the hershey's choc.. Brought some to let my colleagues try and they commented that this batch of cakes taste better than the previous ones.. heh notice the redness colour in the cake? my sis ask if its strawberry la.. waha bt actually it's mint.. i just love mint until one of my colleagues commented that i want all of them to like mint too coz the other time the cheesecake i backed was also mint-flavoured.. waha i've just sourched out for more stuff that are baking-friendly to me.. heh June holis coming up so i will have more time to do baking and hopefully God will bless me with more $$ to sponser me for my baking ingredients.. heh

btw, Phoon Huat@jurong has officially closed down. so sad i went there the other day hoping to get the cream cheese there bt what i saw were just metal racks.. so in the end had to go all the way to holland's red man and that shop is like super out of the way..

Just to update, i'm gonna try Shepherd's pie, apple crumble,durian cake for the holis! waha

watch out for this space.. :D

Kate Spade

2009-05-18T02:38:00.002+10:00

Arriving in 5 days time. :D

可不可以爱我

2009-04-30T11:27:00.002+10:00

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定
努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军
为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你
你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我快乐还是寂寞
为什麽如此的美丽深刻的烙在心里
最温柔的酷刑每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛怎麽都是你你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我快乐还是寂寞
想念燃烧个不停我快置身灰烬
你是我的呼吸
你可不可以爱我可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我可不可以看我
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我
能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞...

This song will be repeating itself on my laptop for one whole day.. The lyrics of the song are so apt of how i am feeling now.. sighs

New Pricing

2009-04-17T22:57:00.002+10:00

In View of the hike in the pricing of the choco, CFrental has decided to increase the pricing of the choco as stated above. W.E.F 19th April 2009

Kate Spade Bag..

2009-04-05T14:48:00.000+10:00

Working hard for you. $350 more to go.. Arrgh Sponsership anyone? or any good Sprees to intro? heh

Vietnam in June :)

2009-04-03T01:19:00.003+11:00

New look for a start.. waha this is a super expired pic when i just rebonded my hair.. haha looks quite nice right.. but now? sighs haha

Yeah!! booked for the vietnam trip from 13th-16th June.. cant wait for it to come true mans... waha but for now needa work hard! jia you everyone.. :D

Choco-Mint Cheesecake & Rainbow

2009-02-27T00:57:00.008+11:00

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Choco-Mint Cheesecake..

I know it doesnt look minty at all but it really does taste minty.. i didnt have a chance to take the inside of the cake coz all of us were too busy gobbling down the cake.. Not too bad for a first timer.. waha so i shall proceed and try other kinds of cake.. :o) but now i have to get another bowl for my mixer coz i think i left it too near the flame the other time and the sides a bit melted and now it cant turn on it's own le.. :( so sad

We spotted a rainbow ytd@ Westmall and when i thought i was the only one who had whipped out my hp to capture it, i was so wrong..
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There were a whole load of other ppl. I didnt manage to capture them all but at least 10 of them.. haha many of them stopped their footsteps and whipped out their camera phones, snapping the fotos away. Imagine the power of technology.. heh in the past we could only admire it and say bye bye, now we have it in our phones.. haha

Before we said goodbye.. :*

Biting on Happiness

Stay Happy everyone! :)

One of the joys in teaching..

2009-02-19T00:04:00.004+11:00

Handmade Vday card from one of my p2 boys.. so sweeeeet waha

Finally i ate the almightly big choco.. waha gonna expire soon in march man

Look at how humongous the choco look beside the ring.. heb so heaty but nice.. waha

枫

2009-02-16T01:03:00.002+11:00

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我

I was listening to Jay's song and this sentence came out strongly to me.. sighs..

14-02-2009

2009-02-16T00:37:00.003+11:00

Dinner @ Asian Kitchen.. soso only the portions shrank even though the prices of the food are still the same.. tsk tsk

Me and my spongebob balloon

Vday presents. So secondary school like.. tsk tsk somebody hor -_-''

My vday ended with me crying myself to sleep. Well it hadnt been a fantastic vday celebration for me. :( Was doing my LP and studying almost the whole day but at least i got myself a handphone pouch for my new hp- samsung i780. Old model and the camera really sucks like put put.. tsk tsk seriously.. but so far alright. still getting used to it.. the fotos above are taken using the phone and obviously the outcome of it is so CMI. waha.

Been rather busy with work and study but i am enjoying the busyness. Surprisingly.. Able to taste studying and working life at the same time.. heh but maybe this is the tip of the iceberg only so didnt feel anything waha.. but everything is in GOD's hands.. Hope everyone else had a great Feb 14th.

Till the next entry,

TAke care.

P.S I am gg to try making Mint cheesecake. slurrp cant wait waha :X

JR's 23rd and WP's 22nd

2009-01-18T02:28:00.009+11:00

Celebrating JR's 23rd @ Central's Manhattan.. evofuzzies ( how about this new name? since we have new members already) waha :)

The birthday girl with her 23 mini donuts.. First in the group to turn 23! tsk tsk old already ar..

Giving whitney wong her deserved birthday surprise!
P.S see u look so slim in the foto.. i think jr edited it la.. lol

Her super cutesy birthday muffins..

2 birthday girls :)

BOO! fooling arnd with a blue tongue aft eating the cookie monster cake.. i think too much colouring lol *_*

Me and Mr Tan.. happily ever after :)

Tan, Ching, Ng what's with the seriousness? Chill man :)

Final pic before heading home.. had a great time chilling out and eating with u guys.. shall we arrange for another meeting soon? think some rich kid got back from korea already right??
*hint hint* waha

BURRp.. my eyes are popping out from typing 2 entries at one go! tsk tsk.. o_O heh but i guess with sim starting classes next week, i will have lesser time to blog and stuff but i promise i will still do as and when the mood comes to me alright.. haha await me and beloved readers :)

Till the next entry, take care and God bless :*

Expired: Pot luck party on 010109 :D

2009-01-18T02:10:00.011+11:00

And so, i decided to have this impromptu potluck session with my loooooooong loooooooong time no meet up friends.. hehe
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" Huat Ah" salad arranged by hatty Jing :)

Mini Choco Fountain with all the other sinful stuff to go along with.. BURRP :X

Monopoly time! waha this childhood game was quite boring in the past but i guess it has found another new meaning now when we are older.. lol the rest scheming to win my money. why??? check out the rest of the pic.. hehe * evil laugh*

this is how the game went.. check out all the money and property ERA QUEEN PEH had at the left hand corner over there. seriously i dominated the whole game.. hui was first to be bankrupt and ah loy trying to survive.. lol

not forgetting, striking a WINNING pose.. *shy*

me and my darling..
P.S pls forgive me and my super uper nua tasmasnia pj ok.. i promise not to wear it to take fotos next time.. lol

We girls :D minus shumin aka ah piu :(

Note the san pat santa hairclip. only who could have bought it? who else but bitchy tan! SNORESSSSSSSSSSS

We shall do it again! :)

Thanks peeps for coming by.. i know my place aint that accessible but still i hope u guys really had an enjoyable time playing and eating till we were almost bursting.. waha cant wait for the next time we have this again! Bring ya partners along the next time! ;)

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2008-12-17T02:17:00.003+11:00

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Back! Updating Genting trip 12th-14th Dec'08

2008-12-16T01:43:00.018+11:00

Let the fotos do the talking.. :)

My darling..

Before bedtime *_*

Introducing................... " the packer " just cant stop packing. tsk tsk

Pretty me in pyjamas lol

Inside the lao pok car.. darling's favourite and safest ride..

Faking a smile before the "swing of his life" heh :P

Energise ourselves with energizer! lol

Photo taking with the prize i never won :(

Getting ourselves inked waha

Been there, done that.

And of course, the Queen of the gamblers :D

Striking a pose with his big win

Good food over there *points* so delicious until i didnt had time to take pictures of the food.. cheap and good slurrp :X

Group pic.

Biggest donut in the world. Dunkin donuts :)
Lunch at Marry Brown so-so only.. i expected better food.. heh

Genting trip this time round wasnt too bad. i enjoyed myself, the company, the food, the place.. heh except for that small hiccup at the check-in counter, everything else was perfect. heh Hope everyone enjoyed themselves as much as i did :)

Thank God too for the safe trip and good weather too :)

Thank you evofussssss for the lovely presents

2008-11-25T15:12:00.006+11:00

P.S take note of the following photos. they are taken by the same camera.. waha i think my camera has got a split personality sometimes can take very sharp fotos but sometimes the fotos are like kns.. tsk tsk but anyway some nicey fotos to share.. heh

My very first branded good.. waha coach wristlet.. actually i had intended to get one already so this present is like just in time.. *shy*

Body mist and lotion from Victoria secrets..

Cool stuff ms black bought from disneyland. Drinks that change colour. Imagine blue-coloured hot chocolate.. slurrrp

Group pic for the day, outside the apple strudel shop. heh shaky hands auntie..

Finally, exams are over!!!!!!!!!!! shopping time :)

It's always nice to have friends coming back from overseas, coz then we will have a the lovely presents.. waha it's my turn soon, taiwan trip next week..
P.s. caleb u can look forward to your wooden clogs KEYCHAIN!!!!!!!!!!! waha.

Till then, take care peeps! :)

Choco cake baking

2008-11-05T13:35:00.010+11:00

I baked a choco cake a few days back using a recipe i saw on the newspaper and it turned out SLURRPing good.. haha very heaty though.. wanted to share my love with some of my friends but they didnt had time to come pick up the cakes.. sniff sniff* but nvm la i shall be doing more baking now since i have more time on my hands.. heh

1. Melt the dark choco bar with butter over a water bath.

2. Add in all the other ingredients and bake it in the oven that evofus gave to me for 35 mins. The egg whites in the cake made me had muscle ache man.. i had to beat the egg whites till it formed a peak.. and it's a challenge haha :X

3. Due to the size of the baking tray, my choco cake was mistaken for choco brownies.. muha :X but maybe it's the way i had cut it.. but still, it's delicious.. slurrrrpppppp

4. All ready to be eaten.. heh :P

Afterwards, it was muffin baking time.. this one i bought the premixed packet branded betty crocker, i didnt dare to try eating it but caleb said it didnt taste that good.. wells, nvm i shall find my own secret recipe.. muha

REady!

22nd birthday celebration @ Crystal Jade Xiaolongbao outlet

My birthday cupCAke.. heh not bad la :)

End of the day.. a quiet 22nd birthday

Shall update soon again.. byeee.. maybe i will try making crepes next week.. heh till then, take care and GOD bless :*

Entrusting everything into God's hands..

2008-09-23T02:05:00.003+10:00

Friends out there, pls pray for my dear friend caleb and his brother aaron. They will be undergoing surgery on the 29th Sept 2008 for a kidney transplant. Please pray for God's hands to be upon the both of them and for the surgeons as well and that they will have a smooth operation. Also, that Caleb will have a speedy recovery aft the op and aaron's body will not reject the kidney. It's only at times like this that i realise how fragile life is. And indeed it's very sad case for me coz it's only through such events that i learn how to treasure the ppl arnd me even more.. But anyhow, guys pls keep them in your prayers oki.. That's what they need most now. Cant do anything much now but to entrust everything into God's hands, and trust in GOD, that everything will be turn out fine..

haha D.I.Y collage using some zbambalang program that i downloaded.. heh just click and click all the photos will be arranged liao.. lol :)

On a happier note, i am happy for u Jasmine. really :D i hope this will be the guy that will bring you happiness for the rest of your life :) Stay happy oki.. and you know when you are feeling sad, you can always count on us to cheer you up.. yo *_*

loves.

2008-09-21T01:36:00.000+10:00

i love you. muack :*

140908 Happy 3rd yr Anniversary!

2008-09-15T00:44:00.008+10:00

14th of September is our official 3years !! haha so we had our mini celebration today.. BUrrp.. i'm still feeling very full from the sushi session just now.. It was very fun, hanging out with my darling and doing something together.. it's been a looooooooooooooonng looooooooooooong time since we could hang out together or even do something together, so i really really treasured the time.. alright enough of talk, pictures time! haha ingredients u need for sushi making.. we didnt prepare enough seaweed or coz i bought the smaller packet then ended up we had too much rice and ingredients left over.. muha but nvm we can just eat the ingredients like that also.. SlurrP :P

Photo shot before the disaster later.. muha just look at the quality of the pictures produced by my high crass casio camera.. i think it's time to change a camera man.. seriously all the pictures are blurred coz they are taken without flash! but when i check them on the camera screen, they look fine to me. i wonder why. TAY! will yours be like that also?? tsk tsk
Looking all pro, pressing on the bamboo roll but check out what is gg to happen next..

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TADAH!!!!!! haha the seaweed that i bought isnt long enough to make the sushi that way AND ! i told chen han tian already but he never listen to me la.. see! we were laughing like siao when we saw what happened to the sushi and of course for the rest of the sushi, we didnt take any pictures of them partyly coz our hands were very dirty already and also coz they didnt look delicious enough to be taken pictures of.. muha

Greedy me eating the ingredients before they were wrapped up in the rice and seaweed. slurrp :X
Final Picture of us for the day.. it was a long day for the both of us, but we enjoyed ourselves very very much. Thank you sweetheart for making this day such a wonderful one.. HOpe i dont need to wait one more yr for this very day to come so that we can enjoy ourselves also okie.. :X Things hadnt been easy for us and i know that you are trying hard to cope as well, i promise you that i will be sensible towards everything and support everything that you do. Glad that the both of us had a great time today.. muack :*

Happy 3rd yr anniversary, sweetheart. :*

Just a mini update, i've enrolled myself in unisim's degree course on translation and interpretation.. heh didnt forsee myself taking up such a degree. 2 yrs back when i was in sim, i couldnt wait to get out of it to get into nie and now the ironic thing is, i am back. haha wells, i also had this perception that unisim cannot be compared to ntu, nus or even smu coz it's campus dont look and feel like a uni campus at all.. but wells, what to do, i have to study real hard the coming yr! btw my course is gg to be a part time course so i have to work and study at the same time. sighs hope things for us will turn out fine..

Message for Wong Wan Pig!

2008-09-14T01:14:00.004+10:00

Wan ping! this is the guess bag that i want!! haha it's blue leh but if there is like purplish coloured ones of the same design then u help me get okie.. heh it's retailing @ $219.90 in Sing so if it's any cheaper in the states help me get alright! thanks ;)

P.S i will get u some skin whitening products when you are back in Sing.. lol thanks whitney

P.P.S ignore my double chin please.

Saturday.

2008-08-24T02:56:00.005+10:00

Found this random foto in my folder. Thought i will post it up to cheer myself up a little.. heh

My Fave hangout place. Bought a pair of shoes to reward myself.. heez

We had this for dinner.. opp Central Mall.. the pork ribs are cooked till just nice and tender but i feel that the soup is so so only, but still i had ahem* 3 bowls.. heh

Caught this on camera when i was on my way back home.. this 2 snails ar.. tsk tsk cannot control ar.. no wonder my house here got damn lot of snails la.. somemore in the middle of the wall la.. :X

Nightz.

Patience, i need.

2008-08-21T19:36:00.002+10:00

Teacher: 这是什么字？
( Flashed word: " 体操"）

He: "做体操"

Teacher: 这里有几个字？

He: *scratching his head* 四个。

Teacher: " 哪里有四个？？？？？？”

OMG. God please bless me with patience. I really feel like strangling the boy :X He could even explain to me how come there was 4 words! I thought it was the ghost month that's why but the other students proved me wrong. :( Maybe i should print out his photo and put onto my dart board and throw darts at it! :( I've tried. Everything sigh..

Expired entries

2008-08-18T00:49:00.009+10:00

Baking!.. atlast.. haha aft such a long break, managed to do some baking with Jing.. we made Jelly hearts, triple layer cake.. it was very funny... the whole process. though the cake didnt look as nice as we had expected, but the taste was alright..
The cheese cake layer hadnt really hardened then we poured in the jelly layer le.. as a result some of the cheese cake layer floated up la.. haha in the end it was like *W#$&)&#^$(&#^$ haha coz i accidentally poked the aluminium foil into the whole cake.. it was like omg..i dont even want to take a picture of it.. but like what jing said, practice makes perfect! haha! tiramisu next! :)
130808- ALoy's 24th bday
Mini celebration @ sunset way.. and his 24th bday parcel.. which consists of

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One Handmade photo frame by mE! :D

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One PY foto of me and other titbits heh :)

I'm glad you enjoyed the mini celebration we had! muack :*

Had a couple of stuff to update but just tooooooo busy to do so.. hmm but whatever it is, i'm doing a bit now.. heh

080808 was my mum's bday.. managed to get aloy to meet my parents for the first time.. heh was not as bad as i expected it to be.. couldnt find the nicey foto that we took.. will upload it when i find it oki.. heh

Let me think of what else to update oki.. but for now that's all!

Cheerios

P1s

2008-08-03T02:46:00.004+10:00

Those that were not dressed in the traditional costumes..

Racial Harmony Day 2008

This has been a very tired week for me.. i'm just looking forward to the batam trip where i can relax and just enjoy man..

2008-07-26T01:03:00.002+10:00

Been rather busy every since i started work.. lesson planning, prepare materials for students.. though my students are not considered a lot, they are a handful man so much so that 90% of the time i am scolding them.. tsk tsk i know i should control my temper but sometimes i just feel like @#&$^#(&^$#(&$ them haha.. shall post their cute pics up when i get them :X
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Painted this last week for my darling on his study room's wall.. well it was really tiring but i had fun.. heh we re painted the whole room and then i added this rainbow on the wall.. first time in my life i was allowed to paint what i wanted on the wall man! lol but it isnt my house.. anyways we were clearing things over at his place and *ahem saw many things from the past.. pictures even .. well but i'm glad we had a good laugh too.. heh so chen han tian have u found out what 's the meaning of " every cloud has a silver lining" ? tsk tsk heh hope u really like this drawing i painted on the wall.. maybe we can change one when you're sick of it.. heh ;).
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Met up with one person that i never thought i would again.. my primary school best friend! haha.. i think it's really God's will man.. Guess how long we didnt meet before that day? 10 years! for 10 years we werent in contact at all.. and it was that email sent to my ancient email add no_junks that i opened it and found out that my bestest primary school friend wanted to meet up with me be4 she flew back to aust for studies.. omg that meeting was really amazing man.. it's like aft not meeting someone for sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
damn long finally! haha we had a great time catching up with one another.. and she's gonna be a doctor! waha so damn cool i can take free flu med next time that is if she becomes a GP.. heh she's gg back already this fri but maybe i can fly to aust next yr to visit! haha :D

Backstabbed.

2008-07-06T02:23:00.003+10:00

I've never expected it to happen. I simply spoke from the point of view as a Beginning teacher and i was badmouthed in front of the principal.. like seriously what the heck. :X I began to question God why did he even put me into where i am? Why do i have to undertake so much shit? Then i think back.. my EM3 boys need me. My P1 kids love me and my P3 kids listen to me even though most of the time they dont know what i'm talking about.. i really pity these kids sometimes. Times when they dont drive me crazy.. lol

I have to admit that for the whole of last week, i hadnt been spending time with God, talking to him or even doing my QT and i just felt empty the whole time.. Most of my time were spent on gg to sch real early when i'm in the afternoon session and other stuff that crops up as and when.. but when i started to squeeze time out to do QT, surprisingly, i found the answers that i needed most..
Today's daily bread msg is " Finders Keepers" and i wanna share this online coz i really felt that God was listening to what i was complaining to him about and also he was with me all along. Whenever we find something good we will say Finders keepers! and it seems so good but when something bad comes along, do we still have the concept of Finders Keepers? I doubt many of us will even rmb this phrase.. " God places us in unique circumstances where our abilities matches the problem He wants to fix." How true it is! In Matt 25:35-40 Jesus said that what we do for those in need, we do for HIM.

GOSH! i just experience this. When i was doing my QT i dint quite understand the phrase but as i typed it, i finally got the whole idea! arrgh God placed me in where i am today to help those in Need! particularly the students who are weaker in the language. I have the ability to help them. So by helping them, i am actually helping God! Praise God. I thank God for helping me to see through the circumstances that even though nothing really bad took place but at least, my purpose in teaching has been affirmed once again and nothing else matters as much as what i can give to my students. For now, i just have to focus all my attention on teaching and inspiring my students. :D
ANNOUNCEMENT:
The rest of u backstabbers out there, u can stab as much as u like coz i'm not gonna care! i'm not gonna care if u suck up to the P or what coz i've got Jesus brand armour! nehy nehy poo poo!!!!!!!!!!

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
Love ya~

P-plater

2008-06-27T02:13:00.002+10:00

FINALLY!!! aft 2 tries, i passed! haha so happy for myself :) at least i've achieved one of my new year's resolution.. haha PRAISE GOD. i thank all who prayed for my test and most importantly, i couldnt have done it if GOD hadnt given me the confidence. I remember Pastor Kwong Preaching that if we believe that GOD will bless us with what we want, it will be DONE for us. So we just simply had to keep the faith. I did. Thank you, Lord.Life has just started for me as a beginning teacher, i went to observe the various classes and the students and i must say i'm surprised by the way the P5 em3 students turn out to be.. They are really very willing to learn, especially one of the boys.. my heart really went out to him. Not that he had any disabilities, it's just that his ability to learn is slower, but the main point is that he is VERY WILLING TO LEARN. His attitude in class is much better than the rest of the students in the better classes. I'm determined to help him excel once i take charge. I need wisdom to teach the P3 eat potatoes kids.. gg to have a tough time.. all come from good family background, parents are all $$$$$$$$ and they just cant be bothered to learn.. that's the vast difference.. P1s i've yet to get to know them better coz i've nv taught p1s be4 but i'm ready to take up the challenge.. heh :) Now i see God's plan for me.. Not able to cross over may not be such a bad thing afterall.. I'm assigned to teach these P5 em3 students and i want to set a good example for them, to teach and to inspire them....

God, bless me with the wisdom and the patience :)

Tioman Island

2008-06-27T01:42:00.020+10:00

I had a short getaway to Tioman from the 20th-22nd of June just before school reopened and i dint really felt like coming back to sing.. heh life over at tioman is really relaxing for the peeps there and they didnt seem to have any trouble.. heh kampong style if you get what i mean.. yup i had my first try in snorkeling and i'm sure i drank like 2 litres of sea water or something before i could get the hang of it.. we just had to keep breathing through our mouth.. heh it was fun and of course something new to try out.. i took some fotos using the underwater cams but the fotos are not out yet.. when they are done shall upload them soon.. Till then, enjoy these fotos first :)

We left our footprints there :D

Beautiful view from the jetty ---> make this your wallpaper for your coms ;)

Da jeti

Super low tide in the morning

Ear candling

The route we had to take to walk back to where we stayed.. seriously :X

This is where we stayed..

Chalet-like exterior

Interior of the room.. a bit lock-kok.. and creeky.. got mosquitoes at night also.. but surprisingly the air con is quite cold.. lol

They had ramly's over there too!

Group pic :)

She is really happy DOWN THERE.. lol

Me and my best friend piu piu

The dinner that greeted us there.. taste like the food my maid cooks.. :X

Lunch aft snorkeling.. fried rice with drumstick

BBQ dinner on the last day.. rating of food over @ Tioman ---> 6/10

P.S Dont expect too much..

P.P.S I wanna go back there again.. :) miss

hard pressed for time :X

2008-06-18T03:25:00.002+10:00

school is starting soon in one week's time and i'm not prepared for it.. shucks i shouldnt have nua-ed my whole 2 weeks away la.. i didnt even think of preparing anything for my school stuff and now i only have like 2 more days before i leave for tioman on fri to prepare ALL My things.. oh man.. sometimes i just hate myself.. i've never been sooooooo last minute in my whole life.. maybe coz i'm gg through some kind of transition now, from study to work, that's why i fumbled a little.. i am looking forward to seeing my students though i've already heard terrible things about them, but how terrible can it get when God's on my side? hmm i really wonder.. haha now it's almost 2 already and here i am trying to act hardworking like planning briefly what i can do with the kids the coming week ahead... and i got a sin to confess man.. i booked my driving test on the 26th, which is a weekday, thursday in fact and at 245pm and i got circuit in the day 11am be4 the test and i doubt i can get urgent leave or whatever kind of leave so i'm gonna fake MC! *gasps* i've just started work and it isnt nice to keep applying for MC, it kind of affects my grading later on so what now.. arrgh GOD please help me.. :X I need a lot teaching and games incorporated in my teaching, hope whatever i've learnt in nie these 2 years can really help me through.. anyways i've decided to enrol for the advance dip course in nie but i'm still not sure about the timings and duration of the course.. but not too long i hope.. :X unisim is seriously not for me, all the things that i have to study it's like zzzzzzzzzzzz i cant take it man.. and $20k for me is like WAH!!!!!!!!! so i think for now the option opened for me is advance dip which i hope will aid in me crossing over.. yeap.

Recently i knew about a illness of a friend of mine ( caleb u know who, i shant mention names here ok ) not just any common flu or what but kidney failure. it is really very bad. i never knew that kidney failure is such a big deal, but after i knew about the effects of it i am seriously ashamed of myself. Kidney failure is not like how NKF protrayed it to be. somehow i feel that those artistes helping to raise funds for the kidney patients are a bit over exaggerating. in a sense that they dont have to make those weird faces to make it like real sad or what but i know it's damn sad. Maybe u hear from someone who knows of a kidney failure friend or something then that's the real thing :( I hate myself coz only bad things happen that i really understood how life should really be. On one side, someone is battling to stay alive, and on the other hand, i'm like so super sad of not being able to cross over, thinking of what colour i should highlight my hair to, quarrelling with aloysius.. etc it's only at times like this that i really understood what the important things are and what the bible said about "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal."- Matt 6:19, that indeed the word of God is sooooooo right. One day we will all die and if we have like 10000000000000 million dollars left in our bank, there is no way we can spend it also, but if we seek the treasure that God has in store for us in heaven, i'm sure it's better than anything we have tasted on earth. We should indeed learn to live life and let go of things that are of little significance to helping us attaining our final place in heaven.sigh life is so fragile, really.

We should live everyday like it's our last, shouldnt we?

$_$

2008-06-12T17:36:00.001+10:00

This you promise me :)

Thank you for being there when i needed support the most..

Hugs

i've lost it.. again

2008-06-08T01:45:00.002+10:00

I've lost my temper again today for no reason. And i'm terribly sorry about it. i hate to see the face of yours when u are so frustrating and have no way to calm me down or to console me and just keep saying 'woalao ey' it is very hurtful to my ears. today was supposed to me like a normal sat where we go catch a movie together or just hang out but it just had to turn ugly in the end.. :( alright, it was just me. i cant remember the last time i posted something sad about but i'm going to start in this post. shucks man :( for some of you may know, nie results are out and i DIDNT GET TO CROSS OVER. i think that was the saddest point in my life when i knew about it and i just cried in the middle of orchard road. i remember it clearly. in front of orchard swensens, beside paragon. there was where i stopped walking and tears started to flow out. i wanted a cross over from the beginning of my studies in nie 2 years back, and 2 years flew past just like that and the truth is out. i worked hard in nie, i gave my best, did all i could, but this just showed me something. they didnt want what i had. is that a good or a bad thing? i admit that at one point of time, i did blame God for not blessing me with a cross over, something that i've constantly prayed about for the past 2 years. Also for flunking my driving tests. Have i not been holy enough to read the word everyday? Is that why God didnt give me what i had asked for? I've reached the bottom of the pit already. I dont know what else to ask for now. something that i've asked and wished that would happen, both i was disappointed in. Today is also the first time after so long, that i hid in the toilet and cried. i really felt very weak. not knowing what can i expect anymore and what would happen when i start teaching. the time spent with him would obviously be lesser, especially when he starts school in Aug. not to mention now when i'm having my holis, he is working. i'm just praying hard that everything will go on smoothly. i know that it is mentioned in the bible that when God closes one door, he will open another window, so this got me thinking, if God hadnt wanted a cross over for me, no matter how much i cried or wished i had gotten one, i still wouldnt have gotten it. Now i've got 2 choices placed in front of me.
1. Sign up for part time unisim.
2. Finish my bond, get my 10k and start a business.
Both a paths waiting for me to walk and for now, i'm not so sure which one do i want or should i say God wants for me. If i were to sign up for unisim, time spent together would further be reduced, but i need to sacrifice some things for others. I'm not very sure if i can cope studying whilst working.
If i were to finish my bond and get my 10k, do i use the money for marriage or business?i really dont know what to do now. kind of feel that i am at the crossroads, not knowing where to go. should i just not think so much and go with the flow? But what's the flow? i dont know. feeling very frustrating and disappointed with myself right now, but i'm sure i will bounce back in a few days back. dont worry :)

Singapore Flyer

2008-05-28T00:23:00.010+10:00

i know there are a thousand one stuff that i've yet to update on my blog but i'm simply toooooooooo lazy to do so.. the harry's chill out session and also the class gathering @ marina square, as well as my situation in the school now.. all i know is that i'm doing all the SG. aka sai gang.. seriously.. arrgh but i sort of know i will have to do it already so.. yup.. anyways when school reopens, i will be offically teaching p1, p3 ( all foreigners, students that come from phillipines, germany and dont know where else), p5 em3 class.. the first thing when i knew about all these, i was like OMG.. how am i gg to handle but i'm sure all things will be fine( just a way to console myself) and of course i'm praying for a cross-over.. cross over not wanting to avoid all these coz i know it isnt possible but i want to do a degree.. seriously so guys pls keep me in your prayers :) cross-over.. cross-over.. cross-over.. cross-over..cross-over.. cross-over.. cross-over.. cross-over.. i muST!!!!!!

We had free tix to the singapore flyer!
Before gg to the flyer, we were walking arnd suntec and i think there was some kind of cosplay festival going on at level 1 of suntec and these few ppl that dressed up like that really caught my attention @_@
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kudos to ah pok's sis who got us free tix to sit on the singapore flyer :)

ah pok

cam- whoring on the flyer..

Almost reaching the top of the flyer

Up Up and Away!!

Final pic of the day..

it wasnt like really fantastic to sit on the flyer but there were quite a few activities that u could do the shopping area below the flyer.. heh the ride is about 20-30 mins but the important thing to note is to get into one capsule that doesnt have too many ppl in it if not there's no point gg up and paying so much.. seriously.. lucky for us, our capsule only had 3 couples ( including us) and a family of 3 the capsule was relatively quiet and had a romantic atmosphere.. heh nice :) but if i were to give it a rating, out of 10 i would only give 5 coz i think it's not very worth giving it a try unless u know, it's free.. lol

p.s ok fine, i'm cheapskate. whatever.

p.p.s i'm so excited about the msia trip on sat!!!

p.p.p.s tioman on the 20th Jun - 22th Jun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Fatty me

2008-04-20T01:49:00.006+10:00

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Revealing My Pretty new look :D muha you must have find me getting rounder each time u visit my blog coz i havent been exercising at all besides walking up and down the stairs in school and from my bus stop to my place.. *does that even be considered exercising?* i dont know :X and all the feasting every week with my relatives.. oh man.. btw my parents are outoftown.. lol both of them went to US for seminar and coz i dont have license i cant drive my mum's car parked downstairs :( gg to get it soon 14-05-2008 will be the day.. haha

As if last week's feasting wasnt enough.. my relatives celebrated my grandma's 84th bday today.. and here i am sitting in front of my laptop blogging away with my big stomach.. BURRP i only managed to get this two fotos coz the rest of the food is like shared de and i dont wanna be like snapping pictures of every dish.. looks stupid leh.. muha but i like this 2 dishes most.. muha LOBSTER AND CRAB.. i just have a soft spot for seafood man.. SLURRP check out the humongous lobster.. it's one person's share.. think it's baked or something but i requested to my uncle that i wanna cheese one NEXT TIME ROUND.. which is 2 months later..muha! lol and the fat claw of the crab.. so fleshy and fresh.. i cant describe it with words.. muha absolutely GOOD. sorry.. short of vocab :X jumbo is good..

Before dinner.. met with my ah prok to buy some stuff and shop arnd a little and i stumbled upon this fab shoe shop.. lol the shoes there are like WOO HOO!!!!! i felt like buying every single pair la.. i wanna be like the phillipines ex- president's wife who had like 100 pairs of shoes man.. like so nice la everyday can wear different pair of shoes to match your clothings.. muha gg back soon.. anyways the shop is located at wisma there.. called 'Schu'.. really like it very much and the prices of the shoes i find them reasonable.. maybe slightly more expensive then C&K la but i still find it affordable.. hehe i got this pair at $43.90.. if i had went with someone else and not ah prok i would have gotten 3 pairs or more la.. i really like the shoe and my topshop bag ah prok *hint hint* or the billabong de.. >_< muack

Take a breather

2008-04-15T23:45:00.027+10:00

i've finished all my observations for my practicum.. as if i'm like rushing train or something.. haha told my nie sup that i wanna cross over and i really hope that i do.. Keep me in your prayers okie :)

i've changed my hairstyle again.. haha no more curly style korean liao.. lol ah-lor-si say he cant recognise me.. lol imagine the magic my $22 dollar hairdresser can do :)if u wanna see my new hairstyle then arrange for meetup la.. muha :X

Sometime ago..

THIS WAS WHAT I FOUND WHEN I TOOK OUT MY CAI XIN FROM THE FRIDGE BOUGHT ONE WEEK AGO!!!!!!!! this caterpillar actually survived the coldness in my fridge and aft i washed the vegs ( not knowing that it was there) it still clung on to the stem of the veg.. Man was i grossed out!

And i kept it in a plastic container and it ate and ate and ate, shit and shit and shit.. it did nothing but eat and shit.. but in the end it died in it's own shit.. so sad right coz i dint know that it eats sooooooooo quickly and i had to wait for the next day to bring it it's food.. sorry catty R.I.P
P.S Dont blame me ok

Saturday

Hung out with the girls after so long man.. haha sats are usually time for me and ah-lor-si so we hadnt had much time to gather.. heh so really enjoyed myself talking crap and laughing our heads off at Harry's @ railmail.. so cool right my house here *shy*

Mango Margarita $45 for a jug ( enough for 4 )

Seasoned fries.. $6

we should hung out more often man.. :D cant wait for the bitchy batam trip.. when when

Sunday

Went to ****** ong and ***** teo's wedding on sun @swissotel and it's my first time attending a wedding there and it's not the usual kind of wedding food and wedding program that i got.. haha i saw a thousand and one artiste la.. all singapore de unfortunately.. if got hong kong stars i would surely scream and yell lol.. heh i saw john leong, taufik, hossan leong, patricia mok.. yadah yadah yadah.. maybe u name the person he's there too.. lol one of my niece was like soooooo excited to see them and went arnd taking fotos.. but for me, i was more interested in the food they would serve.. aha and i wasnt disappointed, but not impressed either.. heh maybe i dont really like this type of cuisine ba.. i prefer seafood cooked in spicy chilli style.. slurrp :P
We only had 6 dishes altogether but i guess it was enough... yup i saw randall and melody behaving itimately.. are they a couple? lol and hossan leong announced that he is married la.. woa lao but he is one talented guy man.. heh :)
Appetizer.. lol the temp in the ballroom was so low that the small butter cubes on the table werent even on the verge of melting man.. haha so dish one was BREAD!! and we thought chiam liao better gobble up if not sure die of hunger de.. muha but the bread is high class bread la.. we got a good seat coz relative mah.. first table in front of stage.. muha

cold dish- smoked duck ( 1pc) tempura prawn ( a lil' soggy ) Lobster meat with prawn roe.. horridly good.. :D i guess this kind of high crass food always come in small portions.. heh and the mango salsa with pomegranate.. i like zangy feel :)

herbal chicken broth with some wanton with ginger inside and check out that white lump of flesh there.. it's alaska king crab!!!!! haha expensive leh.. :X not bad not bad

scallop with asparagus the scallop is gigantic not those kind of sizes we eat at restaurants man.. i think up to twice the size.. lol not bad and the star of the show is the plain looking yam puff there u see! it has got goose liver in it dude! goosey liver.. ultra nice.. imagine greedy me who always gobble up food, when it came to this yam puff i actually cut it into 4 pieces and slowly devoured it.. lol delicious.. haha

Whole cod fish fillet.. the fish tasted a bit fatty but i like the sauce that went with it.. and it had pumpkin sauce too.. very special i like.. :)

Abalone fried rice.. nothing special about it.. except the abalone inside and till now we're too full to even finish the rice.. imagine hearing about rising rice prices and here we were wasting rice :(

Lastly.. dessert.. vanilla red bean ice cream with steamed custard with white fungus,bird nest and lotus.. slurrp a tasty dessert to end off everything but not too sweet also.. :D

They even had photographers gg round to help you take pictures and u could get the fotos on the spot.. so they can advertise also la.. heh overall rating for the wedding : 8/10 Maybe i should do something similar for my wedding next time also.. i dont really like those typical chinese wedding style de leh.. heh see how next time if i have the time and effort to think of all these pattern pattern

Real Joy

2008-04-04T02:34:00.002+11:00

I found my real Joy.. and believe it or not it's --- teaching. i really enjoy myself having taking up this position to teach and to educate. it's definitely something one thousand times better than a 8 to 5 job.. i may be slogging my life out to do out my lesson plans now at this hour but when i deliver my lesson i just feel this sense of.. i dont know, goodness perhaps.. although i'm super shagged out everyday i come back from school, i still enjoy myself.. it's like a nicey feeling.. something i cant really put into words.. though i see most of my teachers hating to come to work and stuff coz of the exrta admin stuff like that, i just Thank God that for my practicum i dont have to endure all the #$#($&Y^ haha.. yep i just had this overwhelming feeling during this period of my practicum.. and i thank God for giving me this chance to be a teacher, Thank God for withdrawing me from SIM, letting me do something i'm best at, that is to talk loudly :X i talk so loud that my p3 kids have to close their ears when i'm talking near them.. *gasps* haha so just.. JOIN THE EDUCATORS.. haha i sound so like an advertisement for MOE.. maybe they should consider paying me for this entry.. haha ok it's now back to Lesson Planning (LP)
GOD bless :D

The Ship

2008-03-30T02:31:00.011+11:00

After reading xx's sis's blog on the restaurant that she patronised recently, i decided to give it a try with ah huat.. well i can say it's a pleasant place to be. The food over there is average only.. not particularly delicious.. maybe some old old restaurant that has been there for over a decade.. Bt Timah has got one such family restaurant too.. and i think there serves better food also.. haha:X my chicky chop was a tad too salty but i loved the white cream sauce that went with it.. out of 10 maybe i will give 6. the atmosphere is good, service is alright, food is so so, price is slightly above average.. think it's more worth to go for lunch.. set lunch seems cheaper.. haha :) After dinner we went over to suntec to catch the movie "vantage point" *ahem* seriously the show is a bit Getalife coz it just keeps repeating the same part over and over again until i felt irritated la.. heh hard to describe what exactly happened so u gotta go catch the show yourself to see it..rating 5/10 heh bought myself a new hp pouch for $3.90 and a necklance for $23.. actually i wanted to get another bucket bag for $16 but ah huat dont let me leh.. :( now i miss the bag already.. nvm ah huat u better buy me something from thailand.. muha hopefully the trip to langkawi in july can come true okie.. yup.. that's all pictures for now :D
The Ship Restaurant @ Shaw Centre

Latercomer and poor photographer Ah Huat

pretty me @ The Ship

the restaurant had their own personalised plates..so cool la.. all hidden somewhere in orchard.. haha few patrons, many helpers.. muha

the atmosphere at the restaurant was quite romantic.. got candle light somemore.. *_* good to part-tor everyone eats damn quietly la. the moment me and ah huat went in everyone stared at us.. tsk tsk not like we made a lot of noise or what leh.. it's so quiet until my ah huat almost fell asleep. woa lao i was so #&$)#^$(& when he told me that la.. arrgh

my cream of mushroom.. ah huat had cream of chicken

my eaten choco moose.. heh i was too greedy, so i ate one mouth then i realise i need to take a pic of it.. muha

this is what ah huat had.. prawn and some fish.. see what i mean by a poor photographer? sigh what can i say.. tsk tsk

this is what i had chicken chop with mushroom, ham and cheese topped over it.. a bit too salty leh..

BURRP :)

TGFE!

2008-03-29T04:25:00.001+11:00

I thank God for everything. :)

P.S Resist the Devil and it will flee from you.

Easter Sunday

2008-03-24T01:09:00.003+11:00

Big Big easter egg from my darling :D thanks ah pok

This long weekend was indeed LooOOooong enough for me.. i had so many lesson plans to rush just coz during the weekdays i was doing LP for other lessons that i couldnt carry out.. seriously spending so much doing and planning stuff, in the end all disrupted.. argh ytd was even worst.. i accidentally deleted the LP that i had spent so much time on.. IN THE END, redo everything woa lao i was super pissed with myself.. but what to do man :( then i went into my room and i received a notification sms saying that march i'll be having 0.5months bonus!!!!! muha better than nothing la so i just felt much better and completed my LP at 2am.. yawn today, i was helping some prof from NUS to do a survey at sim lim sq.. damn jialat shun by lots of ppl, faced some rejections but saw for myself some golden tortoise man *shy* there was this guy (who look quite cute) 30 yrs old, earning >14,000 per month.. seriously i was salivating when i saw him.. haha and he was alone.. possibly SINGLE but well, think i wont see him again so no point thinking about it.. lol so i was officially research assistant for the day earning $20 an hour SHIOK right? haha :X then i went with my sis to splurge at bugis. bought a top from Fox for $26 and another top at topshop for $43.. tsk tsk almost the whole pay is gone la.. muha but nvm happy is good enough already. Dinner, we met up with our parents at queenstown for the claypot rice, and i was thinking if i'll meet Jo (aloy's sis) and so coincidental, i actually did and the best part? they sat in front of my parents' table.. muha aft dinner me, my sis and my bro went to ntuc to buy newspaper and we had the horror of our life.. the place was infested with those kind of "shui wen" they were all swarming arnd the lights.. and they formed a shape of a bee hive.. woa lao ey it's really damn sick.. (having goosebumps now as i type) Eeewww and the bugs were swarming arnd the inside of the NTUC and the cashiers were like just standing there and being attacked by the bugs.. so ke lian :( hope some scientist will invent those kind of light with "zapper" de so when the insects fly close to the light they will "ZZZzz" and zap them to death.. i hate bugs :( happening weekend and monday gg to have obs by my NSC.. hope everything will be fine and the students will be excited about my lesson i've painstakingly planned for them ha! have a great week ahead :)

quiz

2008-03-17T20:15:00.000+11:00

You Are 36% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well.
But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howselfishareyouquiz/">How Selfish Are You?

3-in-1

2008-03-13T15:44:00.003+11:00

Part I
I really thank God for the rain this few days.. If the escaped terrorist selemat is somewhere hiding in the forest, i hope that the rain God sent is gg to help the singapore police catch him.. imagine being in and out of the rain for so many days.. even robot will turn rusty what more a mere man.. hope he will fall sick, fever, flu, body ache then the singapore police can catch up with him.. but that's the most ideal way it can happen.. what if someone is harbouring him man? i think it's the worst thing man.. arrgh ALL THANKS TO HIM, aloy has to work 6am-6pm then next day 6pm-6am so practically we wouldnt have any time to hang out.. arrgh it's super sian man.. everyday it's like that i'm feeling so sick of it already :( sigh.. and the malacca trip that is supposedly gg to take place in may MAY have to be cancelled if he is not caught by then.. the jams along the causeway, this and that.. sian just make me feel like staying home and nua..
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Part II
I tried my hands on making shortbread the other day.. but it was a flop man :( the shortbread can be eaten, they are not burnt but it was more of the process that i was frustrated with.. i made the dough and everything and it was the STICKIEST dough in my whole life man.. the way i knead the dough and everything, i was sweating through man.. seriously like as if i had ran 2.4km like that.. tsk tsk and it was very sticky.. i was expecting something like cookie dough kind of texture but it was far more sticky than i thought and i had a hard time trying to use the cookie cutter to make shapes out of it.. :( i've nv felt so helpless in my kitchen be4, trying to bake something so simple.. i followed everything on the baking recipe but dont know what went wrong, so i made up my mind, i'm gg to attend baking classes.. dont want to waste my money on the ingredients but end up baking some stuff that no one wants to eat.. :( it's really a sad feeling man.. so i've roped in jing2 to join me see if there are any others who wanna join us.. probably starting the classes late may june that time..
P.S let me know if you're interested k..
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Part III
Went out with sm and jing2 on tues.. really fun to meet up with my gfs.. maybe i hadnt do it for a long long time already.. most the time i'm hanging out with aloy, guess i've really missed out all the bitchy times we spent together :( i really need to know how to strike a balance, especially this time when aloy is busy in NS, perhaps i can spend more time with the others.. ( not making use of all of u okie.. :X) we went bugis for lunch that day.. and aft wanted to go to the museum for some arty farty exhibition but it was pouring like mad and so we had a change of plans, and went to PS instead.. heh we were embarrassing ourselves at spotlight (as usual) amused by all those funny headwear and other party stuff.. lol i hadnt gotten hold of the pics yet ( LIM SHUMIN!), shall upload them when i have em' k. i thank GOD for my friends.. to laugh at silly stuff and to talk about when i have problems.. :)

liu lian and Man-GO! haha

2008-03-02T19:45:00.005+11:00

caught this movie ytd with aloy.. i think i was the only one in the theatre that bawled my eyes out man.. it's really a romantic movie man.. but very sad also.. certain parts even what the girl said to the guy when they were quarrelling sounds like me and aloy when we're quarrelling but at the end of the day, we're still together.. :D

After the movie we went to ice monster @PS for their famous mango dessert. seriously it's SLURRP haha i love mangoes.. above is a the egg crepe with mango, pork floss and lettuce wrapped up in a egg crepe. super nicey.. heh healthy also :X

Combination of both durian and mango. My advice: Not to eat this alone coz u will just die of heatiness the next day. haha so share :) very nice and delicious.. slurrpp.. this restaurant was introduced on TV and i went to try.. dint let us down.. muha basement of PS :D

Me and my sweetheart muack*

Instant death

2008-02-24T03:20:00.003+11:00

My sis walked into our room shouting " OH MY GOD" and she turn back and to our horror, this was on the floor
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Crushed under her 55kg body. Instant death. luckily she weighed only that much, coz the lizard still managed to wriggled it's little tail after all it's juices in it's body spilled out. so sad. if i'm the one who stepped on it, i think the lizard cant even wriggle it's tail la.. tsk tsk..
RIP lizzy. ( we're leaving the corpse there till tmr morning when my maid is gg to discover it) :X

messy!

2008-02-19T03:06:00.004+11:00

Arrgh finally managed to log in into blogger.. apparently my high crass laptop is virus-fied.. maybe from too much edison-ing.. lol needa invest in a good anti virus software.. yup anyways my main point in wanting to blog now, today is after reading all my cell group mates' testimonies on the way they view BGR. i really thank GOD for them and their readiness to share with me openly.. after reading what they had to say, i suddenly felt that actually so many of them wanted to step into a relationship, but instead of doing what they want, they want to do what GOD wants for them, so they held back and chose to remain single till GOD plans for them the man of their life.. after reading so much, i just felt an overwhelming of emotions. i dont know if what i'm doing now, all these are part of GOD's will? i know it's stupid and a tad too late to talk about all this but i'm really confused at times.. in my heart i know i love aloysius dearly and would certainly want to spend the rest of my life with him ( although sometimes i still feel like killing him) but i do want to admit that sometimes our relationship gets into the first place, instead of placing GOD first. i've got thousand and one examples to illustrate, some even i forget about them already but one very apt one is probably my commitment with YA. actually, it cannot even be considered a commitment since i only went down ONCE. oh man can u believe it? i just didnt feel committed to going down coz i didnt want to sacrifice my time-out with aloy for those kids there. i'm already having my tuition twice a week and if i go down one more day ( ON A SAT!!!!!) i'll be like #@#^$%*#$.. so that's why till now i'm still procrastinating whether or not to go for it.. i've talked to aloy about it and even suggested that the both of us go down together for YA since he is like nua-ing with the scouts and he wanted to consider about it.. i hope it wont take too long till the cows come home or what.. haha i've never ignore this issue and it has certainly been on my mind all this while. i guess the answer is simple. whether or not i'm willing to sacrifice my will for GOD's will. sometimes we need to make this sacrifice for GOD. i've got one question in mind now. How do we know if the partner we have now is the one GOD wanted for us? Or how do we even know if GOD wants us to be single for the rest of my life? i remembered pastor kwong saying about BGR stuff and he said it's ok to be single for GOD's sake and i look at my cell group, among all the girls i think i'm the only one who is attached and I AM NOT DOING GOD's WORK. oh man but in order to do GOD's work, do i have to sacrifice my relationship with aloy? i really feel very lost.. sigh but i'm proud of my cell mates who have the courage to share with us. i definitely dont know HOW to share with them about aloy or even from where to start? Share WHAT????? oh man this is soooooo bad.. arrgh
nvm next week would be the official start of my practicum, gg to be really busy with writing lesson plan and stuff like that, really hope that i can arrange for a solitude session with GOD this coming sat, like what i had planned earlier on that during this practicum he will allow me to grow closer to him and to rely on him in every area. i thank GOD for GOD. if not for Jesus i think i would have been like poo poo all my life, not knowing to turn to who when the whole world turns against me. Thank GOD for God.

Valentine's day 140208

2008-02-16T02:51:00.020+11:00

Happy Rat year to the rat.. muack

Both of us @ the flower exhibit @sentosa..

Legs dangling on the sky rider check out somebody's hands(on the left) gripping sooooo tightly on the bar.. muha :X

All ready to luge-ride.. once is really not enough.. haha so fun :D

not knowing what will happen next..

Wheee.. posing for the moment

" bai xuan xuan.. i can drive faster than you.." oh yah right :P

LOOKING soooo happy with his subway lunch

Coz' u squashed my part! i hate you!!!!!!

@Butterfly and insect park EEeewww roaches!!!!!

me with roxy

this is what happens when you dont practice safe Sex.. lol

flirting @ images of singapore.. lol

posing outside the exhibition hall with "mr wise rat" -_-''

Carlsberg tower

Up up and away!!!!!

shagged but happy..

Thank you ah pok for the trip to sentosa.. really enjoyed myself very much though i had to eat a SQUASHED sandwich.. lol we should plan for such activities for our anniversary also okie.. so relaxing like what u said and i think it really gives us time to just spend time doing stuff together and to get to know each other better also.. muack love u sweetheart. Happy 29th months too :)

super randoms

2008-02-13T00:37:00.001+11:00

Dearest Ah pok Happy Valentines' and 29th months day..(in advance) This year going to be very special coz we're gonna celebrate this special day with evofus and it's Chinese New Year too.. Have a verse here to share with everyone..
"Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance." - 1 Corinthians 13:7
Love u ah pok muack :*

ultra bing-ish pendant from SK. thank u so much ah pok i really LOVE it.. *_* call me diamond girl now.. muha as we get older the diamonds must get bigger hor.. haha

made pineapple tarts that day with evofus but the cookies seems a bit hard leh.. hmmm i'll try and improve on the recipe k.. maybe it's the pineapple :X

I permed my hair.. haha for CNY :) couldnt get those short permed hair effect leh.. arrgh like the one i wanted in the previous posts.. nvm shall do some HAir extension next year and SHOCK everyone.. lol anyone wanna join me?

In the process of perming.. lol that's my hairdresser at the back.. heh :) $99

God's plan for me

2008-02-03T02:55:00.000+11:00

With regards to my previous post, i'm glad to say that things are alright for now. And through this eventful thing, God brought me back to what he wanted us to do in this year of Sabbath.

1. Remembrance and Reliance upon the Lord. - when things were getting out of hand, i just had to rely and remember that God is always with me.

2.Restoring and Rebuilding relationships.- my relationship with aloysius can only be restored in Christ.

3.Rest and Re-creation of the land. - i'm sure GOD will show this to me when i start my attachment in Feb. How do i find rest in the midst of my busy schedule and how do i re-create my students..

God is revealing everything and his plan for me for this year,at this point of time. When i first read of these 3 points, i couldnt find any connection with them. But God is revealing his plans for me, and i thank God for that . It's really important to start the year off by spending time with GOD.. *aloy.. we shall plan for a solitude soon..

i just feel so blessed suddenly. i just finished watching the online sermon for last week i know it's super late to do so.. heh but better late than never. it's difficult for me to attend service but i'm just glad that church has this online viewing that i'm able to listen to GOD speak to me through the sermon even w/o attending service. What pastor say is so apt of how i am feeling. He did not say this but i interpreted it this way. Everything is not important because "GOD is our sufficiency". this is also the theology of Sabbath. Pastor gave us 3 things to remember in this year of sabbath that is

1. Draw near to God

2. Get right with God

3. Stand up for God

Setting aside time for morning devotion has always been a struggle for me. but i thank God that i've kept to doing it but...... sometimes in a rush. coz morning i wake up at 730 then i've got till 810 to catch my bus. that's why i read through the word of GOD in a rush at times. My house aint a conducive place to do my morning devotion either. but i thank God each time for the chance to do so.. just by watching one sermon and i feel that God is really speaking to me. in so many areas of my life. Areas that i've yet to surrender to him. Areas that i still think that i can control and do it my way. i thank God for this sermon that i've woken up and from now onwards, i will set aside time to seek GOD because only he is sufficient.

breakingup

2008-02-02T15:08:00.000+11:00

At this point when i'm typing this, things are going down for me and aloysius. i think the time has come. ytd we had the worst quarrel of the year.. i know the year has just started but it's just bad. that's all i can say. the way he behaved and reacted to me, it just made me feel that he wanted me out of his life. i'm known to be pestering and controlling to him. hanging out late with his friends, and me asking him what time he'll be back ----> that's controlling. i dont know what else can i say now. i'm sick and tired of having to go through all this same thing as what had happened last year. ignoring my calls and telling me that you dont want to talk to me now. now no mood to talk , all these crap. i'm not here to be bullied by u. think i've reached the darkest part of our relationship already. i dont know what else can i do since u dont seem to want to save this relationship. then let's just end it. your attitude towards me sucks and i dont want to be the one taking all this shit from u. if you want all your freedom, and as a gf i cant even ask u what time u'll be back home aft hanging out, then i'm sorry please go and find someone else. i'll return all the freedom u once had and i will not pester u anymore. i dont know what to say and how to say things anymore to u. we'll just do a mutual split. you wont want to talk to me anymore, u wont get all this shit from me anymore. i'm just wrong for you. It's sorry that we have to end just like that. i know the road ahead of me will just get tougher but i'm ready. coz GOD's with me...

GOD bless u

ah bling and randoms

2008-01-31T01:19:00.000+11:00

ah bling is my new best friend.. haha i bought this diamond ring from online $4120 with a negligible decimal point somewhere in the middle.. lol it's man-made diamond okie.. so very bling-kish also.. hehe ching if u want to buy one nicey bling for jr can ask me more about it.. affordable and bling-ish haha :D

ah bling on my round fingers.. *_*

things have been rather monotonous recently.. no more that kind of excitement and urge of wanting to see each other.. guess it doesnt matter that much anymore.. but that doesnt mean i dont love u or i dont care about u anymore.. hug bought aska yong's album today.. thought i've gotten over those days that i'll buy cd de but in fact i bought 2 cds in just one month.. hehe i'm listening to yang zong wei's album now and the other one i bought was the wedding album.. heh thought i would invest in one for my wedding 5 years down the road.. heh i really want to walk down the aisle with *ahem* u la ah pok if not who ;) i sincerely hope that all my friends will find the happiness they deserve.. GOD bless

breakups..

2008-01-22T01:37:00.000+11:00

All of us wanted 2008 to be a great year for ourselves, but how much exactly can we control? none in fact.. it is only January and i received 2 bad news. 2 of my close friends have ended their relationship with their boyfriends. the period of time they have been together seems so insignificant when both parties have decided to end the relationship.. dont know why when i was on the phone with jr today and after she put down the phone, i felt especially down and i broke down in the cafe i was in with aloy.. dont know why but everytime sad stuff happens and i talk to her, i feel this sense of peace. i pretty sure it's coz of her faith. as a christian , for me personally i feel that she can give me that bit of comfort, but the biggest source of comfort comes from GOD, coz when the whole world decides to break off with us, the only one who is the always there regardless of the circumstances is GOD. thank u aloy for reminding me that. i just feel so sad for my friend who have decided to end the relationship coz i thought u guys would last. :( i just felt this overwhelming wave of emotions suddenly man.. like so sad and everything.. LOVE is so fragile. it takes so much effort to build up but it takes just one decision to end everything.. sigh.. hey, i know it's stupid to be talking about all this when u guys are not together anymore but i guess that doesnt matter anymore.. i just want u to know that i'll always be there for u, a shoulder for u to cry on, a hug to give ..try to cheer up ok. i know it's very difficult but i'm sure u will make it through and find someone better :D *hug* smile after reading my post ok.. :)

i hate u aloysius tan!

2008-01-19T14:29:00.000+11:00

Dont bother to say anything if u cant carry it out.

mucusy

2008-01-16T20:33:00.000+11:00

i realised that i said i will continue my japan trip entry but heh i'm not gg to do it la.. super lazy anyways more or less the highlights of the trip i've already written them down.. this is just gg to be a super random entry k. read it if u are super bored and bo liao.. muha

i want to cut this hairstyle lei.. so means i have to perm my hair.. lol any comments? :X
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Got a disgusting pic to share.. if you have just eaten go digest your food somewhere first then come back.. haha anyways had been sick the past 2 days.. dint go out. stayed at home and slept like a pig.. but i think that's what most needed when you're sick isnt it.. heh i had fever up to 38.8 man luckily i kept sponging myself and my nose was like super mucus-y la tsk tsk and one point of time i blew this out
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told u it's bo liao entry..
ciao

Japan 20-26th

2008-01-04T03:08:00.000+11:00

Greetings from Japan.. haha back from the month of holidaying.. lol this month of december had been a lot of travelling for me.. BKK then Japan.. i spent more than half of the month away from Singapore and indeed travelling opens our insight to the world. and we really need to travel to see more things instead of getting cooped up in dear cheena-pore.. lol anyways let the pics do the talking.. these few pics that i uploaded are my fave got lots more uglier photos in my computer and laptop.. let me know if you are interested to view them.. muhapretty me in the kimono suit..

universal studios - in osaka

santa-faced melon bun

i think i look pretty with long hair :D

hi elmo.. the whole world (in U.S) were wearing this head warmers and they cost a whopping $38! haha so i only took a picture of myself wearing it.. haha ( the shop keepers wont chase u out though.. so nice haha)

elmo and zoe this christmas hat cost arnd $25 i think.. so again i took a picture with it :)

streets on U.S

attempting to pat the deers at nara deer park where the deers walk arnd freely.. the deer biscuit that i bought to feed them smells nicer than our Khong Guan biscuit.. seriously :X

pigsy had no space in my luggage
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BUT he went with me to Japan! haha

check out that egg in my hand! it's smoked and guess what does it taste like? Bacon. i'm serious my sis hates egg but when she ate it she had a different view on eggs now haha.. slurrp u wont find it in singapore.. lol

Hello kitty Bao

Shrimp bao that looks like doughnut and a swimming float.. ( disney sea) it's very very very soft and fluffy and SLURRP

Chinese food we had there.. typical and taste like my mum's cooking! *gasps*

typical Japanese meal. i enjoyed the food there very much.. it's nothing like sakae sushi or ichiban here in cheena-pore the miso soup and the rice is heavenly.. sometimes i feel that the restaurants in singapore spoil the taste of the original food.. arrgh

bullet train.. the train travels at a speed of 333.3km/h and the ppl can eat on the train. YET the train is still squeaky clean. if the Japanese are not considerate then i have to say that they have very very hardworking cleaners.. haha obviously not. -_-''

TO BE CONTINUED...
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2007-12-06T01:25:00.000+11:00

Getting myself a haircut aft a quarrel really helps.. but i dont think it'll help in long term coz my hair cant go sooooo fast.. heh well, time will tell everything. check out my new hairstyle below.. :D thank u piu piu for coming over to my place, just hanging out in the pool, doing the forever cannot finish ppt and cutting our hair afterwards.. hehe your company meant a lot.. and it seems that aft since i got attached i havent been spending much time with u girls, but u all still mean a lot to me.. best friends forever piu piu *shy*

both of us making double chin to the cam

after the haircut
p.s hope after the haircut piu piu will have some peach flower luck! lol

me and my coolest haircut.. TAY i know u gonna comment but i can just deduce that as jealousy!!! haha just coz u cant do the same :X

a verse to encourage everyone out there:
Dear Children, let us not love with words or tongue, but with actions and in truth. - 1 John 3: 18

the word of GOD is indeed very true. if we only love telling each other how much we love each other, but dont even show it through our actions, i think it's just plain talk. And of course for a couple to grow closer, firstly we need to grow close to the LORD, in his truth. This is something i really want to work towards to..

ok enough of getting sentimental, anyways went for my FIRST driving lesson today aft passing my advance theory on MON.. woo hoo really thank GOD that i passed coz the questions were really quite tough :X some ppl may think that i passed coz i was plain lucky but i want to tell them that i passed coz of GOD's blessings. comparing the amount of time i spent studying for that and the basic theory, this is nothing man.. so, THANK GOD THANK GOD PRAISE GOD PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!! :D gave my relief instructor a ride of his life man.. lol he kept stepping on the brake and say:" too fast too fast!" haha i thought i was driving a sports car.. muha but thank GOD, it was a smooth learning time for me. :) 7 more days before BKK.. cant wait for the time to spend with my gfs!!!!!! muha

P.s caleb rmb to lend me your cam hor. i promise i will take good care of it. if not i pay u back one brand new one haha :)

GOD bless everyone and stay happy

unappreciative

2007-12-04T03:28:00.000+11:00

first time in my life, someone told me that i am unappreciative. just because of 2 words " so troublesome" . usually i'm the one feeling that i'm not being appreciated not the other way round. i dont know. sucks man having mixed feelings now towards our relationship. everytime this kind of things happen i just hate US. i hate the fact that we are together. i just wanna be friends. i dont want you anymore. i dont love u anymore. today is supposed to be a happy day coz i passed my advanced but apparently the both of us had to ruin it at the very last minute u go to bed. i wonder if u will ever read this entry.. but whatever it is, i hope we both can do something to this relationship coz i feel that it's getting rocky. maybe in the eyes of others we are lovey dovey but i can tell all of u out there we are quarrelling almost everyday.and i dont feel as happy as we look. frequent quarrels really make me very sick of this whole thing. if i'm not with u then i wont even behave like this. u are the one who made me feel and behave like this all this while. not saying that it's your fault but i can tell u i behave like this only when i'm with u. period.

damn u aloysius

2007-11-28T03:05:00.001+11:00

i think that it is indeed true that the longer you spend your life with a person, the more you'll be able to see the person's true colours.. and even more so when two of you are together as a couple. more than once did i mention the word breakup, but not once we did breakup. i think i am the coward, the one afraid of taking the step towards singlehood. because i dont know what to expect. who i can rely on once we are really separated. after being with you for 2 yrs odd, we've spend most of this time together, so much so that i've not watched any movie with my gfs for 1 yr or so.. not even meeting up with them. all my time and effort, even money i've thrown in for our relationship, seems to be gg into waste. we are just too strong headed for each other i must admit. you a leo, me a scorpio. i know it's dumb to use horoscope as a basis for analysis but i really cant think of another better reason why we are behaving like this. it just sucks. many a times we quarrel, i'm very tempted to hurl abuses at you, but i've always held back. it maybe true that you give in to me many times or let me have my way but i've given in to u ( or maybe you just insisted your way so much that no matter what i said doesnt matter anymore) for a reasonable number of times as well. i hate to be self-centred in this relationship but if i dont i will be hurt. things i do are always for u but things u do are mostly for yourself. i know you're gg to say you dint ask me to do the things for u but we are a COUPLE, mind you. if either party only bothers to do things for him/herself, what's the point? i think they are better off as friends. isnt it? quarrels and quarrels are keeping us real busy in this relationship. you once said, we can quarrel but not to the extent to breaking up and today you told me, i always ask to break up but i dont mean it but if one day u ask to break up, you'll mean it then FINE. let's just go on separate ways. the only thing that is holding me back is probably the lonely life i'll have after the break up ok. i tell u frankly. not that i cant live without you, but i'm just not willing to go everywhere on my own and doing stuff on my own. i need someone constantly there for me, but now i'm not sure if you are the one anymore. i'm so sick of us quarrelling and argueing every other day. you can pretend nothing happen after we quarrelled but sorry i cant. and you told me to go find my inspiration?! hello how to? i realise that we are quarrelling but i dont know how to walk away feeling as though nothing happen because i'm a girl. precisely.
i cant pretend that i dont care for u when i care so much for u.
i cant pretend that i'm not angry with u when i'm boiling inside.
i cant pretend to be magnanimous when i'm dying of jealously inside.
i cant pretend to forgive u when i'm still holding grudges against you.
i cant pretend.. why cant i be just who i am. if you dont love me for who i am, then why are we still together? if i cant show you exactly how i feel, then y should we still be together? i'm just forcing myself to be someone i am not... i thought love is supposed to be sweet and to love the other party just like he/she is.. but it's all different from what i had perceived it to be..
so izit finally over? you tell me. i have no idea whatsoever for us anymore. think some ppl will be very happy that we are finally breaking up. whatever.

random and expired

2007-11-25T02:23:00.001+11:00

This is going to be a random, expired, after exams post :X
cant rmb if i blogged about buying this pair of asics shoes.. heh in my fave colour PURPLE feel that i can run very fast in them... lol

DIAMOND earrings from han han MUACK! *_* bling bling $***

catch of the day..
went fishing with NIE fwends the day after my exams and this is what we caught.. muha dont think we are that pro just coz we fished at the pond called "sure catch" and we paid 10 bucks per catch meaning we HAVE TO CATCH SOMETHING.. lol and the fishes were damn strong till a point our fishing rod snapped. seriously i think the guy was damn pissed his face was super black all the time.. haha i realised that everyone who fishes SMOKES and it's real bad coz they just cant stop as in the moment one cigarette leaves their mouth their hand will be reaching out for another one already.. soooooo bad.. anyways..
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pasir ris park "sure catch" pond lol for the fun and like my friend's friend said.. this is for amateur fishing peeps.. muha

AND... before we went fishing we were CRABING over at the other side of the park haha we caught 7 crabs in 2 hrs and the crabs were not restrained and some attempted to escape so challenging.. haha

here's the small pond with all the crabs inside haha

exam package from han han! thanks muack the double choco from famous amos contributed to my sore eyes during the exams.. haha but i still LOVE them.. heh thanks sweetheart muack :*

THIS IS MY NTU HOTTIE.. oh man from the hey gorgeous show.. SLURRP i want him WOO HOO!

check this out.. haha i drank the whole bottle of it

it's real one hor and i think it really helps in the developing of the brain lol ( ok at least for mine) heh

muack can slack and nua now after the exams.. heh BKK and japan trip in dec and wedding dinners.. haha cant wait and i want to use the oven tmr (kudos to evofus!) work hard for yer exams girls! caleb go and die arrange to play spongebob monopoly with your bro :D

i love you chen han tian

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happy day

2007-11-14T23:17:00.000+11:00

Happy 26 months anniversary han han! heh muack I LOVE THE LILIES! :D

what a spread for the both of us only heh :X

beautiful lilies :D

happy day :)

21st birthday 3rd Nov'2007

2007-11-06T02:17:00.000+11:00

2nd Nov - Pre-celebration with my honey

2 person 5 dishes ---> still finished everything

Hans@ marina 3 cakes/pastries to celebrate first ok

me and han han

3rd Nov'2007

Arthur and I (colleagues now :D )

cake cutting time

my beloved evofusss and partners all dressed to KILL! haha
ok presents time
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wade of notes from some NIE friends and Uncle.. so kind :)

My colourful bday cake ( $90 ) hor

BEAUTIFUL card by evofus ( minus the ugly photos of myself.. oh man)

$$$ tefal oven from EVOFUS you guys are the best man! :D

stuff from arthur

spongebob merchandise from JC/SIM friends! i really love them! ( both the presents and the ppl) muha!

'choking pendant' from weili ( sikkim fwend)

xiao jun gave me this but i wonder if i'll use it.. heh

cupcake recipe book from fishy

spongebob monopoly from bernard :D

TOPshop voucher and Levis watch from the NTSS gang :D purplicious

hand made card from han han

a bouquet of roses from him! *_*

all from cell group mates.. thank you guys i'm very touched sooooo many of you made the effort to come down when you all stay ultra far away and we're not that close also but dont worry time will make up for that part.. THANK GOD for everyone of you :)

perfume from xiaoxuan and shannon

bought myself this nike water bottle and sports shoe from the ANGBAO $$ heh

CHECK OUT THE BLING! FINALLY I OWN A PAIR OF DIAMONDS!!!!! WOO HOO !!!!! thank you han han muack*

seemingly happy with the bling

randomz

2007-10-28T01:13:00.000+10:00

my hubby wu did this for my upcoming exams and assignments and it really works!!!!! love him to bits haha *shy* :X

if you can do this mouth too then we'll take a picture together like that on my birthday okie :D

cant believe that i survived 3 days of using the no colour and camera phone.. haha 8310

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geared up for party!!!!

2007-10-24T11:57:00.000+10:00

Oh man.. i cant believe that my stupid phone for only 4mths odd DIED on me.. as in the toopid LCD screen cracked and i cant see a thing.. arrgh it's under repair now for 3-5 working days and only then will i get it back.. so for now.. guess what? i'm using NOKIA 8310!!!!!!!! arrgh that ugly fugly phone.. arrgh seriously no colour screen, puny small screen and the phone is obviously too small for my hand.. the buttons are small, everything! haha but still i Thank GOD that i didnt have to pay for the repair for the stupid phone.. sigh coz it's still under warranty.. muha anyways preparation for the birthday party is almost ready.. cake and pastries ordered, buffet confirmed.. muha let me see if i can copy and paste the buffet menu here arrgh cant must type it out myself.. :X

1.Curry Chicken with Potato

2.Fish Fillet with Mayonnaise

3.Golden Oaty Prawn (deshelled!!!!)

4.Beancurd with Mushroom & Mince Chicken

5.Siao Bai Chye with Vegetarian Abalone

6.Golden Spring Roll

7.Steamed Chicken Siew Mai

8.Yang Chow Fried Rice

9. Almond Beancurd with Longan

10.Fruit Punch

11.Assorted mini eclair and cream puff ( complimentary)

12. Deep fried chicken wings

total damage done: $513.60 haha aloy was soooooo shocked when he heard that and started nagging that i'm spending soooooo much on food and everything.. but Thank GOD, like what's said in the bible, give and u will be given.. true enough (i have to confess something) heh after not giving tithes for such a long time i finally gave my first fruit of labour to the LORD and indeed GOD is good.. he blessed me with more $$$$ haha my grandma gave my angbao for my bday and my dad suggested that he pay $500 for my catering.. heh so more or less the money part gao dim already.. heh if u guys got any games wanna bring on that day also can.. the programs are really exciting.. i've got goodie bags, lucky draw goodies up for grabs.. goodies bags are for the sweet toothed but i only prepared 50pcs so if u wanna check out what's inside the goodie bag and grab one.. heh rmb to drop by early okie.. i'll cut the cake at 9pm sharp soooooo better make sure any of u dont come later than that hor.. :X the party will start sharply at 7pm c u guys then and rmb and humongous present.( dress to kill!!) woohoo if not stand outside. no food allowed :D GOD bless u

trotters

2007-10-20T02:52:00.001+10:00

new haircut.. :D ever round and chubbysize of leg before swelling ( right leg)

size of leg swelling NOW ( left leg)

Pray for me for recovery ok.. i need to get to exercising again!!!! soon

hotel room

2007-10-19T00:06:00.001+10:00

http://www.tripadvisor.com/LocationPhotos-g293916-d643721-I_Residence-Bangkok.html#16905120

hui and min check this out ok.. the hotel is awesome :D

quick update

2007-10-17T23:32:00.001+10:00

photo whoring at bus stop.. :D

check out this couple.. notice anything unusual?? heh actually nothing but i saw this ah gong actually helped the ah ma ( his wife) to carry her handbag and i thought that it's real sweet of that.. seriously if they are so old already and they can do this what's more for us who are in love now? heh i really hope that my future husband will be as sweeeeeeeet to me as when we were young :X

i bought this maroon tube dress for the upcoming weddings.. heh so happy that i managed to get something nice and i CAN WEAR!!!!! haha $79.90 but i think it's alright la.. not bad and there are a lot of designs.. good place to shop for gowns for 'jie mei' or bridesmaid.. city plaza at paya lebar there.. heh i must watch my weight if not i will burst the dress.. seriously.. hahah

ciao

rollerblading

2007-10-16T23:52:00.000+10:00

saw this cute photo online and decided to post it up.. haa btw the hands belong to patrick the starfish.. lol i wonder how many of us are guilty of doing that.. heh so cute though

Rollerblading today was surpisingly fun today with my nie fwends.. and i realised something heh i really improved from where i was few years back ( i think 1 yr ba..) and i could blade but i need to learn how to look up when i blade.. and also how to use the stomach power to blade.. lol i'm using my calves muscles now to blade, improvement from using my ANKLES!!! haha seriously rmb the last time i blade, i relied on my ankles till they hurt :( muha..BUT...will improve when i go blade a few more times.. haha oh yes and ms black was saying that if i dont allocate pressies for my friends to get for me then what if they bought the same thing?? but i think dont have soooo 'qiao' one ba.. heh i dont think will have ppl buying 2 ovens for me.. maybe if you guys see this entry and can hint hint a bit what you gonna get lo.. :X heh anyways i was thinking of getting blades too coz i'm like using aloy's blades now then i wanna get one myself then we can go blade together also.. hmmm westmall's sports shop got offer now for rollerblades.. original prize $300+ now only $179 wonder if i should get it.. heh ****hint**** think my shoe size is 7/8 hahahahahahahahahahaa *_*lol maybe i will ba.. but i think this end of the year i'm really gg to be super broke la.. weddings and birthdays.. oh man seriously so many ppl getting married and i'm really @_@ haha tmr gg city plaza to buy my gown hopefully i can find something NICE and my SIZE.. sigh persevere on!!!!!!!.. :D

2007-10-14T17:09:00.001+10:00

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?
how accurate is this?? hmmm

spongebob-madness-randoms

2007-10-10T01:56:00.000+10:00

ha! i bought myself a spongebob diary for 2008 and it's like the nicest thing i've ever seen.. haha from Japan de but it's a freaking $16.80!!! someone said that HE's going to pay so better make sure huh.. haha i've been a bit broke recently dont know where i spent my money also..(maybe i should check out my spare tires..) sigh so sian :X and i think it's time for me to start studying for my upcoming exams and all those undone work.. i'm like slacking at home everyday.. watch tv la, blog , friendstering.. oh my i need to discipline myself.. arrgh *squeeze my neck* ok i shall rest early then wake up earlier ( i hope) to do some work.. ytd i took cab home from ikea with aloy then i dropped him off at his place and after that guess what did the taxi driver ask me after that.. " that guy your brother ar??" OMG i wanted to die.. that's not the first time someone said that to me la.. woa lao ey do i really look that old coz i'm fat or does that R.A.T really look that young? i must admit that he doesnt look his age but not to the point that i look older than him ba.. sigh seriously arrgh and after telling mr R.A.T what the uncle said, think it made his day -_-'' seriously he is OLDER THAN ME!!!!!!!! he is s84*****D and i am s86*****F hor! ARRGHH :X oh yes one more thing for my birthday i was thinking if i should make a certificate of attendance for everybody.. haha told my NIE friends about it and they all say i siao.. lol but i think it'll be cool then i can have prize presentation also.. muha haha ciaoz outta here better sleep soon ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz

birthday wishlist..

2007-10-07T01:09:00.000+10:00

*drum rolls* muha finally going to post up my final wishlist!!!!(thanks piu piu for reminding.. lol ) haha :D pay close attention ppl.. lol i know it's only OCT but before you know it, it's NOVEMBER 3RD already.. lol so get ready for that really special day.. muha *shy* ok
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My wishlist....
1. i dont mind Prepaid mani and pedi sessions

2. i dont mind nicey shoulder bags ( not those cloth type)

3. i dont mind Oven/baking books/

4. i dont mind Diamond earrings

5. i dont mind Anna Sui perfume ( purple colour newest edition)

6.i dont mind Sports shoe (voucher)

7. i dont mind body shop exfoliating body products

8.i dont mind LULU bag(shoulder bag size)

9.i dont mind water bottle

10.i dont mind having a nice pouch to keep my bible in

11. i want a BIG fat surprise from aloysius...

12. i dont mind topshop/Dorothy perkins voucher

13. i dont mind nicey dangling earrings

14. i dont mind some spongebob merchandise that i still dont own! haha **high risk** coz i got a lot of spongebob stuff le i wont mind a patrick balloon haha

15. i wish i can be slimmer for my party.. haha

16. i dont mind watch (swatch/baby G/jogging watch*cheapo kind can liao)

17. i dont mind angbows with $$$$

yups.. more or less are all this le.. it's like the whole world of stuff :P heh if you guys get any headache from thinking of what to buy can always refer here okie.. muha.. so confirm liao i'll be personally calling up those i'm inviting to confirm their attendance in about 2 weeks time so i can book my buffet and cake.. the guest list is ready! lol rmb guys the theme is " Dress to Kill... " :D dress to be ready to kill.. lol there will be a lot goodies on that day.. lucky draw and goodie bags! :) muha so exciting right.. so get your presents ready and COME HERE TO PARTY!!!!!!!! i was thinking of implementing games too any comments? tag me and let me know okie ppl? WOO HOO i'm so excited :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

black pepper crabs

2007-10-01T16:26:00.001+10:00

it's been a while since i last blogged.. got some nice pictures to share.. heh i cooked this
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it's maggi mee.. but delicious okie.. got egg, veg and taiwan sausage.. SLURRP and check out the seaweed.. haha i like seaweed :D the brand is chu qian yi ding one.. not bad jap style..

last week, we cooked black pepper crab for lunch.. haha very fresh crabs but the sauce can be improved.. haha i couldnt find the pics of the chilli crab we cooked some time ago.. i prefer the chilli crab.. next time can try again.. so in the morning, we went to tiong bahru's NTUC to buy the crabs. initially we wanted to go fly kite at west coast but it was drizzling in the morning sooooooo sian so we only left with plan b to cook crab.. i had this craving leh.. still having it now.. haha black pepper.. slurrp the crabs were rather cheap.. $3/crab so we greedily bought 3 of them.. big ones with EGG somemore!! haha he did the washing and i did the separation of the body parts.. haha i forgot what's the term for that liao.. anyway think we spent about 45mins or so cleaning up the crabs.. here's the pics..

well cleansed and broken into smaller pieces.. lol

he did a good job cleaning the crabs.. haha

clean ba.. lol

SLURRP!!!!!!!!!!

*****TA DAH***** our black pepper crab. heh

so much for eating.. so fast and the recess week is over le.. yawn so sian and it's back to school now.. but at least some happy things to look forward to, simmay's birthday outing, reina's birthday surprise and my own birthday!!!!!!!!! haha so excited.. in one more month's time.. haha getting real excited about it le... will post up my wishlist over here soon okie.. once i consolidate everything.. lol *shy* yup that's about all.. arrgh feeling so sick now.., down with flu and my tonsils are swollen.. arrgh hope i can lose a bit of weight when i'm sick.. HAHAHAHAH :X you should know that it's not possible.. muha ciaoz ppl take care and GOD bless all :)

2 yrs together..

2007-09-15T01:35:00.001+10:00

This is dedicated to my sweetheart.. Happy 2 Yrs anniversary!! muack :*

Today 14-09-2007 is officially our 2nd year together and my dearest R.A.T planned a bbq for the two of us only.. haha btw R.A.T= remy aloysius tan.. haha born in the year of the rat..so compatible!! muha.. okie that's not the point anyways so we had our little couple couple bbq downstairs his place and yup, i enjoyed myself very much.. though the degree of charr-ness of the food is ha cmi but nvm la.. it's the thought that counts and i really appreciate the effort my sweetheart put in to make this bbq possible especially when i have classes today also.. i dint pay/prepare for the bbq, i dint even have to cook! haha just eat :) very heart warming, very touching.. another sweet thing that my sweetheart made was a short movie of the 2 of us.. very nice very sweet.. especially for someone who has to work everyday.. the effort is indeed commendable.. hah oOps i sound sooo teacher-fied.. anyways very nice anniversary, at the least we did something we've never done before.. yup :) following this, the pictures will do the talking.. heh enjoy ppl

the R.A.T

me and my anniversary flower.. a bit small or izit i'm big? muha

presents from my darling.. a squash racket and a rose and a MOVIE CLIP.. heh

the both of us before bbq-ing

here's the super-charred food.. haha

my scout preparing the fire and striking a pose.. haha :X

party goodies.. haha for the 2 of us only

illegal bbq-ing.. we had to book the pit to bbq but need $$ so in the end R.A.T bought a aluminium container and we did our bbq-ing on top of that.. and i must say coz of this, all our food are charred -_-''

chicken wings, hotdogs,crabmeat,sotong and mushroom kept us full and happy :)

the least charred of the rest :)

Happy 2 yrs anniversary han han :) the road ahead of us is gg to be even tougher, let's walk together hand in hand with the spirit of fruit in our minds.. love you sweetheart muack :*

kite flying

2007-09-08T21:41:00.001+10:00

We were supposed to go for the chek jawa trip that we signed up this sat morning but arnd 4am in the middle of the night i was awakened by the thunderstorm outside aloy's place and i was like super -_-'' sian diao coz no way we could get to the train without getting wet and after some considerations, we decided to go back and sleep and we slept all the way till 9+ and when i msged the person in charge, i was told that they have already started the walk.. sigh how disappointed can i be man especially when i wanted to go for the walk very much :( but anyways, i wasnt ready to waste my sat so i suggested to go kite-flying.. haha he dug out the $2.50 kite we bought donkey-years ago and went kite flying at west coast park! haha i think GOD really blessed us today coz the time we reached there, was arnd 12+ but there was not a single person on the field so in my mind i was thinking if there is a "no kite-flying" rule or something but we went ahead anyway... so we had the whole field to ourselves then after trying hard to tie the string to the kite and stuff, we managed to fly the kite.. it's really a wonderful feeling, seeing your kite fly high in the sky.. :) suddenly we realised that there were a lot of ppl arnd us already.. haha but THANK GOD, we still managed to fly our kite till 330pm then we left for tea at mac.. Again, i think GOD was gg to bless us again coz the time we reached mac, there were a lot of empty seats but the moment we chose a seat and sat down, the next moment, other ppl were looking for seats already coz the air-conditioned area is packed already.. how come so fast? heh but anyways, even though i dint get to go to chek jawa, i enjoyed myself tremendously at kite-flying today.. it's really a budget-less activity and a really peaceful sport if u call it.. heh a good time for couples to spend time together also to be just near to nature.. :) i'm looking forward to more of this special weekends where we can do something else besides watching movie.. haha :D some pics to show off.. haha think i resized the pics then in the end the words all become very small :( but nvm just see okie..

i wrote " kite-flyer of the year" :)

the both of us

look at the amount of kites around us! the size of the rest of the kites around us are like twice the size of ours but our budget $2.50 kite could fly real high.. higher if we had more string though -_-'''

there was this uncle flying a kite that looked like a teddy bear.. after a while he flew another one that looked like a pair of pants.. -_-'' weird but still cool haha

my darling holding onto our baby :X the sky was super dark with clouds but thank GOD, it didnt rain and the wind was good :)

first at hand to fly our kite!

posing with our $2.50 kite after fixing up the kite.. heh

wanna go kite-ing? call me along next time i'm good :) seriously.. haha

i've never been this happy for a long long time already..........

donuts

2007-09-06T23:25:00.001+10:00

it's so difficult to be this happy anymore.. i dont know what's in for us in the future and i'm feeling very tired holding onto our relationship though i still very much want to be in it.. sigh * ok i know it's very contradicting* whatever :(

presenting to you... DOnuts from donut factory.. i know it's like sooooo expired if i say i just ate it today.. muha but it's true okie.. and i queued 1.5 hrs for it hor.. heh with my NIE friends but the 1.5 hr passed quite quickly.. my fave one is the white one with black stripes.. inside got choco and will ooze out when you bite into it.. haha :P slurrp nice nice :) but the rest so so only maybe a bit overated and the queue for the donuts are really GET A LIFE. probably the last time i will eat them if i have to get them myself again.. haha :X

expired products

2007-09-06T01:34:00.000+10:00

ok.. some really expired pics to share.. muha :X me and sweetheart we went to waraku@ the central.. nice restaurant and good service :) you get free coke if you are waiting for your seat.. lol

some green drink i forgot what's the content le.. heh not bad :D

scallop and prawn pizza. very thin base very fresh seafood shiok ar :D

hokkiado crab pasta.. a bit too creamy for my liking.. heng i nv order.. lol

mine!!!!! scallop and asparagus pasta.. very nice cooked in some herb style.. i like it :D

oh my.. did i post this before? me and AT went prawning and this was our catch of the day..

monkey business on the MRT.. tsk tsk

durian puffs waiting in the line to be sent into the oven

getting themselves a good tan in the oven.. haha

the masterpieces!!!!!!!!!!! puffs filled with durian puree!!!!! fresh and SLURRP

the guy behind the "stuffings" haha

after a hectic day.. US

:(

2007-08-29T01:30:00.000+10:00

i dont want to be just the person who is free to accompany you on weekends to go out for movies. i want your time on weekdays too, but you dont seem to be able to do it.. i really dont know now how... sucks man am i really your girlfriend? but u really dont treat me like one

hurt and broken

2007-08-24T19:11:00.000+10:00

hurt and broken was how i had been feeling for the past one week. but ok..now we've made up. but is that the end of everything? i'm not sure if writing this entry is the right thing to do or not. but really though we have made up and both of us have tried to make things like how they were before i wont deny that things are different now. changed for the better or worst, maybe it's still too early to say. whatever it is, i'm still not ready to let go of things now. there are too many memories, good ones and bad ones and really i'm not mentally ready to miss them now, and of course you. i really hate myself, why i dont have the courage to just end things, choosing to hold on instead then i read in the bible, that if GOD brought these 2 people together, let man not separate them. think it's in the book of matthew and also mark but not sure the exact chapter. sigh maybe it's the stress coming from your work that's changing everything but i dont want that to be any excuse.. and no matter how tired you are, i think it's only right that you give me a little of your time everyday. if we cant meet everyday, then at least you could call me to talk to me for a while every night? maybe for some couples, there isn't a need to do that every night but we have been doing that for nearly 2 years already and if now suddenly we stop doing it, i'll have difficulties in adapting to it.. :( i cant say that i'm feeling very blissful now but i'm just glad that we are still together in this and also we have decided to work things out. it's inevitable that things will change and ppl will change too, but what i need now is time to adapt to everything, you cant possibly expect me to accept everything overnight? sigh.. dont know la think for that unfortunate event that happened to us has really tested my patience and i can tell you that if there's gg to be a repeat of it, really goodbye this time.. no matter how hurt i will be, i will let go. all the good memories that we have and we're gg to have will be destroyed.. :X dont really know what i'm typing now la.. maybe eat too full just now.. i had steamboat with my nie friends.. so full BURRP feel like puking :X but whatever, dont sidetrack, i want this to be the closure for us and not to mention it again in any of the quarrels. i know it's difficult for me to do it but i'll really try even if it's gg to hurt me like mad :( . i promise you

17-08-2007

2007-08-18T11:02:00.001+10:00

if it's so difficult to make a decision whether to hold on or to move on, i guess this time round it's really time to let go.. it's really eating into me and i cant afford that :( I really need to trust in GOD to guide me and to comfort me.

birthday wishlish

2007-08-12T00:14:00.000+10:00

Ok.. i've come up with a brief birthday wishlist.. haha

1. "i'm not a plastic bag" canvas tote bag dont need to buy the authentic one.. i saw one on yahoo auctions selling at $35.. either blue or brown will do :D i'm super tempted to buy one NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrgh

2. Oven (evofus?)

3. Diamond earrings( darling?)

4. ANNA SUI Dolly Girl Bonjour L'Amour ( the biggest bottle) - the new anna sui perfume.. purple colour de.. let me know if you're choosing to get this coz i've got a contact selling cheap. :D below $70

5. nice shoulder bags

6. accessories. *nice ones pls*

7. spongebob merchandise ( but no soft toy pls coz my bed no space le..)

8.nice earrings. dangling ones pls. i like bronze coloured ones. no silver pls.

-till then .. haha that's all. let me know which one you guys are interested in then i can chope it for you.. HAHA *shy* :X

after so loooooong

2007-07-25T11:26:00.000+10:00

heh.. it's been nearly a month since i updated my blog.. well coz i've been really busy in school and once i'm at home i dont even want to go near to the computer la.. so havent had time to blog.. hope my loyal readers hadnt abandoned your dear blog here.. haha i've been attached to West View Primary for nearly 5 weeks already and this is my last week here.. think i'm really gonna miss the kids here.. though they nearly drove me crazy, they are all cute in their own way.. :D shall post up some pics when i've taken pictures with them.. sigh cant believe i'm blogging here when i'm being buried in un-marked books.. lol.. so many things happened lately and i would wish i can update you guys here but seriously la.. there are too many and some maybe i cant even rmb le.. heh anyways major changes.. i bought a new phone :D samsung Z720 very nice slide phone.. shall take some nice pics and upload them here.. :) hmmm also i'll be taking my basic theory on the 8th of Aug.. PraY foR mE ppl!!!! i wanna drive :X muha.. yup.. that's about all everything is alright for now.. i just completed all my observations for this module and thanks GOD.. everything went somehow well. i managed to complete carrying out my lesson plans and the kids were very cooperative.. sigh a bit sian to go back NIE :( must wake up early to go school.. arrgh but i wake up earlier each day to come to school i wake up at 550 everyday lor.. yawn now gg back to nie i dont even get a room in hostel lor.. arrgh hope that my name is still on the waiting list if not i'm gg to squeeze in with LUA KA already.. lol that's about all.. needa go and mark my books already if not fri i cannot go home liao.. hahaha bye ppl shall update soon again.. GOD BLESS :D

check it

2007-06-24T00:46:00.000+10:00

Just wanted to go some quick uploading of pictures since the previous time i couldnt upload any when i was in the blogging mood.. muha :X anyways i just dl-ed mozilla firefox and it's supposed to prevent any forms of spyware and stuff la.. so for those ppl who love to dl stuff online maybe can try using it lor.. at least can prevent your com/lappy from crashing.. heh it's free de.. get it from www.downloads.com then click browser or something then have le :D ciaoAh ha.. peachy-longany tarts..

oreo cheesecake by me and dear.. :D

the super nice tarts that i was talking about in the previous post..

my cutesy nephew and me.. i kept squeezing his face. muha :X
P.S. pls excuse the weird looking brows. i'm waiting for them to get bushier then i go for shaping.. haha a bit out of shape already. arrgh

baker and baker-ress of the day.. :D